[A piece of sh*t. ]
“Why are you so angry again?”
[I hate to see you not being able to properly confess your feelings to a girl you like. Why are you dissatisfied? ]
No, isn’t that the same for you? Rowoon barely held back from trying to shoot him like that. It was obvious how that bad-tempered nobleman would behave if he heard such words.
Rowoon swallowed a sigh and said.
“That is something I have to figure out. So don’t worry about it.”
[ good. A very cheap attitude. You’ve looked into my life as much as you can, and you can’t accept that I’m giving you a little advice on your life, right? ]
“……Was that an advice? No, and I didn’t do it to invade the teacher’s privacy, what should I do because I was trying to understand you?”
[ noisy. ]
In many ways, Beethoven has always been a difficult opponent to please. Rowoon hurriedly changed the topic.
“So, teacher, do you have any songs you recommend?”
[I don’t think any song you play will be particularly satisfying. ]
“……But isn’t it a bit better now? The score was pretty good when I played the Schumann Variations the other day.”
[I’ll say it’s okay when you can play 100 points. ]
“You speak so easily.”
[It’s difficult for fakes, but easy for real people. ]
Beethoven asked as if tossing it.
[Are you satisfied with fakes? ]
“That’s not it…”
[ Moonlight. ]
“yes?”
[Do it with moonlight. ]
“Moonlight?”
It was a random recommendation. moon. Beethoven’s representative song that you can’t possibly know even if you are not interested in classical music.
[You’ll find out when you do it. Don’t even ask why. ]
“······All right.”
In any case, this is Beethoven’s advice. There must have been a reason for his recommendation of Moonlight. Rowoon meekly accepted Beethoven’s will.
‘It’s not like I’ve never hit anything in the moonlight.’
How many piano majors have never played moonlight?
Although he had never participated in a competition with Moonlight, even so, with his recent momentum, it seemed that he could prepare a decent performance before the competition. That’s not to say that you can reach 80 points again, but still.
“Do it with moonlight?”
When he heard Rowoon’s chosen song, Jungwoo made a strange expression. Rowoon understood why he reacted so lukewarmly. Rowoon smiled and replied.
“That’s it.”
“Are you okay? Moonlight must be… isn’t it?”
“There are many comparisons. You will feel bored.”
Moonlight is probably the most exposed song to the public. In other words, from a viewer’s point of view, in many ways Rowoon’s performance is inevitably compared to that of others.
“Still, I think the judges will evaluate it objectively and well, regardless of that.”
“Well, that’s right. It’s not like Moongwang is a song that doesn’t come out often in recitals. However, there must be some level of expectations… Well, I guess people are already expecting a lot from you in the first place.”
Jungwoo nodded his head in the middle of talking, as if he had understood. Rowoon’s upward trend these days was not normal. It felt like I was using this tournament as an opportunity to find my true worth, not just a place to showcase my skills.
“I don’t know. Am I playing up to expectations now?”
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“It’s not like we play to live up to those expectations.”
“That’s right. But still, the human heart is like that.”
Jungwoo said with a somewhat lonely face.
“If there is someone who has expectations, I want to live up to those expectations.”
“Do you often contact your father?”
“Not often. I contacted you briefly the other day.”
“What did you say?”
“Be good.”
Jungwoo replied briefly.
“You look good.”
“······That’s enough, well.”
“How about you.”
Jungwoo glanced at Rowoon and asked.
“Does your father often contact you?”
“······well. I haven’t heard from you since then, but I wonder if this is a good thing, and I don’t know.”
“It is difficult. A father-son relationship.”
“Because as soon as you get a call, you get sad, and when you don’t come, you get sad. I can’t help it. I am already very sad about the past. Even if I wonder if dwelling on the past is really the right attitude… But when I think about my mother, I don’t feel like having a good relationship with her. I just think about it often. what does mom want Does Mom want me to get along with him, or…”
“I don’t think it’s a question I can answer.”
“are you okay. No one can answer. I just wanted to talk.”
It was very pitiful to see Rowoon saying that. Jungwoo let out a sigh and quietly patted Rowoon’s back.
“you can do it. you also. me too.”
“You have to work hard.”
Rowoon clenched his fists.
“I have to pay. strength.”
