107. Sacrifice Apostle Leteia – (3)
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abnormality.
accident.
The two words, which seemed to have different textures, had one thing in common.
when when That it happens without even thinking about it.
So for those who suffer, there is no time to prepare for that… .
It was truly a surprise, like an accident.
…
After talking to Karite to take a break.
The two of them sat down on a fallen tree. A break taken after a light conversation like small talk.
Chunseong checked his condition and nodded slightly.
‘it’s okay.’
Right away, it could be said that the ghouls corresponding to today’s quota were almost filled.
And the arrangement of mana was this much, so I didn’t think he used that much mana.
The mana I used was about half of the total. The concept of the spiral. I realized the cycle just yesterday and was able to reduce mana consumption more than I thought.
It was like a harvest that exceeded expectations.
‘The efficiency of using mana has increased almost twice.’
A car that made me feel satisfied. His gaze naturally went to the side.
Even if I’m active, Karite who has to watch it won’t be very bored… .
“…Karite?”
He muttered blankly, but blinked his eyes for a moment.
Seruk.
Karite stood up silently.
Karite, who did not respond to my call, suddenly began to move to one place.
“Karite? Where are you going?”
While muttering blankly, I immediately got up after her.
again.
again.
I had to feel a strange feeling when I saw Karite suddenly and hurriedly moving despite my voice.
Is it fear or goosebumps?
At that moment, even I didn’t know.
Even so, he had no choice but to quickly catch up with Karite, who was hurriedly moving.
“Karite!?”
Grab her by the shoulders and stop her.
“…sorry.”
A very small sound came.
“Why is that? Where were you going?”
When I turned her body towards me, Karite’s eyes turned very gloomy.
…To the extent that I was so surprised when I met their eyes.
“……”
Karite, who did not answer my question, hesitated. Seeing that, I cautiously opened my mouth, even though I didn’t know what the situation was.
“Calm down for now. Even if you don’t know why, think about the situation calmly. yes?”
When you’re dealing with someone who’s mentally unstable like now, you shouldn’t push yourself.
The moment I noticed that the other person was having a hard time, I had to be careful and treat it more gently.
Let’s look at her carefully like that. It was only then that Karite met my gaze.
ha.
And at the sight of him letting out a deep sigh, my heart seemed to be colored with impatience.
‘It can’t go on like this.’
Even if I couldn’t fill my quota right away, I thought I shouldn’t let Karite stay here any longer.
“For now, let’s go back and rest. I don’t know why you’re doing this now, but when you rest, your heart… .”
“Agar Castle.”
I was stopped at the sudden indifferent voice.
Karite’s eyes met… It was very strange.
Like someone who has made up his mind to do something. A strange heat filled his eyes.
“Are you overdoing it?”
“…reasonable? What are you talking about all of a sudden?”
“I know that you are overdoing it because of me.”
I shook my head loudly as I spoke, but I felt that the situation was going strangely for a moment.
Is Karite suddenly showing such a strange appearance?
Still, he hurriedly opened his mouth.
“no. I’m not overdoing it. Karite. I’m really fine.”
I was wielding my spear extremely cautiously while dealing with the ghouls in preparation for an unexpected situation.
Mana, so that there is no strain on the body
It was in almost perfect condition.
“lie.”
However, I couldn’t understand the sad voice I heard.
“Why… do you think I would lie to you?”
“I checked it myself. That you’re not okay at all.”
“when…? Why do you think I’m not okay?”
In a conversation that seems to run parallel to each other… .
I spoke very carefully.
You have to be more careful at times like this.
‘Because I learned.’
So. I had to pay more attention to Karite.
“When I just crossed my hands with you. i’ve seen That you have too little mana.”
The voice he blurted out in a daze reminded me of a moment inadvertently.
The moment Karite suddenly overlapped my hand.
At the time, I didn’t think much of her mana flowing through my hands, but Karite seemed to be trying to check my mana.
“…Karite. That’s because my mana is originally low.”
“Agar Castle. You don’t have to pretend that you’re okay even while lying like that. You are having a hard time because of me too. Like my family… It’s very difficult right now.”
I was speechless for a moment.
The mana I possessed was definitely less than the others.
Compared to people who were born in this world and naturally have high mana, I was not originally from this world.
And I realize the logic of circulation. It could be that he uses more mana than he has… .
It might have seemed that Karite was using mana abnormally.
I might have misunderstood her that I was overdoing it… .
But above all.
‘Like my family… .’
It felt like the moment that those words stopped me from speaking.
“…no.”
When I replied a little late, I saw that Karite’s eyes looking at me became even darker.
I quickly grabbed her by the shoulder.
“Karite. I’m not really tough So, please don’t get weird. Stop thinking stupid.”
Even as she spoke more strongly, Karite’s eyes were… as if she had already reached a conclusion.
“…Sorry.”
***
ㅡHoney. what should we do
—-Me too… I don’t know what to do with Karite.
ㅡIs your sister very sick?
The auditory hallucinations had been replaced by the voices of the family.
Then, it was no longer a lie, a nonsense out of reality.
A past I don’t want to remember. He brought up those memories and told them to me as they were.
—-You spent most of this year’s estate proceeds just to buy holy water for Karite.
—-But it had some effect on that child. Then you have to buy some more.
