I Am Raising a Daughter in This Life chapter 61

I Am Raising a Daughter in This Life 61

Confession (1)

she said.

“Senior, do you know that?”

It was such a sudden statement, but I, who was training, replied while taking a horseback posture.

“what?”

“I thought I was the most unlucky person in the world. I thought I was the only one feeling this loneliness.”

“Do I really have to tell you now? Am I doing this right now?”

“It’s a sword that speaks just because it wants to talk. It’s okay, so just let it go.”

winning wildly.

I could not help it, and even though I had a bad expression on my face, I calmly maintained my horseback posture.

It was because I was more afraid of being scolded by Master than anything else.

She also continued talking quietly as if what I was listening to was enough.

“Actually, people like me aren’t common. It is even harder to find in the mercenary industry. So, at one point, I wondered why my life was like this.”

Her father, the most famous mercenary king in the mercenary world, and her talent coveted by all prosecutors, as well as her outstanding appearance, made me feel very full when she said that.

Still, I can’t arbitrarily judge other people’s lives, so I decided to listen to what she said.

“I was a bit resentful. Well, rather than who… … the world? Uh, it’s a bit cheesy when you say it, but it was a bit like that.”

Although she wasn’t looking, she must be waving her hands with her ears dyed red.

I focused on my riding posture, desperately blocking the laughter that was about to leak out. If you show even a little bit, something will surely come flying.

Fortunately, she continued talking without noticing my laughter.

“Actually, this thought was soon dismissed. It shouldn’t have taken that long… … maybe. Anyway, in the middle of that, I met the senior.”

It’s my first meeting with her.

If it was intense, it was intense. He said let’s do sparring, and he was stronger than Master.

“At the time, I was just curious. I wanted to know what kind of person he was because his father suddenly accepted him as a disciple. surely… … I felt that he was a fun person.”

“What would the assailant say when he grabbed and defeated a person as soon as he saw it?”

“Ah, noisy!”

Something that flew with him hit his back.

I threw something light now, but I thought I would throw a stone if I provoked it a little more, so I kept my mouth shut.

She took a deep breath and opened her mouth again.

“Anyway, at first I just thought of him as a desperate person. Have you pushed yourself to the point where you need to do that? however… … Do you know that he sometimes makes strange faces?”

“… … I?”

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“Yes, that ridiculous expression, as if he had just shouldered all of the world’s misfortunes, and as if no one could understand him. Don’t you see how funny that is?”

I’m glad I didn’t show my face.

I don’t even know what kind of expression I’m making right now. No, not even what kind of expression to make.

That much, I never thought that she would understand my feelings so accurately.

No one could sympathize with this misfortune of repeating life.

“That made me more interested. I was thinking the same thing, so I guess I felt the same way… … . Once I thought we looked alike, I couldn’t help but feel strangely.”

I listened to her words and unmounted. Unless I’ve heard or misunderstood… … .

No, I will misunderstand at will.

“Then don’t make that face anymore. I don’t know what kind of misfortune it is, but if you ever need someone to confide in, I’ll do it for you. At that time I… … Can I be a bit childish to you?”

Her eyes were lowered, and her ears were dyed red in embarrassment. It wasn’t enough, and even my feet were rolling around, so I couldn’t help but smile naturally.

“Oh, really, say something. If someone had said such an embarrassing thing… … !”

As she continued talking, she met my eyes and froze.

I knew what I was going to do just by looking at it, so I went straight ahead and grabbed both of my wrists.

She immediately struggled and tried to run away from this spot immediately.

“Let go! oh, it’s not like that Not really. I just said it out of sympathy for a senior who is struggling. It doesn’t really mean anything.”

“You are the first to know.”

“… … .”

“So, just thank you for the words.”

At my words, her face turned red, and she couldn’t let go of her eyes as she didn’t know what to do. Then, he finally met my eyes as if he had calmed down, and then lowered his head slightly again.

“If it’s not just words… … What should I do?”

“well. What should I do?”

I let go of one hand and sat down next to her, and she panicked and tried to distance herself.

“The smell of sweat remains! Joe, move away a little bit!”

“Nope. You messed around, so I’ll do whatever I want.”

“… … .”

Since I was usually the one who gave up, this kind of appearance would be unfamiliar to her as well. The reaction of embarrassment was fresh, so I also got a sense of playfulness.

As I continued to make eye contact with her, bringing my face closer, she slowly closed her eyes with a bewitched expression.

I keep approaching her… … I just hit him on the forehead.

“evil! What are you doing?!”

“I don’t think this kind of atmosphere suits us.”

“No, are you crazy?! Who the hell is here?!”

Only then did she cover her mouth, which was noisy as usual.

When we got to know each other, I was finally able to be sure. I want to be with her for the rest of my life.

To do that, I had to become strong.

After I die, I will go back to those boring times.

And someday… … The day will come when I will tell her my secret. How will she accept my confession?

I had no doubt that that day would come.

* * *

distant past.

However, I shook my head as I briefly recalled the conversation that day, which still came to my mind clearly.

It was Rize that Scarlett was moving into now. And I knew very well why.

“It’s not uncommon to have a father who works as a mercenary and have a daughter who dreams of becoming a mercenary as well.”

“There is that too, but um… … . Excuse me for saying this, but… … .”

