Became an Academy Self-Inflicted Blackmailer chapter 101

101 – The Saint and the Astrologer (5)

“You haven’t given up yet, have you?”

“… ….”

“I’m asking you if you plan to kill Dante.”

The atmosphere sinks deeper.

In the cold, frozen space, several seconds had passed before Jibril opened her mouth.

“…… “If you don’t kill me.”

She spoke briefly, and a somewhat cold expression appeared on her face.

“Then, is there any other way for you?”

“You… ….”

“You know because you saw it, right? If you let go of her hand, that’s the end. Tens of millions of people living on the continent die. Burning with lightning and flames that will never stop!”

Jibril’s voice and her voice gradually began to rise.

Emotions that are by no means shallow begin to emerge.

“I know. “The person he is now is something different from the person he will be in the future, and as such, there may really be another way for him other than killing him.”

Expectation comes from the thought of ‘you never know’, and hope arises from that.

“But, but, what if not? A variable has arisen, but his purpose has not changed, and what if he really intends to erase all life on this continent, starting with the system? “If that future eventually comes true, will you be able to take responsibility for it?”

Nevertheless, the fear of the future that we have already seen does not go away.

“…… “I have no intention of betting the future of the continent on half-baked possibilities.”

Jibril held the dagger in his lap tightly, as if trying to find peace of mind.

“When I glimpsed the future, I was already intertwined with it. It’s like taking on responsibilities that you didn’t want to take on. If I don’t stop it, who will? Are you going to stop it? “It’s not like that!”

Those were words directed at Beatrice.

Paradoxically, it was also a phrase he repeated to himself.

“I can’t stand by and watch a future like that. “I don’t have the confidence to bear the responsibility and karma that comes from being a spectator.”

“… ….”

“…… So, I will stop it. Right now, I’m a little confused. Even so, I will stop it somehow.”

Jibril spoke, and Beatrice remained silent.

And Jibril sneered at that.

“Look at that. Similarly, if you are not confident in taking responsibility, don’t say it easily. “It’s not like I didn’t worry about it.”

However, one thing is clear: Jibril did not have the ability to see the scene before his eyes.

That’s why he couldn’t properly notice the opponent’s movements.

“Yes, I plan to find a way other than killing him. But that doesn’t mean we can’t even consider the last option. “As someone who sees the future, I must prepare to take responsibility.”

Chin-

“Doing…” … ?”

Jibril’s words did not last until the end.

Before that, Jibril had to feel his body being pulled to one side.

‘Uh.’

She realized it too late. She

She was grabbed by the collar.

And then, in an instant, he gets pushed back and falls.

Boom!

“Ugh!”

There is no need to talk about the identity of the criminal.

“…… “Just do it in moderation, you.”

With Jibril down, Beatrice coldly let out her crushed voice.

Jibril’s pupils briefly wavered.

“What.”

“How long are you going to repeat that? You kill it like a mockingbird, you have to kill it, so when you say the same thing, you should think of finding a better way. “Have you ever thought about that?”

“… ….”

Jibril’s mouth closed for an instant.

It was as if he had suddenly been pointed out to a fact that he was unaware of.

Beatrice’s hand pressing down on her body became stronger.

“I understand your position. Yes, I feel pity too. I think seeing the future just once would make me feel dizzy, but what about you? “If you’ve lived like that your whole life, that pressure definitely won’t be something for someone like me to talk about.”

“… ….”

“But even so, your current attitude is truly disgusting.”

Her eyes looked down at Jibril without shaking even once. There was no lie in the emotions contained in that gaze.

Jibril couldn’t directly check the other person’s eyes, but-.

‘Ah.’

Still, I could tell.

‘…… Eww.’

At least the other person is probably looking at you in a very pitiful way.

Jibril’s expression was colored with complex pain for a moment.

She felt shame, and it would not be wrong to say that it was a feeling of self-destruction caused by being stabbed at a point that she had been trying hard to ignore.

Jibril couldn’t bear to say anything, so she remained silent.

“It’s just my personal opinion.”

Beatrice suppressed her emotions even more at that point and parted her lips with his again.

“I think responsibility is a very heavy thing. “There is a limit to the weight that one person can bear, and responsibility and obligation do not always come in line with that limit.”

It had been a long time since she let go of Jibril’s collar, but Jibril was unable to get her body back on its feet.

It is not a physical problem. It was a matter of will.

She just placed her arm on my forehead, and Beatrice stood up from her seat with a sigh.

“Did you just say that? “If you are not confident in taking responsibility, don’t speak easily.”

“…… “I am.”

“I’m not trying to criticize your tone or anything like that. “I just felt like I had to say this.”

Jibril closes his eyes tightly with a painful expression.

Beatrice spoke to her.

“I want to take on that responsibility.”

With a clear and distinct voice, as if asserting it at this moment.

“I also saw the future you saw just a moment ago. So, if I go by your logic, I’m probably responsible as well.”

She spoke her words calmly and with confidence, with an expression that was not clouded at all.

