Civil Servant in a Romance Fantasy chapter 125

Restart – 2

The title the princess calls her brother has changed. Even though she was simply called by her first name, the change was all the more noticeable because she was a princess who gave everyone the titles Yeongsik and Youngae.

In the first place, no one called my brother by his first name. At most, only the countess in her brother’s estate called her by her first name.

Anyway, it seems that the princess’s gaze toward her older brother has become warmer, probably because they agreed to names.

‘Ah, that’s how it used to be.’

Coming to think of it, your eyes were full of warmth from before. I was just confused

I’m glad though. It seems that my older brother did a good job.

‘You must have been a princess.’

The person you pushed away, the person you want to confide in. She was also a princess. If it wasn’t for that, the current change would be impossible.

Yes, it goes without saying that she is a princess. Princess Gongnyeo always watched over her brother and expressed her affection. My older brother must have thought of such a princess especially.

Of course. Yeah, that’s normal

‘Of course…’

Unlike me, who first met my brother at the academy, the princess knew her brother before then.

Unlike me, who only took care of her brother, Princess Princess actively showed goodwill to her brother.

And unlike me, who is the daughter of a baron, the princess is a duke. Even my older brother would trust the princess more than me.

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No matter how I think about it, my brother has more reasons to confide in her to her princess than to me. I’m not an idiot who doesn’t know that much.

‘But why?’

Why does my heart throb so much?

That’s a good thing. My brother solves her worries, and the princess gets closer to her brother. I, too, was able to repay my older brother in a small way for the debt I owed him.

I tried so hard to ignore the throbbing pain. Because it’s a good thing Because I have no reason to do this.

“Brother.”

But when I ran into my brother in the hallway, the throbbing intensified.

Why are you doing this?

“I’m glad things went well.”

I barely opened my mouth with a smile. I can’t make my older brother’s bright expression dyed with worry.

“Oh, that’s right.”

My older brother nodded lightly as if his smile was not awkward. It is fortunate that I did not give new worries to my older brother, who had finally solved his problems.

Looking at it again, the older brother’s expression was bright. He usually had a strange expression on his face, but now he seemed calm.

The dark circles were the same. That really happened because of overwork for no other reason. Regretful.

“Thanks to you. Thank you.”

While staring at my brother’s face, my brother opened his mouth. Thanks to me, thanks to me. I was helpful to my brother.

That one word made me laugh. Because I was very happy to be of help to my brother.

However, along with joy came sadness. If it helps my brother, he has the confidence to do even more. He wished he had told me, not the princess.

I only showed my heart to my older brother, but it was the only thing I showed.

‘I wasn’t the only one with my older brother.’

The throbbing intensified.

“In the end, that’s what my older brother did. You’re amazing.”

It is an ugly and embarrassing feeling. Confessing to my older brother was my one-sided foolishness. It’s such an immature idea that I do what I want and my brother should do the same.

So I didn’t express it. I just smiled and congratulated my brother.

“Thank you very much.”

I almost burst out crying when my brother patted him on the shoulder.

I am also very strange. Strange emotions keep mixing with things that can be genuinely happy.

“Mar would appreciate it if he knew. When he rejected the wedding, he didn’t explain the reason properly. I’m ashamed to say it now.”

I nodded my head at the look of my brother who spoke as if he was embarrassed.

I didn’t know that there was even a wedding talk between my brother and the princess, but I wasn’t particularly surprised. Looking at the affection the princess showed for her brother, it was of course expected.

She’s just amazing that the princess showed unwavering affection even after being rejected, and it’s just a pity that her older brother had circumstances to reject such a princess.

“Hey, brother.”

“Huh?”

Then I suddenly had this idea. If there was a reason why my brother refused to marry, and if he had confessed that reason to the princess.

And if there was a drastic change to the extent that the princess, upon hearing the reason, would call her brother by name.

“That’s a rude question, but… Then, with the senpai…”

“Ah.”

This is a very personal question. I know I’m not qualified to dare to ask such a question, but my mouth opened without my knowledge. As if instinct told me to find out right away.

The sentence was not completed because my reason still in operation restrained my instincts, but my brother sensed what I was about to ask and touched my chin.

“I don’t know when it will be, but maybe marriage talks will come and go again.”

“That’s right.”

He hurriedly nodded at his brother’s answer.

“Congratulations!”

“I don’t know when, but isn’t it too soon?”

Looking at my older brother with a peek laugh, I laughed hee hee. If I didn’t smile like this, it seemed that a different expression would come out.

And after exchanging a few more words, my older brother left. How many times have you said thank you in the meantime?

‘Hondam.’

I put my hand on my chest that had been throbbing for a while.

‘My brother and the princess are getting married.’

The throbbing intensified.

Ah, was that so? So it was.

‘It wasn’t just because I wanted to repay you.’

I noticed it only at the end. It wasn’t until the moment his brother was with someone else that he could understand his own heart.

I didn’t just want to repay my older brother. I want to look good to my brother, I want to get his attention.

‘I liked it.’

