I Became a Blind Swordsman at the Academy chapter 185

185. What you have to carry

185. What you have to carry

Heneris and Helgenas.

The two, also called the main god and the demon god, are sisters and goddesses contemplating this world.

Among them, Heneris can be seen as a human god. These humans include other races such as dwarves and elves, but they are generally called that because they have different religious beliefs.

On the contrary, Helgenas is a demon worshiped by demons.

Summarizing, Heneris in front of you is good, and Helgenas is evil. These are the kinds of gods that can be commonly seen in other fantasy genres.

An unidentified space filled with pure white light all around.

A tea party with a being you meet for the first time.

I felt that this was not the first time something like this happened, so I calmly sipped my tea.

I don’t know what kind of tea it is, but a cup of hot tea is enough to bring peace of mind.

Heneris, who had taken a bite of tea, put down her teacup and opened her mouth.

“You have a lot of questions in your head. I think you deserve it, but…”

As she said, there were many questions.

But the first thing to ask is.

“…Time flies fast, but there’s plenty of time to share some simple questions and answers.”

Before I could ask a question, Heneris took the lead to see if he had read my thoughts.

“And… You’re dead. If it weren’t for that, wouldn’t it be normal for humans to meet and talk to God?”

“…I see.”

Is there no need to ask questions?

Reading her thoughts, she was a goddess, so she couldn’t do it.

“Then I’ll be a little more careful.”

“Ah…”

She seems to have even read that thought, and Heneris smiles bitterly as she says that.

‘It bothers me.’

Her smile was fake.

“…Why did Heneris-sama visit me? Even if I died… I wonder why you came to visit me out of all the many people dying every day.”

I uttered a question with many meanings.

“Many, many people…”

At that question, Heneris blurted out her words.

Then her lips open again.

“…Do you really think so?”

“Yes?”

“Can you define yourself as one of many, many human beings?”

“…”

“You know very well that you are further from the norm than anyone else.”

“Of course I can’t deny that, but don’t you know Heneris-sama? I’m not from this world.”

“Ah, was that a question in that sense? An earthling died, so why did I, the god of this world, not the earth’s god, come here… Ra…”

“I don’t think there’s anything that can’t be done… But when you called me earlier, didn’t you call me my child? That part felt a bit odd.”

“……”

Then, a shadow fell on Heneris’ face.

As expected, there is something.

She knew a secret I didn’t know.

Heneris, who was caressing the teacup, opened her mouth.

“…Because he was once my child.”

“……”

I tilted my head as I couldn’t understand Heneris’ words.

Heneris’s Airani.

That means…

“The body is certainly of the earth, but the soul within it is different.”

“…So you’re saying I was originally a human in this world?”

“It was like that. Did you say it was a previous life…?”

“…”

I had a previous life?

There was nothing strange about it now, but it was not easily accepted, perhaps because I had no memories of my previous life.

“In the beginning, he was my apostle, or saint.”

“A saint…”

“You were a colleague of a warrior from the distant past. The saint, who could not forget his comrade who was killed by the demon king and mourned, earnestly asked me to break this miserable bondage. I also wanted to break the bondage, so you ‘s request… And that was the beginning. The current journey…”

Heneris, who had spattered out her voice weakly with faint eyes, continued to explain.

“You were a saint, you were the king of a ruined country who tried to eradicate the demons by burning everything, and you were also the demons who tried to replace the demon king. However, despite your many efforts, you couldn’t break the bondage. After all, it is a disease that this world suffers from.”

“Wait a minute. He was also a demon… The demon…”

“…The demons, they are under the grip of Helgenas. It was almost a mistake, but you didn’t deny it. Rather, you said you might find a way to break the bridle.”

“Those thoughts…”

…I never thought I would.

I wonder if he was desperate enough to give up being human.

I didn’t understand at all.

It also seemed like it would be a good move.

“…In the process, you become exhausted. As a result, you have experienced more deaths than before, and suffered more sorrow. It may have been a limitation…”

“……”

“At some point, you wanted rest. I had no choice but to listen. It was also my greed.”

“And the rest…”

“It was life on Earth. But it wasn’t long before I received unexpected news. It seems that the rest you were looking for was far from it. Life is like that, but as for me, I couldn’t bear to leave the child I love. I couldn’t let it go. In the process…”

“…The game. You contacted me through it.”

“Yes. I don’t remember it, so it may not come to me very well.”

“What have you done to me?”