“If by any chance Dante tries to make the same move as that terrible future, I will stop him. I will stand next to you and stop you. “Okay?”

Yes, in a truly calm voice. With that attitude.

Jibril looked up at her in vain.

She pursed her lips with a confused expression.

“…… “It’s not that simple.”

“Me!!”

However, even that does not continue to the end and ends up being cut off.

Jibril’s body trembled at Beatrice’s suddenly raised voice.

“I said I would stop it. “I clearly told you that I would stop you.”

“… ….”

“Do you think this is just a saying? Does it look like you’re just spitting it out without thinking?”

Beatrice clenched her fists roughly.

That expression was also not as calm as before.

“Even if that guy really finds his lost memories and tries to burn the world like that future! I stop you. I! “I will stop you next to me.”

Her eyes looked at Jibril, then briefly looked into the sky.

What comes to mind is the future that was just in sight.

And in that future, it was Dante with an expression filled with sorrow.

“I will persuade him without giving up, and I will be the reason to prevent him from doing such a thing. Still, if he ends up going down a path of self-destruction, then all you have to do is really beat him up to stop him. Therefore.”

Her eyes began to burn like intense flames.

“…… I won’t let you kill my people without permission. If you really can’t find another way to kill me, then just get out of this. “I have no intention of entrusting my friend to such a coward.”

Beatrice concluded her words like that.

Her forehead was burning with heat because she was pouring out her anger in an uncharacteristic way.

Even though it only lasted a few minutes.

“… ….”

Jibril was still keeping silent.

However, her green eyes that had lost their shine had a slightly different emotion at this moment.

As for the identity of that emotion, I don’t know, but it probably wasn’t something negative like murderous intent or resignation.

I still don’t know if it’s just a simple feeling of self-destruction or if it’s a feeling that can gradually develop in a different direction.

At least in Beatrice’s opinion, it felt like it wasn’t just 100% pure frustration.

Therefore, she was only then able to briefly catch her breath and turn her head.

“…… My words have become harsh for a moment. “I’m sorry if I offended you.”

She continued to spit out words like that, but both she and Jibril knew very well that her previous attitude was not just a slip of the tongue.

Beatrice clicked her tongue inaudibly and then continued her words.

“As I said a little while ago, Miss Jibril.”

“… ….”

“When talking about Dante, I used the expression ‘lost memory.’ “Do you remember?”

And at her words, Jibril stopped her and raised her head.

That’s because she definitely remembered something like that.

Jibril hardened her expression and recalled her brief memory.

-Even if that guy really finds his lost memories and tries to burn the world like that future!

Beatrice clearly said that. It’s a lost memory.

…… As if Dante’s condition was exactly like that.

Jibril’s expression turned stiff.

Bewilderment and confusion, and more than that, I wonder what might have happened.

“No way…” ….”

She let out a trembling voice, and Beatrice quietly nodded her head.

“Let me tell you the story first. Because you too are qualified. But keep in mind.”

The eyes of the two girls met in the air, each with a different light.

“If from now on you just continue to talk about Dante’s death… ….”

“… ….”

“I won’t leave you alone either.”

And the result of that exchange of glances was, of course, -.

“At that time, I would use all the means available to me to exclude the villain who was trying to kill my friend.”

The pressure of Beatrice, like a wild beast, only forcibly suppressed Jibril, a small animal.

Beatrice smiled sweetly.

“I guess it’s better to be careful, right?”

*****

Leaving the Hummingbird Forest, looking at the sunset in the slightly darkened sky.

“… ….”

Beatrice stood there blankly for a moment and was silent.

It’s natural to think about it, but it was the events that happened right before.

She met Jibril and shared what she had seen. And after a brief confrontation, argument, or something minor like that.

Anyway, that’s how we got to where we are now.

‘I don’t know.’

Her expression was still complicated.

I had no choice but to do that.

…… Now I finally understand. Jibril’s actions and the reasons.

I couldn’t just say it was right, but-.

Still, I think I can understand her desperation.

Because I came to see a sight that I couldn’t recognize.

It is so miserable, so terrible, and so miserable…….

To put it bluntly, it was a truly scary sight.

Beatrice sighed and patted her shoulder.

Was it because she had been lying down for quite some time? Her body was slightly stiff.

Of course, other reasons are more important than physical factors.

‘…… ‘I really didn’t know there was such a past.’

Muttering to herself, Beatrice thought of Dante.

So, she has that goofy face and expression.

“True.”

Well, now that I think about it, I remember her not talking about the time before entering the academy.

Occasionally, if the topic came up, she would change the topic in an awkward manner…….

If the reason was actually due to the loss of the past, it would not be incomprehensible.

Beatrice closed her eyes for a moment and surrendered her body to the blowing wind.

The weather was cool, and I guess you could say it was a perfect temperature for the upcoming night banquet.

If you think about it, it was quite late.

‘I have to get ready to change clothes soon.’

Dresses are inherently a very cumbersome outfit.

I couldn’t help it, but I still didn’t like her at all.

