Since it was designed on the premise that only one patient and his caregiver could enter together, of course, the interior of the bathroom was not very spacious, so the psychological pressure that the enormous sense of tightness brought to Lizzy was indescribable.
The only thing that makes it possible to catch even a single breath is the blue sky seen through the small window.
This must be the view of the world that the frog in the well sees.
“iced coffee… … ”
However, as if to cover it up soon, as Ferzen, who sat herself on a cramped chair, blocked her vision, Lizzie naturally lowered her head and exhaled a thin breath.
Clearly, he hasn’t done anything yet, but I feel the trauma that is slowly attacking me is gripping my body little by little.
“Uh, ah… … ”
But instead of being considerate of Lizzie, Ferzen, with her large hands outstretched, untied the flaps of her loose clothes… …
Lizzy trembled all over her body like a child lost on a cold day and contained a painful cry.
How can his hand, which touches his bare skin from time to time, be so creepy?
However, the thoroughly engraved fear crushed her so that she did not even dare to think of resistance and reduced her to a mere doll.
Shrek… …
As soon as she lost a lot of weight and her naked upper body, which looked particularly poor, was exposed in front of Ferzen, Lizzy put her hands together and sloppyly covered her tiny breast.
The humiliation and shame felt instinctively as a human being moved the body without going through the thoughts of the mind.
However, as if Ferzen had no interest in such a meager and wretched body, he laid down the stripped top on the floor and grabbed her skirt.
Shake!
“ah… … ”
For the first time, Lizzie held Ferzen’s hand only according to her pure will.
It’s a very insignificant effort to dare to call it resistance.
“… … ”
And that Ferzen himself knew better than anyone that his fragile hands had no power to stop him.
“Lizzie.”
“Uh-huh… … !”
“Let go.”
Instead of shaking it off with force, he muttered a single word, breaking the silence for Lizzy to step down on her own.
If there is any class of human beings most miserable in the world, they must be those who have been deliberately learned to surrender.
That’s why humans don’t call them slaves when they see them.
And perhaps even more tragic than that, Lizzie has learned to surrender to the enemy who has ruined her life… …
Unable to even recall the feeling of anger, he removed his trembling hand from Ferzen’s forearm.
tuk.
Then, the skirt that comes off in an instant reveals her bare legs, and the chilly air that circulates down on her skin.
However, as if it was not over yet, as Ferzen grabbed the white panties that were covering her pubic hair and pulled them down, Lizzy shuddered and clasped her legs.
“really… … You annoy people.”
Shake!
Clearly, his dry, dry voice only resonates in a low, calm tone.
After reading the faint irritation mixed with it, Lizzie could not handle the fear in her heart that was growing at will, and slowly spread her slender legs.
At the end of that, even the underwear covering her p*ssy was completely removed, revealing her naked body to him, and the only thing she could do was… …
“flaw… … ok… … !”
It was just crying and crying and crying.
How can it be so humiliating to show off your naked body in front of an enemy who trampled and killed your life, your family, and your family?
And Ferzen, leaving Lizzy’s appearance behind her, picked up a nearby gourd, scooped out the lukewarm water from the bathroom and poured it down on her.
Whoa!
Perhaps it was because she had been lethargic in her bedroom for a long time, her greasy, frizzy red hair ran down her eyes in an unsightly manner, obscuring her view.
Then, when he grabbed the soap that was lying in a corner, Ferzen couldn’t contain the sudden burst of laughter.
In the context of the times, soap is a part of beauty products that are difficult to spread readily enough to be provided free of charge to patients.
However, even in this historical background, it was probably because they judged that the value of soap was not very high.
The worldview that reflected the artist’s settings as it is, revealed such crude results.
In such a poor and fragile world, did they struggle so recklessly with their fates?
Now, what is the meaning of such a sentiment?
Even in a poor and poor world, it is better to be a winner who has everything than a loser who has lost everything.
You and Lizzy are contrasting and clearly proving that.
Ferzen, who was so impressed, grabbed Lizzie’s head and leaned it back on the chair.
Then, Lizzie, who met Ferzen’s red eyes looking down, and Lizzie, trembled and hurriedly turned her head to the side.
However, when Ferzen’s hand straightens his hair again, he closes his eyes tightly.
And, like most people, closing your eyes when you’re trembling in fear usually inflates the feeling… …
His hands were so gentle that he created soap bubbles and ruffled his hair, and it seemed that even the emotions of fear were washed away in an instant.
“flaw… … ah… … !”
As if having a seizure, Lizzy forced her eyes to open and put Ferzen’s red eyes into her purple eyes.
Just as a hungry man swallows a poisonous mushroom to appease his hunger, knowing he is going to die, in a world where everything has been trampled and crumbled, Lizzie fears another kind of great fear that, even if it is hypocrisy to humiliate her, she will depend on Ferzen’s false kindness for complacency. This was tough.
Could there be such a cruel ending as the world’s most hated foe becomes his only support?
Lizzie, who had decided to expose herself to the fear brought by trauma, did not openly close her eyes despite the pain in her eyes that were gradually reddened.
“If you still look at me, soapy water will run into your eyes.”
Shake!
And he has a slight smile that he doesn’t know whether he is mocking himself or worrying about it.
With her large hand wiping away the soapy water running down her forehead while reciting in a low voice, Lizzie pleaded with a voice mixed with weeping as if screaming.
“I, please… … ”
please don’t do this
Rather, it would be far better for him to brutally abuse himself or ruthlessly rape him in this position.
Yes, Lizzy obviously thought so.
It doesn’t stop at just a simple idea.
