160 – 161. I feel like jumping out of a window.
Green meadows.
The sky is high and wide.
A gentle breeze tickles my face.
“…?”
What should I do?
A strangely absent-minded feeling.
A feeling of floating and sinking heavily while floating.
It seemed as if water was flowing slowly in front of her eyes, as if her head was filled with water.
‘What happened…?’
I stood up from my seat.
For a moment, my legs gave out and I collapsed.
It’s strange. Something was strange.
I feel like my body doesn’t look like my own.
In the end, as I was sitting still like a doll with threads unraveled, someone appeared from behind me and sat down next to me.
“God has no regrets.”
“…Chronos?”
Black long hair.
A familiar voice. Kronos sat down beside me.
“But——if it wasn’t for the god, wouldn’t it be acceptable to regret it?”
“….???”
Is this a dream?
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It must be a dream.
He may have the appearance of Kronos, but he was not the Kronos I knew.
The eyes that looked down on everything in the world belonged to a weak woman
Where did the momentum that used to pressure opponents with just my presence go and now I literally felt like a powerless woman.
The image of a woman who is just powerless and in sorrow.
Cronus, ‘something’ that seemed to be Cronus immediately asked me.
“What if… It’s really just a story.”
In case
If only I had believed Leah
If only I had entrusted myself to the flow of things without trying to hold power in my hands
“At that time, was it a little different from now?”
A deeply sunken voice.
I replied to the tearful, broken muttering.
“I don’t know?”
“…Yes. You have no way of knowing.”
That’s right.
Cronus nodded his head and slowly leaned towards me.
‘…Are you crazy?’
I turned around and tried to avoid it.
However, it was unavoidable. Like I said before, my body, like a doll with unraveled threads, didn’t allow me to move freely.
“Don’t panic. This place is my dream, my paradise, the only resting place allowed to me.”
“…..???”
Chronos buried his face in my chest.
He hugged me with both arms and breathed into my chest.
“…I am afraid. I am so afraid. Even at this moment, even the space of rest feels like Tartalus to me.”
Why?
That can’t be helped.
“If all of this is my karma, if it’s my karma, then I know what will happen after this dream.”
A dream is a place where you can think of what you want.
So, in a place called a dream, the reason why the existence of ‘you’ appeared in my dream…
“It’s to punish me. Because I can’t tolerate myself, because I can’t forgive myself…”
Therefore, a substitute to replace it.
Chrono. My child
Kronos speaks while burying his face in my chest.
“Beat me. Pounce on me. Take me by force and make me suffer. For this, you have appeared here.”
Kronos took my hand and placed it on his neck.
Two trembling hands. However, he dutifully made me wrap my hand around his neck.
As soon as I raise my head, I see two eyes. Black eyes, trembling with fear and despair.
“Give me the punishment I deserve.”
“…………”
The feel of the hand.
Thin, thin neck. If you give me strength like this, wouldn’t I be able to kill it as it is?
When I lightly pressed my fingers, my thumb dug down my neck.
“…… Ugh…!”
Cronos closes his eyes while clenching his teeth.
As I maintained that condition without tightening my neck just barely, I let go of my hands that were holding my neck.
“…What are you doing?”
Question of Kronos.
“You hate me. You hate me, and you must feel betrayed by me. There’s no reason why you won’t hurt me.”
So go ahead and hit me.
Make me suffer.
Teach me the cost of what I did with your own body.
A voice that gets more and more exasperated. Trembling speech. To this, I replied to Cronus.
“Why me?”
“Ha…?”
“Why do I like you?”
“………..”
I know roughly what the situation is, but…
Kronos, that’s not it. At least you can’t ask me for ‘something like that’.
Because…
“You shouldn’t force others to punish you just because you want to be punished.”
“But… But you–“
“──Can’t I do something good for you?”
“!…….I see.”
Surely
Something like that.
“Are you saying that sinners can’t even be punished the way they like…”
Cruel.
So cruel.
I don’t want forgiveness, I just want to be punished.
Are you saying that I don’t even have the ‘freedom to suffer’?
“It’s evil. It’s vicious. It’s evil and vicious, so you’re truly vicious.”
And obviously
This may also be what I expected from myself.
“I don’t even want to give myself the ‘right’ to be punished.”
Cronos closed his eyes.
I just breathed in my arms with both eyes closed.
Breathe
Exhale
I hope you stay like that for a few minutes…
“…Today, you’ve been around for an exceptionally long time.”
Kronos says.
