#3. It was a selfish love.
Marriage…
I’m married…
I took a large bite of my mother’s toast and thought while muttering.
If I get married in this life, this will actually be my fourth marriage.
Some people think it’s not good for a person to get married twice, but four times.
I laughed out loud.
How lucky I am that no one knows that I was a married man.
The world wouldn’t call me a rare thief.
I remembered the words that came out of the TV the day I committed suicide.
This is a special feature of my ex-wives who divorced me…
When I thought of the whole nation holding popcorn and watching it, my head was pounding.
Perhaps my ex-wives didn’t even know that they accidentally watched the show.
…It was a scene I really didn’t want to imagine.
* *
When I arrived at the academy, I caught my eye on the admissions rankings posted in the middle of the hallway.
I was the one who graduated first in my previous life, but I wasn’t a first-class hunter from the start.
If my memory is correct, the person who entered the first place…
[1St place. Yoo Shihwa.]
My second wife and another woman with the title of the strongest hunter.
It was a poem.
I had no relationship with Sihwa in my previous life at the academy.
You always competed with me for first place.
I didn’t have any personal acquaintances.
As it should be, there was Harin by my side.
I fell in love with Harin, and I never even looked at another woman.
For Sihwa, she had one nickname when she was at the academy, and she still thinks that she is a nickname that suits her very well.
[Cold-Blooded Princess]
If Harin said that she was like a beauty in a warm top like a bright flower, she was a beauty in opposite directions to Sihwa.
Sharp eyes. Pointed jawline. White skin.
And the most important factor is the face that doesn’t smile.
The first time I saw Sihwa smiling was after she divorced Harin and after doing several missions with Sihwa.
After she defeated the strongest monster of all time, she smiled at me and said that she had suffered.
The fact that I saw her smiling face was more shocking than the fact that I defeated the monster.
Her smile like that melted my heart worn out by her divorce with Harin so easily.
That’s why her smile was so beautiful and rare.
The same thoughts as Harin.
In Sihwa too, if I didn’t approach first, we were destined to live as strangers.
In fact, even in my previous life, I had never had a proper conversation at the academy, and it was a long time later that I had more conversation than necessary in a mission.
It should have been…
In the morning, the time for inquiry was near.
It’s not unusual for a classmate to come in and notify you.
The kids were all sitting down and doing their own thing or chatting with the kids next door.
Dr.
The door opened and everyone’s attention turned to the front door.
And the one who came in was not the homeroom teacher…
It was Yoo Shihwa.
She went up to the church without her hesitation.
It wasn’t just me who was embarrassed by her sudden appearance, but everyone in my class.
[Who are you?]
[Why is that? A girl who entered first place.]
[Is that him? Wow, she’s really pretty.]
[Ah~ But Ha-rin Yoon is better.]
[Yes~ No~]
I heard the conversations of the boys next to me.
Sihwa, who stood on top of the church without saying anything and looked down at the classmates, made eye contact with Harin.
And for some reason, Sihwa, who had been staring at Harin for a while, eventually turned her head and came out, but her eyes met.
Ttogakttogak.
The sound of her shoes echoed in our classroom, where there was still silence.
As she descended from her church and moved to the back of her classroom, she stopped in front of my seat.
“Choi Inwook.”
…I never gave you my name.
“…Yes?”
I was so embarrassed that I came out with respectful words.
“This.”
What she brought out on my seat…
It was banana milk.
What is it?
It felt like the circuits in my brain had stopped.
What is it? Why the hell is he doing this to me?
“Uh… what is this…?”
I didn’t know what to say, so I asked what it was.
“Drink.”
I understand that you gave me a drink…
There must be no reason for this…
Sihwa asked me with a fresh expression.
“Do you hate it?”
“Oh… no? I will drink.”
I don’t have a bad relationship with banana milk, so I drink it well, but I was confused.
“I will come again.”
Leave those words, Sihwa leisurely escaped through the back door.
Everyone in my class was looking at me with my eyes blinking like a fool, looking for an explanation.
Please don’t look at me with those eyes.
Because I don’t know.
* *
[Choi Inwook. Why didn’t you tell me!]
Wajang Chang.
Sihwa threw the frame on which our wedding photos were hung.
[Sorry… I just…]
Like shattered glass, our relationship seemed to be shattered at any moment.
[…This is a scam. Know? If this isn’t a marriage scam, what is it?]
[Sihwa! You know it’s not like that!]
A single tear fell from Sihwa’s eyes.
