132 – Stockholm Syndrome
Lee Jin-ah’s eyes were wide open and out of focus.
I quietly touched Lee Jin-ah’s cheek with one hand.
It was like that for a while.
I calmly caressed her face.
I think I have to do this now. I wanted to do this.
…Light shimmered in his brown eyes.
It’s momentary, but what have I done so far with that expression of “Oops”?
A look of regret appeared on Lee Jin-ah’s face.
Maybe I’m thinking strange thoughts right now?
This is the first time I’ve ever been caught doing something like this. I’m so afraid of what I’ll say…
Wouldn’t that hurt him again?
I could see the worry and fear in my eyes.
…It’s embarrassing for me too, but it must be more embarrassing for Lee Jin-ah.
First of all, after making sure I fell asleep, I started working with the intention of having fun as usual, but something unexpected happened and I can’t seem to get it right now.
Lee Jin-ah seemed to have no intention of giving her excuses or excuses. So she began to darken her face.
As if I were about to run away, I saw a small palm gripping my head slowly lose its strength and slide down her shoulder.
Her lips moved slightly, then her shoulders shook slightly, and tears began to flow from her eyes.
“…Hey… Yoo Seon-ah… I’m so sorry that I suddenly did this… I was sleeping… I was just… Suddenly surprised and embarrassed…? This… I mean… I didn’t originally But… I didn’t have any bad intentions… So… I didn’t mean to surprise you… I just liked it… I did it because I wanted to do it without thinking… Come to think of it… I thought it might be… You’re not too disappointed in me…? Even if you’re disappointed… I’m fine… I… It’s only natural that Yoo Sun dislikes me…”
I silently wiped away the tears with my finger.
However, the tears that flowed from Lee Jin-ah’s eyes gathered drop by drop, and eventually formed a stream of water, and I couldn’t wipe it all away with my hands.
I quietly hugged Lee Jin-ah with her arms.
The front of the nightgown became damp, but I didn’t think it was a waste or uncomfortable.
I’m having such a hard time. How sad i am…
Lee Jin-ah was on the verge of collapsing.
She screams in fear… Then she sleeps comfortably in my arms… Then she wakes up again and kisses her clumsily with eyes full of affection.
I have felt this since I worked at Mirae Construction in the past.
Jinah Lee always looked tired and exhausted.
Of course, because she has to take over the future group, she has a lot of work to do and a lot to learn, so her body can’t help but get tired.
I was thinking at that level. To be honest, I wasn’t that interested in Lee Jin-ah.
But living with her, she wasn’t tired of that.
Perhaps there was a problem with Lee Jin-ah that was incomparable to that.
She was falling apart.
I was out of my mind.
I just pretended nothing happened until now.
That wasn’t true.
As if a typhoon raged in a teacup, Jina’s inner self was devastated. Did not appear outwardly.
I don’t know.
Since when did Jina become like this?
Did she start to crumble when the future murder happened? Or when she fell out with me – my future high school days..?
Or, from the days when we lived apart from each other, it was good and sad several times a day.
I don’t know if I’ve committed acts that are completely incomprehensible to other people.
When we lived together in the past, Jina sometimes did things I couldn’t understand.
I often see her committing things impulsively, then regretting and reflecting.
Not much has changed between when she was in high school and now.
Originally, all humans are creatures like that.
Jinah is worse.
And I couldn’t do anything other than silently hug Jin-ah.
If you come now and ruthlessly push her away in order to increase your distance.
At that time, I felt anxious that Jina might make an extreme choice.
For now, let’s calm down and calm down.
Without me right now… Jin-ah felt like she was going to commit suicide.
-Pat Pat.
I stroked her hair and caressed her back.
My trembling body gradually calmed down.
Around the time her whimpering cries turned into even breathing, I looked at Jin-ah in her arms again.
Not matching her pretty face, tears or saliva were smeared on her mouth, and her hair was sticky.
With her fingers, she removed each of her hair from the corner of Jin-ah’s mouth, and combed her tousled hair with her hand to tidy her up.
Usually, you should definitely get away from me… Why is Yoo Seon doing this all of a sudden?
Jinah was looking at me with those eyes.
Her lifeless, unfocused brown eyes refocused… And began to stare at me strangely.
“…Hey Yoo Seon-ah… Thank you…”
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“…”
“I changed my stance and I thought that when I was young, I used to bully me a lot… A kid like Taeyang Kim suddenly wants to apologize to me, and I liked him so much when I was a kid. Why is this… Are you taking care of me?”
“…So…”
I wasn’t that kind of a person.
I know.
This is abnormal. Even if it’s common sense to pass by, it’s normal for me to look at it coldly and ignore it.
