033. I will never let you go anymore
It was a rainy day.
‘Ha-jin’ waited for his father with his older brother, sitting on the floor where the raindrops were falling.
During this time, when he was still young, Ha-jin looked at the rainy scene with wonder. And at such times, his older brother, San, would stretch out his hand and put rainwater in his grasp.
“It’s raining again and damn it.”
… At this time, the mouth of the mountain was a bit thick. It was a time when his mind and body were too tired from his father’s abuse under the guise of training and education.
The first word I started to use perfectly was to the point of swearing, so I wouldn’t need to say more than that.
Anyway, Baeksan stares at the rainwater in his hand and then throws it away.
“…Brother.”
It was none other than Hajin who suffered the damage. Sitting next to him and watching the rain, he was hit by a blow, and his bangs were damp.
The younger brother looked just like a rat in the rain, and the mountain put a mischievous smile on his lips.
“Did you wash your hair one more time? When did you wash it?”
He skillfully covered it up as if he didn’t know about it, but he seemed quite happy. Because of that, Hajin couldn’t say anything.
I just stared at my older brother with narrow eyes and then stared at the raining sky again.
You might be ashamed of that dry reaction, but San doesn’t look like that at all and still stares at his younger brother with a slight smile on his lips.
“Why do you like rain so much?”
In the past, San had often asked this question to his younger brother. But that was when neither San nor Hajin was young, so he never got a straight answer.
And that also meant that Ha-jin had liked Rain for a long time.
“I can understand if it’s snow, but it only comes in winter and I don’t feel so down.”
Sando said he liked it when it snowed on a winter day, but like most people on a rainy day, he sagged.
To his brother’s sincere question, Ha-jin, who briefly looked towards his brother, raised his head and looked at the sky again, at the water droplets forming on the roof, and answered.
“Sure.”
Are you trying to give a general answer this time? At that time, I was thinking that the mountain had crossed the water to hear a satisfactory answer.
Hajin continued.
“I just… Think you’re in the same situation as me.”
“What’s your situation?”
What situation are you talking about? When the mountain asked back at the sound of catching the floating clouds, Ha-jin opened her mouth with a slightly faint look in her eyes.
“When it rained, people used to swear at it as if it were in itself unholy.”
“…….”
Only then did San know what Ha Jin was saying.
“Doesn’t it just look like me?”
Shoot ah ah——
The sound of words is buried in the melody provided by the sky.
There was no sign that the rain would stop.
* * *
Endymion felt that her mind was confused. It was before she even opened her eyes. I don’t know what happened, but it felt like her goal was about to break.
‘What… ‘
Why are you doing this? Endymion did not understand the sudden dizziness that came like a wave.
‘I didn’t drink too much the day before… ‘
I know that if I drink alcohol, my mind will be dizzy the next day unless I detoxify it. But she hadn’t drank in years.
‘Yes… So rather than that….’
It’s not often, but it wasn’t the first time this happened. Endymion could immediately recall that rare experience. So I quickly realized why.
‘Originally, suffering enough to die… When the body is formed again.’
Like a phoenix, even if you die once, you will come back to life no matter how you die-
The process was not so smooth for Endymion to go through.
‘I don’t know what else… It’s quite a big deal, so I get really dizzy.’
Thanks to that, every time I woke up, I felt like I was suddenly attacked. There is no way that the memories from before the blackout of consciousness will immediately come to mind.
‘Come to think of it… Why did I die and then come back to life… ‘
A regeneration of this level would have been unusual. Endymion, who rolled his head a little, soon found the answer and let out a soft exclamation.
‘I tried to cross the boundary.’
I remember the voice telling me that it was reckless. But I remember ignoring her because her voice was really annoying.
In the end, I felt like I knew it was a failure. Endymion couldn’t reach beyond the boundary in the end. She seemed to be able to get out if she reached beyond-
‘No… I could definitely get out.’
It was only for a moment, but I felt it. That’s the exit. I can go a little further.
However, Endymion did not reach the place he wanted in the end, and he was led back by someone’s hand.
‘Maybe… It must be Selene.’
A person who can bring himself out of there without incurring any resistance against the border. At that time, Endymion was convinced that the touch was Selename.
“Ha…”
Laughs come out of nowhere. As soon as Endymion woke up, he felt like he had a fight.
“XX… X is done…”
She puts in his mouth the grumbling that her older brother often used to do when she was young. When the situation is extremely bleak, they say this. Endymion also watched hard from the side and learned.
‘I can’t see… It wasn’t the only reason I closed my eyes.’
It’s just dark everywhere. It would be nice if there was at least a candle light like the last time I was locked in the room, but this time there wasn’t even such a weak light.