A dejected laugh came out. Why did I only find out about this now?

Blinding yourself while being chained to the past? Because you don’t listen to your own heart?

What does it matter? Either way the result is the same.

‘It’s stupid.’

You should have noticed from when I told my older brother about the past. He couldn’t have said that on a whim.

I want my brother to know what I’m doing, I can trust him, and I want him to embrace me, isn’t it?

Even if not the head, the heart already knew. That signal was your last chance.

‘He’s a fool, but he’s even cowardly.’

I thought of my older brother as a special person, so I confided in my past. That’s why my older brother also thought of me specially and wanted me to tell him about the past.

Yes, that must have been the case. Otherwise, there is no way I would feel sorry for or regretful for my older brother.

It’s embarrassing. I did something cowardly and embarrassing. I made a confession that I didn’t even recognize myself. He was depressed that he had kicked out a confession he didn’t even know about.

‘I was punished.’

But who to blame? It’s all my fault. I was the one who closed my eyes and covered my ears because I had a bad experience.

And I am the one who pushed others away with my personal past. Erich, Ainter, Lutis, Later, Tanian… You pushed them all away.

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Now that you have known and turned away from other people’s hearts, it’s time to push your own heart out as well. Yes, you are punished.

‘I’ll notice it a little sooner.’

If you’re going to know anyway, I wish I’d noticed that sooner. Then, before reaching a conclusion, you’re at least challenging yourself.

If that’s impossible, I wish I hadn’t known forever. Then I wouldn’t have had to throb so much.

‘If then…’

At the consultation with my older brother…

As soon as I came to a thought that I shouldn’t have, I slapped my cheek with both palms. Come to your senses, how far are you going to be cowardly?

The princess liked her brother for being brave and patient. Different from me It’s not something I dare to disturb.

Something trickled down her cheek. I must have hit the cheek too hard It hurts and even tears come out.

Yeah, it’s because it hurts.

As I walked without thinking, I ended up in a different place than I originally intended.

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No, where were you trying to go in the first place?

‘It doesn’t matter.’

What’s the point of going anywhere? Right now, I think I would be depressed even if I went to heaven.

Looking around, it was a familiar place. I looked at the door and it was Irina’s room. In the meantime, the place to come is Irina’s room.

Do you really want to be comforted? It happened because I was stupid and cowardly, did you come here because you wanted to be comforted?

I looked at the door blankly and then turned around. Let’s go back For the time being, just in my room-

“Huh, Louise?”

Along with the sound of the door opening, Irina’s voice was heard.

Is today the day I can’t do anything?

***

As soon as I went out to take a walk in the garden, I saw Louise. It just went well. I’m bored alone.

However, that idea was soon dismissed. Looking at Louise, who seems to have died somewhere, she is in no position to drag her around.

In the end, Louise, who had been refusing to extend, was forcibly pushed into the room.

“What happened?”

“Nothing happened.”

Hehe Seeing her smile, the words to stop talking nonsense rose to the top of her throat.

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Nothing is wrong, a bright kid always walks around with a gloomy expression, but who believes that?

After that, Louise tried to induce her to express her feelings with all sorts of words, but Louise refused to answer. This answer, why the hell are you doing this?

“Since the princess is feeling better, you’re getting weird this time.”

She said with a sigh, feeling frustrated. Since she returned from the county of Tyleglechen, the princess, who seemed to be in trouble, suddenly felt better recently. To the point where she calls her brother by name.

“Your brother’s expression brightened too.”

“Yes, that’s right. Something good will happen soon.”

She nodded her head at the helpless Louise’s answer. If you can’t predict the future by looking at her brother and her princess, you’re not a noble. If she didn’t notice that, how would she survive in the social world?

I’m glad though. As expected, her brother’s first wife was going to be Gongnyeo.

“Your brother must have no limits.”

Muttered nonchalantly to her relief. If her first wife is Princess Gong, she doesn’t have to care about her status when taking on other wives. Even I, a countess, had enough…

Oh no. What are you talking about. My brother and I just get to know each other casually. It’s not at the level of discussing the future like that.

…Not yet.

“No limits?”

As I kept my mouth shut, I heard a voice full of questions.

“Literally. If my brother marries the princess, there’s nothing to worry about.”

However, despite my answer, Louise tilted her head. Like I don’t know what the heck I’m talking about.

What, why don’t you know?

‘Ah.’

Louisé is a true baron. Having multiple wives is usually a high-ranking nobleman above a count, so you might not know.

“When you have another wife, you can’t have a wife with a higher status than the first wife.”

If you take a wife with a higher status than your first wife, there is a possibility that your first wife will become a scarecrow. So the tacit convention that arose. Of course, it doesn’t matter if the third wife is higher than the second wife. It is a custom for the authority of the first wife.

Even in a situation where there is no unmarried princess in the current imperial family, is the first wife a goongnyeo? Then, all the ladies of the empire are on the list of candidates.

“So what’s your brother worried about… Louise?”

Louise’s lethargic body began to live.