315. All the context fits
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‘Since when… ?’
That was the first thought I had as soon as I saw Milia.
Really since when did Milia look at me and Luna?
Standing near a park not far from the cafe….
Poof.
As Milia suddenly turned away from me as if to avoid my gaze and disappeared back into the park, my mind seemed to turn white.
“…Luna.”
“Huh?”
“Enough for today, see you next time.”
“Okay. But let me tell you one thing. How can you receive the mana of Ariya Tower Master? ….”
“Sorry. I’ll tell you more about it later.”
I felt like my instincts were leading me even as I continued talking blankly.
‘This is not good.’
The feeling of not really being good occupied my heart intensely.
“…Agar?”
“I’ll pay and go.”
“No, it’s not even necessary….”
I listened to Luna’s words and hurriedly raised her body.
With my daughter!
As soon as I finished paying at the counter, I left the cafe. Then, a moment ago, Milia moved her steps to the park where she had hidden her body.
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Jeobuck, Jeobuck…… !
My steps couldn’t get faster, so I was heading fast as if I was running.
‘I need to talk to Milia.’
I wasn’t sure.
But it seemed like it had to be.
And I don’t know how long they’ve seen us, but there’s a very good chance Milia saw Luna and I holding hands.
And that’s on my mind so much right now.
“…”
Even as I bit her tight lips, I thought Milia might be misunderstanding us.
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Jerebuck!
After entering the park like that, I hurriedly turned my head to find Milia.
“No…?”
While muttering blankly, his eyes were furrowed.
I didn’t even know why my heart changed so hastily.
‘Even if I meet Milia, what should I say?’
Even if you say that Luna and I holding hands is a misunderstanding…….
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Jerebuck!
While thinking about it, I quickly walked through the park and looked around.
Among the green vegetation, I saw some cadets sitting on park benches. Black bobbed hair, the car that gave eyes to them over and over again repeating the characteristics of Milia.
I unknowingly wiped my face once.
“Haa….”
Even though I was holding my breath a little bit, it seemed to flicker in front of my eyes.
Milia’s face before she disappeared from me came to mind with a strangely vivid expression, her shocked expression and her shaking eyes.
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Jerbug.
…I suddenly understood while hurried on in a daze.
Now I know that her face bothers me.
I naturally came to understand why Milia was so concerned about the misunderstanding between me and Luna.
“Couldn’t be… I guess.”
Unbeknownst to me, I mumbled close to disbelief, but my heart seemed to sink.
There was one reason I never thought of.
Took.
As he stopped walking… His eyes blurred.
“……”
Sureuk.
My heart was shaken as I idly sat down on a nearby bench.
‘If all my thoughts right now were an illusion….’
Then would my heart be a little more comfortable?
I didn’t even know that anymore.
Now even my mind was confused about whether or not I wanted my thoughts with the context complete to be true.
‘I can understand if Milia was deeply hurt by what happened with Luna at the end of the sparring yesterday.’
Why did the kind Milia feel so bad, Luna’s personality couldn’t be so, but why did she have a big trouble with Milia, and today, with a cold answer, Milia moved away from us…
Finally, why did she put on such a shocked expression just a moment ago?
If you look at each one, the things you didn’t understand at all fit perfectly.
“Things that had no context at all….”
All of them fit together.
That’s because of just one assumption.
“Milia me…”
Even though I blurted out her words, I couldn’t bear to say anything behind her.
Only my mind became more complicated.
Really… I didn’t know.
I just wanted to confirm right away how long it had been and whether Milia really had that kind of heart.
I felt like I could solve this situation properly.
Then several thoughts seized my mind.
‘Can I do that?’
I already had a number of women I could call lovers.
I got permission from them, and now we have several relationships. All of them are great women, so I thought if I wanted to embrace them all, I would have to work even harder.
You have to become a person worthy of it.
“……”
Dazedly, I raised my head and looked at the red sky as the sunset went down.
And today, I still have schedules left. Training with Kali….
There is not much time left even for that appointment time.
Now that I am looking for Millia, what should I say?
‘If she really has her feelings for me the way I think….’
I didn’t even think that I would be able to respond to that feeling right now, or that Millia would accept me like this.
She felt like it hurt her a lot.
“Ha….”
I laughed for a moment while thinking about it.
Mixed with confusion and the need to find Milia, it prevented me from making any choice.
I just sit on a bench in the park and think of all sorts of things.
“…”
From the moment I first saw Milia in the past, I felt that she was my ideal type.
She couldn’t deny that she had a great crush on her, and even when we actually chatted with her and spent time together, I was never disappointed in her Milia or felt anything like that.
Because she was the woman she dreamed of even more than ideal.
So there were times when I was more flustered or flustered when dealing with Milia.
I want to show her a slightly better side of her, to the point where I even think that I want to look good.
“Haa….”
I blankly held her face as I let out a big sigh. Through many thoughts, I became aware of my current feelings.
It was an obvious greed and desire.
It’s a selfish mind.
Through the apostle I met last week, I thought about death. He tried to face death with Karite and even had feelings close to bodily sensations.
And after surviving the crisis of death, my values have changed greatly.
…If I was going to die in such vain, I should have acted as my heart led me.
It would have been better to try to be better for them than to be alone in confusion.
“…”
When I thought about it, the answer was ironically decided.
‘I have to bump into her.’
Even I couldn’t figure out what the answer was.
I didn’t feel like it was the answer to just refuse Millia and try to turn away from her no matter what my current situation was.
My heart wasn’t headed that way. So… First of all, I thought I had to bump into her as I am now.
If it’s true that she really has feelings for me, she should check that out and decide on my answer.
That should have been my top priority.
Then my answer is too simple.
Sureuk.
As soon as I got up from the bench, I started to move quickly.
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Jerbug. That buck….
In the midst of my more urgent steps, my eyes looked around the park more closely.
‘Maybe….’
Milia disappeared towards the park, avoiding my gaze, and she might have headed for the dormitory. But I wanted to find her a little more.
And if possible now. I wanted to check her heart properly.
Did my wish work like a miracle?
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Jerbug.
Stopping my steps, I momentarily turned my head into the bush.
“…Milia?”
I was able to find Milia in an unexpected place.
It was cleverly hidden among the various vegetation in the park, so I almost missed it.
“……”
Watching Milia staring blankly at me with her head lifted from her lowered head, I suddenly felt a surge of confidence in my heart.
There was no strength in Milia’s eyes right now. And even as she looked at me, she smiled awkwardly, but even that smile was faint and seemed like it would disappear soon.
Looked too unstable.
“Agar Castle….”
“Why are you… in such a place?”
“Just…. Nothing.”
Took. Took.
So Milia soon brushed off her own skirt and raised her body in the bushes, as she spoke cautiously.
“Milia. Wait… Can you really talk to me for a minute?”
“Why me?”
Milia’s voice as she answered me had grown cold before I knew it.
To the point where I could feel that she clearly rejected my words and actions rather than accepting her words.
Nevertheless, I had to tell her.
“I have something to tell you now. And what I want to confirm with you.”
“……”
Milia’s eyes staring at me at my words were very cold, as if she wasn’t the girl I knew.
… However, her coldness gave me too much confidence in my thoughts, her assumptions.
So I had to get closer to her.
“This is a very important story. I just want you to give me time.”
I felt like I would regret it greatly if I didn’t catch Milia now.