Became an Academy Spearman chapter 266

266. return to reality

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“… … .”

When I opened my eyes after a long dream, the first thing I saw was darkness.

While the blurry focus was slowly being adjusted, I was finally able to see ‘reality’.

What was really strange was that I didn’t feel like I had woken up at all.

It’s just… I feel like I’m back where I’m coming back… I can’t describe it.

‘thank god.’

Even though I realized it was a dream, I only felt fortunate.

The pain I felt while fighting monsters in my dreams,

Even though I calmly accepted such a tragedy, my heart, which seemed to collapse at the end,

The fishy smell of blood that seems to numb your nose,

There really wasn’t any.

All of that disappeared like a fleeting illusion.

Only pure darkness, pitch black, adorned my vision.

“… … .”

And even more horrifying than that, the fact that I could no longer see the traces of corpses lying on the ground… More than anything else, it made my mind at ease.

…So I realized.

That ‘here’ I am is reality.

“Are you awake?”

I blinked at the soft voice that sounded like a whisper and lifted my head.

Then, it was only then that I realized that I was leaning on Carly.

“…Ah yes.”

Even as I opened my mouth, my voice was locked and I couldn’t speak any more.

And gradually, the memory of the day seemed to come back properly. I practiced on the openness Kali told me about, and at the end of it, I fell asleep in the arms of Kali who embraced me.

…and until I woke up, it seemed like I had been leaning on Carly like this the whole time.

“Cadets of Han Chun-seong. Something… Did you have a bad dream? Your complexion doesn’t look very good.”

At that voice carefully examining me…my eyes became strangely blurred.

But even that was only for a moment.

“are you okay.”

…I shook my head and made up my mind.

dream.

‘Yes, because it’s a dream.’

From nob le mt l. co m

No matter how much adversity and hardship I went through in that dream, it was just a dream.

However, my heart seemed to sink endlessly. Even though I know that everything I’ve been through a while ago was a dream… My mood seldom returned right away.

“I must have forced the cadets of Han Chun-seong beyond my expectations. I should have been more considerate. I’m sorry. Actually, I wanted to wake him up on the way and take him to the dormitory, but I couldn’t wake him up because he was sleeping so soundly… .”

“…no. I’m fine.”

A small laugh leaked out as he spoke.

…a warm, soft voice.

It was so different from my situation just a little while ago. The difference in temperature is so extreme that I can’t adapt to it… .

“Did the instructor hold me the whole time?”

I rested my head on her shoulder a little longer as I spoke in a hushed voice.

“Ah, yes. Were you uncomfortable?”

…I wonder if my behavior was unexpected, and Carly’s surprise was felt, and a light smile leaked out.

“no. It can’t be. It’s because I’m so grateful.”

…After escaping from that hellish dream, I was just grateful to be receiving such warm consideration.

“And I think it’s too late now. Aren’t you overdoing it because of me?”

I needed time to gather my mind even as I spoke in a locked voice.

“It was too late. Because it’s already past 11 o’clock… .”

As she gently wrapped her arms around my shoulder, I felt that I had been sleeping for a really long time… I didn’t want to part with her like this.

‘More precisely… .’

I didn’t want to go back alone again. Then it seemed that the dream from a moment ago would capture me again.

—-The forest was engulfed in flames.

Wherever he went, it was full of threatening monsters, and he had to face people who were constantly dying in his field of vision.

Even though I know it’s all a dream, I couldn’t get out of it.

I thought I had to kill the monsters that kill people, and in my dreams I tried to kill as many monsters as I could, even destroying my body.

That’s for quite a long time… .

‘Really, I know it’s a dream.’

I couldn’t possibly turn a blind eye to people dying in front of my eyes.

I felt… for the first time.

Even if you don’t know what it feels like to have someone die right in front of you, the sight of people collapsing fleetingly in front of a devastating sight was never something that could be overlooked.

The terribly vivid dream showed me how my mind was reacting.

And now, barely out of it.

I just wanted to lean on the coziness of this moment, the warmth Carly showed me.

“Cadets of Hancheon Castle.”

“…yes.”

“Don’t think strangely now.”

I was hesitant at the sudden voice…

Leaning on her shoulder now. I didn’t feel that Carly was looking at me.

She just accepts me like this, as if she knows how I feel right now.

