169 – Bear the Weight of Your Wife
Laura von Wehner.
No, now that she was Mrs. Jaeger, three men caught her eye.
They were soldiers dressed in black clothes reminiscent of crows, wearing black hats, black uniforms, black shoes, and silver-worked swords.
As soon as she saw them, the heart of 26-year-old Laura, who still had the delicate sensibility of a girl, tightened, and her eyes were filled with tears, looking like they were about to pour out at any time.
She, who has written hundreds of pages of death notices so far in her unique, correct handwriting, knows what it means when soldiers dressed like that come to her house.
However, as the wife of a great general named Peter Yeager and as a soldier of the Empire, she calmly stood before them without blinking her eyes to keep her tears from flowing.
They were in a perfectly still posture, as if in a painting, and the man in the lead quietly lowered his head and opened his heavily closed mouth.
“Lieutenant Colonel Laura, your husband, Major General Peter Jaeger, commander of the 7th Division of the Reich Imperial Army, died while supporting the retreat of His Royal Highness the Crown Prince and the Imperial Army on the Litzen Hill in Switzerland.”
From the moment she knew they were coming, she knew that they would deliver notice of the death of the man she loved so much.
So, I tried to hold on and act as resolute as possible as the wife of a great imperial general named Peter Yeager.
Even though Laura did not blink her eyes, she could not hold back any more tears and a single tear began to roll down her cheek.
Her chest hurt so much, as if it was being squeezed and torn apart.
Only the sound ‘Ah, ah’ came out of her mouth and no other sounds were coming out.
Looking at her like that, the man in front of her handed her box to her soldiers behind her, opened it in front of her, showed it to her, and said,
“His Majesty the Emperor highly evaluated Major General Jaeger’s achievements and posthumously awarded him the rank of Marshal of the Imperial Army, and the Diamond Cross of Knight’s Swords…..”
Laura couldn’t understand what the man in front of her was saying.
It just felt like her mind was empty, and a humming sound could be heard inside.
And she thought.
‘Now you can’t hug your son Friedrich, whom His Majesty the Crown Prince named? Is he not able to say thank you to me for working hard to give birth to that child? I will never be able to hear you say I love you in a warm voice again every morning. I was grateful that you, whom I admired the most, loved me and became my husband, and in that way, you became everything in my life. Does this mean I won’t be able to meet you again in the future?’
As her thoughts flowed like that, the image of her husband’s warrior, which had seemed unreal until just now, began to come to mind little by little.
At the same time, the sadness, loneliness, pain, and sadness that flowed from my heart burst out like a river overflowing with flood.
Laura lost her strength and sat down, hitting the ground and crying.
“Why, why! Would Deus allow you, the person who took the risk to save His Highness the Crown Prince and everyone else, the person who served the empire the most, to die in vain like this? And why on earth did you give me the tragedy of living today without you…”
She cried, hitting the ground several times, but no matter how much she cried, her tears did not stop.
No matter how many times she hit the ground, she did not feel any pain in her hands.
At the same time, she woke up to the feeling of someone shaking her.
“Ma’am, ma’am! Are you okay? “Did you have a bad dream again?”
After hearing her words, Laura let out a sigh of relief.
Because if what she experienced was a nightmare, her husband, Director Jaeger, is alive.
Because of her relief, she was sweating so much during her nightmare that she didn’t even notice that her blanket and pillow were soaked.
“It’s okay, it’s okay. “I just had a bad dream, Nanny.”
Just as they say that among those who say they are okay, none of them are really okay, Laura’s condition was naturally not good.
Her body was drenched in cold sweat because she had had a nightmare, and her gaze was slightly wavering because her mind had not completely recovered from her great shock.
She received the name of her child, who was born from the Crown Prince three weeks ago, and at the same time, she heard that Major General Peter Jaeger was leading the 7th Division and was isolated on Lichen Hill.
From then until now, she was under such mental pressure that she could not eat a proper meal, except that she could only eat porridge with a little salt every day.
As her days passed, her worries about her husband grew, and her mother’s body, which needed to recover her strength through postpartum care, was gradually weakening.
“……Miss. You must have a strong mind. There was no notification of death. “I’m sure you’ll be back in good health soon.”
