I Became a Blind Swordsman at the Academy chapter 190

190. I don’t want to lose

After that, Eisel regained her composure, followed by one-sided questions.

These were difficult questions to answer, such as how she was able to get out of the demon realm so quickly, how and when did she realize that she was a regressor, and so on.

Among them, I had to express my deep doubt when asked what happened to the curse.

In the meantime, I came to the conclusion of ‘tears of the dead’.

Of course, ‘You were mistaken.’ Couldn’t say

It took quite a bit of effort to look around, but even after ambiguous answers, they didn’t pursue me harshly.

Eisel was conveying her feelings that she just hugged my waist tightly and didn’t want to let go of me anymore.

I must have felt good right now.

Like that, Eisel was holding me in my arms and continuing to talk.

“…I asked because it was the first time I’d seen him. It was really the first time I’d seen him… Do you know what Jetto said?”

“What did you say?”

“It’s the entrance ceremony, and I wonder if it’s natural for everyone to see this face for the first time… hehehehe… Well, I didn’t mean anything wrong, so I laughed. Zeto came to me like that. Like a meteor that suddenly fell from the sky.. It’s where I saw the fireworks the other day, remember?”

“I remember. Miss Eisel said it was her favorite place?”

“It seems like it’s been a while since I’ve gone alone because it’s kind of lonely.”

“Then next time I’ll go with you. I liked it because the surroundings were quiet.”

“Together… Just the two of us like last time?”

I nodded at her question.

“…Yeah, good.”

Eisel was talking to me.

As if I should remember too.

Like I want you to remember.

“Again… Again…”

Memories of the previous episode that I do not remember, that I do not remember.

“…Jetto said he liked the scent of Obsion even back then. It was so amazing… I was able to realize that it hasn’t changed, and Jetto is still Zeto.”

I listened quietly.

She piled up her memories she recited and kept them.

It seems that quite a lot happened.

Perhaps they were closer than Eisel in this episode.

Eisel’s behavior changed in this episode, but the fact that he didn’t feel that kind of question in the previous episode must have played a big role.

Loneliness was transmitted from time to time in Eisel’s voice after she had stopped crying.

It must have been natural since I walked a lonely road that was not understood by anyone in the world.

I just hoped that loneliness and emptiness would be soothed by sharing memories with me.

“…Those things happened.”

Instantly, Eisel’s lips closed.

“Aren’t you going to tell me more?”

It seemed like she still had a lot to say, but Eisel shook her head.

“Hmm, there are a lot of things I want to tell you, but there are too many for today. There will be plenty of time in the future… I will make better memories with Jeto… For now, this is enough.”

“Enough… That’s it too.”

I responded with a smile.

Eisel, who was no longer a regressor, had time to build her memories, ‘tomorrow’.

“Are you going to continue attending the academy?”

“Yes, I have work to do.”

“What is Zeto supposed to do…?”

“…Well.”

A happy ending.

I just vaguely looked at it and ran.

But after hearing this and that from Heneris, I started to think a lot.

Anyway, like games, graduating from the academy doesn’t mean everything is over.

Can we reach a happy ending if we break the ‘bridle’?

I don’t know yet.

While such a brief silence continued, the door to the infirmary opened.

ㅡKikkiik.

I saw familiar faces.

Amon, Lucia, Crank, and even Orpheel, who was so quiet that we couldn’t talk much.

“…I guess my turn is over here.”

Eisel gave up his seat without noticing.

She had a feeling she didn’t want to interrupt her reunion with others.

Eisel wasn’t nervous.

Should I say it’s a good change?

On the other hand, she thought that as much as she was sad and as lonely as she was, she wanted to make her laugh more.

She was around the time she was talking with Amon and his friends, who had been looking at me with pity since then.

“…How can you smile like you normally do?”

“hahahaha, didn’t a miracle happen? It’s a joy, so you should laugh.”

“Miss Zeto…! You’re still going to the academy… Right? Right? Without Mr. Zeto, our A class… A class…”

At Lucia’s weeping voice, everyone’s eyes turned to my left arm.

It was said that he was miraculously resurrected, but he couldn’t claim that everything was going well.

It seems that they were worried in their own way.

“Don’t worry. I’ll keep going to the academy.”

“Are you thinking of wearing a prosthetic arm?”

“…Well, that’s how it should be.”

“If you run out of funds, tell me. The Caligus family will apply. The head of the family has a good impression of you, so it shouldn’t be too much.”

“Eh, our Windless too…!”

“…”

Orpheel quietly put his hand on my shoulder.

“I… I… So, do you have any bread you’d like to eat?”

Crank, who was looking around to check the atmosphere, spat out those words.

“hahahaha… Thank you everyone. But I’ll accept only that thought. Oh, I want to eat bread. Let’s eat together next time, Crank.”

“Uh, uh…! I’ll prepare only the bread you like…”

“Poohyot.”

At Crank’s flimsy answer, Lucia burst into laughter.

A sudden story about bread eases the frozen atmosphere.

As expected, I thought it was better to laugh.

It may seem serious to them, but it wasn’t a big problem for me.

In the midst of such trivial chatter.