“…”
But it wasn’t as easy as it sounds.
Ever since I was young, I have had a tiring habit of not being able to pass by when I see a friend in trouble and trying to help him unconditionally.
“…”
Jinah, who stopped her tears, bit her mouth and looked up at me.
Unbeknownst to me, Jina’s small hand was placed on top of mine.
And then, power went into her hand.
Jinah’s head, which was looking up at me, bowed down like an ear of rice bowing its head.
I couldn’t see what expression he was making.
I could feel the soft brown hair flowing down and into my hand.
I don’t know what kind of expression she’s making because her face is down, but she’s deep in thought. She stayed like that for a while.
Then Jinah raised her head again and met her eyes with me.
“Hey… I have something to say to Yoo Seon-i… It’s something I’ve always wanted to say, but I haven’t been able to until now.
What can I say?
I nodded slightly. Jina’s face brightened slightly at the sign of positivity I reflected.
“Keep on.. Always- I need to talk to you. I did… I didn’t have the opportunity. I didn’t have the courage, I didn’t have the confidence… I’m sorry. Actually… I always wanted to say something… I’m sorry… Neither I nor Yoo Seon… I don’t think we ever had a chance to talk like that… I always wanted to apologize to Yoo Seon. . Because I ruined all of Yoo Seon’s childhood. So, if it’s okay with Yoo Sun… I want to talk about it… So… From now on, I want you to listen to what I’m saying without getting angry. …If you don’t want to hear it, you can leave the room…”
I just remembered that Jina hasn’t bothered me since I attempted suicide.
She was rather oblivious to me and tried to fit everything into me.
If you think about it now, the master-servant relationship was reversed. At that time, Jina tried to pay attention to everything I said and every action.
…Actually… The months after I went to high school in the future were more of a special event. Until then, Jin-a constantly tried to look good to me.
Of course, she had a problem with it going the other way than she thought.
Anyway, even during her middle school years, Jina made an effort to be friendly with me.
Why did Jin-ah, who has risen to a place where she is incomparable to me, made her efforts to approach me again?
I vaguely knew the reason.
“…I’ve always been unhappy since I was little, and all I had left was Yu Seon… But I was happy. Because it was Yu Seon who always soothed me. It was Yu Seon who protected me from bad kids, we went to the library together to read books, and when there was a fun place in the neighborhood, Yu Seon always took me there. So I was happy…! It was so nice… Even if I didn’t have money, it was okay even if my mom beat me every day..! Because I always had Yu Seon by my side! I couldn’t accept that I didn’t exist… So that’s what I did… I always want to be close to you, and it’s okay to be hated by others, but I don’t want to be hated and resentful by you… But… Once Because I make mistakes, and I keep repeating them… So I do something bigger to overturn the mistakes I made so far. And the more I do, the more I hurt Yoo Seon-i’s heart… And I….It was hard for me too… I didn’t want to be hated by Yoo Seon-i… Hey Yoo Seon-ah, we… Can’t we get along just like before?”
“…”
“…I’m so scared… I don’t think I can do anything without Yoo Seon-i. I’m still fragile, easily hurt, and I get lonely a lot. There are a lot of other girls around Yoo Seon-i. Because I’m attached. That’s why I was scared. Yoo Seon-i should like me the most, but I should be the person she cherishes the most. What should I do if Yoo Seon-ie hangs out with other girls? There was. …At that moment, something big happened to me and to my family…”
…Of course, I knew the story behind it. What happened, what happened again. I knew all too well
“…I was so afraid of Yoo Seon going away…So I wanted to be by Yoo Seon’s side at all costs…Hey… Yoo Seon, I still don’t have any friends but you. You know…? I’m also running a business these days.. I hate stories like that. That’s not what ‘Jinah Lee’ says, it’s what the ‘granddaughter’ of Mirae Group says. If you’re always surrounded by them, the existence of ‘Jinah Lee’ will gradually disappear. I hated it and was scared. If I had no money, if everything I had disappeared, these people would not care about me at all. They are only interested in the granddaughter of Mirae Group and have no interest in the existence of ‘Lee Jin-ah’. Now The reason I was interested in a person named ‘Lee Jin-ah’ throughout my life… Was because there was no one other than Yoo Seon. A friend with whom I could confide in my heart comfortably, a reliable companion who would be my reliance by my side, and a reliable companion who would help me no matter what.. …Actually… I… Am happy with this life right now, no one will hurt me here, it’s just me and Yu Seon… If I go outside, I might get hurt again and hate others… I can just do nothing and watch interesting TV every day and just play games… And… I’m so happy that I can eat, take a bath, and sleep with you… Yoo Seon……How are things now…?”