ㅡI want to do that too! But… we just can’t afford it anymore! Shouldn’t we pay back the money we borrowed from another family right away?
The voices of my family, who were endlessly agonizing and worried because of me, echoed in my ears countless times.
It… bothered me more than any false hallucinations.
Then the negative thoughts grew out of control, and the conviction that I could get better existed like the remnants of an extinguished ember.
‘If you think… .’
It was already a long time ago.
I didn’t feel like doing anything anymore.
So at some point, as if in desperation, I put myself down.
I thought that even if my family tried to care for me, in the end it would only make it harder for my family because of me.
So, I sharpened my edge in speaking, and lost interest in everything as if I were blind.
Because I can’t help it.
No matter what I do, my condition doesn’t get better.
Let’s let go of myself like that… Even though I treat my family, I left the distance before I knew it.
Then, my family and I naturally grew further apart.
…And the foreshadowing of that time seemed to be felt again now.
ㅡSomeone is having a hard time because of me.
—-You are overdoing it.
I just can’t get rid of those negative thoughts… .
– Yes, well thought out.
-Does it mean that other people will be better only when things like you are gone?
-Look at this because you are here. Han Chun-seong is also having a hard time.
-Can’t you see that I’m still overdoing it because of you?
– Still, you’re going to rest calmly together? What qualifications do you have?
The hallucinations that had been ringing in my ears endlessly drove me.
My heart, which had not been shaken when I was with Han Chun-seong, was shaken, and that shake gripped me.
“… Karite. let’s go back We’ll stop here for today and we’ll just go back to rest.”
holding me Han Chun-seong, speaking softly, filled his field of vision.
‘Even at this moment… .’
Han Chun-seong did not blame me.
Even as he watched me get up and disappear on his own, he continued to talk as if he was considerate of me.
It seems like he wants to hold me until the end.
Rather, my heart continued to hurt as I tried to say something.
‘because of me… .’
Even Han Chun-seong, who was so kind, was overdoing it.
That’s why the skepticism about the existence of the country was even louder.
Even if I live like this… I think it will only harm everyone. I keep having bad thoughts, but I can’t shake them off like I used to.
Even enduring and holding on, now it seemed like my heart was exhausted.
Because the will to stand up has disappeared.
I felt that even Han Chun-seong, who reached out to me and approached me like this, was having a hard time because of me.
…now I wanted to let go of that kind hand he had extended to me.
‘then.’
Because Han Chun-seong couldn’t be more overbearing.
You won’t have to worry and suffer more because of me like my family did before.
“Karite. Then we go back together… … .”
A friendly voice that could be heard through the dull consciousness.
… … .
However, in one corner of my field of vision, I saw a slowly rising darkness.
A pitch-black darkness that seemed to absorb even the surrounding light. He was really out of touch with the world.
It was strange enough to see such darkness rising.
‘That’s… .’
What is it?
***
“……”
A deep sigh was swallowed inwardly.
The man watching Han Chun-seong and Karite narrowed his eyes slightly, but couldn’t understand.
It was the first time in many years that such negative thoughts had been injected into a person.
And how can a cadet stand up to this. I couldn’t help but notice as I watched.
“… please don’t eat weakly Don’t get caught up in strange thoughts.”
A cadet named Han Chun-seong was trying to support a cadet named Karite endlessly.
It was clearly visible that he was trying to reach out his hand, as if he was somehow trying to lift it up from negative thoughts.
It was like endlessly shouting something inaudible in a forest already far from the other cadets.
And that sound reached Karite like a miracle.
Even though there are already signs of being captivated by endless thoughts and deteriorating. It didn’t explode all at once.
Even though the Apostle’s thoughts and my characteristics resonate, and I have already taken over the entire space.
very slowly It is only dyed as if it is engulfed. It was unable to completely swallow a mere cadet.
‘This… .’
So I had to think again.
Originally, the existence to be offered as a sacrifice to Leteia had to be one.
I tried to think of it as an unavoidable additional sacrifice.
The more I watched the progress of the situation, the more I couldn’t help but worry.
No matter what I do… it’s something that will never be forgiven. I knew it wasn’t right, even for my family.
Even so, I am doing these things. I thought it had the meaning of sacrificing a cow for the great.
Rather than causing an apostle to cause a greater disaster… it would be better to suppress the apostle through the inevitable sacrifice of a few once every few months.
…A foolish thought to ease the remorse in my very ugly heart.
But when I saw the cadet now in my field of vision, my heart fluttered.
In particular, a cadet named ‘Han Chun-seong’ even showed a fragment that would shine greatly in the future.
Having seen many beings on the battlefield in the past, I could see a kind of potential in people. And a cadet named Han Chun-seong looked like someone who would surely become a great light to this empire within a few years.
It is also the fact that he is a cadet whose talent is extraordinary to reap his life in this place by dismissing it as a sacrifice.
‘Ahan Chun is worth more than a few dozen other students.’
A cadet named Han Chun-seong had enough value to sacrifice himself for the sake of his generation.
“……”
So, I tried to slowly take in the darkness.
I had to reconsider this.
Give your opinion to Leteia and save another victim.
That moment.
“Kuh…!”
My head felt like it was burning intensely.
ㅡOffer Hancheonseong as a sacrifice.
A thought that penetrates the brain more intensely than ever before.
…begins to forcibly drive men.