131 – Stockholm Syndrome
As a child, I picked up dogs and cats wandering the streets.
I couldn’t pass by the small hair ball in a paper box lying in the alley, so whenever I saw it, I took it to the nursery school and was often scolded by the director.
I couldn’t turn a blind eye to it.
Once I brought them, I kept raising them in the backyard of the nursery school.
I’ve heard many times that if you can’t take responsibility for that child, you shouldn’t do that in the future. I actually did.
I have lived my whole life like that.
I don’t know how the decisions I make will affect others. There were many times when I made unreasonable decisions because I looked pitiful and because I wanted to help right away.
Compared to when I was younger, nothing has changed.
I just looked at Lee Jin-ah, who was trying to sleep next to me with her body curled up in a circle.
Lee Jin-ah is screaming and crying right now. Because she was so anxious that her face went white.
Since she was a child, she was traumatized and panicked. It was so pitiful to see her cry so sadly that she ended up lying on the bed like this.
I put her on the bed and the crying stopped, but this time I grabbed her by the sleeve and didn’t want to let go.
Since Lee Jin-ah was small, she was big enough to fit inside me.
… To compare people to animals, … She was like a squirrel. I could feel her little head rub against my chest.
Please pet me..! If you touch her, she will feel better..! I guess… That’s what you’re saying…!
Are you tossing and turning because you can’t sleep? How long must I stay like this?
Still, Jina Lee seems to be trying to get her sleep back in her own way…?
….The brown eyes were staring at me.
I could feel that her eyes, Lee Jin-ah, were large and transparent.
It is said that even if you look at a clean lake from the surface, you can see all the way down to the bottom. Brown eyes are like a lake.
Looking at Lee Jin-ah’s eyes like this, I think she knows what she’s thinking right now.
She slumped on the floor like her child and burst out crying, still putting invisible pressure on me.
-Please stroke my hair quickly~
Looks like he’s acting cute.
Lee Jin-ah grabbed my arm.
Then she casually tucked her arm under her own head.
Her pillow, which she used to sleep on, was tucked into her arms.
It’s a matter of course, but I’m a human too, so when I press her arm with my head, I feel a sense of weight, but this much was nothing.
Because I’m still. Lee Jin-ah’s eyes shake slightly.
Maybe this will…? You might think
I didn’t want to anger Lee Jin-ah with this. At least today.
– Blink.
… Lee Jin-ah’s eyelids, which were looking at me while blinking her eyes, began to go down.
I must have been tired because I didn’t express myself.
Because she couldn’t rest properly until now and moved her body.
Did he sleep?
Without me doing anything else, Lee Jin-ah started to sleep soundly.
It’s just amazing to be able to sleep in such a bright place.
… Since being bullied by her kids, she’s been sleeping with the lights on, so the bright lights seem familiar.
I intend to stay like this.
It’s only been a few minutes now… If I take her arm off, Jinah Lee will wake up, and there’s no evidence that she will.
.. I’m not particularly worried, but still… If you’ve made up your mind to appease her, you’ll have to take responsibility until the end.
My body feels drowsy because I exercised.
The feeling of wanting to lie down like this all the time, doing nothing.
I felt like I would fall asleep again if I closed my eyes.
Because I exercised so intensely that my clothes were covered in sweat. And I didn’t sleep well last night either.
Looking up, I noticed the lattice pattern on the ceiling of the bed.
German philosopher.
I don’t know who it is, but did he also invent the function because he wanted to know exactly where the fly stuck to the ceiling was while he was lying in bed like this..?
I didn’t have the intellect to make great inventions that would go down in the history of mankind,
A number of philosophical ideas begin to emerge.
What to do next, and what to do.
Is what I’m doing really the right thing to do?
First of all, because I feel sorry for you, because I did something wrong, take care of me.
I wonder what the point is in making exceptions to actions like this over and over again.
I want to cut off my relationship with Lee Jin-ah.
If she made up her mind like that, she had to set her own route, but now… Looking at her, she just didn’t have the heart to do that.
-Slurr…
The time to collect the OMR paper is getting closer. Is this the correct answer or not?
It feels like submitting to the teacher without even checking.
Is this correct? Am I doing well?
