167 – Like a thread breaking
Growing up as an orphan, I decided at some point that I wanted to die. After repeatedly failing on my own and being hospitalized several times in hospital rooms that resembled a prison, I had already become a counselor.
I didn’t have any special beliefs or goals. Since I had been through several doctors and received familiar consultations every time, all I did was follow their tone of voice, actions, and facial expressions.
Proper study. Appropriate tone and behavior.
A plethora of things that come with it.
Life was made up of choices, and I found them extremely annoying.
So I chose to die.
I have failed several times on my own, so this time I decided to borrow the power of others.
But my plans often ended in failure.
Some people got scared and ran away, while others cursed at me.
Even though he gave me love at first, he eventually grew distant.
If you truly love me, I wanted you to make what I want come true.
That means there was no one who ‘really’ loved me.
Continued until now. No one.
If it were a young child with immature thinking and behavior, wouldn’t it grant my wish?
Won’t you love me truly and purely?
With such expectations and wishes, I was appointed to Sakuraba Academy.
However, I met a strange man there.
Even if you know the real me, you won’t run away. He didn’t move away from me like the others did.
On the contrary, it is gradually coming closer to me.
But he doesn’t love me.
He says he doesn’t like me and comes closer to me.
What on earth is it?
I couldn’t figure out his intentions.
‘It’s true that I don’t like the teacher, but’
‘I never thought it was okay to die’
I sat on the bed in the room he cleaned out and thought.
There was a bag of medicine and a glass of water that someone had given me on the desk.
I hated it because when I took that medicine, I felt very sleepy and the drowsiness continued until the next day.
Someone took care of it.
I was told to eat it.
‘So please move’
I slowly moved my body and approached the desk.
I picked up the glass, opened the medicine bag, and put it in my mouth.
***
Seo-ah looked at me with an absurd expression.
The more I did, the more I smiled and begged her.
“Please do me a favor. Huh?”
“Can’t you see there are friends behind me?”
Seo-ah asked, pointing to the classroom.
Just as she said, in her classroom, there was always a group that had lunch with Seo-ah, looking in this direction.
“There is only you. “Elena is anxious.”
Seo-ah’s angry expression eased a little when she heard that it was only you.
“Ha, of course. Because her communication skills suck.”
I almost said that you were not easy, but I barely held back. Because she wears a mask on the outside and is good at being friendly with others.
She can be said to be much better than Ms. Elena.
“Ha. I can’t help it. “Is this the first time?”
“Yes, thank you.”
She grabbed Seo-ah’s arm and shook it. It was a sign of her gratitude, but she blushed and turned her head away.
“Jo, a little…” ! “Other kids see it.”
“Oh, sorry.”
These days, I’ve become more accustomed to receiving help from others rather than acting on my own, so I grabbed her arm without realizing it. When I thought about it, it seemed like quite a rude behavior.
“Then let me ask you a favor.”
I left her classroom, shaking her hand.
Seo-ah crossed her arms and sighed, but I believed that since she had accepted me, she would definitely grant my request, so she headed to the rooftop.
It was lunch time.
“Where did you go?”
She opened the rooftop door and waved her hand to Yuuki and her companions who were waiting first.
“Sorry. Restroom.”
“I keep going alone these days. “Even if you ask me to hang out after school, I go alone.”
Yuki grumbled with a suspicious look in her eyes, but I, who had been busy with unspeakable things these days, had no choice but to laugh and brush it off.
“Manager, you probably have your own life too. “Don’t be too upset, Yuu-kun.”
“But your sister was also disappointed to hear that Minsu wasn’t at the meeting yesterday. “Why are you acting cool?”
“My, when did I do that? I am only considerate of the manager….”
The senior made excuses and cleared his throat, but I also felt sorry. Yesterday, I refused their request and met Yanase.
However, it’s not that I didn’t particularly want to join the group or that I cheated on him with another woman.
Because Seo-ah and Elena were together yesterday.
If I were alone, I would have felt some remorse.
“It’s okay. You can play next time. “Is that right, Minsu?”
“Yes, thank you. “Haruna.”
“But Yuuki-sama, what you say also makes sense. “I was also disappointed that Minsu was missing.”
While I was opening my lunch box and thanking Shiraishi for his honest feelings and Haruna for his thoughtfulness, the door to the rooftop opened.
“Huh? Who is it.”
Yuki raised his head.
“Huh? Yuuko?”
Yuki, who was muttering in surprise, immediately stood up.
“…… Mr. Yanase!”
The reactions are really different.
As per my request, I stopped by her counseling room and brought Mr. Yanase with me.
“Can we have lunch together?”
Then he asked in a natural way.
There was no way I would be rejected.
“Ah… of course! Come sit down, Yuuko-chan. And….”
Although she was a somewhat unexpected member, Haruna greeted her with a smile nonetheless.
“Teacher too. “If it’s okay, eat with us.”
Yanase looked embarrassed, as if he didn’t know what to do.
If I had left it alone, I would have starved again or eaten cup ramen alone.
I have never seen her eat with anyone.
Yesterday, while cleaning her messy house again, I found the cup ramen set on the cupboard.
And the refrigerator is full of simple prepared foods that have never been opened.
The life of a hikikomori, an unemployed person living alone and wasting away his life, was literally reflected in that house.
Of course, she is a female teacher who is envied by everyone with a decent job. I couldn’t help but marvel as I cleaned the house, cleared away the piled up laundry and the dirty kitchen.
