Civil Servant in a Romance Fantasy chapter 122

Even if it's long, it's over - 3

Even if it’s long, it’s over – 3

As soon as my older brother returned to the system, he left for work. Being a bureaucrat is a really tough job. I don’t think I’ve ever seen my brother at ease.

‘You shouldn’t be a bureaucrat.’

I haven’t decided on my career after graduation yet, but let’s avoid bureaucrats for now. I’m not as great a person as my older brother, so I won’t be able to endure it.

That’s why I worry every time I see it. It looks difficult, but what about in real life? The students have a vacation, but my brother has nothing.

‘Can I make something for you?’

Seriously, I even thought about that. At the academy, I made cookies with various herbs that were said to be good for fatigue, but I haven’t done that since vacation. Is it rude for a customer to mess around in the kitchen?

Actually, the butler heard that we were a confectionery club and said you could use the kitchen to your heart’s content, but he hadn’t even gone near it yet. The food made by the servants of the mansion is better for my brother than the cookies I made. Don’t bother with the experts.

But seeing my older brother who is getting hit by work, I want to be of any help. Wait, wouldn’t it be okay to be in the kitchen for a little while?

“No one’s going to say it’s your fault.”

I shook my head hurriedly when I suddenly remembered a voice that seemed to be ringing in my ears. The older brother who accepted my complaint that day, the older brother who told me what I wanted to hear.

Yeah, come to think of it, I still haven’t been able to repay you properly. It’s right to make a small reciprocation before it’s too late.

Yeah, that’s why I came up with it. It reminded me of something I hadn’t been able to repay yet.

‘That’s right. It has no other meaning.’

I made my own excuses even though no one was listening. No, it’s not an excuse.

I tried to calm down my face, which was getting hotter, and headed towards the commercial district. There would be no medicines in the kitchen.

Like that, I quietly left the mansion and bought a bunch of ingredients. Because it seems like a lot of people are going to do things that would be enough to go alone after being caught.

“Brother?”

“Huh?”

And on the way back, I met my older brother. It’s in front of the main gate of the mansion, so it’s hard to even say it’s the road.

Anyway, I didn’t expect to see my brother at this time. He usually returned after the sun had almost set.

‘I was going to keep it a secret.’

I got caught before even making a surprise gift. I was deliberately aiming for a time zone without my brother, but this is how it turned out.

It seems that Enen is scolding his brother for not hiding something. It’s like I’ve already turned all my secrets—

‘No.’

My thoughts keep falling into strange directions. It shouldn’t be like this.

His head is not working properly because his older brother is staring at him. What? Why are you looking at it? Have you ever put anything strange on your face?

Or do you have something to say? We met here by chance, just the two of us…

“Louise, do you have time?”

“Four?”

His hands trembled.

I almost lost all the ingredients at my brother’s words, but I finally calmed down. Why are you doing this, even though it’s not the first time you and your brother have been together.

I glanced sideways at my brother several times before our eyes met. I almost averted my gaze for a moment, but that would have made it even more awkward.

“Suddenly sorry.”

“It’s okay. I have plenty of time.”

I hurriedly shook my head when I said I was sorry. I am resting comfortably in the system thanks to my brother, but when my brother finds me, I have to make time for my absence. That’s the way

Seeing my appearance like that, my older brother burst into a small laugh. Did you stir too hard?

“There is something I want to discuss.”

“Ah, yes! As much as you like!”

At the word counseling, my shyness disappeared in an instant, and my heart pounded.

She constantly talked to her brother at the academy. If you have any concerns, please tell me anytime, and since I owe you my brother, I want to pay you back even a little bit.

But instead of my brother opening his mouth, I complained to him. Apart from being grateful, how embarrassing it was.

‘Finally.’

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Now my older brother brings out the worries that I have been hiding from me. I can finally give back a little of what I received from my older brother.

And now, you mean my brother trusts me too…?

She waited for her brother’s words, feeling a fluttering feeling spread throughout her heart.

“It’s about someone I know—”

I almost laughed at the obvious but unexpected rush.

Brother, if you say someone you know in this situation, of course it’s an excuse.

My brother seemed to think so too, but he shut his mouth again and awkwardly looked down at the ground.

***

The indecisiveness that had tainted my heart finally flared up.

“It’s about someone I know—”

What the f*ck are you talking about?

I felt weird. In this atmosphere, talking about someone you know is an excuse for anyone to see. ‘I’m going to say a lot of embarrassing things, but that’s not me.’ That’s an excuse.

During the consultation to gain courage, courage showed itself crawling on the floor. If there was a shelter for super cowards, I would be the VVIP.

“…That’s my story.”

“Yes, it’s about a brother you know.”

I felt even more miserable at Louise’s slightly smiling answer, but thanks to just bursting out with a sense of shame, my mind was put in order.

“Actually, something bad happened a few years ago.”