Scarlett, who had a hard time choosing her words, sounded cautious as if she had made up her mind soon.

“Me or Rizena… … Are you a single parent family? Oh, I didn’t dig this out on purpose. Because I am like that, I can tell by looking at it. Ugh, sorry for saying this all of a sudden.”

“No, thanks. The cleanup is over, but let’s go back. It’s about Rize, so you can talk whenever you want.”

I returned to the entrance of the cave while appeasing the apologetic Scarlett. The mask was left with me after all. There will definitely be something to write about later.

Scarlett, who had been silent for a while and moved her steps, lowered her gaze a little and opened her mouth again.

“My mother passed away when I was young and I felt very unhappy. My father was more focused on his work, and when he learned that I had a talent for swords, he taught me more sternly… … . Because of that, I rebelled a lot.”

As if remembering that time, Scarlett smiled wryly and shook her head lightly.

“Well, me and my father were just clumsy. Now I’m so worried about myself that I’m leaving the job. So there are things I can’t tell my dad about my difficulties to reassure him.”

Scarlett, who continued talking like that, immediately changed the atmosphere with a wave of her hand, perhaps because she was embarrassed.

“Ah, now my story is over. Anyway, when I first saw Rize, I just thought she was a cute kid. But this time, I went to my senior’s house, and I could see the black. Oh, he’s just like me.”

What was the factor that made you feel that you didn’t have a mother?

Was there something I was lacking in?

While thinking about this, Scarlett immediately added words as if it wasn’t like that.

“But unlike me, Rize was very bright. It was clear to me that I was loved by my father and gave love to him. The moment I realized that, it’s a sword that makes me feel ashamed. It’s because he’s younger than me, but he’s more mature than me.”

She scratched her cheek and chose her words for a moment, and I waited patiently for her.

We arrived at the entrance of the cave just in time, and the moonlight still floating in the dark night sky illuminated us.

“That made me more concerned. To Rize and to sunbae-nim. Also, if possible, I would like to help Rise dream of becoming a mercenary.”

I laughed at those words.

Someone is trying to stop him from becoming a mercenary.

It was a disorganized story, so when I saw Scarlett who didn’t know how to end it, I thought it was okay, so I also decided to say something that came to my mind.

“Thank you for a good look. I was always worried that I was not good enough as a father.”

“Ah, you don’t have to worry about that. Do you know how much Rize was proud of her dad when seniors weren’t around?”

It was a very happy and embarrassing story.

I had never imagined that I would hear such words from none other than her.

I continued as a father, holding back my personal feelings.

“It would have been difficult to tell you about your personal circumstances, but you really like Rize. So… … Can I have a consultation?”

“He helped me with my work today, but it’s okay. A sword about Rize?”

I nodded and chose my words for a moment.

It was a question that I wanted to discuss at least once if I had a chance, but I hadn’t had a suitable partner, so I kept pressing it.

“… … Have you heard about your mother from Rize?”

“yes? Um, no.”

“Lise has never talked about her mother. me too That’s why I couldn’t figure out what Rize thought of her mother.”

“Can’t I ask Rize directly?”

At those words, I smiled bitterly.

After Irina came, I had been thinking about it until now, and in the end, I only spent time again.

“I am afraid. After revealing the truth, I think Rize will hate me and resent me. I thought that I had given Rize love all along, but it seemed like it would disappear in an instant.”

If I revealed the truth about my mother, the relationship between me and Rize could have changed.

Of course, it was a fact that had to be revealed someday. I didn’t mean to hide it just like that.

But I was also afraid.

Rize is as much… … Because he was special to me.

Scarlett, who heard me say that.

“ha… … .”

Suddenly he let out a deep sigh.

I was bewildered at the sight of her stopping even her steps, and I had no choice but to stop belatedly.

Scarlett shook her head slowly, holding her forehead with one hand as if she was in pain.

“Why are people called dads always like this… … .”

Scarlett, who spat out a tingling self-talk from her chest, remained silent for a moment, then turned to me with a frown on her face.

“Senior, do you really think Rize doesn’t know?”

“… … .”

“Does a smart kid like Rize think it makes sense that he hasn’t said a word about his mother until now? Of course, you should know. Not even a child knows that.”

For a moment, it felt like I had been hit in the head with a hammer.

“I’m sure, but Rize knows. However, the fact that he didn’t talk means that he was considerate of his senior. The daughter is already ready to accept everything, but does it make sense that the father is so eloquent?”

Scarlett pretended to, crossed her arms, and put a lot of emotion into her words, as if she were talking to someone else, not just me.

“Jin, you’re so inconsiderate.”

What can I really say to him?

No, in fact, I had been ignoring it even though I knew it a long time ago. Even though Rize found it strange that she didn’t ask about her mother, she just tried to bury the reason why.

Yes, all because I was a nerd.

Our Rize is not such a child.

Even though I said that Rize was the only one, wasn’t it me who had built a wall in a corner of my heart?

“… … thank you really.”

In the end, I had no choice but to bow my head to Scarlett.

“It’s enough to know. I wonder what kind of person you met and a daughter like Rise was born.”

As if trying to lighten the mood, Scarlett’s joking remarks could only be dismissed as laughter.

yeah let’s talk

I finally made up my mind to reveal the truth to Rize.

I’ve been avoiding it for a while… … It was really nice to see her again.

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