174 – Nightmare
I unlocked the door and opened the door.
Even though it was someone else’s house, I didn’t hesitate. Because it was clear that the owner of this house would be asleep by now.
I carefully looked up and saw that the lights in the house were brightly on.
However, there is no sound.
When I went inside, I saw him asleep in bed without even changing his clothes.
I was so soundly asleep that I didn’t even notice who opened the door and came in.
Dishes and cups were left unwashed in the sink, and outerwear was lying on the floor.
Empty plastic bottles are placed in separate recycling bins.
So, this means that Minsu collapsed shortly after drinking barley tea.
I guess so.
He must have felt so drowsy that even he couldn’t do anything about it.
When I first took that medicine, I lived without knowing the passage of time for several days. Day and night, when I opened my eyes, I was on the ceiling or on the bed, and leaving the hospital was impossible.
So, it would have been difficult for him, who was not an insomniac, to tolerate this medication.
No, he probably collapsed without even realizing that he was holding on.
I slowly approached him and picked up his coat that had fallen on the floor.
I hugged it tightly without realizing it.
I stuck my head out, took a deep breath, and then let it out.
“Ha… Phew….”
I was enjoying sitting on the floor and hugging my coat for a long time, when suddenly I wondered what I was doing.
The owner of the outer garment is right next to me.
Minsu is still breathing shallowly.
Suddenly, I felt sorry for him who returned home and fell asleep without changing his clothes.
“Hey, Minsu.”
I approach the person who doesn’t answer even when I call his name.
“What if I sleep like that…” .”
I looked down at him, who didn’t respond even when I lightly put my hand on his shoulder and shook it.
“My, I…” “I’ll change your clothes.”
I moved his body without any dark intentions, just with the desire to help him.
First, I took off the socks and put them in the laundry bin.
Next, I took off the buttons of his shirt one by one and carefully removed them for him, who had injured his arm.
I gulped, looking at him wearing only a thin t-shirt and jeans.
“No, not now…” Now….”
Spray deodorant on shirts and outerwear and hang them in the closet.
I put on rubber gloves, turned on the water, and washed the dishes.
With him sleeping soundly behind my back.
Doing this made me feel like we were lovers living together.
Cohabitation….
I’ve never done anything like that before.
I’ve never tried it because I didn’t want to show signs of drugs, notes, or self-harm for fear of my lifestyle habits being discovered.
People left me even if I didn’t have to show it.
That’s why I decided to wear a mask at some point.
Pretended appearances do not last long.
In the end, somewhere, at some point, my image comes out.
I am in such a bad mood.
I am the worst version of myself who will do anything to be loved and to love.
I have to die like this.
No one will be sad even if they die.
Okay, so I have to die….
“Ugh….”
While I was deep in thought while scrubbing my body with a scrub brush, I heard his voice whining behind me.
When I turned around, I saw him tossing and turning with a frown on his face.
“Ah, Minsu.”
After quickly finishing washing the dishes, I approached the bed.
I placed a pillow under his head and covered him with a blanket.
I turned off the lights in the house and turned on the lamp on my desk.
In the soft light in the darkness, I crouched down by the bed and looked at him.
“That’s right… “That’s right.”
Stroking his head.
Caressing my forehead.
“Just sleep soundly. “It’s like this when I’m with you.”
If you think about it, you never allowed skinship when you were alone.
He always ran away from me and gave me trouble.
He came close to me, but when I got closer to the truth, he ran away from me.
“So….”
I reach out my hand and caress his face. Eyes, nose, mouth.
“Sleep well.”
So that I can reach you.
“Please don’t wake up.”
So that I can take care of you.
His hand gradually moves down his chin and down to his shoulder, and his outstretched head moves toward the nape of his neck.
I smelled him all night long.
And then I flinched a few times.
***
Recently, my body has become strange.
I slept much more than usual, and after waking up, I couldn’t remember much of what happened last night.
I was confused as to whether I had taken off my outer clothes or hung them up, and whether I had washed up and gone to bed or just slept yesterday.
When I happened to bring this up when I was with Seo-ah, I heard her say that it was strange that she expected her to be healthy after putting her body through such hard work.
That was a comment that had nothing to say.
Well, a lot of things have happened in the meantime.
It is not strange if fatigue accumulates in the body.
“Are you sleeping well?”