It makes you think that she manages to maintain her body and beauty by living such an unhealthy lifestyle.
“Miss Yuuko is welcome, but… “I’m dissatisfied with the teacher getting involved.”
Shiraishi complained.
Now that I think about it, Shiraishi has shown her feelings of competition to her a few times and vented her resentment.
Even during her school trip, she didn’t talk to her even once.
“Aki-chan~ Let’s all eat together.”
Even if Haruna gently pushes her shoulder and tries to persuade her, she doesn’t budge.
“I don’t like it. “It’s fun.”
Yanase, who was dragged by Seo-ah, looked at us like that and didn’t know what to do.
“Umm~ What can I say?”
Yuki was eating rice, playing with his chopsticks calmly while saying that.
There was a lunch box that each person had packed on the mat.
A homely lunch box decorated in Haruna’s colors.
A sumptuous, luxurious lunch box similar to Shiraishi’s dinner.
Takase senior’s healthy lunch box.
While watching Haruna comfort Shiraishi without opening a single word.
“Ah~ Ki~-chan. Don’t do that~”
“I don’t like it~ Buy it~.”
A loud growling sound filled with a strong demand rang out.
“Huh?”
Yuuki turns his head without notice, checking from person to person.
“Who is it? “The person who just twitched.”
Yuki, who was giggling as if she was planning on teasing her to her heart’s content, soon looked at Yanase.
“Ah…… Teacher?”
I knew it without having to look.
She was the one who looked at her lunch box and made her stomach growl.
Yanase shook her head, her face blushing as she clutched her hungry stomach.
“Oh, no! That’s not it, my stomach hurts… !”
Shiraishi, who was looking at Yanase with a dumbfounded expression, sighed.
“I can’t help it. “I, Akira Shiraishi, have always lived by practicing noblesse oblige.”
Yanase, who finally received permission through a growl that sounded like thunder, sat down on one side of the seat, embarrassed.
The thing she took out with some hesitation was cup ramen.
“Seo, teacher?”
Haruna looked at it in confusion.
“Uh, huh? Why?”
“Are you sure you want to eat that for lunch?”
“Uh. Ah… “Is it a nuisance because of the smell?”
Shrinking in front of the students, Yanase hid her cup ramen behind her.
The sight of her, who always looked so mature and perfect, rubbing her hungry stomach and taking out her cup ramen for lunch seemed quite shocking to everyone.
“No! “If I only eat ramen, I’ll get sick like Yuu-kun!”
“Why do I have to be an example….”
Haruna put her own side dish into the lid of her lunch box.
Naturally, the senior also moved his chopsticks to carry her salad and broccoli.
“Now, Yuu Island.”
“Huh? Me too?”
Yuuki, me too.
“I would like to especially dedicate the fried shrimp and salmon roll.”
For some reason, Shiraishi seems to be in a good mood.
“Here.”
Even her daughter shared her side dish and handed it to Yanase.
With that done, a lunch box that seemed to be quite large for one person was completed.
“Now, teacher. Please eat!”
Yanase looked at it blankly, holding his chopsticks.
“Ah…… “
To prevent her from refusing, we started eating and had a lively time as usual.
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In such a hectic time, Yanase lowered her eyes and quietly picked up her side dish and put it to her mouth.
In particular, her eyes widened when she tasted the salmon roll Shiraishi gave her.
Yanase continued eating, turning her head to look at us from time to time, but she soon put down her chopsticks.
“Ah, teacher. “Only vegetables and tomatoes were left.”
“What a picky eater! “You’re not mature enough!”
In the meantime, they made more of a fuss by teasing the teacher who left only the salad and vegetables that the senior had moved.
“Oh, no, that’s… ! “I usually eat, but today I have no appetite!”
Yanase, who had eaten all the other side dishes while making a growling sound, was also embarrassed by making such an excuse.
“Teacher. It’s a bit surprising for some reason. “I didn’t know there were such weak points.”
As Haruna spoke with a smile, Yanase bit her lip and lowered her head.
After she finished eating, she secretly sighed in relief as she began to straighten her place.
I’m glad we had a friendly time.
I was worried that some kind of problem might arise, but fortunately, we were able to have an enjoyable time thanks to the companions who warmly welcomed Seo-ah and Yanase.
Especially Haruna and Takase-senpai took care of her.
Treating everyone without prejudice was one of their strengths.
If we gradually get to know her hidden side and become closer to her bright side, will Yanase be able to change?
While I was folding her mat, Seo-ah tapped my shoulder.
“Don’t let your guard down. “Yanase, you looked a little strange today.”
“Huh?”
A whisper that no one can hear.
“When I came up to her rooftop earlier, she stumbled a little. “Because I helped you.”
Saying that, Seo-ah carefully fell down.
What on earth is this?
I come down from the rooftop and watch them from behind.
Especially Yanase.
She was talking to Haruna.
I don’t know what’s strange when I look at it from behind like this.
We just didn’t say anything today, but there was a special problem….
I was watching her with suspicion.
As she was walking down the stairs, she suddenly stopped and immediately shook her head.
As if he was dozing off.
She thought that behavior was strange.
“Teacher?”
It was as if the strings of her puppet were cut and she fell helplessly down the stairs.
Haruna stretched out her arms in surprise, but she couldn’t catch them.
It happened in an instant.
“Teacher!!”
I couldn’t reach it by stretching my arms, so I threw myself.
I fell down, hugging her body.
A large collision followed, and soon loud screams and noises rang out around me.