I carefully opened my mouth not to mention the incident directly.

I’m consulting with Louise to get the courage to tell Marghetta, not to tell Louise. It is too much to put my wounds on a child who has not yet recovered from his own wounds.

“I was a bit intimidated by that. I think others pushed me away a few times as well.”

From Marghetta’s point of view, not even a little bit, not even a few times. I’m really sorry.

“I didn’t even explain the circumstances to the person who pushed me away. I didn’t say anything.”

I really didn’t say anything. An explanation of the situation I am in, a request that I would like you to wait because I am in such and such a position. Didn’t do anything

“It’s too much. If I pushed you away because of my circumstances, I should have told you what the circumstances were.”

I was entirely my own choice. I couldn’t accept Marghetta because I still couldn’t forget Hecate. It is my choice that cannot be denied.

Then what about marguetta? Is Marghetta also a perfect choice for herself? No, it can’t be. A sound choice can only be made when all information is available. How do I make sound choices when I deliberately do not send information.

I stifled the marghetta for me. No matter how you wrap it up, that fact doesn’t change.

“I was scared to say it. If I say it for nothing, I wonder if the relationship will collapse or I’m just putting a burden on that person.”

And after a moment of silence, I looked at Louise’s expression.

Louisé was quietly listening to me with her blue eyes shining. He showed no signs of embarrassment or reluctance at the sudden lamentation. He didn’t show any sign of pity, he just listened quietly.

On the contrary, it makes me feel at ease. Thank you.

“To be honest, I was terrified. There’s no other way to describe it.”

Suddenly, he reached out to Louise’s shoulder and patted him a few times.

Until now, whenever I was worried about Louise, who was younger than me, I was embarrassed, but thinking about it now, I wonder what was better than Louise other than my age. At least Louise mustered up the courage herself.

“That’s why I wanted to ask a courageous person for advice.”

“I think you got the wrong person.”

“Well, I think I got it right.”

At that, they both smiled. It’s not particularly funny, but I laughed involuntarily.

Louisé, who continued to smile, stared into my eyes. And a word spoken softly.

“If you’re a coward, wouldn’t you rather lean on someone else?”

An unexpected answer came.

“Actually, I didn’t say it out of courage either. I just wanted to say it, and I was fooling around because I thought my older brother would listen.”

Louise smiled shyly, but his words did not stop.

“It’s scary to hold on to yourself, and it’s scary to tell others, but I still want to confide in someone, and I want to be comforted. Are there any other cowards like this in the world?”

With that, Louise put her hand on top of mine on his shoulder. He inadvertently tried to remove his hand, but Louise grabbed my hand and wouldn’t let go.

“It was just something a coward said while struggling. But my brother listened to such a coward.”

Is the person you want to confide in who will turn away from the cries of a coward? I was at a loss for words at Louise’s words.

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No. At least the Marghetta I know is not like that. Even if I hear someone else’s trauma, I’m not one to take it lightly.

“Or is it your brother’s fault that what happened to you? Is that why you’re afraid to tell someone?”

Unfortunately, I couldn’t confidently say no. If I had been a stronger supporter to Hecate, none of that would have happened.

I couldn’t bear to open my mouth and stayed still, so Louise smiled.

“I bet you didn’t want that to happen.”

Familiar words came out.

“Until now, I didn’t even look away.”

Familiar words are being repeated again with a different position.

“I didn’t forget.”

My face became hot in many ways. What were you thinking when you said that? You were so confident in a situation where you couldn’t even look after yourself.

“Then no one can say it’s your fault.”

“…That’s what I wanted to hear.”

“That’s what I wanted to hear too.”

I laughed out loud. Now you’re being pushed back even by words by Louise.

“Yeah, I wanted to hear that.”

I’m glad though. Being pushed aside

If I had been unnecessarily good at speaking, I wouldn’t have been able to convince you. Then I would have been still hesitating.

“Thank you.”

You’re not the original protagonist for nothing.

“Not much to say.”

Thanks to Louise’s bright smile, she had the courage to properly look at Marghetta.

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No, it’s not courage, is it the fear of wanting to rely on someone?

It doesn’t matter if you have courage or fear. The result will be the same anyway.

‘It took me a year.’

It’s been a year since I met Marghetta. Only now can he show his sincerity to Marghetta.

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  1. Buckget22 says:

    Brooooooooo……. Heck, this freaking chapter almost got me there; I was about to rage just now and to me it shows how much interesting this novel is… I take back what I said on the previous chapter if I can and also MAR IS BEST GIRL!!!!!!

  2. Fito says:

    I almost drop reading novel cause last chapter.
    The author seriously know how to play with reader heart.

  3. MrPojsomnoj says:

    They had us in the first half, not gonna lie.

  4. Jsan says:

    finally, you will be pass through , even though it is ironic that mc look like he can handle this wound.

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