Usually, he should have disappeared a long time ago.
“I wonder if I’m in a dream that deep. It’s not bad, but I’m afraid I’ll wake up from the dream.”
Cronus buried his face in my chest a little deeper and hugged me with his arms.
“The smell is strong… The warm warmth, even the reactions I’m seeing… It’s as if you’ve come to my side.”
Of course, that couldn’t be the case.
Kronos rubbed his face against my chest and slowly climbed up.
Cronus came up on a steel bone and a wooden boat and soon attacked my body.
“…If it’s a dream that will disappear anyway, if it’s a delusion that will soon disappear.”
If so, wouldn’t it be okay to wish for this much?
Kronos stretched out his arms and hugged me around my neck, whispering in my ear.
“Hug me…”
So strong that it’s hard to breathe.
So hard that you can’t even think of anything.
“Embrace, and…And if you wish…”
Slightly shaking voice.
At the end, Kronos speaks.
“Could you… Stroke my hair…”
“…………”
Once
I thought as much as I came this far.
At first I thought this was a dream?
But no matter how crazy I am, I don’t think I’ll have a dream like this with Kronos, right?
So, if I were to narrow down the possibilities…
“…Was Hermes ordered?”
“Huh…?”
Even if you look at it, this is Hermes.
At least among the gods I know, Hermes is the only one who can even enter people’s dreams and play pranks on them.
“Do you have all these crazy dreams?”
Once I recognized that it was a dream, it seemed that my body gradually gained strength.
A feeling that the thread is finally connected to the body. At the same time, the feeling of floating above the sky.
“….???”
“Ool?”
It’s not a feeling, it’s literally me flying up into the sky.
I said to Cronus, who was staring at me with dumbfounded eyes on the ground that was gradually receding.
“They look similar, but they are too female and corrupted.”
3 Out of 10.
Please study more next time.
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“Oh.”
It’s an unfamiliar ceiling… Not so much.
I blinked and looked around.
‘…. Hospital room’
A room for two with a partition on the side.
Maybe the one lying next to you is Minerva.
“mmm…
A sense of reality gradually emerges.
After one big yawn, I finally started to understand the situation.
‘Come to think of it, yesterday…’
After the trial, he was immediately admitted to the hospital.
It’s not like the last Minerva was forced into custody in a psychiatric hospital, but because she was kidnapped and imprisoned in the Athena Guild, it’s to take action.
Since you have to go through the procedures in many ways, the Ares guild directly gives you money and tells you to relax.
“I don’t have any injuries, but…”
Still, once you have started the ball, you have to play it until the end of your soul.
There was nothing good about getting caught for nothing, as much as even completely burying a person.
‘…Uh’
Anyway, why are you so tired?
I remember that I slept soundly, but my eyesight was dark and I lost my energy.
“Ahhhhh.
Should I sleep or sleep better?
I tried to sleep again, tucking myself under the covers.
“Ahhh…”
Is it because it is a double room?
Or is it because the Ares guild asked me to take care of it a lot?
The softness of the bed was more than the scientific bed in our house, and it was so warm that I felt like I could sleep comfortably again.
“Good…”
I wonder if I put a pillow in there as well.
Isn’t it impossible to fit a soft, warm, child-sized fomentation pack inside your arms?
“…………”
No matter how good the hospital service is, there is no hospital that puts a hot pack inside.
No matter how good the performance of the hot pack is, no matter how you look at it, you can feel this size, this touch, and even the bones on top…
“…No way.”
I slowly lifted the blanket, just in case.
What appeared inside was…
“…….?”
‘Who are you?’
A girl whose name is unknown.
Totally naked, not even wearing any clothes.
A situation that goes beyond common sense that a white-haired, short-haired little girl is lying in her bed.
“Umm…Um…”
The girl blankly blinked her eyes and then looked at me and her blanket in turn…
“It’s cold…”
“Oh, sorry.”
He covered me with a blanket.
… Is, that’s not it!
“What is it?”
It’s strange.
It’s kind of strange, too much.
A situation where the mind becomes distant in many ways.
While my reason can’t keep up with reality
“Oh.”
“…My…?”
Mai entered her with a black plastic bag in her hand.
Mai said while looking at the little girl sleeping next to me.
“Wind?”
“No.”
As an aside
“We respect your taste.”
“No.”
“Mai can be smaller if you want.”
“Isn’t it?”
“Kronos-sama had a plan…”
“…………”
A little
I wanted to jump out of the window.