Inside An Adult Game As A Former Hero chapter 105

EP.105 Queen Maker

[Can I do it by mouth next time?]

A word from Cloud that I happened to hear.

Neria wasn’t smart, but she wasn’t stupid enough to understand what it meant.

The reason last night was quiet wasn’t because the two of them didn’t go out.

oral s*x.

The act of a woman caressing a man’s g*nitals with her mouth.

Because of that, the sound could not be heard even to the room where Neria was.

She didn’t even know that, and I was laughing at myself, full of hope.

Neria did not go down to the first floor.

I grabbed my chest and returned to my room, putting on a blanket. A space that is cozy enough for only her to enter. I felt like I was cut off from the brutal reality, and I was calmed down for a while, but that was only for a moment.

[Can I do it by mouth next time?]

His voice playing in my ear.

Scenes are created in your mind.

in a dark room.

A flickering candle illuminates the two of them.

Cloud is sitting on the bed, and Katarina is kneeling in front of him.

[Zeup. side. Churp.]

Katarina’s head bobbed up and down with a lewd sound. Her Cloud looks at her like that with her lovely eyes.

[I wonder… Ha… Cloud, are you feeling good…?]

[Super good. Why are you so good? Katarina, is it because you did it?]

[he. so? Then I will make it better than it is now.]

Katarina is moving her head harder than before.

A scene I’ve never seen before.

A scene I’ve never heard of.

It was so easy to imagine.

My heart feels like it’s about to burst.

I don’t want to imagine a scene like this anymore.

He grabbed his hair and tried to erase it, but he couldn’t.

Rather, the imagination is aggravated.

Katarina licks Cloud’s things while making lewd noises and Cloud repeats the words “I love you”.

-Stop… Please stop…!

I don’t want to see you.

I don’t want to hear it.

I don’t want to imagine.

But the scene did not disappear.

Neria couldn’t understand.

Why is it that a scene I’ve never seen before comes to mind so vividly?

[Suck it straight, you bastard!]

What I suddenly heard was not Cloud’s gentle voice, but a ferocious male voice.

It was then that she realized that the poses of Cloud and Katarina in her imagination were somehow familiar.

At the same time, I felt a touch I didn’t want to recall from my lips.

– Whoops..!

An unbearable disgust overcame her.

He threw his head out of the bed and vomited, vomiting gastric juice.

– Awesome…!

The more I vomited, the clearer the memory.

A sarcastic voice.

Eyes looking down.

A feeling of helplessness that can’t be resisted.

A disgusting touch felt on the lips.

All of that.

-Uh… Khhh… Khhh…

Not even stomach juice came out.

When she had nothing to vomit, the nausea that had been bothering her stopped.

But even if the nausea stops, that doesn’t make her comfortable.

shame and guilt.

Two emotional blades ripped through her heart.

As she wiped her face covered in tears and runny nose, she called out someone’s name sadly.

-Cloud…

the name of the man you love.

I want to see him.

I want to apologize by looking at your face. I want to be forgiven, even as long as I get down on my knees and put my head on the floor.

And it was something that could be done right away.

All you have to do is meet him outside the room and act.

But she didn’t.

How will he react if he goes out and begs him to apologize?

You will probably be confused and ask why.

If she explains why, she will smile and say it’s okay.

Then she will believe it again and laugh hehehe.

like a sick person.

I can’t be okay.

a word.

With just a single word, Neria vomited gastric juice, delusionalized, and squeezed her tears and runny nose. She was in so much pain, how much more was he?

How painful it must have been for him to see with his own eyes.

– I’m sorry… I didn’t know… I didn’t expect it to be this hard…

The day she visited Cloud again.

Cloud didn’t get angry with her, nor did he argue.

He just smiled saying that he was happy to be back together.

So I thought it would be fine.

Even if it’s awkward right now, I thought that over time, I would be able to go back to the way it was before.

Even when she overheard Cloud and Mars’ conversation, I believed that the time would only get a little longer.

I have no idea how selfish that is.