“It gave me back the memories of my previous life.”

“But…”

“This is the result you wanted. You said nothing good would come of carrying the memories of your previous life, and you said you wouldn’t be able to move forward…”

Is that so?

It was my own judgment.

I think it was like that too.

“Actually, I was given two options. Should I erase my memories and live on Earth? Or would I set foot on the path of Sura to break the bondage once again.”

“Heneris-nim is also very mischievous. You made such a thing happen… There’s no way I would choose the former.”

“……”

Heneris’s mouth was firmly shut.

For me, through the device of a game, I have formed intimacy with the characters, that is, the people I will meet in advance.

To keep them from giving up.

“If I have to give an excuse, there’s a different creator of the game. He was the one who recited this plan to me. Well, in the end… I was fooled by his deceit.”

“Who is that?”

“God of Earth.”

“Was there a God on Earth?”

“Gods exist not only on Earth, but in all worlds with intelligence. It’s like a concept like ‘manager’.”

“But I heard the Earth is doomed.”

“Yes, there are no more human beings who can be called creatures. The god of the earth was also aiming for this. He made a deal with me. If the world to stay in disappears, he asked if it would be okay to stay in this world for a while. …”

“…Something is evil. The god of earth…”

Heneris laughs softly at my grumbling.

He didn’t seem very upset, even though he was blaming God. I wonder if he seemed relieved because he cursed at me instead.

“By the way, you’ve met him before.”

“Have I ever met the god of earth?”

God of Earth.

I’ve never met such an entity.

“I’ve lost my godhood, so I’m pretending to be a normal human right now. If you look closely, you’ll quickly recognize who it is.”

Heneris, who soon calmed down, continued with a calm voice.

“Anyway, I sinned against you. I offered to give you rest, but I couldn’t keep it. Although I care and love you so much, I couldn’t be too happy to step foot in this world again. What I’m left with is a deep sense of guilt. It’s just… Even this meeting would be nothing more than an act of confessing my sins. I wanted to know if you would be truly satisfied with your choice after hearing the whole story…”

“I’m… Satisfied. I think I can understand why I made that choice.”

Heneris’ eyes widened at my answer.

“I think I should rather thank you. I was able to save Eisel, my colleagues… I was so happy.”

Heneris sighs and smiles a little.

“…It’s the same. You.”

“Did I feel this way in my previous life?”

“Well, it differs from time to time, but generally. Kindness that takes great care of one’s comrades, and bold determination to put oneself into action even if it means sacrificing oneself for the sake of a result…”

Heneris didn’t say that and said, ‘Well, when I was a demon, my tone was a bit more arrogant than now.’ He muttered softly.

“Even if you have no memory, everything remains in your soul. Gods are not omnipotent. What is engraved in your soul cannot be erased.”

I nodded lightly at her words.

Soon after, he uttered the following question.

“Anyway, why don’t you…”

Aren’t you wearing them?

The clothes were still the same.

“Ah, it doesn’t mean much. It’s just that it’s not really necessary for our current conversation. That doesn’t mean you wouldn’t want to talk to me naked, though… I left the clothes on.”

“That’s right…”

Having a naked conversation with God… I don’t want to.

“Who made this? Eyepatch…”

“It’s a collaboration between me, the god of the earth, and you. Even if the soul is from this world, the body is from the earth, so I thought it would take some getting used to. I put in a little bit of my strength, albeit in a small way… Are you satisfied?”

“…Was satisfying.”

I raised my thumb for no reason in a timid voice. It was a very overwhelming performance to say that it was a small power.

Heneris smiled broadly at my thumb.

‘Come to think of it, for a conversation with a transcendent being, a god, they are carrying on a fairly casual conversation.’

I wonder if she and I were that close.

Or is she taking care of me?

“Ummm… It’s both, if I have to insist.”

Yes. I’d guess it’s both.

“……”

I took a quick glance at Heneris, who had read my thoughts.

After taking a bite of tea, I fell into agony.

There was so much information going through my head at once that I needed to organize my thoughts.

The original me, the very first me, was a saint in this world… A child loved by Heneris.

And in my previous life, I tried to break the ‘bridle’ that was eating away at this world.

Gulera.

How on earth do I have to break the bridle?

It feels like a new goal has been created.

In the past, I thought about what to do after the ending of the game.

It’s not my goal, but it’s my goal in my previous life, so it’s a feeling I can’t just pass by.