Truly a dark room, Endymion intuited that her own future was no different in front of the darkness that she could not see even an inch in front of her.
‘Now you know everything….’
If this wasn’t the tomb, Selene must have been dead and then she must have watched the bizarre process of coming back to life from her side.
‘And then I saw that her body was tied up again.’
As she tried to move her arms and legs, it was a knot that was tightly entangled. She sensed that the coolness against her skin was reminiscent of metal, and that she was not an ordinary restraint.
‘I’m not going to use the same thing as before.’
A string that has already been proven ineffective once will be put away. Thanks to this, Endymion has become more difficult to escape.
‘Now it looks like it’s firmly stamped… ‘
Escape after being freed from restraints, being fooled by illusions, throwing oneself at the boundary, and being dragged back, failing to escape.
Such a splendid record certainly deserved Selene’s anger.
Tack-
A door that opens just in time. Startled, Endymion shuddered and quickly closed her eyes again as a light fell upon her vision. This time she pretended to be really sleeping so she wouldn’t be caught as easily as last time.
“…Endymion.”
“…….”
“I know what happened.”
“…….”
“But I won’t wake up… you mean?”
For a moment, my heart almost started pounding. Even he managed to control it, reducing the fear of being found out, but the voice that saw through it as if he were mind-reading still had the power to send chills down the spine.
Dubuck-Dubuck-
It was the sound of footsteps that could be heard on the cold, hard floor of a prison, as if the floor was in poor condition. Because of this, Endymion grew more and more aware of what might happen to her if she woke up.
“Yeah… I’m not surprised anymore. The act of deceiving me.”
Deception… Endymion could not swear to heaven, but he had no intention of doing so. However, Selene continues to say that or not.
“I never dreamed that you were hiding mystical abilities… Somehow, it was no coincidence that you survived the war.”
That was a real coincidence. Of course, I was able to escape safely as the energy wrapped around my body reflexively.
“I had such an ability, but I hid it, la… I was in awe of it. I really didn’t notice.”
Selene’s tone when she said that sounded like she was deliberately angry. But soon, with a broken laugh, she spoke in a relaxed tone.
“Yeah… what’s the use of it now. The problem is…”
I feel a delicate hand wrapped around her neck. Endymion didn’t know what she was going to do.
“…This is because you tried to leave me.”
A grip that presses harder and harder on the neck. With the dizziness still not completely gone, Endymion felt even more dizzy and tired as her breath tightened.
But he wasn’t the one to express this. In response, Selene puts pressure on her with the momentum to break her neck, presumably to see who wins.
“Why… Why do you keep avoiding me like that…!”
Awkwardly, Endymion almost became agitated, even for a moment. There was a hint of moisture in her voice. There was sincerity in it that could not be felt as false acting.
“What can I do for you…! If there’s anything you want from me, say it in words!!!”
Endymion’s hair swayed noisily as if he had been energized by the intense lion’s roar, which even made you feel sad.
“…That’s right, it won’t happen until the end.”
Honestly, it wasn’t until after enduring with evil that Endymion came to a rational decision. It should have happened in the middle of this.
‘… Ah.’
Belated regret. Recalling that she had endured her father’s torture before, she reflexively endured it. He noticed this, but the time was past.
“Ha ha… Ha ha…!”
It seems that it wasn’t easy for Selene to strangle Endymion either. Her breathing was rough. Perhaps she was more mentally exhausted than physically exhausted.
At this point, Endymion also felt guilty.
‘… Did he feel betrayed?’
“I felt betrayed.”
As if responding to his thoughts, the talking Selene seemed to have uttered words close to an answer as if by chance.
“I’ve been thinking a lot… Did I hate having you by my side this much? Did I force myself to hold you? Are my feelings really one-sided? Then what should I…”
It blurs the end of words. She was silent for a moment, then Selene spoke soon.
“So… I was thinking of releasing you.”
At this point, Endymion was surprised. I don’t think he would have thought of that. She could see that Selene truly loved her.
For the happiness of her loved ones, it’s not uncommon for her to consider choices that aren’t good for her.
“But I couldn’t do that…”
But the words that followed made her fear outweighed her guilt.
“You don’t want to be by my side? What are you going to do? I won’t let you go.”
“At least I love you.”
“So… If you hate me, I’ll make you like me.”
The sound of her lined up was bloody before I knew it. Selene gently freed his neck, which she had tightly gripped.
“There are some worries that have been resolved at this opportunity… At least you don’t think my name exists.”
I stretched out my arms and wrapped them around his body. Selene hugged the bound Endymion warmly. A hug full of affection, and a sweet whisper in his ear.
“Welcome back.”
“…….”
Endymion trembled. It was a mad love that he had never received.