-Sorry…

No matter how much she mumbles an apology, it doesn’t reach him.

must not touch

Those words will remind him of the nightmare of that day once again.

The weight of guilt that hangs heavily on her heart is a karma she will carry for the rest of her life.

…In fact, if it was really for him, it was right to leave him.

He’ll be in pain every time he sees her.

But Neria cannot leave him.

For Neria, the Cloud was everything in her life.

from the past to the present.

If he isn’t around, she’ll fall apart.

She was terrified of it, so she couldn’t leave him.

Selfish and ugly coward.

that’s herself

“Are you both ready?”

Cloud’s voice broke her thoughts.

The place where she is standing is the dance hall of the collapsed royal palace.

If you look at the front, you can see a beautiful woman with long scarlet hair that reminds you of the setting sun.

katarina.

She was wearing a light outfit and had a nervous expression on her face while holding a long curved sword.

What is special about that woman?

What was so special that he became a lover with Cloud?

Would something have changed if that woman had been there instead of her?

I was curious about it, so just by looking at it, I accepted the battle with the hard worker Katarina.

“Ready!”

“I’m fine too.”

As Katarina and Neria agreed, Cloud nodded.

“start.”

When the match started, Katarina took a big step forward. I rotated my body around the axis I stepped on. With a light movement like a butterfly spreading her wings, she approached Neria.

As the beautiful and colorful sword dance approached, Neria stood still and waited.

When it reached close range, Katarina ran at a faster speed than she had ever shown.

Accidental cross-cutting.

– Kang!

Neria raised her shield and blocked it.

Even though the first attack was completely blocked, Katarina was not agitated. Because she didn’t even think it would work in the first place. She turned her body one turn to the right and swung her opposite curve.

– Kang!

This was also blocked by the shield.

Katarina jumped high in the diagonal and hit two curves. Neria swung her shield and struck it lightly. In the power fight, Neria had the upper hand, so Katarina was pushed back and landed softly in her somersault.

‘Neria-san is stronger than me. You have to go with speed and skill rather than strength.’

Katarina took a deep breath and ran towards Neria.

[Wolf Dance]

Like a wolf surrounding a prey, Katarina moved in a circle around Neria.

Do not put power on the weight of the attack. What you want is speed. One step at a time, one step at a time. The skilled swordsman’s sword dance attacked Neria.

As the curve turned downward, Neria raised her legs to avoid it. As soon as she lifted her leg, a new curve hit her head.

– Kang!

blocked with a shield.

Even before the sound of the shield disappeared, the curve that was aiming for the bottom was now heading towards the back of Neria’s head. Even that was stopped by Neria moving her sword behind her head.

Although none of the attacks worked, Katarina smiled.

One of Neria’s feet hadn’t touched the ground yet.

In other words, the next attack will have to be blocked and not avoided.

Katarina jumped high and laid her body horizontally. She turned her body as it was and rotated her two curves like a top.

Neria held out her shield towards the top of the blade that would sharpen even wild beasts.

-Kaga Gaga Gaga River!!!

He scratched as if he was going to sharpen his shield, and sparks splattered everywhere.

However, contrary to the noise, Neria was not pushed back at all, and Katarina, who landed, had to step back.

‘Not through one?’

Not even agitating.

Is it that much of a difference?

Katarina bit her lip, feeling impatient.

‘Let’s make a small gap.’

[Dance of the Bear]

Heavy blows like a bear’s paw fell on Neria.

Neria, who had blocked it with her shield, thought.

‘Are you kidding me now?’

[Butterfly Dance] showing quick footwork and [Wolf Dance] attacking all front, back, left and right sides.

Katarina’s sword dance with anomalies added to it is an excellent technique.

However, Neria, who had defeated 8 knights at the same time, did not feel very impressed.

[Bear’s Dance] that destroys the opponent’s posture with a heavy blow

Perhaps because of the level difference, it didn’t feel that heavy to Neria.