“Even if you don’t, I have something to tell you about him. These are the words you asked me to tell you one day after looking through the memories of my previous life. He said he found a hint on how to break the bonds.”

“…A way to break the bridle?”

I asked back, listening to the hint. What is the hint that I left for myself in the past?

“Become a king. And look into the commonalities between the habits of the demons and the ‘game’… You left those words.”

“Hmm…”

Be the king.

Nothing has been reached yet.

‘It’s something I’ve heard before…’

It must have been the earth god who gave that hint to Zepetty.

Then, what the game and demons have in common.

…It seems that you can vaguely understand the meaning of this.

Precisely, it must be a commonality between players and demons.

Asmodians become stronger by killing creatures.

Players kill monsters and gain experience points to level up and become stronger.

In other words, the demons and me now were quite similar.

“Henneris, may I ask you a question?”

“What is it?”

“…Did demons kill humans from the beginning?”

“You’re asking the same question as before.”

You asked this before.

That’s right, when I touch this thought, I become curious about it.

“However, as before… This is a question that, unfortunately, cannot be answered right away, as any information about him is beyond my competence.”

“…I see.”

“However, digging through the records of the past to find the answer is not a problem. There may be information about him somewhere in this world.”

“I understand what you mean.”

I needed information about the demons in the beginning.

If my hypothesis is correct, I may be able to reach a way to break the bondage.

Why do I have to break the bridle?

Is it the feeling that I follow because it is what I wanted in my previous life?

Still, thinking of Ray, the current hero, it seemed right to cut it off.

Resurrection of the demon king, reincarnation of the hero.

An unbroken confrontation between demons and humans.

Heneris did not exaggerate when he said that this world was suffering from a disease.

“Unpredictable things will happen in the future, Zeto.”

“…What do you mean?”

“Helgenas is moving. She must have noticed my intervention. Even so, she can’t speed up the resurrection of the Demon King…”

“Is it possible that his subordinates, other than the Demon King, can be resurrected sooner?”

Heneris nodded at my answer.

“But I don’t know exactly when.”

The Demon King’s servants.

Those who are resurrected together with the demon king are like the demon king’s alter ego.

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An archevil consisting of four members.

I’ve never met him in the game, but I know his name.

“…So that’s it. Even so, the right arm of the corps commander died, so it didn’t seem like the demons were taking any action.”

“…A lot of things you know will change.”

Heneris’ worried voice.

“hahahaha, I guess so.”

I laughed.

A lot will change.

I can’t even imagine the aftermath of this incident.

But Eisel did not die.

I thought that just defying that fate was a satisfactory result.

“…Looks like I’m running out of time now.”

Hearing Heneris’ voice, I followed her gaze and turned her head.

“They…”

The dark hands I saw earlier were slowly filling the white space.

“The power you imprinted on your body, the dead are contained in the tears of the dead.”

“…You look distressed.”

“They wouldn’t have wanted to be there either.”

“Do they disappear when I resurrect?”

“The soul itself will wear out and wear away and return to nothingness.”

Go back to nothingness.

There must have been a reason for suffering.

Because it’s sad to be forgotten without leaving anything behind.

“…Then why don’t you use only the minimum amount of power to resurrect?”

“If that happens, complete playback will be difficult. Is that really okay?”

Heneris, who had her eyes on my left arm, tilted her head.

“It’s okay. An arm or so…”

“Then…”

I stopped Heneris from trying to use her hand.

There was a bit of bewilderment in her eyes as she grabbed her arm.

Soon, Heneris read my thoughts and lowered her arm.

“I thought it was something I had to shoulder…”

“I understand.”

“…I’ll be back.”

With that said.

I took a step toward the dead man’s hand reaching out toward me.

***

“I thought it was something I had to shoulder…”

“I understand.”

I understand.

Heneris understood his thoughts.

Because she loved him for that.

“…I’ll be back.”

Her child walks away in silence.

The dead strangled him slowly.

Zetto was completely swallowed up in the darkness immediately.

Soon, his voice is heard in a low voice.

“…I think it must have been very painful. I can’t imagine how painful and painful it must have been.”

Zeto’s voice became deafened.

The pain of the dead was being passed on to him.

“But I want to create a world where what you went through will never happen again, a world where this can never happen. So… Can you help me?”

Zetto was persuading the dead.

“It is very painful to be forgotten. It is empty and lonely. So… I will remember it. I will also remember that name. I will remember it and repeat it over and over again. I will carry it on my back and move forward.”

