Idiot (2)
I opened my eyes with a hazy mind.
I remembered what I was doing in an accident that has not yet returned.
After eating breakfast on a day off without work… … I was enjoying a leisurely nap.
It wasn’t that I was trying to enjoy laziness, it was Rize’s request that gave me a warm weight on my chest.
It’s been a while since I tried to go outside together, but Rize chose to stay at home instead.
I was just happy that he seemed to value the time alone with me more than anything else.
“Sue… … . Suu… … .”
Rize was soundly asleep, breathing very evenly.
I couldn’t help but smile just looking at how pretty she was even when she was sleeping.
Worried that it might fall, I carefully moved my hand that was wrapped around my back and patted it, and Rize dug into my arms a little more as if in response.
How can even such a small action be lovable?
When I first met Rize, I couldn’t even imagine that I could have these feelings.
No, it was as if I had completely become a different person.
At that time, I was exhausted from the continuous return, so I was so focused that I couldn’t even pay attention to anything else, thinking only about quitting it.
“… … .”
I slowly patted Rize’s back.
At first, the goal was to defeat the ‘dark lord’ and raise me as a hero who would cut off my return, so I wanted to raise my child without any emotions.
As long as I could stop this regression, I didn’t care who the child was.
Yes, like a tool.
Now that I think about it, it could be said that I had no human feelings at that time.
but… … Rize changed everything about me.
Suddenly, I noticed half-open eyes staring at me.
“… … dad.”
“Are you awake?”
“… … Cut some more.”
Rize lifted her head for a moment and buried her head in my arms again.
I wondered if it was okay to be lazy like this, but I thought it would be okay for a day or so.
Usually, he was a good kid who listened better than any other kid.
Well, to be honest, I couldn’t say that raising Rize wasn’t difficult.
Raising a child was the first thing I did in my life. And I quickly realized that it was a lot more difficult than I thought.
Especially since it was a man raising a newborn baby alone.
I was accepting even such a process as if it were not a big deal, but at some point, an emotion I had never felt before settled in my heart.
It was just fatherhood.
Even if I started raising him with some intention, Rise sincerely called me daddy and followed me, and put me first above all other things.
Then, at some point, Rize was in the depths of my heart.
I wanted to be a real father to Rize.
A father who sincerely loves Rize as a daughter, wants to do anything as a father, protects her from any danger, and fights the world for her daughter.
Now, that heart was the driving force that moved me.
But that’s a very difficult thing… … I myself knew best.
rumble.
At that moment, I heard a loud sound that woke me from my thoughts.
Of course, it wasn’t me, it was the sound from Rize’s stomach.
Seeing him making such a loud noise while still sleeping convinced me that he was definitely heroic.
“Yes… … .”
“Rize, are you hungry?”
“hmm… … little… … ?”
Eventually, it seemed that he was awakened by the sound of his stomach.
With half-open eyes and a sullen expression, he seemed to be struggling between hunger and drowsiness.
When I lightly pinched the cheek with my finger, I felt the soft touch pleasantly.
I wanted to stay like this for a while longer, but I couldn’t leave Rize hungry, so I decided to use it as a good excuse to wake up.
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“It’s been a long time, but would you like to make lunch with your dad?”
“Hey, do you want something to eat, Dad?”
“Rize, let’s eat what we want to eat.”
“Then I am meat!”
Rize answered with her eyes sparkling.
I brought my face to that figure and rubbed our cheeks together, and Rize let out a cute scream.
As soon as I got up and got out of bed with Rize in my arms, Rize put her hands around my neck and clung tightly to me as if she had waited.
Since this was something she usually did, she arrived at the kitchen in a stable position and set Rize down on the floor.
“Dad will be preparing, so can Rize bring me some potatoes and carrots?”
“Yes, I will!”
Rize ran away and returned with arms full of potatoes and carrots.
Still, there are too many, so I’ll have to put a few aside.
As I was preparing the ingredients Rize brought, I could feel the eyes watching me from the side, standing on tiptoe.
Rize, who was so curious about it, kept her gaze fixed on my hand.
No, maybe it was simply because I was hungry.
It was dangerous when handling knives, so I was just grateful that he faithfully followed the words to stay away.
“Wow… … .”
At my movement as I started cooking, Rize mixed a small admiration.
There was a time when I was devoted to cooking as much as I had lived a lot of life. He also opened a fairly famous store in the capital, but it’s not a very interesting story.
But thanks to Rize, I heard that the food I cooked at home was better than eating out, so I thought I was good at learning to cook.
“Dad, I’ll lay the skins!”
“Okay, watch your hands.”
Rize helped me prepare lunch with her small hands.
“thank you for this food!”
“thank you for this food!”
Lunch started with Rize’s lively greetings.
The image of Rize eating with a full spoonful really suited the word “eating with happiness” so well.
Rize tends to eat very well, to the extent that she feels rewarded every time she prepares it. No, I didn’t even know it was simply good eating.
In addition, there was no special food to cover, so it couldn’t be more comfortable from the father’s point of view.
Even though I eat like that, I don’t gain weight.
So, Rize’s appearance while eating was just heartwarming in my eyes.