Kim Jin-young must be watching everything Rowoon is doing at The Musicians. Sometimes cheering, sometimes sorry, sometimes proud.
No matter what Kim Jin-young thought, there was only one choice Rowoon could make. I don’t want to make him look ugly.
If you ask if it is because you want to be acknowledged by Jinyoung Kim, the answer to that question will probably be ‘no’. Kim Jin-young’s approval is not necessary. But, I just want to show him. Even without you, I grew up like this. I became a pianist who could play such a great performance.
Mother raised her son so well.
‘······Whether moonlight is a difficult choice or not, it doesn’t matter.’
The more difficult it is, the better you have to do it. Beethoven said. Be real, not fake. And Rowoon knew that he would never be able to excuse his shabbiness by hiding behind the titles of amateur and student.
Now is the time to start living a real life, the life of a real pianist.
‘······you can do it.’
Rowoon grabbed the Walkman from his pocket. Compared to the previous Schumann Variations, the conditions were worse in many ways, but there was one comforting part nonetheless.
Rowoon reached level 8 through the last performance, and Walkman unlocked another function for him as always.
Now, it’s time for a new lesson.
＜ Moonlight (1) ＞ End
＜ Moonlight (2) ＞
＜＜ Moonlight is not a name given by Beethoven himself. ＞＞
＜＜ The name he first gave was a fantasy sonata. ＞＞
＜＜ However, a critic named Ludwig Relstav compared his song to ‘Moonlight’, and at some point people started calling it Moonlight. ＞＞
＜＜ But isn’t it strange? The name given by the critic captures the sentiment of this song more accurately than any other word. ＞＞
‘Hmm.’
Rowoon looked at his phone screen and made an interesting expression. On the screen, a music critic was passionately talking about Beethoven’s Moonlight. However, it was not that Moongwang was not a name derived from Beethoven that Rowoon was interested in.
‘Beethoven referred to this song as moonlight.’
It’s not the name Beethoven made, but Beethoven correctly instructed Rowoon to play ‘Moonlight’. It was strange considering Beethoven’s personality. He wasn’t the kind of person who would be so happy to see someone naming his songs.
‘Did I like this expression that much?’
You could have asked if you wanted to ask directly. But somehow I had a strong feeling that Beethoven would not welcome the question. Rowoon continued to focus on the video. The critic was now facing the camera with a serious face.
＜＜ What do you think of when you hear moonlight? beautiful? But if you only felt that, then you didn’t really understand this song. As always in Beethoven’s life, it wasn’t that beautiful even when he composed this song. ＞＞
＜＜ Of course, it’s not without its beauty in some aspects. A soul in love is always beautiful, and Beethoven was very deeply in love at this time. To Miss Giulietta, who dedicated this song. ＞＞
＜＜ But love can be beautiful, but the things it causes are always ugly and messy. So did Beethoven. Miss Giletta’s family was very vehemently opposed to the marriage of the eccentric Beethoven and our daughter. ＞＞
＜＜ In addition, Beethoven at this time was even beginning to suffer from ear disease. ＞＞
＜＜ The Moonlight you heard was written by a man who was losing everything he loved: a sound and a woman. ＞＞
＜＜ Then, listen to the performance again. ＞＞
＜＜ Does this song still sound the same? ＞＞
Even if you are insensitive to music, after hearing this explanation, your attitude will inevitably change to some extent. So was Rowoon. After hearing the stories behind Moonlight, Rowoon could only guess what kind of anguish and melancholy was hidden behind this song, which seemed so sky-high.
‘······His personality makes sense.’
The God of Music may have chosen Beethoven, but the God of Happiness doesn’t seem to have chosen Beethoven.
Rowoon couldn’t understand why Beethoven, an absolute legend in music, had to go through such failures in all other areas. He should have lived a happier life. I deserved it, and I had a duty to do it. If you can’t get happiness even if you reach the same level of music as Beethoven, where else can you find happiness?
‘Can’t you be happy with music alone?’
No, maybe if you ask Beethoven, he would recall that his life was happy. Of course, the odds of that happening aren’t very high.
Rowoon listened to Moonlight played by several pianists. Even though it was the same moonlight, the feeling was markedly different depending on whose hand touched it. Some just look beautiful, some feel a bit bitter, some just worship Beethoven.