204. Absolute strength of mind
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It was evening.
good. good… .
As Adelia’s assistant, Erpe, dutifully prepared the food on the table, she felt even a small effort while taking the food inadvertently.
‘It must be quite hard to live as an assistant.’
Although there will be almost no personality part, that is, internal difficulties, during Adelia’s peak season. Still, I thought that there would be difficult parts in many areas to act politely and politely to a cadet of the same age.
“…thank you.”
“Nope. It’s my job.”
good.
As Erpe laid down her share of food, her eyes went to the other two at the table.
Opposite me, Adelia and Erpe were calm, and Leonhard was sitting right next to me for dinner.
“Then let’s all eat comfortably.”
“Yes. I will eat it thanks.”
At the end of Adelia’s words, the sound of going back and forth between dishes resounded.
While eating, I suddenly felt that Leonhardt’s expression had changed.
Dalgrak.
Even the slightest hesitation in taking spoonfuls or food has disappeared. There was a feeling that he was fine with the guy before, but for some reason, he seemed to have regained his energy.
‘It’s a nice change.’
To be honest, I was in awe of the way I recovered my heart.
“… … .”
Seruk. It was just amazing to take a spoonful of soup with a lot of meat in it.
It’s definitely time to recover for Leonhardt. Mentally, I figured I would need more time to sort myself out.
No matter how much he was the main character of the world, he was also a human being. There was no way I could overcome that kind of loss in a few days.
However, the recovery is much faster than I thought.
…characteristics that can be called human rights in this world. Even though he lost the characteristics that could prove his value, he continued to eat very calmly.
‘I don’t think I would be able to do that.’
In other words, you have to eat hard. I can tell you that it will be okay, but if you are not a victim who has experienced such a major accident, there is no way you can properly understand the feelings.
What if I lost the power of spearmanship overnight?
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Just thinking about it briefly made my heart sink.
“… … .”
And this could have happened to me even if the timing was a little off.
The moment I thought the apostle’s hand had touched my heart. Because I had a gut feeling of obvious death.
And he had such a big accident,
I couldn’t get rid of the feeling that only ‘me’ was saved.
‘Whoa.’
Perhaps the more I saw Leonhard, the more I felt sorry for him.
snap.
Then I met the eyes of the guy who was taking a big bite of cheese. The guy who swallowed the cheese blinked strangely.
“Agar Castle. Why are you looking at me like that?”
When he said something strange, I laughed awkwardly.
“No, I just want to eat well. I wanted to be glad that you seemed to be in good spirits.”
“I’m really fine now. Because you have a new mind.”
“uh. I see.”
While answering awkwardly, I wondered if the main character was the main character.
Even the recovery of the mind of the guy who will carry the weight of the world seemed different.
“That’s a nice change. Only when you have a strong mind can you see the way forward.”
At Adelia’s words, we all nodded as if we were in agreement.
It was a statement that I sympathized with, but also strongly thought about.
“I think so too. In fact, after seeing Han Chun-seong… I also thought I had to make up my mind.”
“me?”
Then, when he said something strange, I was dumbfounded.
“Looking at Cadet Han Chun-seong? I’m a little curious, Cadet Leonhard. Can you explain more?”
good.
When Adelia, who had even put down her spoon, showed intense interest, I was only taken aback.
What is it that a guy with such a superhuman mentality is so sorry for? As Adelia and I looked at each other, he smiled and looked at us alternately.
“In fact, there is nothing to say about the explanation. It’s just that the efforts I’ve been making may not be… the proper efforts. Because I felt that way.”
“Isn’t that a proper effort?”
When Adelia pointed out a part of his words and looked at me, I couldn’t understand what he was saying.
‘What do you mean by that?’
In the work, Leonhardt was a genius who worked harder than anyone else. It has never been described that he always works harder than the talent he actually has and spends his time idlely, to the extent that his strength of mind is mentioned several times.
But that guy looked at me and made up his mind.
“When I think of the things I have had and enjoyed. I think my growth has been really slow. I felt it even more when I saw Han Chun-seong. The fact that I hadn’t been… making the right effort.”
“Wait… that sounds strange. Why does that boil down to not making an effort?”
I had no choice but to hang up because the words were strange to me.
“That’s it, Han Chun-seong. Looking at your growth rate, I couldn’t help but feel that way. That I didn’t try hard enough.”
When he replied with a calm smile, I hesitated.
“But Cadet Leonhard. Shouldn’t that be seen as an abnormal growth rate for a cadet with agar star…?”
When Adelia justly spoke for me, I nodded my head broadly.
“It’s really as Instructor Adelia said. I think it’s very strange to look at me as a standard.”
In the meantime, I have been blessed with many things, and I was able to achieve miraculous growth because of circumstances.
Of course, I tried that much, but to be honest, I thought that various situations worked out too well for me.
– The mindset that I corrected when I reached level 4 in Leonhard’s sparring.