His clear and straight voice contained kindness and affection.

That warmth was enough to calm the resentment of the dead.

Instantly, the hand that was tying him was lighted.

The darkness that enveloped him was turning into pure white light.

“…It’s okay. Please rest in peace for the rest of us. Thank you so much for accommodating my greed.”

Heneris couldn’t hear what was going on between the dead and Jeto. She

She didn’t even bother to listen.

He did not want to interfere with his atonement.

Then Jeto recites his name.

A large number of names echo in the pure white space.

The meeting with Zeto was now coming to an end.

Heneris, who was watching this, said goodbye quietly inwardly.

‘My child…’

She was the only thing she couldn’t convey.

The words she couldn’t utter in the end, weighed down with guilt.

‘I won’t ask for your love now. Even so, I still want you…’

…I love you.

***

The vast blue sky.

A landscape where you can feel the fresh air.

At the tip of it, the lips of the man with jet-black hair opened.

‘The scenery is nice.’

‘……Poohyo.’

You can hear laughter at his jokes.

It was definitely my voice, but it didn’t sound like mine.

I couldn’t help but laugh.

I couldn’t laugh.

Jetto is laughing so happily, why can’t I?

“…Lee.”

At that moment, a strange sound came to my ears.

“… Glass.”

The sound becomes clearer and the memories unfolding before my eyes crumble.

In front of my eyes was a mirror large enough to contain my entire body.

Black color stands out under the finely braided red hair. The jet-black dress gave off a dull and neat feeling overall.

I looked down at the ice crystal in my hand that contained memories of Zeto.

“Yuri, are you ready…?”

I turned my head at the voice I heard again.

“……”

It was my father who called me.

My father, who was wearing a black suit similar to mine, approaches me with a pitiful face and he embraces me.

“…”

Why is my father petting me?

Come to think of it, why did my father come to the academy?

What day was it today?

Inadvertently touches such a thought.

Yes. It was Jeto’s funeral.

Zeto, who was smiling on the deck of the airship, was already dead.

It was a sweet fantasy just before, but this place was reality.

“…Ugh.”

Tears well up in pain.

All fantasy makes reality more painful.

Even so, I couldn’t stop.

I wanted to see Jeto.

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Comment

  1. Moonlit Walker says:

    Did the Zeto back then was a complete Casanova?

  2. Noice says:

    Is it just me or has he also rizzed up the other goddess when he was a demon?

  3. Ren_Akaya says:

    Broke N,
    why do you think Zetto was genderbent ? Just because he was a saint in his past life doesn’t mean he was a woman. Not all Saints have to be that. Besides we already know that he was a man when seeing the statue of the nameless one in prior chapters.

  4. Myaha says:

    Bro better have unlimited stamina like MC in hentai to satisfy all those women

  5. Ayaaakoooooo says:

    I think like he’s stuck on cycle of reincarnation idk it’s just my theory

  6. GayMin69 says:

    Bro rizzed up god

  7. kk77 says:

    isnt it the carriage driver lol

  8. LexusMaximus says:

    Lol that would be so funny if clank is the god of earth. Captain Terrasia!

  9. Redom Redom says:

    Our dear comrade Clark giving bread in the funeral, Amen !

  10. Amunmu says:

    …entonces Zeto en una de sus vidas pasadas fue una Santa tetona con nalgas regordetas y cintura estrecha? 🥵🥵🥵

  11. Asthal says:

    I think it’s that guy who hangs around Lucia and Amon a lot like the way he gives bread to others makes me remember a Certain god

  12. Nos . Nos . says:

    Who would of thunk that there would be a surprise genderbender reveal in this chapter. I assumed that he was the reincarnation of the cannibalistic demon but his OG incarnation was an interesting plot twist. Now it makes sense and is funny why the hero is also genderbent.

  13. My prime suspect is the teacher who gave him that bracelet at the beginning of the story (forget her name one of the three dark blood)
    But wow zeto even made a goddess a yandere

  14. simplethrone says:

    I mean crown, damned typo

  15. simplethrone says:

    Oooooh, he’s indeed everyone that’s been hinted at, just like what everyone had thought. But for them to actually work together for his “cown”, huh, that was kinda unexpected. Lastly, the god of earth is here? who is he?

  16. Xjaksoxa Xjaksoxa says:

    I feel like the reveal of having to break the bridel would have been more meaningful and impactful if we knew more about it

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