I don’t know.
Since even Lee Jin-ah was lying down with me- it was stuffy.
The bed was large enough for the two of us to sleep, but Lee Jin-ah didn’t want to be away from me.
That’s why it has to stick together like melted candy in this hot summer.
It wasn’t enough that she used one arm of mine as a pillow, so this time Jinah Lee’s arms wrapped around one of her arms.
Looking at Lee Jin-ah hanging on her arm like this because her head is one smaller than mine.
Suddenly, I remembered the old days.
When she was in elementary school, when she brought some of her dolls to play at the nursery school, Jinah Lee would always hold them tightly in her arms.
I think I became a doll for Lee Jin-ah at that time.
Looking closely like this, Lee Jin-ah, who has already been 10 years since she graduated from elementary school, still retains her appearance from those days.
– Took.
Jinah Lee’s head clings to mine, and her head is where her arm connects to my shoulder.
“… Ha…”
Reflexively twisted her legs like a pretzel.
I’m sure Lee Jin-ah doesn’t know what’s going on next to her.
I don’t know.
How can a girl who looks like this do that in the middle of the night when she’s sleeping…?
Thinking about it again, it’s shocking.
She’s not overflowing like anyone else, but she’s soft, warm, and soft. She has a nice scent…
Her body was candid.
-…
So she felt embarrassed.
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I fell asleep without realizing it. It’s a big deal. She is like this She sleeps defenselessly. I don’t know how many hours she will sleep. Lee Jin-ah was awake.
She was leaving her own mark on the nape of her neck.
Every time our lips touch. The feeling that red marks will remain mottled, like footprints on the sandy beach.
…I don’t even want to do it secretly anymore.
“…Whoa…♡”
Jjokjjok- Every time I heard a sound, Jinah Lee’s mouth sounded painful.
Ever since she was little, Lee Jin-ah’s skin turned red when she cried, got angry, or did something embarrassing.
This is still the case today.
It didn’t take long for her pure white skin to turn red.
I’m the one who suffers, but why is the shame on her?
“..Yoo…Yoo Seon-a…Since…When…Was…Was…?”
Hurrying. Father- Lee Jin-ah, who can’t speak properly.
At a glance, she was distraught.
Is it embarrassing that she got caught in her own deviation?
It’s even more strange that I didn’t notice when I openly did this.
…Coming to think of it, Lee Jin-ah has done this a few times.
She may have thought to herself that this time, of course, she was fine.
-Kong-Kong…Kong-Kong…
I could feel Lee Jin-ah’s heartbeat in her chest against hers.
Wouldn’t it hurt?
Lee Jin-ah’s heart was beating fast enough to make her worry.
Me and Lee Jin-ah became close enough to count the number of eyelashes.
“…Seonah Yoo…”
Lee Jin-ah grabbed my hair. She draws in naturally and she kisses her lips this time.
“…!”
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How should I accept the current situation…? Perhaps she was worried that I might push her away, so Jinah Lee strongly pulled my hair.
It happened so suddenly that I couldn’t do anything about it.
The kiss was short if it was short, and long if it was long.
Actually, by my standards, it was nothing special. It’s just… I did this every day…
But it seemed different to Lee Jin-ah.
“…Over there.. So… I… I am that… Wired This…Was…Good..?”
She looked like she was showing her first clay craft to her director.
Since I didn’t say anything, Lee Jin-ah seemed to take this as a positive sign.
She came up to me once again and started kissing me.
– Perfect!
Her teeth clashed. She wasn’t sick, but she was.
“…Well… Sorry… Sorry… I was wrong…! So…”
An urgent excuse that came out of Lee Jin-ah’s mouth.
Once again something soft covered my lips.
According to experience, Lee Jin-ah was clumsy.
I wasn’t that good either, but Lee Jin-ah was more clumsy than me.
Just kissing her like someone trying it for the first time is sloppy, and since when did Lee Jin-ah’s arm around my neck start to tremble.
Is this the first time…? Of course, I thought I did this many times while I was sleeping.
-Fah..!
Her kissed lips fell asleep, and Lee Jin-ah’s tightly closed eyes opened again. Her light brown eyes were undone.