75 – Regrets
“Why doesn’t Yreel wake up?”
“Miss Ireel is currently sleeping to recover her spirit.”
“Then is it okay just to get up?”
After thinking for a while, the saint glanced at Irelle and answered.
“The mental wound is very deep. Maybe… A little mental problem may remain.”
“Even if you, the saint, and her candidate, the saint, do not cure it… What the hell did Antares do to you…”
Bang.
Enraged, Richard slammed his fist on the ground.
‘Ir El… What the hell did she do when she was kidnapped by Antares…’
The saint looked at Irelle with a sad look.
Now that all the healing that can be done with divine power has been done, all you can do is pray.
The saint knelt down beside her yer el and began her prayer.
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When I got up, a familiar town appeared in front of me.
The neighborhood was quiet.
I raised my head and started looking for a familiar alley.
There are several similar alleys.
It is a maze-like neighborhood where a new scenery unfolds once you enter the alley.
I was walking like a trickster, stepping on only black blocks, but at some point I entered the house.
When I went to the living room, my father was there.
I hated my dad and everything that symbolized him.
My father, a typical Korean man, was truly anachronistic.
I smoked at home every day, always drunk and drunk, and I didn’t like all of the ridiculous bluffs.
“Where does a woman talk back!”
The moment I refuted my father’s order even once, the family yelled at me to leave.
My heart was pounding at the loud sound and I ran into the room.
‘It wasn’t like this originally.’
My father was unfairly fired and the atmosphere in the house changed.
My parents’ financial situation showed no sign of recovery.
My father was repeatedly losing his job and changing jobs.
Mom followed her dad and started smoking her cigarette.
In such a family atmosphere, I fell in love with watching reverse harem and writing comments.
For that moment, I was able to forget the reality.
My brother was lucky enough to get into a prestigious university.
Because I gave part of the money I earned from tutoring to my parents, I was treated like a pillar in the house.
‘On the topic of Hannam…’
If he had been praised since he was young, he wouldn’t be living like this.
If I had received expectations and encouragement, I would have entered a prestigious university and met handsome boyfriends.
‘It wouldn’t have turned out like this.’
The flesh that had been attached to her since she was a child seemed to have increased over time.
‘I don’t accept part-time jobs well because I’m a bit chubby…’
Even if the world went wrong, it seemed so wrong.
I sat down in my chair and turned on my computer.
And then I started watching Running Away from Tiredness in a Reverse Harem.
“Why does it seem like I haven’t seen you in such a long time?”
Looking at the monitor in a daze, it seemed that old emotions came to mind.
“Oh, sweet potato. Sweet potato.”
“Send it away? I’ll eat it once and throw it away.”
“Ehh.. I don’t accept men for this reason and for that reason, it’s frustrating.”
“I just need to live with dozens of handsome men…”
“Do you not accept a man flirting so discreetly? If it were me, he would drag me straight to the room.”
“This is a man. Even if they are only half alike, tsk…”
Giing.
The smart phone left on the desk rang.
It was a KakaoTalk message from my Hannam brother.
[He said he stayed in his room all day. How about doing a simple part-time job while getting some fresh air?]
“Hannam, who received all the support at home, dares…”
His fists trembled with anger.
I tried to make her cry tears of blood in order to be reborn as a good, sincere and exemplary daughter.
But poverty and the glass ceiling stood in my way, and now it is.
At this time, I was filled with anger and victim consciousness.
*
Suddenly, the surrounding scenery changed again.
From noble mtl dot com.
I changed like a heroine from a reverse harem.
Before I knew it, I was in a party.
I confidently walked down the street with my shoulders crossed.
As befits a party held by a duke’s daughter, the hall was crowded with young nobles.
“Young lady, how about dancing with me?”
“You’ve seen us before, haven’t you?”
“Oh Young lady looks like a single red rose.”
Handsome men scrambled up to talk to me.
‘This is it.’
He had a fiancé, but what?
‘I’m the main character.’
After choosing three of my favorites among the handsome men around me, I moved into an empty room as if bewitched.
That’s how I started hanging out with men in earnest.