Even if they were on the same level, I don’t think they felt threatened. As the attack was heavy, the anomaly disappeared and it became simpler. The trajectory of the sword was clearly visible.

‘…this can’t be all.’

It must have been that they didn’t show everything because it was an exploration game.

Neria pushed Katarina back with her shield, giving her time to catch her breath.

I sincerely hope that you will come next time.

“Whew…”

Katarina caught her breath.

She ran towards Neria again, and the attack that followed…

There was nothing different from before.

‘..?’

What are you doing?

Why are you attacking like before?

you know it doesn’t work

If it’s a joke, it’s not fun, so do it right.

Is it because I didn’t attack?

Do you still think it’s an exploration game?

Neria thought it might be possible, so she decided to go out a little more aggressively. She avoided the curve descending diagonally by twisting her body. She swung her shield towards her stomach before Katarina turned.

“Huh..!”

After being beaten in the stomach, Katarina let out a painful moan and stepped back.

‘…why can’t you avoid it?’

It wasn’t that he just swung it very quickly.

It moved moderately according to Katarina’s level.

But you stumble after getting hit by it?

I felt something cheap.

Neria approached Katarina and lowered her sword in an oblique angle. The moment she crossed her two curves to block her attack, she kicked her in the stomach with her feet.

“Shut up..!”

Unlike being hit with a shield, the kick seemed to be tolerable, so Katarina stiffened for a moment and then moved again.

A brilliant attack that stretches out.

Avoiding them, Neria.

“…What.”

murmured involuntarily.

because I couldn’t understand

Why are you hitting me with a simple attack?

If you have good skills, why can’t you use them properly?

You are the woman Cloud chose.

You have to be special unlike me.

Neria put her sword down.

She threw a fist at Katarina, bewildered by her discarding the sword.

puck.

Katarina’s head turned.

Katarina also came to her senses.

I realized that even without the sword, the gap between her and Neria did not disappear.

The sword dance started again.

A raging storm of swords.

Neria’s eyes looking at it were cold.

Blocking the storm of swords with a shield, he approached and slapped him in the side.

Ouch!

With Katarina’s moan, the storm of swords disappeared.

Neria frowned.

‘But why are you so weak?’

Is it because of the pain from being beaten?

Or is it because of acknowledgment of the difference in skills?

There was poison in Katarina’s eyes. She gave strength to her hand holding her curved sword.

A sword dance I didn’t want to use in Dalian because it was too dangerous. I’m going to use it now.

The air went cold.

The turbid energy of death wrapped around her and pressed Neria’s shoulder.

A space of darkness.

There the dancers dance.

[Dance of Death]

It changed to black with a dark curse.

A cursed sword dance to pray for the death of the enemy.

Death rushed towards Neria in a splendid bloom.

Neria did not hesitate in the face of the approaching flower of death.

After the sword, she threw away even the shield.

– Whoops.

He turned his head to avoid the sword that pierced through the wind. The sword strike that was aimed at her shoulder blew away using his arm guard.

Avoid what can be avoided, and spill what is difficult to avoid.

After repeating that series of processes, the dance of the curse was over.

Didn’t you think you wouldn’t be able to even scratch your skin?

The dancer’s face was stained with emptiness. Seeing this, Neria clenched her fist.

‘This is no different than me.’

[If you don’t follow me, I will kill you and all your friends. Then the spirit of your asshole hero will be destroyed, right? No matter how I overcome it and make a new ally, I’ll kill you again. Until the hero you love loses his mind.]

Threats from Gis.

As if proving that it wasn’t just bluff, she woke up in the morning with a dagger stuck at her bedside.

Neria was weak and not special.

Consoling herself that there is no other way, she followed Gis’ threat, leaving a huge wound to Cloud.

So I thought.

If Cloud was the woman who was hurt by Neria, he might have made a different choice in that situation. Maybe she could have produced a result that didn’t hurt Cloud.

She wanted to check it out.

Maybe she just wanted to understand.

She is such a great woman, so maybe it was her choice.

From the beginning, the seat next to him was not his destiny.