“Rize, would you like to try it?”
“Ahh.”
I wanted to take care of it for no reason, so I picked up a piece of meat and put it in my open mouth like a baby bird. Rize immediately opened her small mouth and put on a happy expression.
“delicious!”
“Eat a lot.”
“Dad too!”
Rize also held out the meat to me as if we were competing. Feeling a little moved, I opened my mouth to accept what Rize gave me.
It was a special taste because Rize gave it to me.
It wasn’t usually like this, so the meal time was inevitably longer, but neither I nor Rise cared much.
Because today we decided to really relax and have some alone time.
“I want to wash the dishes!”
“Dad will do it, so is Rize, who helped set it up, resting?”
“no! Today is Dad’s day off, so I’ll do it.”
“Then shall we do it together?”
It was a trivial quarrel, but it ended up like this.
It was so wonderful to see each and every one of them trying to help.
Then, after asking Rize to wait for a while in the living room, she brought the item she forgot to give yesterday and handed it to her.
“Now, a present for my daughter.”
“and! A new book!”
One of Rize’s favorite things was reading.
He was smart enough to know who he looked like, so he learned the letters quickly and quickly started reading books.
Since she didn’t teach her this kind of study, she could say that Rize was literally a genius.
… … I’m not saying this because it’s my daughter.
I am speaking from experience that has taught quite a few children.
The book she was reading now had quite a few difficult words mixed in, but Rize could read it without any problems.
Seriously, if you brag about your daughter once, there will be no end to it, but since it was a long-awaited holiday, Rize decided to mend her work tools while reading a book.
At that time, Rize put the book down without opening it and turned her head to me.
“I want to read this later.”
“why? Is it bad?”
Rize tried hard to find a book she would like, but had it failed?
Or maybe my tastes have changed in the two days I haven’t seen Rize.
After quickly admitting it was my mistake, I was about to go buy another book right away, but Rize lightly shook her head.
“Today I am with my father. Just hang out with Daddy.”
Today, Lize deeply impressed her father.
“Then what shall we play? card? board? ball? Just say anything.”
Of course, there were various things prepared to play with Rize.
However, as it has been throughout the day, Rize’s answer was beyond my expectations.
“I want to learn the sword from my father.”
“no.”
In response to my firm answer, Rize puffed out her cheeks with a rather ferocious expression.
Even so, it just seemed cute to me.
“Dad says it doesn’t work every day. Ooh.”
Actually, this wasn’t the first time Rize said that.
Since it was a job that made a living with the sword, I couldn’t neglect training from day to day, and that’s how Rize naturally came into contact with me wielding the sword.
Besides, I’ve seen him fight monsters… … I didn’t even know if I came to admire myself like that.
As a father, he was happy, but he had a stronger desire not to do dangerous things.
I just wanted it to remain as a childhood admiration, as usual.
“As I said before, the sword is still dangerous for Rize to handle. Didn’t Daddy say you’ll teach me when you’re a little older?”
“still… … want to learn quickly Both Peter and Ban just boasted that they were learning swords. Then I can learn the sword too. huh?”
I never thought I would bring up the story of a local friend here.
The expression he had been keeping for a long time was about to be slightly disturbed.
To be honest, the sooner you learn, the better.
Since it is about moving the body, it was advantageous to train from an early age and hold the foundation firmly.
However, I didn’t intend to reveal this fact to Rize.
I’m sorry to say, but I will never… … I decided not to hand the sword to Rize.
At first, I brought Rize to make her a hero, but now I just wanted to protect her as a precious daughter.
I can’t wait to see my daughter walk around with blood on her hands.
“Rize, why do you want to learn the sword so much?”
“… … .”
Despite my firm words, Rize, unlike usual, was stubborn and did not show signs of backing down easily.
Maybe the day has finally come when we have to talk seriously.
After thinking about it for a bit, I finally put the question I hadn’t wanted to ask Rize.
“By any chance, Rize wants to be a hero? A hero from fairy tales and legends.”
The reason why I originally thought Rize was the key to ending my return.
Rize was born with the destiny of a hero who would surely save the world. I didn’t just say it, but I knew it because I had learned everything about heroes in my previous lives.
However, the road was very rough and painful, and there was even a possibility of severe wounds to the body and mind.
I didn’t want my beloved daughter to have such an experience.
But is it fate after all?
Rize was far superior to her peers in everything, and since she would grow even more, the world would not leave her alone, and Rize could also be led to the path of a hero.
That’s why I tried to avoid it all the more, but if Rize really wanted to become a hero.
“no.”
Rize lightly shook her head as if to dispel those concerns.
I let out a short sigh of relief without realizing how relieved he was.
Risemann will make people enjoy ordinary happiness more than anyone else.
I thought that was the least I could do for Rize as an immature father.
Making friends normally, going to school normally, meeting nice guys normally… … No, I’ll have to think about this some more.
Even if Rize was precious to a normally nice man, it was too precious.
While Rize was continuing to plan a happy future, putting aside her worries, Rize’s words continued a bit longer.
“I want to become a mercenary like my father!”
“That will never happen.”