[Yes? Then what the hell were you thinking? Inwook Choi. Please answer me.]
Sihwa hit my chest.
She is also an S-class hunter. The strength of her fists she wielded was by no means equal to the strength of her fist with a cotton bat for ordinary women.
The pain that felt like being beaten by monsters remained in my chest.
[I didn’t mean to hide it until the end… And if it were you… Surely…]
Sihwa looked at me as if it was ridiculous.
[Did she know she’s married?]
I’m talking about Harin. This.
[No… But I didn’t know at the time…]
[Then I guess I’m the only one who didn’t know and married you this time.]
Sihwa kicked the floor as if in anger.
[What should I do?]
[What?]
[My career. My life. What to do Do you want me to grow old with you in this disgraceful way?]
Word by word, her words became sharp daggers and pierced my heart.
[And above all…]
She sat down.
[I wanted to have children with you too…]
It was the first and last time I saw Sihwa crying like a child.
[My child who looks just like you and me. I really wanted it.]
I wrapped my arms around her shoulders.
[I’m sorry… I’m sorry… Shihwa-ya…]
[How funny. Looking at myself, who was thrilled while watching the children’s section without knowing anything.]
[The day I asked what the baby’s name should be. That was the reason I hesitated and didn’t answer my question.]
[I don’t know anything… I like it alone…]
She sobbed as she covered her own face with her hands.
Only her sad cry filled her newlywed house, which should have been filled with warm words.
[Let’s get a divorce.]
[…What?]
Sihwa looked at me with her bloodshot eyes and spoke.
[I. I don’t think I can live with you.]
Don’t do that.
Don’t do that. It’s Sihwa
I knelt in front of Sihwa.
[I was wrong. So please… Please…]
I was desperate.
I couldn’t even lose the poem.
[I’ll ask you this. I’ll try to find a way by any means. Please, that’s all…]
I had no pride or anything.
I had to hold onto Sihwa.
She didn’t have the confidence to live a life without her.
[…There is no way.]
[No… I tried harder]
[Inwook-ah.]
Sihwa interrupted me.
[I know you… How you can do it already. I don’t think I’ve done it all…]
She was right.
In her marriage to Harin Iwa and in her divorce with her, she constantly tried to find a way, but nothing improved.
[I love you. It’s Sihwa I love you. Please look at me.]
Tears began to flow in my eyes.
[How can I not get a divorce…?]
Parre grabbed Sihwa’s hand with her trembling hand.
[Like this… I’m begging you… Please… Don’t leave me alone…]
Sihwa returned the hand I reached out to me.
[Inwook-ah.]
Her voice has subsided.
I had an instinctive intuition that I wouldn’t give the answer I wanted.
[How can you be so selfish?]
Sihwa got up her body and walked towards her front door.
Frozen at her words, I didn’t say anything and just looked at her back.
[Goodbye.]
The door lock opened and the poem disappeared through the front door.
I was left alone in the messed up second newlyweds house, and I tore my hair out.
Sihwa was right.
If I had confessed the truth before marriage, it might not have ended like this.
I was just afraid of being abandoned by her by her, so I brought her here by hypnotizing her, her self, that she would understand me if she were me.
…It was a very selfish love.
* *
I didn’t listen to the class properly.
You know everything anyway.
My head was filled with thoughts of the wives who had to face each other again.
And the message from the spirit of the beginning that you can’t help but worry about regardless of whether it’s authentic or not.
If that is true, who should I choose?
Perhaps this time, I thought that it would be a way to get rid of the regrets about my previous life and start a completely different life by forming a relationship with a new person.
Reung.
The bell rang announcing the last class.
First of all, I decided to avoid contact with my wives without making up my mind, so I packed my bags and tried to leave the classroom as soon as possible.
As I was about to open the back door and go out, I was startled.
“Let’s go together. Choi In-wook.”
It was because Sihwa was waiting for me in front of the door with her arms folded as if she knew I was going to come out here.
“…I’ve been wondering since a while ago, who is this to me?”
“You Shihwa.”
I know that.
But this was the first time she had revealed her name to me, so she pretended to be convinced.
“So Yoo Shihwa. What does it mean to me?”
Answered a little chilly in part.
Perhaps I would have reacted similarly if I had not known about her.
“Let’s go home together.”
“Then why am I with you…”
I had no choice but to pause what I was talking about for a moment, while asking about Sihwa’s outrageous actions.
Because…
The man who was my third wife at the other end of the hallway.
It was because Hayena was looking at us with a contemptuous expression.