59 – One Step To Hell
I had a dream. If you ask me if it was a good dream, unfortunately the answer is no.
Nightmare. It is enough to say that there is nothing more terrible in the world than that.
“….”
Enlil lay blankly on the bed and stared at the ceiling.
I can feel his back wet and the thirst burning in his throat, such as how much he sweated.
Even after waking up, her hands were still shaking.
It seems that not having any strength in the body was not a normal nightmare.
‘Dream… Say.’
There, he was cutting and stabbing someone.
At first it was a demon. Next, he was the owner of the tower. But in the end he became Enion, and he was collapsing with red blood dripping from his chest.
When the surprised herself took his hand, in turn, his hand strangled me.
Rion’s figure disappeared in an instant, and the owner of the tower appeared in his place.
With an arrogant yet disgusting expression on his face, he spat out laughter as if he had enjoyed it.
The laughter seemed to tear her heart and burn her brain.
It seemed as if I was falling into an abyss with no end, even deeper than that.
“Are you awake?”
Just then, I heard a calm male voice next to me.
Turning her head hastily, Lyon was sitting there with her arms crossed.
“Lee, Leone.”
“He came right after hearing that he had returned from the tower, but he didn’t break into the room without permission. As soon as he sees it, he suddenly loosens his top and breaks it down. Then, until you pass out on your own.”
“….”
“What the hell is going on?”
He couldn’t bear to say ‘what is your identity’ in front of him.
Is this the fear of an idiot who doesn’t want to face the truth?
Or is it a disgust for himself that he is starting to doubt himself.
It was Enlil who was confused and unable to say anything.
“Seria said you seem a bit weird.”
“That….”
“Did something happen in the tower?”
Instead of answering her, Enlil stared into Leon’s eyes as he turned to him.
Looking here and there, no matter how much you look, there is no pretense.
The only thing over there is his concern for himself and his gentle affection.
Enlil She would have no idea what she was thinking.
“Are you okay?”
His hand caresses the cheek carefully, then backs away.
Enlil, who had been absent-mindedly feeling the warmth, had a sudden thought.
‘Perhaps.’
Isn’t this even what the owner of the tower wanted? After the physical ordeal, now a mental ordeal?
He knows in some way that he has been through.
All monsters start with a tower, and the owner of that tower must also be their parent.
You may have seen that scene through the eyes of the monsters in the fight that took place a while ago.
And there is a possibility that they will try to use it. It will remain.
If you intentionally cut his chest and tried to shake yourself, wouldn’t it have succeeded?
“Rion.”
I grab hold of his hand that was going away. And bring it to me
“You… Are you by my side forever?”
Answer me. Please answer me. Don’t hesitate, do it.
Erase this foolish heart, this cursed doubt. Please.
“Will you always look at my side and behind me, just like you always did?”
“….”
Rion did not answer right away. She was only silent, looking at Enlil.
1 Sec, 2 sec, 3 sec… As time passed, Enlil seemed to burn her inside.
The barely aroused doubt raises her head again. I can’t stand it if I keep doing this….
“Yes. I will.”
A little late reply, a silence that inevitably made the opponent uneasy.
It was good nonetheless. It didn’t matter anyway. I got the answer I was looking for.
“Yes. Is it so. Then it worked. Then… That’s Okay….”
Are you sure, or are you praying and praying that it isn’t?
Enlil’s self-talk mixed with crying continued for several minutes after that.
Everyday life continues to revolve, not much different from before.
But one thing has definitely changed in the meantime.
“I also want to pray for the rest of Lyon’s family. Is that okay?”
“Did you just do that during your vacation? Haven’t you met anyone else?”
“It’s meal time. Don’t skip it, let’s eat together.”
Enlil has changed.
She wants to know everything about Leone herself.
Wherever he is and whatever he does, he wants to share himself too.
Because it was simply suspicious. Is that why you’re trying to catch the pod?
Or, conversely, to avoid suspicion. Are you trying to find out why?
Whatever it was, it was a very pitiful gesture from Leon’s point of view.
“If you pray with me, I will be grateful. But will you be okay? You also….”