“Tea, I’d rather… … me… … Ha, abuse or… … Go, rape me… … ”
Ra, to the point of holding a miserable begging in his mouth.
However, as if Ferzen didn’t hear it, she pours water over her soapy hair and starts rinsing it thoroughly.
Is it an unspoken pressure to commit suicide if you don’t want to suffer the violence wrapped in this cruel kindness?
However, how could he cut off this life, which had been sustained by the sacrifice of his older brothers, with his own hands?
I’d be more than happy to accept Ferzen’s killing myself, but that’s never going to happen.
Just like that, what each other wants from each other is also standing in an indescribable antithesis.
Leaving behind Lizzy, who is trembling, he drops a few drops of perfume oil he took out of the space while he is soaping a clean cloth.
The scent of perfume that spreads brightly in the narrow bathroom.
This must have been his taste.
Because of this, Lizzie vehemently refused to have some of his traces engraved on her body… …
The moment Ferzen touched her bare skin, the learned helplessness quietly made her submissive.
sruk.
Ferzen, who raises her hand with a sap needle, as if handling a doll untied, brings a white cloth containing soap bubbles.
When I touched it myself, I wondered how it could be so bare.
Beneath the pink n*pples that had risen with tension, the slender sides of her ribs were faintly exposed.
Since it showed signs of malnutrition, it can be said that it is natural.
When Ferzen, who had finished soaping her upper body, moved to the front and tried to wipe her lower body, Lizzy flinched and naturally closed her legs.
However, since it was a struggle so delicate that it would be hard to even call it resistance, it was simply opened by his hand penetrating between his thighs.
“… … ”
And as the pure white cloth poking through the gap gently wiped her crotch, Lizzie looked at Ferzen in front of her with a bewildered expression.
For him, it must have been nothing more than washing the toys he was playing with.
When this time is over, will he become a doll that plays with his clothes once again?
Like an attachment doll that a child sleeps in his arms to relieve anxiety, he is a doll that relieves his guilt… …
Until then, the moment I finished thinking.
Lizzie, guided by an unknown instinct, moved her right foot and stomped on Ferzen’s left foot.
“ah… … ah… … ”
Yes, she herself.
It made him trample on himself, his family, and his family.
He pushed the starting point of the past into his head and pulled the trigger.
“flaw… … ah… … ! ugh… … ah… … !”
A trauma engraved more deeply than ever before hits him.
That day 8 years ago vaguely recalled in my mind, and the cruel figure of Ferzen who was devastatingly damaging his left foot flashed past.
As soon as the childhood Ferzen overlapped with the fully grown Ferzen in front of me… …
“Ouch… … ! under… … ah ah ah ah… … ”
Lizzy burst out a sad laugh, as if she had foreseen the future that would soon come upon her.
Unsurprisingly, as his right foot gently stomped on his left, Lizzie gave a twisted smile.
Now that he has nothing left to destroy but himself, what should he be afraid of?
Let his hypocrisy fortune-telling kindness gently caress his body and pretend to heal his wounds.
It would be far better to let him ruin himself, as befits his dirty and ugly side.
“… … ”
But for some reason, Ferzen removed the foot that was trampling on his left foot.
Then, he bends his knees and silently continues the soaping of his white legs.
“right… … It’s not funny… … Don’t be funny–!”
Lizzy, forgetting even the trauma that engulfed her body, let out the most desperate scream in the world to Ferzen.
Isn’t the truth that Fersen herself could have chosen a different outcome from that day, but it wasn’t too cruel?
Why are they even showing the different results right now in front of their own two eyes?
“Step on… … ! to step on… … ! like that day… … ! my right foot… … I mean, it’s the same as breaking your left foot——!”
A soft hand slammed down Ferzen’s head with his knees bent and head bowed.
Then, his well-groomed hair began to scatter, but Ferzen didn’t mind, finished soaping her white legs, and grabbed her hands and got her up from the chair.
Then, after gently hugging Lizzie into her arms so that it does not slip, she begins to wipe her butt*cks that she couldn’t reach.
The water mixed with soap bubbles slowly wets his uniform, but the kindness of washing it without paying attention to it… …
The violence became so brutal that it took my breath away and encircled Lizzie.
Yeah, always like this.
The path he walked was always a thorny path.
The place we arrived at was a cliff every time.
Saying that there is nothing new to say now, Lizzie kept a weeping laugh in Ferzen’s arms.
“… … ”
After finishing all the soaping, Ferzen sat Lizzy’s body on the bathroom floor and started to slowly wash away the bubbles by scooping out water.
However, just as all the bubbles were washed away, a faint stinky smell slowly spread into the bathroom.
squeak… …
Embarrassingly, with a clear sound.
Lizzie’s urine mixes with the water that runs down the bathroom floor and into the sewer pipe.
When I looked down and looked at Lizzy’s face, she was staring at the wall with eyes completely out of focus.
Still, trembling with instinctive fear, like a puppy in front of a dog breeder, Ferzen calmly grabbed the cloth soaked in soap bubbles again.
And then when Lizzy stopped urinating… …
She gently laid her upper body on the bathroom floor, then went down, grabbed her legs, and continued soaping once more.
If a third person sees it, would it be seen as a person who sincerely lends a hand for a girl with limited mobility?
However, Lizzie, who no longer reacted like a dead corpse to Ferzen’s actions, focused her eyes on the blue sky through the small window.
“… … ”
Why?
No more, from that cloudless clear sky.
I can’t feel the feeling of being beautiful.
There’s definitely something wrong with me for getting hard reading this