Episode 191 – I was my parents’ stain 3
The day after my parents’ funeral, I went into my mother’s room.
I resented my mother. I hated my father. I just hated everything. I hated my father, and I hated my mother even more for making such a promise. I wouldn’t have expected it if I hadn’t given hope, but if I hadn’t made that promise, I wouldn’t have harbored the guilt of wondering if it was because of me.
“…Didn’t you say that liars are bad things. At least if you hadn’t lied… you wouldn’t have been so miserable. You would have just lived your life as usual without expecting anything.”
On her birthday last year, she wore the black goblin mask given to her by her father. He said it was made of wood that changes in size according to the size of the wearer’s face. Of course, it was my father who sculpted it.
[Now, isn’t it cool? If it’s a mask like this, even if you wear it for the rest of your life, you can wear it until you die of old age.]
Of course, my mother didn’t like that.
[No, I’ll buy you a toy for your child’s birthday. What is a mask? A mask! He would love to receive something like that!]
[No, what’s wrong with this ghost face… It’s cool! Boys are crazy about things like this!]
Of course, other mothers also expressed their objections to this taste.
[Werner, no matter how much, if you go as a birthday present…]
[Werner-sama, I think the mask is a bit… so.]
[Master, I don’t think it’s a toy for a child either.]
To be honest, I didn’t like toys, and I didn’t think much about masks. Just… it would have been enough if you hadn’t left that day and spent time together. Even on my birthday, he left for the battlefield without fail.
And this time, he said that he would definitely come back and accept my foolishness…. He didn’t come back. I heard that the enemy who used illusionism saw us and showed a gap for a moment, and because of that, we were properly attacked by an unexpected attack.
“… I didn’t cry. Not at the funeral, not even during the burial. I won’t cry. No matter what happens in the future. I won’t show my emotions as easily as my mother did. Because that’s what you wanted.”
I’ve been wearing a mask ever since. Even when something happy happened, he did not smile. no, I didn’t see a smile. Even when something sad happened, I didn’t cry. No, thanks to the mask, I couldn’t show my tears.
And after that, it was the mothers’ maternal relatives who came to us as our guardians. To be precise, they were the cousins of my mother, Lorsha, or the cousins of Rachel’s mother, Glaceon-sama, or the hometown relatives of Ayla’s mother, Airi-sama’s father, Zeke.
They were all covetous for the right of the head of the family to manage treasures such as famous swords that father or mother left us as keepsakes, or treasures. Like fools, my father gave most of the money to the bereaved families of the dead. Thanks to that, I had to squeeze my brain out to manage the budget.
It didn’t matter. All they wanted was my life, but they didn’t lay a hand on my younger siblings. No, they were good to my younger siblings, and they even had a grateful heart because their children played with my younger siblings.
“…So you met three assassins on your way here???”
Captain Neal dropped the stack of cards he was holding, probably surprised. Didn’t that Tazza make a mistake like that, and thanks to that, the trick was exposed as the card he hid in the bracelet also fell off.
“Well, I only broke my limbs and sent them back. Well, those who sent such low-level enemies must have been sent by relatives on Airi’s mother’s side.”
“No, your life is being pursued? Are you okay with that?”
“It doesn’t matter as long as you’re not aiming for your younger siblings’ lives. It’s a bit annoying, though.”
Then another fiery fist hit the top of my head.
“You idiot! Did this brother Neil teach you that!”
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No, I never taught you anything in the first place.
“Life is all about prioritizing and protecting what’s important to you. And we all prioritize our friends over our own lives. You’re no exception.”
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No, even if that’s the case, there’s no way I can beat those guys of mine. They were all skilled wizards, warriors or mercenaries. There was no way that I, who was still young, had the means to fight against them.
“Well, I’ll hold on to it moderately, then I’ll hand over the position to my younger brother and go to the battlefield. It’s not about revenge or anything like that…”
“If you go, we will go too. You have a weak corner, so we need to take care of you next to you to put your mind at ease.”