“It’s okay. I have no memory of my family anyway.”
No matter what you say, you won’t back down. It is clearly felt.
Rion, who knew that, didn’t say anything more and led me to the place I had prepared in advance.
I thought that a day like this would come someday, so I prepared thoroughly.
It may be a little different from this way, but didn’t you think about that and even make a lie that you came from across the sea?
“….”
Enlil standing by, lighting incense and offering a silent prayer.
Her Leone, who had been quietly examining her, looked over and over again to see if there were any cracks in her.
I won’t confess the truth. Will be hidden until the end.
Until the woman in front of me accepts it herself. Until she accepts the truth.
If I tell the truth with my own mouth, I will only get sympathy and nothing more.
She herself will eventually find out the truth and cause a fury.
So that even a little thicker hatred permeates it, so that it can never be left unattended.
In order to erase all your memories, erase even a single fragment.
So that when we finally return to our places, we won’t even regret each other.
However, contrary to Leon’s thoughts, Enlil showed the opposite.
Now Enlil is not trying to find anything suspicious here.
Isn’t that the look of someone who doesn’t want anything suspicious?
It was as if a child was desperately clinging to it.
“Rion’s family must have been good people, right?”
“… Yes.”
“I really want you to be happy, right?”
Rion put an incense in silence instead of answering that question.
Too much time has passed. 100 Years. Even if the strong acid changes, it is time to change ten times.
If the time here and the original world passed the same way, there would be no one left.
It’s a problem even if a miracle really happens and the flow of time is different.
In the same way, if not 100 years, how many years might have passed?
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Whether it’s 100 years or 90 years, it’ll be no different, damn time.
‘Shall I quit?’
I thought about that because I didn’t know what scene I was going to see when I went back.
But he didn’t have any options.
What if he gives up? Will this world sooner or later be erased without a trace?
No matter what happens, there is only one road. No other way existed.
*
It was necessary. He had to be The reason why I shouldn’t doubt him.
The one he never had. It was a feeling he had never felt before.
I wish it was forever. No, even if it’s not that, I want to be together for a long time.
In order to do that, I had to erase this damn doubt that kept raising my head.
“Look at the scars. I’ll check how much it heals.”
“Enlil. Time to go watch your Seria training….”
“Later. Later. I need to start looking at the wounds now.”
Is it because you keep being stubborn? Leone frowns at her.
I’ll get over it once or twice, but it’s a bit frustrating to keep doing this.
But I can’t help it. You must not back down.
I want to be next to this person. He doesn’t want to let go of that hand.
I want to receive that warmth that I felt for the first time again.
“Quickly. Hurry.”
Still, when Leon hesitated, his eyes widened and he grabbed his top.
A person who eventually took a step back when he showed the momentum to rip off all the buttons right away.
“Come on. Are you okay?”
The wound on my chest is slowly healing. It is different from that of the owner of the tower.
Okay, that’s it. You checked something else. Do not doubt any more. So-
No. You idiot. What if that’s cheating? What are you going to do then?
Everything put in front of you fits right in. It’s strange to say no.
Think calmly. Don’t be fooled like an idiot Since when have you been so sentimental?
Have you forgotten who you are? Hero Eleanor Celestine. If it’s not you, the world will burn and everyone will die. You’ve been doing well so far, but now you’re here, what the hell is going on?
“… Yes. It worked.”
I tried my best to avoid answering the question that came back to me that day.
I didn’t want to answer. I didn’t even want to know. I just wanted to forget.
After breaking up with Leon, I returned to my room.
I stood there blankly and threw myself on the bed.
I wish I could fall asleep like this. I want to forget everything. Want to avoid
But if you fall asleep like this, you will fall into that nightmare again.
The most terrible dream, in which the most precious becomes the most hated.
Shouldn’t be. Yes, it shouldn’t be
Let’s get closer from now on. Let’s love more passionately.
To get you out of this ridiculous doubt.
Because he values me just as he values me.
Please scold that person for imagining nonsense.
I hope you will smile mischievously at me for disappointing my petty imagination.
That way, I hope you get out of this hell forever.