Inside An Adult Game As A Former Hero chapter 197

After returning home, Neria’s condition worsened day by day. she had no choice but to Because wherever she looked, she could feel the traces of Cloud.

What bothered her in particular was the carved wooden dolphin she kept in her arms.

A piece of wood that was not shattered to say that it was cool because it was glued together.

However, the pieces are objects that Cloud’s father made for Cloud and Neria one by one.

The most precious thing for her.

When I held it and looked at it, it reminded me of happy memories of the past, and it was painful to think of my childhood when I laughed with Cloud.

It was so painful that I cried and then fell asleep repeatedly.

After skipping meals for several days like that, her body began to deteriorate little by little, no matter how out of the human category.

Dark circles were formed under the eyes, the cheeks became thin, and the eyes lost vitality.

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Ophelia looked at him sadly. Neria is her precious colleague and friend. She could not stand by as she was ruined by guilt and self-blame.

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Ophelia approached Neria and said,

“Neria. Do you know what asceticism is?”

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“What are you guys doing now?”

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Ophelia turned her head in amazement at the sound of the hut door slamming open. The moment she saw Cloud with her bloody expression on her face, her heart sank.

Why did he suddenly appear?

“Hey, what happened to the hero here…”

“You ask. What are you doing now?”

“Hey, this is…”

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Ophelia’s voice trembled. Neria is stabbing herself with a knife and Ophelia watches it. It’s a perfect sight to be misunderstood. As she was about to explain what had happened, Cloud strode forward.

His eyes scanned the wounds on Neria’s body.

His brow furrowed.

“hey. Neria.”

Then Neria looked at Cloud. Seeing her lifeless eyes, he said, holding back her rising sigh.

“What are you doing with this now?”

“what.”

“What is it? Are you serious? Did you do that to your body?”

“What do you care what I do to my body?”

She sneered and tried to carve another line of wounds on her body with the dagger. Cloud took the dagger and threw it out of her hut. Neria’s expression wrinkled.

“What are you doing. Rather than that, did I not tell you not to appear in front of me last time?”

Cloud ignored Neria and turned to look at Ophelia with a cold gaze.

“Are you just watching your co-worker harm yourself?”

“Brave, this is not self-harm, but asceticism—”

“asceticism? That’s crazy. This is why I hate fanatic bastards.”

Cloud’s expression turned even worse. He has seen too many fanatics doing human sacrifices and other disgusting things for the sake of God. So, the moment Ophelia tried to justify her simple self-injury as ‘torment’, he felt that she was no different from the fanatics.

As Cloud’s reaction grew colder, Ophelia’s pupils shook relentlessly.

“Yes, yes..? Oh no, warrior. Just calm down and listen to me-”

“Shut up. I don’t want to hear your voice, so shut up and heal Neria’s wounds… No, no. Wounds will be healed with potions, so just go away.”

“Warrior..!”

“Did you not hear me? I don’t want to see it, so I’m going to turn it off.”

“Warrior…”

Tears welled up in Ophelia’s eyes. The day her Four Heavenly King Kreas appeared, her Cloud, who saved her Ophelia from the beatings of her angry citizens and even defeated her Four Heavenly Kings, became her idol… no more than that.

It was no exaggeration to say that it was her everything that supported Ophelia in place of her broken faith.

Then he denied himself and sold it.

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Ophelia felt abandoned from the world. Whether she felt that way or not, Cloud drew her attention from her and turned her head to her Katarina and Leslie.

“Do you have any potions?”

“yes? Ah yes. there is.”

Leslie stuttered and handed the potion.

Leslie and Katarina were both stunned as it was the first time they had seen Cloud so angry.

After receiving the potion, he turned his head again and frowned as he saw Ophelia unable to do this or that.

“You haven’t gone yet? don’t want to move annoying? Can I send you?”

Cloud reached out to grab Ophelia by the neck.

Neria grabbed her arm.

“I said I would. So don’t bother Ophelia.”

“I will. That’s why you must have been holding the sword. But that doesn’t mean Ophelia isn’t to blame.”

“What responsibility does Ophelia have?”

“A bitch called a priest induced you to self-harm with the absurd sound of asceticism. If this isn’t wrong, what’s wrong?”

“Ophelia was just trying to help me.”

“Help me? How does self-harm help? I know you’re having a hard time mentally. But if that bitch was a proper priest, she should have given you proper psychological treatment, not self-harm. Whether it was confession or prayer, there were many normal methods-.”