“That’s right. I got lost on the way last time, so Rupel and Erdan had to come find me. No, the last time I went to rob a warehouse, my leg got stuck and the torte…”
“Even if you’re a unit commander, it feels like you’ve got another youngest brother.”
“I’ll kill you guys.”
The time I could spend with those idiots was starting to come to an end, and I got out of the hideout and returned home.
Over time, I hated the house even more. We heard the conversation of relatives who had suddenly taken over our house. I came back a little earlier than expected, so it didn’t seem to notice that I had returned.
[Damn, that bastard hasn’t died yet… I can’t come out myself because there will be traces left…]
[I’ve also researched ways to extort the contract with the King of Spirits, but this is meaningless.]
[Hey, I don’t know if it’s a contract or what, but if the kid dies, we take the property.]
[Ha, we only need to retrieve the weapon. As for treasures, whatever you guys took, do whatever you want/]
You are really eager too. Thanks to that, I couldn’t even eat the dishes prepared by the chef, so I lived on simple dishes I made myself.
[That kid is like that… but the Quarter Elf kid is also a problem.]
What…
[right. They say you have to kill the eldest son to usurp the head of the household… but there’s no reason to keep that quarter elf kid alive.]
[Even though, the other day, I tried poison that made me sleep for the rest of my life… It just ended with narcolepsy.]
I thought that Violet’s sleepiness was just because the shock of her parents’ deaths intensified.
[What will I do with the rest of the kids after I’ve done all the work?]
[Well, it resembles my mother and has a smooth face, so I can sell it to another family for some money.]
My hands trembled. i’m too lazy I accepted the favor too innocently, saying that the people who wanted to kill me were doing good to my younger siblings.
I had to protect my younger siblings. my father asked for it Mothers asked for it.
That was my only existence value.
But can I kill them? I was still young. lack of experience strength was lacking.
Do I have no means?
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No it did exist My father often told me about the demons he had sealed away and the warlocks who made contracts with them. Even the fact that instead of gaining strong power, the words were terrible.
But even if I became a warlock, I didn’t think I would be able to kill them all. Because each one was a first-class mercenary, warrior, or wizard.
[Life is about prioritizing and protecting the precious things. And we all put our friends before our own lives. It is said that you are no exception.]
I decided to be a selfish piece of trash. I decided to force my ugly selfishness on them,
I took my father’s keepsake, the magic book, and ran to the hideout. Running through the heavy rain, of course I was not a horse.
“Damian, didn’t you go home? Why did you come to the hideout at this hour?”
“No, wipe the water first…”
Elina started wiping my face with a dry towel.
“Captain Neil, Elina, Rupel, Tartan, Miguel, Torte, Zaha, Erdan, Cain, Merhim, Merna, Jayra…”
They were the ones I could call my friends. No, except for Elina, who was the same age as me, they were all older than me. But age didn’t matter. All of them were precious to me.
“Didn’t I tell you that I have priority over your lives…?”
I would be happy if that heart were false.
If that heart is true, I must use it thoroughly.
“Why are you suddenly talking about that?”
“Hey, what happened?”
“Why is your body shaking again…”
I took out the magic book Enoch. Since most of the demons in the world have disappeared or been sealed away, this book was the only way to make a contract with the demons.
“Then… would you risk your life for me and die for me…?”
Please don’t say crazy things and I hoped that you would hit me. I hoped that he would spit on me, saying, “Don’t talk bullshit.”
“I just said something…”
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Neil approached me with a hardened look on his face. Yes, I was talking crazy. They would beat me up and kick me out, saying, “What kind of garbage are you talking about to die to us?”
he is…
“What kind of man is asking for such a favor, so why take so much time?”
I put my hand on my head.
“Did you think that my brother and my sisters lied? I’ll risk my life as much as I can. I’ll die any number of times for you.”
“uh…?”
“Whatever we want from this book… Let’s make it as fancy as possible, our way.”
That became the beginning of the ‘Bungcheon’, a warlock unit that would be active on the battlefield in the future.