“Come to think of it, other people…”

I blurted out the end as I asked.

“Maybe soon…”

The moment Amon said that.

I heard the sound of urgent running in the hallway.

She shouts as soon as she arrives at the door that was wide open.

“Zeto…!”

“…You just appeared.”

Amon shrugged.

Red hair, neatly braided, caught her eye.

The red flowers in her eyes were about to light up again.

***

It seems like I fell asleep for the first time in a while.

She had met Jeto in a dream.

Zeto, who was revived like a lie and continued to breathe calmly, was hugging the saintess.

Well, after I opened my eyes and saw my father’s worried face, I knew right away that it wasn’t a dream.

After the funeral, I fell down as if I had lost consciousness and didn’t wake up.

It was a shocking thing.

My father said so.

Fortunately, time didn’t pass that much.

“Ha ha… Ha ha…”

I was running down the hallway.

When I was told that I was able to meet Zeto, I ran out without looking back.

Now we have reached the end.

“Zeto…!”

“…You just appeared.”

Already there were passengers, but the others didn’t even come into sight.

My eyes were on him.

‘Jetto is alive.’

I sighed and looked at him.

It was an outrageous miracle that could only happen in a children’s book.

Soon, those who visited him first leave the infirmary.

With the sound of the door closing, I suddenly remembered the words my father had heard before coming here.

‘Don’t miss this time.’

It was an opportunity given again like a miracle.

A chance to keep him.

An opportunity not to miss him.

An opportunity to undo the wrongs.

An opportunity I thought would never be given again.

I immediately jumped at Jeto.

I hugged him tightly so as not to miss him, not to miss the opportunity.

“…Jetto…”

In time, his warmth embraces me.

Zetto’s warmth was warmer than the morning sun, and hotter than any flame.

“You said you would definitely come back.”

The voice of Zeto that I wanted to hear so much whispered in my ear.

I felt like I was about to burst into tears.

At the same time, something feels empty.

I hurriedly felt Jeto’s body.

There was nothing to be there.

Finally, he raised his head.

“Zeto… The arm…”

I realized it belatedly because I was distracted.

Jeto, who kept his promise and returned, could never come back intact.

As if to prove this, there were still bandages around his eyes, and the sleeve of his left arm was empty.

“hahahaha… I didn’t come back until this.”

Zetto smiles as if nothing is wrong.

I was trying my best to pretend I was okay.

I’m sure he didn’t want to worry.

“…Sigh.”

I felt like I knew a little bit about him now, so my tears welled up.

“…Sobbing…”

But I couldn’t understand the pain and suffering he must have endured, so tears flowed down his face.

“Sorry to startle you, Ms. Yuri.”

“…Not at all. You don’t have to do that. Why is Jetto sorry? Just because Jetto came back alive…”

Just because I was given another chance.

Just being able to hold your hand now.

“That alone is enough…”

“…”

“I’m more sorry… I’m sorry for acting coldly… I’m sorry…”

It was painful because I thought I would never be able to take back the last words I said to him.

He has always been invaluable to me, and I just couldn’t accept that he had the worst finish.

“You acted cold…”

Jetto grabs my hand.

Then put it on his cheek.

“…So warm?”

Everything melted in his sweet voice. My blurred vision and frozen heart were all… Melting.

“I know what he said.”

“I… I got angry. I got angry with Eisel. There was nothing wrong with Eisel… I blamed…”

He cried like a child who did something wrong.

Now that he’s in his arms, he’s been fooling around and he’s been letting it all out.

“It must have been difficult for everyone.”

Jeto, who was stroking my hair, continued his words.

“But, it wouldn’t have been much different if it had been Ms. Yuri instead of Ms. Eisel.”

Even in the midst of sobbing, Jeto’s voice could be heard so clearly that his sincerity was conveyed.

“I would have saved Miss Yuri without any hesitation or hesitation.”

If I had been in Eisel’s place, would Jeto have made that choice?

I didn’t have any certainty.

“It’s just that Miss Eisel did that this time.”

Zetto comforted me as if he had penetrated my heart.

“Miss Yuri is like that to me.”

I wonder if the tears that flowed down my cheeks were tears of sadness or joy. I couldn’t tell exactly.

Tears flowed down without knowing how to stop, like rain pouring through memories with him.

Jetto was still kind and affectionate.

His embrace was so cozy and comfortable that I didn’t feel like leaving.

“For me, Zeto is like that.”

“…”

“So… I’ve become strong enough… To protect Zeto, so that Zeto doesn’t have to come to rescue me…”

I wanted to become strong enough to protect the present moment and the future with him.

“I will never let Jeto go through this again…”

Because the momentary loss was very painful.

The fighting spirit flared up even more.

Then Jeto, who was stroking my hair, replied.

“…Then I’ll have to wait patiently.”

“Yes, Zeto wait patiently.”

“Do you really have to come to get me?”

Jeto slowly raises the corner of his mouth.

“…Yes.”

Even if you answer like that… I knew very well that Jeto was far from the word ‘behave’.

So, even if he were to leave my arms, all I had to do was be strong enough to hold on to him.

I never wanted to lose that innocent smile that had been carved into my focus ever again.