But it wasn’t.

That woman was not the special woman she thought she was.

Little by little of her…

An emotion of anger began to bloom inside Neria.

she clenched her fist

puck!

After all, you are no different.

puck!

I’m just lucky.

puck!

It was me who yearned more, but why, why you…!

puck!

Neria did not stop punching.

“stop!”

Until Cloud screams.

Neria was startled by his voice and stopped her fists. She was horrified to see Katarina stumble and fall.

It was too much.

I hit Cloud’s lover badly.

My heart pounded and fell.

Maybe he’s accusing him of not handling him properly.

Could it be that he hates her?

Maybe I can’t even be with you.

While Neria was trembling with anxiety, Cloud strode closer.

She couldn’t contain her fear and closed her eyes.

The words that flew to her like that were unexpected.

“You’ve improved a lot from before, Neria. You’ve been working hard all this time.”

Neria took a breath.

Instead of being criticized, he was praised.

It’s true that I worked hard to be recognized…

Confused, Neria could not continue to say anything.

When the true woman lifted her head down and opened her eyes.

“it’s okay? Is there any broken place?”

Cloud wasn’t looking at Neria.

“I think I broke my ribs. No, it may have been smashed…”

“Let’s see… are you okay?”

“That’s the chest!”

“Do you have ribs on your chest? Anyway, it looks fine, so don’t be shy and just drink.”

“Chi… If you worry a little, it will get better.”

He was pouring potions on Katarina and talking to her.

“Gulp… Ugh… I feel it all the time, but why do potions taste like this? Can’t you make it delicious?”

“There is something delicious. It’s expensive. Rather, come on.”

“Yes? What are you doing?”

“Can’t you see? say it up It’s not hard to walk because you’ve been beaten backwards.”

“…it wasn’t to the point where I was going backwards.”

Katarina mumbled with a red-tinted face, but calmly leaned on Cloud. Lifting her up and carrying her, he turned her gaze back to her Neria.

“We’re going to stop by church for a while, so would you like to go back first?”

“Church, church? Why is the church?”

“Even if it seems like a serious murder, you never know. where could be wrong Ophelia says she won’t be able to heel her for some time, so she should go to church.”

“If that’s the case, then I…”

“it’s okay. I’m grateful for the hard work you did, but I can’t get my hands on it. Thank you for listening. See you at the inn in a little bit.”

Having said that, Cloud turned his back and walked towards the outside of the gym.

Neria shuddered and stretched out her hand, then put it down again. She stared blankly at the two men as they moved away.

Memories of the past come to mind.

-Ugh…

– Does it hurt a lot? Be patient. Soon it will be a village.

-yes…

Cloud, which was sprained in the mountains, was carried down by her.

For some reason, those memories seemed to overlap with those two now.

But it was different then.

The young Cloud was carried, but now he was carrying another.

“It wasn’t because Katarina was special…”

Cloud has changed.

From the person who borrows the back to the person who lends the back.

“I see…”

Neria’s voice was gloomy.

Normally, you should be happy with your childhood friend’s growth, but she couldn’t.

Because there was no place for him on his back.

And because it didn’t seem like there would ever be.

Neria barely endured her near collapse, and walked towards the fallen weapon and shield.

should not be weakened.

If you’re weak, you won’t be able to be by his side.

It was time for her to squat down and pick up her shield.

drip- drip-

Tears fell and wet the ground.

* * *

“Cloud.”

“Why?”

“Are you pretending not to know? Or do you really not know?”

“What?”

“Neria-san.”

“Why Neria?”

“You like it.”

“…are you very straightforward? Don’t you usually turn around and say things like that?”

“It’s noisy, answer me quickly. okay? I did not know?”

“…to put it bluntly, I knew.”

“You knew it. It’s rather strange that you don’t know it when you reveal it so openly. So did you just draw a line?”

Katarina said in a somewhat happy voice.

I smiled bitterly and shook my head.

“The line was drawn from the beginning.”

Because Neria likes Cloud.

Not me.