“Not in that normal way!”

Cynical since Cloud arrived at the hut, she screamed emotionally for the first time.

“The sacrament of confession you speak of! pray! I’ve done it all. Even so, nothing changes Cloud comes to mind every day, misses you, and wants to hug you! When I think of Cloud, my heart swells and I feel like I’m going to die of pain!”

“…”

“I can’t sleep these days. Cloud appears even in my dreams. Do you know what he says there?”

Neria’s expression contorted with sadness. Tears welled up in her red, bloodshot eyes as she ran down her cheeks.

“You are fine. rather sorry He said he didn’t know it would be this hard… That fool was kind even in his dreams…

Little by little she wept.

“Every time that happens, I say I’m sorry, I couldn’t do this, so I want to forgive you, I want my hands to become my feet, but my body doesn’t move. If you struggle to open your mouth somehow, you wake up from the dream. I feel like I’m going crazy because this is repeated every day.”

“…”

“I also thought it would be better to die than that. Because in reality, I felt that I had to make an apology that I couldn’t in my dreams, even in the afterlife. But I couldn’t because I wanted to die. Do you know why?”

“Neria…”

Cloud called out her name as if to stop, but she didn’t stop.

“I’m scared… Unlike in my dreams, I’m afraid that they will look at me with hateful and contemptuous eyes, and I’m afraid that I won’t be able to meet Cloud even in the underworld. I’m so scared that I can’t even die…”

Eventually, Neria collapsed. She sat down and sobbed, wiping the tears from her hands with her hands.

“That’s why it hurts… Hib, I like being sick… Because I don’t think of Cloud less when I’m sick…”

“…”

Cloud stood still and looked down at Neria, who couldn’t stop her tears. She was unable to escape from her sense of loss that Neria had lost her loved one.

Not being able to get out was not enough, and my body and mind were even broken.

Through that figure, he could see how deep Neria’s heart for the real Cloud was, and that’s why he was able to empathize with her.

He also has memories of losing someone as precious as her.

Cloud spoke to the three other people except for Neria.

“Can you go back to town for a moment? I want to talk with Neria.”

Leslie and Katarina hesitated for a moment, remembering Cloud’s anger just before, but then they dragged Ophelia with a blank expression and left the hut.

Now, only Neria and Cloud remained in the hut.

He laid the potion bottle at an angle with the lid open and spilled the potion on her skin. When the pale pink potion touched her, her wounds healed quickly.

Cloud said, taking out a new potion.

“The Empire put a bounty on Gith’s neck.”

Neria’s body trembled. She was so startled that she stopped even wiping the tears that flowed and lifted her head to look up at her cloud.

He continued pouring potions and speaking.

“I did not comply with the summoning order. Officially, Gis is no longer a hero. There’s nothing wrong with killing it. what do you think about it?”

“What do you think…”

“You had to betray Cloud because that Thunder Naked cub threatened you with force, and Cloud was shocked and killed himself. Cloud’s life was ruined because of him, and you’re having such a hard time. while you do that guy? I lived a good life with no fuss and lack.”

“…”

“Aren’t you sad? Aren’t you mad?”

Tears that had ceased, and facial muscles frowned upon.

Blood dripping from his clenched lips and fists.

That’s a much clearer answer than ten words.

Cloud squatted down and met Neria’s eyes.

“You don’t want revenge?”

Her eyes widened at the word revenge.

But it was brief.

The blue eyes soon lost their vitality again.

“Vengeance… I want to… but I can’t. Because I am weak.”

If she had been strong, she wouldn’t have succumbed to such threats in the first place.

There would have been no loss of Cloud either.

Neria, who was in awe, swallowed her fury and said.

Cloud shook his head.

“What I asked is your will. Not like the possibility of revenge. I can fill any gaps in power.”

“…is that possible?”

“Did you see me in my dream? who I am.”

“ah…”

Recalling what she had seen in the nightmare, she unconsciously let out a sigh.

Yes.

I forgot for a while because I lost my reason in anger, guilt and shame.

Who is the person in front of her?

He was a valiant warrior who crossed countless deadly lines and was a reversing hero who turned even unfavorable battles over.

he asked her again.

“What do you want to do?”

This time she didn’t hesitate either.

“I want revenge. Help me, warrior.”

he laughed at him

“okay.”