(EP.333)Of Hearts #2
333 – Queen of Hearts #2
actually.
I used to think like this.
Maybe Ira likes me.
It’s not just that I like him as a cherished subordinate or a servant. Maybe he is rationally liking me.
Otherwise, there would be no way to make people lick soap or kiss their feet. But I never asked it directly.
There wasn’t even a situation like that.
I didn’t want to deal with the things that would happen after that if I got the answer “No.” So I kept it this way for now.
To be honest, I may have been enjoying the strange tension. The tension that seemed to be invisible, as if it could not be touched.
therefore.
This question was a story that might change a lot in my relationship with Aira. However, there is no answer from Ira.
“… … .”
Those black eyes looking up at me with half-closed eyes open. Looking at it, I don’t know if I haven’t heard what I said or if I’m lost in thought.
Shall I ask you again?
A little more certain this time.
“Ira-sama, do you like that Tae-oh gospel? By reason.”
“It’s strange.”
it’s weird
That’s a weird answer I hadn’t thought of.
“There would be no way Tae-oh would have asked me such a thing.”
Oh, it’s not.
I’ve decided to tinker with it in moderation.
“It’s a dream.”
“is it. If it’s a dream, you can But I don’t know the meaning. As a person of the opposite s*x, I don’t think that it’s important between you and me.”
Is Aira also trying to avoid answering her by making a fuss?
silkygoat was the goat. cry
No, it doesn’t look like that Aira’s eyes, which opened again, seemed to contain some sincerity.
It’s clear that Ira really doesn’t think it’s important in a relationship with me if I don’t like it or not like it. What does that mean?
Is there enough trust between us to go beyond that?
Or, after all, the relationship between a queen and a subject is because there is a wall that cannot be overcome even by affection? I asked for an answer, but only hooked question marks multiply in my head.
That was then.
“Then let me ask you the other way around. What does it mean to like rationally?”
Ira rather asked me a question. I don’t understand what the question implies. Are you seriously asking?
“I mean, I love you rationally. I mean, I literally like it. Aira-sama must have had one or two men she liked throughout her life, didn’t she?”
“Well… .”
Ira drooling slightly.
He seems to be in deep trouble.
Then move your lips little by little.
“Reuben was a kind man. always compliment me stroked my hair The age difference was quite big, so I always had to look up to him. Reuben was tall.”
Reuben.
“Judas and Dan were cheerful. They both had a naughty side. You’ve always been kind to me. Both of them would pick flowers for me, or catch birds.”
Judas and Dan.
These are familiar names.
After that, Ira mentioned the names of several men and talked about things she liked. Twelve in all.
Ira was a playboy who liked men as young as 12. You might think so, but those men were Aira’s older brothers.
The answer is a little different from what I thought.
Thanks for asking again.
“Not family. Are there any men who thought they wanted to get married?”
I tremble a little when I ask.
It’s like asking about your girlfriend’s past. To be honest, there were times when I didn’t want to hear an answer. As long as Aira is a human being, she must have had the experience of liking someone.
Because she was a princess loved by everyone.
The man she would have liked must have been a prince-like person, tall, in a uniform, and wearing a lot of shiny medals.
The prince who holds a ball to choose a princess and chases after Cinderella at 12 o’clock.
At the same time as such anxiety, on the one hand, I had a little expectation that my name might be coming out.
anxiety and anticipation.
The mysterious Pandora’s box is finally opened.
“No.”
“Isn’t there one?”
“okay.”
Sadness that blooms at the same time as relief.
saying there wasn’t.
It meant that no one had entered Aira’s heart, and at the same time, it meant that I couldn’t enter it either.
Is that possible?
“What is love?”
Shh.
Then Aira’s hand reached my chest. When that slender hand touched my left chest, I felt a bit uneasy.
Ira, who thinks of all of this like a dream, feels like she will grab my heart as it is. If it was Aira, it would be quite possible.
“What is marriage? Actually I never thought about it. In fact, I don’t even want to think about it.”
“However, didn’t you open an untitled book to find Gukseo? If there is a winner, we will get married. Are you okay with being so mean-spirited?”
At my question, which might be quite rude, Ira started to laugh. It was a small, faint laughter, like a leaf of grass swaying in the wind.
“It is just entertainment. Everything is finally swimming in a dream… .”
* * *
It won’t be as easy as you think.
That was my opinion after talking to Ira this time. What should Ira say? It was like a robot with missing parts.
Should I say that the feelings of love and affection are a little lacking?
In order to capture Aira, it is essential to make her love me.
But, to be honest, it was clear that it would not be an easy road to make Aira, who does not have such a function, like that.
To be honest, I knew that Aira had a slightly different feeling compared to the general public.
A psychopath or a sociopath who has a great lack of empathy and emotions. Because I was vaguely expecting it to be one of those things.
If it’s about the mind, the Draco sisters know it well. Could you explain the situation to them and get help?
“Lack of emotion… .”
After hearing my explanation, Mirna spoke slightly.
Mirna, who was having a light tea in her room, said “Um-.” several more times and then carefully opened her mouth.