The men’s faces were constantly changing.
‘I should do it with my fiancée.’
Looking at the unopened letters piling up on the desk, I suddenly thought of my fiancé.
Then I remembered the strangely bouncing image, and I felt bad.
‘What is land?’
I imagined myself marrying another man nicely and then dumping him.
Only then did he realize how ignorant he had bounced, and he knelt down and begged.
She sends her fiancé back in the arms of other men.
Imagining my fiancé so regretful, I smirked to myself.
‘When I first saw him, I thought he was an angel because he was so handsome…’
Coming to the academy, there were as many men who looked like him as if they were being kicked.
‘He’s nice, but he’s not my taste.’
Still, I changed my mind and said that if I wish later, I should eat it once and throw it away.
*
After spending time at the academy, I was standing at the party again before I knew it.
When I went out to the balcony, I saw the duke’s daughter and Robert.
“Don’t touch Irrel any more.”
Curiously, the fiance, a marquis, was warning the princess of the duke.
It was a problem with the duke’s daughter who framed him, but it was refreshing.
‘+1 Point’
My fiancé seemed to be a decent person more than I thought.
The surroundings changed again, and this time it was a forest.
“That b*tch is worth 100 gold coins!”
“Ha ha ha. We should taste it before handing over the captain!”
“I’ll think about it after I eat.”
Thieves approached, talking obscenities.
‘Anyone is welcome, so help me.’
I turned around and ran.
“Oops.”
I tripped on a protruding tree root and fell.
“hehehe. The old year is very desirable.”
I heard the screams of the thieves smirking behind me.
As I was about to turn my head to see the person who came to save me, a warm hand covered my eyes.
The man who blindfolded the corpse was Robert.
At this point, I felt my heart beating a little.
*
He disappeared and I was in a cabin.
Suin kidnapped me.
I thought he would be just fine with a good-looking guy, but he was offended by being raped.
The sculpture-like appearance and body of the beast were no longer attractive.
‘Looks aren’t everything.’
Although he was a beastman with excellent night skills like a beast, he no longer hated him.
I heard a commotion outside and someone came to rescue me.
“I’m sorry I’m late.”
It was Robert again.
From this point on, I think I started to like Robert.
I am grateful that he saved me, but unlike the other men, my heart was soft when I was with Robert.
So I increased the amount of time I was with Robert, but something unpleasant happened.
There were women called warrior party members next to Robert.
‘Be cheeky.’
Robert was strangely upset when pretty girls appeared next to him.
Then I took out my anger on him.
‘I was going to put you in my harem, but you didn’t even thank me and broke off my engagement.’
I tore up the letter from Robert and looked out his window.
I saw Robert waiting outside to meet me.
I looked at him standing in the rain that showed no signs of stopping and closed the window.
‘It’s too late to regret it. If I didn’t want to break up the marriage, I should have done better.’
I called the other men who were waiting outside into the room.
Soon the room was filled with scorching heat.
7 Hours later, I opened the window while fiddling with my sore back, and there was no one outside.
It was strange.
It wasn’t as enjoyable as before.
It felt like something was missing somewhere in my heart.
Time has passed and I have grown internally through various incidents.
After resolving the desires I couldn’t satisfy as a child and the feeling of inferiority that filled me inside, the world looked different.
There is no such thing as a glass ceiling in this world.
Unlike the Hannam who went on military vacation, I felt sorry for the men in this world.
Many men are dragged away and most of them die.
It was a bit understandable that he had a lot of wives because he had a shortage of men.
So I got rid of the women’s part I had made and made the men’s part.
Because the men were pitiful.
He also eliminated the cat soup kitchens he had built throughout the empire, and used the money to build facilities for injured men.
Men in this world needed more respect.
That’s how my hatred for men turned into respect for men.
As I went through various incidents and gained a lot of experience, I realized what I lacked.
It was love.
All the men around me are really good looking.
And he always catered to me, but strangely, there was no exchange of emotions.
Looking at them as time passed, I felt like a puppet that just listened to them.
Except for one person.
Only my former fiancé, Robert, was different.