At lunch time, Yuuki, who heard Seo-ah’s story, asked while putting her egg roll in her mouth.
“Should I say I sleep too well? That’s the problem.”
I mumbled while eating stewed anchovies.
“Ah… Haruna. Are you okay. “Because I’m not in any pain.”
He smiled, waving his hand at her as she looked at him with worried eyes.
“It’s just that I’ve been sleeping a lot lately.”
“Hey, come here.”
Mini Shiraishi reached out and covered my forehead with her hand. Covering your forehead with your other hand.
“What do you know?”
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“Yuuki, please be quiet. “My mother often did this for me when I was young.”
“Aki-chan, how are you?”
“I don’t have a fever. The complexion is also fine. Minsu is as cool, reassuring, and dazzling as ever with a smile.”
“There are a lot of useless adjectives….”
Shiraishi said while glaring at Yuuki who was muttering.
“I don’t see anything wrong.”
“Even so, it’s better to go to the hospital. “Because there may be symptoms that are unknown to us.”
I looked at the senior who spoke firmly and smiled bitterly.
“It’s okay. “I’m not sick anywhere, I’m just a little tired.”
Should I say that no matter how much I sleep, my eyes doze off? That was it, but her senior did not give up on her opinion.
“No. Even so, it would be a good idea to go to the hospital.”
“Senior….”
“Maybe tomorrow or after school today.”
I can understand their concerns, but from my perspective, I would say it is an unusual situation.
With a bitter smile, she put the side dish Haruna had prepared into her mouth.
“Manager. “Are you going to do that?”
I found myself nodding my head at her pushy behavior, which was not typical of my senior.
“Yes, Minsu. “I wish the teacher would go there at least once because there could be side effects that I don’t know about.”
As soon as Yanase, who had been quiet, uttered a word, she could no longer resist.
After lunch that day, after school.
After parting ways with Yuuki and Seo-ah, who had decided to go to and from school with Haruna for the time being, I returned home.
I’m sorry to my friends who were concerned, but I didn’t go to the hospital.
If it became my problem, I thought ‘why not do it’ and didn’t feel like going no matter what I did.
Besides, any aftereffects will get better over time.
In that case, I didn’t think there was any need to worry my friends.
I opened the refrigerator, took a sip of barley tea, and sat down on the bed.
Ah, I’m feeling sleepy again.
From Haruna to Shiraishi. I may have definitely moved beyond my limits in the past few months.
While I was dozing off without changing into my school uniform, I discovered something strange.
“…… Huh?”
It was long hair.
When I picked it up from the blanket, I could clearly see that it had not fallen from my head.
Yanase was the only woman who came in and out of our house recently.
He sneaked in without me and hid in the closet, but he was caught right away.
It was quite a while ago, but is it possible that the hair that was shed back then still remains?
I rolled my head as I endured the pouring drowsiness, but as time passed, it became bothersome to think.
I barely got up and went out the front door and changed the password on the door lock.
Anyway, it would be better to change it once you get caught.
When I entered the house, I unbuttoned my shirt and threw it on the floor.
I lay down on the bed and unzipped my pants, but it was too much of a hassle to do it with just one arm.
“Umm….”
When I lie down, my eyes close even more.
The arm that was trying to pull down my pants fell down without strength.
I fell asleep with my clothes thrown away on the floor.
***
In my deep unconsciousness, I heard the sound of something being struck.
The sound of rain was coming.
A harsh wind shook the windows and thunderstorms rumbled.
I opened my eyes in the dark and saw an unknown figure moving slowly.
“Ugh… Ugh….”
Is it a nightmare?
The black figure that appeared dripping rainwater was quietly looking down at me.
My voice escaped, but my body did not move, as if I was being held down by scissors.
Two hands slowly approached me in the dark and began to wrap around my neck.
“Ah… ah… “
But my body did not move.
The two hands that wrapped around my neck soon caressed my face, moved down my shoulders, and caressed my chest.
Before I knew it, my clothes had been removed and my entire body was being caressed by an unknown being.
An unpleasant nightmare.
This was my first time having such an unknown dream.
But you can’t run away.
Stop… stop….
I want to talk, but I can’t open my mouth.
“Ha… Haaa….”
The moaning I hear is not from me, but from there.
It was definitely a woman’s moan.