“Narmi, what do you think?”
“Well? I can’t tell just by listening. But, actually, after talking a few times, I got that feeling. It’s definitely different from the usual way of thinking.”
“I was thinking so too. Definitely not a normal person.”
silkygoat was the goat. cry
Neither Narmi nor Mirna diagnosed Queen Aira’s condition as normal.
To be honest, even without expert knowledge, anyone who has known Queen Aira for quite some time can appreciate that.
Elgar, who was quietly listening to the story next to him, helped out with a word.
“Still, it’s better than before. He was a kid who didn’t even think about being a kid, he acted like it just popped out of his spinal cord. It has really improved a lot lately.”
Elgar’s words made sense.
Before entering Ark, Ira, who reigned as queen at Angmar’s court, was in a really bad condition.
“But, long before that, Ira was a good laugh and a good joker. The world ruined her like that. Emotions are bound to die.”
To Elgar’s calm story, Mirna said, “It kills emotions… .” he sighed lightly. Then he said as if he had thought of something.
“It could be as you say. Killing emotions is surprisingly easy. It is quite difficult to bring it back to life.”
Mirna proposes a hypothesis.
I wonder if Aira, who has suffered many tragedies in a row, has closed her heart.
“But be careful. Because inside the closed lid, there may be a lot of emotions and memories that I wanted to ignore.”
Mirna’s explanation reminded me of the moment I left to the deep world of Aira. I saw my sister’s wedding there.
The memories of those brothers and sisters bleeding and dying horribly remain in my mind, though vaguely.
Those are the memories that Aira wanted to hide deep in her heart.
If you open the lid of Aira’s emotions, the sadness and pain you should have felt at that time will come back at once and cause great pain.
Do we have the right to bring back the feelings she closed off because she wanted to turn away? The story of that feeling continues for a long time.
Then Narmi spoke.
“Queen Tarantera is strong. She’s stronger than we think. If it’s true that he’s maintained that level of sanity despite the terrifying monsters lurking in his heart, it means that he had an incredibly clean heart from the beginning.”
silkygoat was the goat. cry
Narmi blurs her words like a saint.
Her story reminded me of Aira’s status window that I had spyed on before. Indeed, in the occupation category of Aira, there was an item called ‘saint’.
At the time, I had doubts.
I think I know a little bit now.
is it a virgin
When I was thinking like that, I could feel people’s eyes gathering on me one by one. Their eyes probably mean that they should look at me and make a choice.
Of course, my answer was fixed.
“We have no other way. It has to go as planned. So, are the preparations going well?”
I lightly ask Sister Draco about the progress.
Then Narmi and Mirna started whispering among themselves. It’s so low that even my sensitive half-elf’s ears can’t hear it.
Is it like a special autograph from the sisters?
Elgar, who was looking at him, frowned.
“Being two of them, I feel like I’m doubly unlucky. Doesn’t it go back to normal? The two of us are talking with the same face, so we have no brains.”
don’t be a little crazy
Then Mirna opens her mouth.
“Preparations are going very smoothly. The problem is getting the medicine.”
silkygoat was the goat. cry
Narmi receives those words.
“I need some medicine because I have to go deep into my consciousness. A drug that is enough to put a beast to sleep with just one drop. You need ingredients to mix it yourself. With the help of Professor Stella, we will be able to save it somehow.”
Looks like the Draco sisters are going well.
“Then what about Elgar-sama? Are you well prepared?”
At my question, Elgar rubbed her forehead.
“Well, I’m trying my best.”
“Liones, I need you to sleep for at least 16 hours. It’s your job to make time for it, so you have to do it.”
“I know.”
Are things going well as planned?
Our plan is this:
After putting Aira to sleep with the drug, we too are immersed in the depths of the world together. And defeat the monster inside of Aira.
It’s a simple process to explain. Narmi and Mirna put their heads together and calculated it well, they said it would take 20 hours to catch it.
“I made an appointment with Aira for tomorrow evening. We decided to unwind together in a hot spring nearby. Is there enough time from evening to morning?”
“Lioness, tomorrow evening is too early!”
“I know. Because Aira is so busy these days that she doesn’t have time! If it’s a little later, the non-commissioning ceremony will proceed as it is, and now Tae-oh will never be able to defeat Aira, right?”
“I know that. What kind of side effects would there be if the drug was made so quickly? .”
Mirna and Elgar raised their voices at each other. Only Narmi looked at me and shrugged. I clapped my mates and stopped their fight for once.
“Everyone suffers a lot because I am lacking. I will make the decision tomorrow just as Elgar-sama gave it to me.”
Mirna is a bit perplexed by my answer.
“But, Tae-oh, I don’t know if there are any side effects to the medicine. No one can make an elixir so quickly.”
is it an abbreviation?
“If that’s the case, that’s fine. I’ll call an assistant.”
The finale is tomorrow evening.
Destroy Ars Nova, who lurks in Aira’s body, by tomorrow.
When the sun rose the next morning.
Many things in the world will change.