– Sparring with Kali and clues to skills with the help of magic engineering items.
-Facing the apostle with the determination to lay down one’s life to protect Karite is a huge amount of experience for reaching level 5… .
…
…
Each one of them is special, and it was a situation that was difficult to go through even one in general.
That’s why I can never see it as a general standard.
That’s when I thought about it and tried to say it again. The boy had a strange laugh.
“Agar Castle. I’m not looking at you now. I just face reality again by sharing what I can and cannot do.”
The guy spoke strangely lightly.
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Just face the reality properly.
“Look at what you can and cannot do… … .”
“yes. I think because you could do it, I can do it too. It’s not that I’m belittling you or anything like that. As a person, I’m willing to do anything anyone can do. Because I think others can do it.”
I couldn’t stop talking when I saw the guy who spoke calmly and honestly.
‘Crazy.’
…I knew that Leonhardt’s attitude was ridiculous because I had seen it all in the work.
In fact, I thought that he was the one with the strongest heart in the world, and I considered my thoughts to be the complete truth.
But that… it wasn’t.
This guy’s ‘accident itself’ was completely different in the first place.
“…if someone else can do it, Cadet Leonhardt’s words sound pretty amazing.”
When Adelia said with a small smile, I fully sympathized with her smile.
It was a mindset that was never possible with ordinary thinking.
Officers on the front line who are really outstanding and have made huge achievements, or cadets who are far ahead.
…Ironically, I can say that I am that kind of person now. I was already feeling a similar situation.
The fact that the cadets in the same class gradually distanced themselves from me or were looking at me with a slightly different gaze.
And I felt that was a very normal reaction.
Looking at a person who has done something that cannot be done in general, it is great, or even if you can admire it, most of you do not think that you are ‘possible’ when you see such a person.
Because each person has a field they are good at, and there are different types of beings who excel.
The grades are divided according to the characteristics given, and even the talents are very different in each field, just like that example.
It was from this world that I acknowledged that. So it was natural for me to realize it myself.
ㅡ I can’t. That person can’t catch up.
But Leonhardt is now. I was denying that truth so lightly.
“Instructor Adelia. I think it’s a difference in mindset. You set limits and try to lock yourself in, even though you can go farther.”
And furthermore, even though he spoke lightly, he conveyed to us words that were not light at all.
“…is that so?”
“Yes. So I was able to eat my heart again. I think it’s great that Han Chun-seong has achieved such unrivaled growth despite being a common trait. And because you showed us you did it. You can target that. Right now, isn’t it just me?”
“… … .”
At the words that followed, Adelia cast her eyes at me instead of replying.
It’s like asking what I think… .
‘That can’t make sense.’
Then, why are there people called geniuses in the world, and why can there be people who have achieved seemingly impossible achievements?
Among people, Ark thought that ‘other people’ must exist. When someone else takes a step beyond the culprit’s idea. Beings four or five steps ahead.
Contrary to that thought, he blankly nodded.
“…right. I think so.”
Opening his mouth that could not be separated, he agreed with Leonhardt’s opinion.
The guy said that even in such a difficult situation, he had hope and ate his heart again.
But how can I deny that?
“right? I knew you would think the same way.”
And as if my words made sense, he gave a really cool smile… I inadvertently nodded my head.
It’s not like he and I are absolutely the same. In a different way, I came to understand him a little.
‘This is the main character of the world.’
I really thought I had to do this to be the main character.
If I were him, I would have been desperate every day because it would have been too much for me to get my mind right, but now he stands up proudly and expresses his will intensely.
It tries to move forward while losing its characteristics. Watching the next one without stopping… … .
“To think that two geniuses of the century entered the school in one year, this year is just amazing.”
When Adelia smiled and said, a smile leaked out without me knowing.
“Instructor. I just think you should think so. Rather, you could call Han Chun-seong a genius rather than me.”
Then, at Leonhardt’s bright answer, as if he was correcting his words… I stopped laughing.
Adelia also slowly turns her attention to me… .
“… … .”
Even as I met her eyes full of strange emotions, my heart just flinched.
‘I… ?’
To be honest, I realized that I had an unusual talent because I had achieved remarkable growth.
I was so far ahead of others, but I couldn’t look down on myself.
By the way.
I realized at this moment that his talent was clearly different from Leonhardt’s.
Unknowingly, I was trying to follow Leonhardt’s mindset and determination that he had shown in the story, and to follow them.
The indomitable will shown by the boy.
An altruistic heart that is not only for oneself.
Even a strong heart that doesn’t avoid crisis.
I subconsciously believed that the strong mind in the work he walked was the most correct path, so the influence was not small.
But now.
He… calls me a genius.
How on earth should I accept this situation that raises me up saying that I am not a genius?
“…then the food will cool down. Wouldn’t it be nice to finish dinner?”
Even when I was talking about it, I felt strange.
‘I just… .’
I was just trying to follow the trail he walked.