“Don’t hold on to hard thoughts for a long time… Even if you don’t know what your worries are, think as easily as possible. I want you to think of the reality you are seeing right now and think of me by your side.”

The infinitely soft voice held my heart strong.

…There is no need to dwell on such a dream or struggle.

That was so strange.

I obviously didn’t say anything to her. How Carly can correct me by telling me what I need.

“I will.”

…I smiled as I slowly nodded. I gently turned my head to look at Carly.

softly.

Her hand caressing my hair, which was now leaning against her, was strangely itchy, but Carly in my sight was still beautiful.

My heart, which had sunk deeply and was heavy, was magically lightened by a few words from her.

“…”

When I looked at her without speaking, Carly quietly met my gaze, and even that appearance seemed like a painting to me.

and.

‘This is why it’s so important… .’

I now understand why a person who stays by my side when I’m having a hard time touches me so much.

I didn’t even tell her it was hard. There was someone by my side who knew me well.

“… … .”

I could feel that feeling just by her eyes looking at me now.

Her heart that loves me so much and thinks of me again. So I naturally came to know how much happiness I am enjoying right now.

Seruk.

Gently tilting his head, he lightly kissed her cheek.

side.

…When the mind took the lead, action naturally followed.

Because she looks more lovely.

“ah… .”

And it seemed that his heart was satisfied with his eyes on Kali, who reacted greatly to even a light kiss.

I’m so lovable now, but a little while ago Carly, who was considerate of me so that I could just lean on her, was different.

It was weird, but it was still good.

“Are the hours okay?”

“…huh?”

“I mean time. I wondered if it was okay to stay with me later, or if I might be forcibly holding on to the instructor.”

Even as he spoke calmly, he could hardly take his eyes off her.

—-A little.

Obviously, we set a little line and accepted the relationship.

But I wanted to go beyond the ‘little bit’ between us now.

“…Ha, Han Chun-seong… A cadet? Anyway… I think it’s a bit early for us to have gone that far…”

But were my words sudden?

Carly, who couldn’t hide her bewilderment, trembled with gibberish, and I could see all of her eyes even wandering wildly.

And when even her body, which was in contact with her, flinched and tensed, I felt it involuntarily.

‘yet.’

I thought so because of her appearance, but instead I let out a faint smile.

I don’t know how far Carly has thought of me now… but I thought it was a little rude.

Because otherwise you wouldn’t be able to see that kind of reaction.

“Instructor Carly?”

“…Yes.”

“How far are you thinking? I just wanted to be with the instructor a little longer… .”

Let me blur the end of my words and even narrow my eyes. Carly was even more perplexed.

“Uh, how far can you go… No, you know… Cadet Chunseong Han? I don’t want to misunderstand… Because I never… never thought of that.”

Carly responds so innocently to my spiteful question.

I thought it was cute and gently removed the body I was leaning on.

Seruk.

And naturally, he raised his hand.

“… … .”

Even in the dark, when I touched her white cheek, I caught her flinching and lovely reaction in my eyes, and grabbed her head and led her to me.

… Even as I naturally kissed her face as she approached blankly, I just wanted her at this moment.

Took.

When their lips met, her eyes, which shook even more, stared at him without hesitation.

“Uhhhhh!”

I wanted to see her react even louder as I twisted my softly kissed lips.

Then, naturally, my hands wrapped around her head so that she could not separate from me.

Two tightly closed eyes.

Face completely red.

And from the touching lips to the hot heat felt… … .

Even as I felt all of that… I even thought I was lucky that she answered like that.

‘Not yet… .’

I can still be content with this.

Since Carly hadn’t completely accepted me a while ago, I decided to be content with continuing the kiss with her.

So, don’t cross that line.

“Ugh…!”

But Carly, whose resistance had completely disappeared just by kissing over and over again, seemed to be tempting me again and again.

i crossed the line

To make me long for her more… .

Squeak.

When I gently parted my lips, a strange line was drawn between her and mine.

“ha… … .”

Carly let out a rough breath with her eyes wide open, and I gently pulled her into my arms.

When her slender body came into contact with mine, I felt both satisfied and regretful.

“…really. Will you look at me like that?”

“why…”

I swallowed the words behind me at the blankly answered voice.

‘Because it’s really unbearable.’

“It’s just because you’re so pretty.”

While saying something else… I held her in my arms a little stronger.