Beatrice had a slightly displeased expression, but then a thought suddenly occurred to her and she opened her closed eyes again.

“… ….”

Memory.

It’s a memory.

Dante lost her memory, la…….

‘Would it be too heartless to say that I don’t want him to retrieve his memories?’

…… In terms of timing, it was probably around a year ago that she awakened her supernatural abilities, and that was around the time when that heinous facility collapsed to the ground and was buried underground.

After that, he lost his memory due to a reaction to his ability or shock and came to the academy.

Maybe it will work out that way, but I’m not sure. Only Dante knows the truth.

The problem, however, was that it was a matter that could not be easily asked.

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If you do that, the moment you regain your memories, something really big will happen.

‘Ha.’

Beatrice bit her lower lip and weakly tousled her bangs.

It is also complicated. This was an extremely complex problem.

For him now, it may be something from the past that he is desperately looking for.

So, these words may not take into account his feelings, but…….

Even so, even so. Even after seeing such a situation and such a future, it was impossible to talk about the past casually.

Even more so, if I were to express my opinion in a simpler way.

‘I don’t like it.’

Yes. I just hated it.

I didn’t like that.

Jibril’s foresight, the shape of the shared future. That’s what Dante looks like.

No matter what, I had no choice but to hope that it would not become a reality.

…… I don’t want to see him like that in real life.

‘I just like you the way you are now, Dante.’

I hope it doesn’t change. I hope the person he is now doesn’t disappear. I just hope it stays the same.

If he regains his memories and a truly terrible future comes true, then yes. I really would rather.

‘Can’t I just remain the person I know?’

That no-nonsense persona now, that mischievous personality and light attitude toward oneself. Nevertheless, there is a sincere and kind heart mixed within it.

If you don’t want to give up, can’t you?

‘That expression of being consumed by despair really doesn’t suit you.’

I close my eyes tightly and think.

I can’t help it.

Reason speaks. If he thinks about the past, the worst future will come true.

So it shouldn’t be like that.

Emotions are also speaking. If he regains his past, his present may become blurred.

No, it might disappear altogether.

So, it shouldn’t be like that…….

“… ….”

A helpless sigh escaped Beatrice’s lips.

It was a sigh full of deep and complex emotions.

‘I’m sorry.’

Nevertheless, she made a decision.

Her resolve and determination were renewed.

‘…… ‘I’m sorry for being a friend who doesn’t respect you.’

Yes. This is disrespectful to him. It was that kind of promise. Perhaps, it would be a truly harsh story for someone who has lost his memory.

But I don’t like it. I hated that so much.

Now I like this daily life. I didn’t hate this ordinary school life, or this life at the academy, which I thought was an extension of my mission.

No, I definitely liked it.

Nothing else, but life in this academy with that boy.

‘…… So I can’t let you get your memories back.’

Beatrice took a breath and then thought seriously.

More seriously, more vaguely.

…… Even if, as a result, she ends up bearing a sense of debt to him, she will protect him as he is.

She thought so, and she also made up her mind.

‘What I can do.’

Yes, I will protect it.

‘…… The means I can choose.’

I will not let you find your memories.

“… ….”

At least until the existence of ‘Beatrice Louise’ grows within him to the point where it can become the hesitation of Dante, who finds his memories for once.

I will be by his side so that he never regains his memories.

Her golden eyes flashed brightly again in the glow of the sunset.

*****

“Hmm?”

I suddenly raised my head and looked out the window.

The girl sitting next to him tilted her head.

“What’s wrong? Dante.”

“No, I felt like someone was talking about me…” ….”

“Hmm, gossip?”

“Oh, no way.”

She chuckled and laughed at Aria’s words, and I briefly waved my hand.

“I didn’t do anything worth it.”

“…… “I don’t think you know that.”

“What?”

“No, it’s nothing.”

Aria shook her head indifferently, and although I had a shocked expression on my face, I didn’t say anything more.

“Well, that’s okay.”

At that point, Aria gently tilted her body towards me.

And then she sticks out something.

“Hurry up, do it. “My arm hurts.”

“… ….”

“Now, hurry.”

It was nothing else, but a piece of apple that had been peeled beautifully and pierced with a fork.

I laughed out loud because it was so absurd.

“No, why are you still taking care of me in the first place? “I told you that the internal injuries healed in one day.”

“Then why aren’t you discharged from the hospital?”

“That’s… ….”

However, I couldn’t find the words to reply to Aria’s insignificant question.

As I said, of course my physical condition became normal within a day after hospitalization…….

The reason I didn’t get discharged and stayed in the ward until the day the banquet was scheduled was for no other reason.

“…… “I was just trying to take it easy during the sports festival.”

I muttered in a low voice, and Aria burst into laughter.

“So, Tinkle?”

“Is that how it works?”

“That’s how it happens. Now, hurry up and do it. “Patient.”

“Ha… ….”

I let out a deep sigh, and after a moment of hesitation, I took the apple Aria held out to me and ate it in one bite.

No matter what, there is no sin in fruit.

“Hmm.”

It’s sweet and delicious.