321. Isabelle’s disappointment and…
***
“Then you worked hard today too.”
“No. Instructor Carly suffered more.”
“No. I did what I had to do as an instructor.”
When I saw him waving at me with a small smile, I also waved.
The time has come for us to leave the training ground and part ways. Carly walked away from me like that.
“…”
Under the dark night sky.
I stared at the back of her as she walked away, then I slowly turned around as well.
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Jerbug.
As I headed back to the dormitory, my eyes caught on the dark night sky.
“……”
As I walked, my heart seemed to be stained with warmth.
Even just a little while ago, the affection she received from her at her training ground was so great that it seldom faded.
Her enormous affection made me feel again, to the point where I wondered if I could accept it like this.
In times like this, I have to do better.
‘Yes, I am more….’
It was as if her affection she reflected on my back pushed me forward so that I could climb to her heights and move forward.
I shouldn’t be this relieved or satisfied right now. And the affection and favors I receive are not something to be taken for granted….
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Jerbuck….
At that time when I made up my mind thinking about that.
Took.
I suddenly stopped walking.
Slowly. Unbeknownst to me, my head turned.
That was definitely not my intention or conscious.
“…”
I felt a sense of intimacy while staring at one side of the dark night sky and the other side of the northern sky.
It felt like I was so far away from the academy right away… But it seemed to stimulate one side of my heart intensely.
No words escaped even as he opened his lips in a daze.
-What was it?
-No….
-Why me.
-This sense….
Several words that should have leaked out echoed in my heart.
And after a few seconds passed, I was able to let out a heavy breath.
“Haa…Haa…”
I felt like my heart was going to burst even as I gently put my hand on my chest.
My body was tense enough to feel the sound of breathing leaking out of my mouth for the first time.
—-There is something.
Even though it was such a long distance, the unique sense of heterogeneity seemed to put pressure on me.
My body was conscious as if my instincts felt it, and my instincts were constantly stimulating as if they were weighing me down.
I could even feel the distant energy ‘reacting’.
As if I was feeling this strange sensation and was nervous, something on the other side also shook and changed its energy as if it had recognized me.
And even though it couldn’t be the case at all, the feeling of intimacy felt very familiar and seemed to be squeezing me.
Should be avoided.
No….
‘I have to… Stand up.’
Even the thoughts that came to my mind changed from time to time, shaking my emotions.
The car reacted as if it wasn’t my body, and even the emotions continued to change.
Sureuk.
I blurted out the corners of my eyes while dazedly holding my face.
I couldn’t understand it at all.
Why do I think this way, and why I can feel that intimacy from so far away?
“Is something wrong?”
Then, when I heard a calm voice beside me, I blinked blankly.
At some point, she was sitting in front of me. A female knight with sophisticated golden armor and blonde hair that shines even in the dark….
“Sir Isabelle….”
“Yes.”
As she approached me after answering calmly, she felt my heart immediately be relieved.
“No, nothing.”
“Your expression looked quite serious. Are you really nothing?”
She asked again. Facing her, I smiled awkwardly.
“It’s because my thoughts got tangled for a while. It’s not something Sir Isabelle should worry too much about.”
Even though he was halfway talking about it, his mind was strangely relieved.
…I felt like I was going to be weighed down by the pressure I felt, but it seemed that she had enlightened me to reality.
‘Yes, because I am not alone.’
Like this, there is a woman who has great power to protect me, and if she feels that she is really in danger, she can ask Carly for help.
So, I’m fine.
I thought about it and moved on again.
Chucky….
I felt grateful for Sir Isabelle’s presence by my side, keeping pace with me, and soon started a small conversation.
It was mostly about training, enlightenment, and knowledge. Through such conversations, my mind was cleared.
‘The feeling of intimacy I felt a moment ago….’
Be alert, but because you are so conscious, you don’t even know what the danger is.
***
“Thank you again today.”
Isabelle lightly bowed her head at the natural look of bowing down and expressing courtesy.
“No. Let’s take a break now. You look very tired to me.”
“I will. Sir Isabelle, I hope you rest in peace.”
After exchanging brief greetings, Cheonseong entered the dormitory, and Isabelle, who was watching her intently, slowly turned her body around.
Chucky….
This is the end of the day, and now the escort mission has come to an end.
Her eyes were still full of questions.
“…”
I felt like I missed the timing to speak even though I hesitated once.
There are so many things I want to ask a man named Han Chun-seong, but they haven’t come out of my mouth.
The atmosphere was too strange for that.
After parting with Instructor Carly, I could see her body suddenly tense.
Even the man uttering strange words while staring into the distant sky.
I deliberately appeared and approached in case there was any danger, but I could see that he was trying to change his mind with an awkward smile.
Either he can’t speak, or he doesn’t know what he knows….
‘I need to be careful for a few more days.’
As I thought that I should raise my alertness a little more, the thoughts that had been lingering in my mind began to disturb my head one by one.
It was about the relationship the man had with the woman.