To those words, Laura once again felt the sadness welling up deep in her heart and answered with tears in her eyes.
“I know, Nanny. I’m sure the director is alive. From the moment I had him in my heart until now, the director has always worked miracles. I’m sure he’ll be back again this time with everyone in the 7th Division. But, by the way.”
“Yes, lady.”
“It breaks my heart to think that the director could possibly pass away. I am afraid that I will never again hear you call my name and Laura in that kind voice. I’m scared, I’m scared, I’m so scared that I’m going crazy. Would I be able to survive if I had to live without Him? “Even if I don’t try to, I keep imagining things like that… It hurts so much.”
The nanny, who, under the orders of the Marquis of Venner, was by Laura’s side, helping her with her postpartum care and taking care of her mental state, heard this story dozens or hundreds of times.
So, she’s getting tired of it now, but she knows her sadness and grief every time she listens to it, so every time she listens to it, it’s not something she’s used to and it hurts her heart.
Moreover, even though her nanny was born into a family of low-ranking knights, she was the one who took care of her for decades.
Moreover, she could sympathize with her feelings.
As the nurse was trying to comfort Laura and give her strength, her maid’s voice was heard outside her door.
“Ma’am, the soldiers have arrived.”
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At those words, Laura felt as if her heart was pounding, or rather, the sky was falling towards her…
“Nanny, help me change.”
“Yes, lady.”
She quickly changed her clothes, determined to accept whatever the outcome.
**
When Laura came out her door, there were three men standing there, wearing the same clothes she had seen in her dream.
However, while the expressions of the men she saw in her dream were completely frozen, the expressions of the people in front of Laura now were relatively bright.
In other words, their bright expressions were proof that Laura’s husband, Major General Jaeger, was alive, and contrary to what she had seen in her dream, her heart was filled with joy.
Of course, a bright smile appeared on her face that made it difficult to believe that she was someone who had been in an endless state of sadness.
“Are you Lieutenant Colonel Laura von Vener, the wife of Major General Peter Jaeger, commander of the Imperial Army’s 7th Division?”
It was a very formal confirmation process, but even this process felt very welcoming and friendly to her now.
Is that why? She was so happy that she responded by grabbing the hand of a younger officer lower in rank than her and shaking it.
“That’s right, I am Laura von Venner.”
“Director Jaeger’s lecture has just ended. By order of His Majesty, I will briefly report on his exploits.”
At those words, Laura nodded her head loudly with tears in her eyes out of joy, and the officer delivering her news took pains to convey her achievements in a calm voice.
In the process, she was worried about the warden who had fought at the vanguard for over a month on Lajiman Hill in order to save the crown prince and his soldiers, and her eyes sparkled when she heard that he had cut down and killed over hundreds of enemies.
When she heard that when she returned, she was carried by Lieutenant Colonel Kergit and rode on her horse, she felt sorry for the major general who was exhausted from fighting so fiercely that he could not even ride a horse, but at the same time, she gave herself to another woman. I also felt that I didn’t want to be entrusted with it.
And finally, she arrived at Dolpino Castle and lay down on her hospital bed recovering her body. She was relieved to hear that she was recovering her physical strength smoothly and that even now, she He thought that he wanted to run to her and take care of her.
But anyway, what was important to Laura now was that Director Jaeger came back alive.
After hearing everything, she sat down and began to cry, tears pouring down her face, just as she had done in her dream.
However, now, unlike in the nightmare, he was crying out of excitement that Director Jaeger, whom he loved the most, had come back alive.
Laura was so happy that she was so grateful that she could cry.
The young officer also read the mood, handed over the sealed scroll containing the details of awards and decorations to a nearby servant, and quietly left.
And that night, Laura thought as she looked back at the details of Director Yeager’s exploits and the records of what happened along the way.
‘I feel jealous and nervous that there is another woman next to you, and I feel like I want to have it all to myself. ‘Because I don’t think I can protect you anymore by myself.’
Then, she whispered with all her heart that she no longer wanted to lose the man she loved the most, even in her dreams.
“I think you should leave two women by your side who only you don’t know and who love you so much. Because those two people like Director Jaeger just like me. “It’s not that I’m not jealous, but it’s much better than you leaving me forever.”