Since he was always by my side, I had no choice but to know.
How he behaves and who he hangs out with.
“Did I look at the wrong person?”
Muttering inadvertently, I felt confused.
As an escort knight, it was only natural to be interested in the escort target.
Because you need to know the escort target well so that you can deal with unexpected situations and carry out escort missions without friction.
So, of course, it was like a kind of basic knowledge, so I looked at him carefully.
And a man named Han Chun-seong continued to confuse me.
ㅡI have a lover.
A lover named Karite.
I had a genuinely good impression of her and her showing her various attitudes for her.
It’s pretty good that she wants to train herself for her lover and move on.
But today.
I ended up seeing a different side of him.
“Haa….”
As I exhaled lightly, I brushed my hair once.
His chest was tight as his disheveled blonde hair disturbed his vision.
‘I didn’t expect him to be that kind of guy.’
To be honest, I was very disappointed.
It was so different from the good impression I had of him that he tried to have a relationship with another woman even though he had a lover.
“If you think….”
I didn’t have any hints of that at all.
‘Because I felt it too.’
There were times when he gave me a strange feeling, especially when we were alone.
To compare, it was like wagging my tail.
It’s a bit strange to describe a man that way, but sometimes I get the feeling that he’s flirting with me quite loudly.
But he didn’t realize that it was acting that way on purpose, so he let it go.
I thought that would be the end, but….
“I even kissed a cadet named Milia first.”
That was a very intentional act, expressing affection for another woman even though he had a lover.
I couldn’t quite understand it.
‘What were you thinking….’
Are you trying to touch a lot of aristocratic women?
Apart from my impression of the man, it was something I shouldn’t have done in terms of my objective status. It is generally an unacceptable conflict of interest, and the family to which the woman belongs will not be willing to accept it.
If you make it a problem, it will become a big problem.
The harem system officially recognized by the current empire was only allowed to high-ranking nobles and beings capable of responsibility.
Clap.
…As soon as I entered my private space, I let out a sigh again while putting my mind down.
“Really….”
The feeling of disappointment never went away.
We will continue to carry out our escort missions in an unchanging and thorough manner.
That doesn’t change, but I felt that I met a good person when I saw him after a long time.
Departing from each other’s status, he’s a decent man as a person to person.
That’s why a man worth protecting is now… Trying to have such a complicated relationship with a woman.
Honestly, I wanted to dry it.
He wished he hadn’t acted like that….
Click.
I shook my head as I loosened the seams of the armor and took it off.
“Because that is… presumptuous.”
I corrected my disordered mind and erased vain thoughts.
I had no right to tell him what to do with his life.
The essence of the escort mission was to focus on the target to be escorted and to ensure that there was no risk to one’s own safety.
I wasn’t escorting him to intervene in other private feelings and act presumptuously.
Puffed up.
After taking off all the armor, I sat down on the bed.
“But… ….”
Then, all of a sudden, I changed my mind.
Among the incomprehensible relationships, it’s the one that makes sense.
“Still, it’s fortunate that I’m not secretly adding more lovers….”
Didn’t that man also say with his own mouth that he had another woman?
It wasn’t that I couldn’t understand it if I wanted to understand it.
Because he asked the other person’s intention if he would accept himself like that. He wasn’t even asking for a relationship coercively.
…That was even weirder.
The attitude of the woman who accepted it was also noticeable.
A cadet named Milia.
She seemed unconcerned after hearing that.
That’s because even in the arms of Han Chun-seong’s man, she didn’t make any gestures to reject or act to escape.
As if it’s okay….
As I was thinking about it, my heart pounded suddenly.
‘This is perfect… ….’
I wonder if he used something like a forbidden relationship or a strange attraction.
Even among female knights like in the past, sometimes there were many things to talk about.
This is the content that I spilled, but the content of that conversation remained in my memory strangely.
…Mostly about the opposite s*x.
And it was also a topic that talked about attractive men.
A man who knows women is much more attractive than a man who does not know women at all.
That’s why there are times when you are attracted to a man who has a lover much more. Strange words.
I dismissed it as nonsense, but….
Gulp.
“……”
I swallowed, and in an instant, I roughly tousled my hair.
Slap!
Then he slapped me on the cheek.
“Stop… Stop thinking about it.”
I didn’t know why my thoughts kept flowing in strange directions.
In the end, it was a personal matter, not something I needed to be so concerned about.
Took.
I picked up the towel and underwear, but immediately stood up.
I tried to clear my mind as I went into the shower and left my body in the pouring water.
But I kept thinking… I kept thinking.
I feel compelled to stop thinking about it, but the odd relationship with the opposite s*x intrigued me.
“…”
Looking at it objectively, there were parts of him that could be said to be attractive.
Compared to many people, he has a distinctive side, but nevertheless, his good-looking appearance and friendly and gentle personality made him look good to most women.
…There’s also a side that’s strange and straightforward.
“Let’s watch first.”
Because I’m watching to protect you….
Yes, watching itself would be fine for now.
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