137 – Han Seo-ah. A younger sister who lacks affection and can’t be honest.
She remembered how she had made every effort for her first girlfriend.
I wanted to forget it because it was such a deep trauma. She unabashedly talked about me in front of Yuuko and naturally revealed her past.
“I really liked it. So, I was grateful for dating a girl like me, so I arranged everything for her, gave her gifts, and always worked hard to check how she was feeling.”
In the past, I was a very timid and observant person.
Even now I can’t say no.
“But it turned out that she had been hanging out with other guys for several years while we were dating.”
The reason why I hate Netorare. To the extent that it becomes a trauma.
As I was talking about the situation, I glanced at Yuuko.
She was listening to my story with a very serious attitude.
To the point where the person speaking is embarrassed.
“So, there is a situation that often appears in those types of comics.”
He scratched his cheek and started talking.
“It ended miserably after being caught by me like that.”
“Are you saying this is a common situation?”
“Huh?”
I never thought you would understand.
I hesitate to explain it with my own words.
More than that, why am I even bringing this up?
I had no intention of telling people about my past self.
Actually, I was also nervous in front of Yuuko. After saying that I, too, am not good at dealing with women, I ended up here.
“So, I saw you with that cheating man.”
He turned her head and said.
Yuko had no answer.
“After that, I was especially traumatized. “It’s become more difficult to deal with the opposite s*x.”
However, the characters in the creation do not betray.
Perform your role in a given situation and end with a happy ending.
Of course, I knew that there was a story with a bad ending, not just a happy ending.
Stories stained with such betrayal or hurt can no longer be seen.
“But after learning about this world by chance, I thought I wanted to save them.”
Of course, because I have this type of personality, I also wondered if I could really do it.
“Strangely, I was able to easily talk to Haruna Kato and Eri Takase.”
Perhaps the reason is because I know them.
What kind of personality is it, and what kind of future does it face? What you like and dislike.
I wasn’t afraid because I knew about them.
These women are not villains. In this world, they are just victims. You try hard, but in the end you fail and it ends badly.
“If I had to compare it, I would say it was the moment when I got to see a celebrity I often saw on screen in real life.”
They don’t know me, but I know them.
Speaking to you with such inner intimacy,
“Furthermore, I was obsessed with a sense of duty to save Haruna and help Eri Takase, so I stepped forward even more desperately.”
As I ran like that, I made various mistakes.
We experienced many events, and in the process, our relationship and story changed.
“You are not a character from this world.”
Looking at her, she smiled faintly.
“I don’t even know what kind of person you are. I can’t decide if you hate me or like me. “You probably don’t like it.”
So, I get nervous without even realizing it.
“But if I’m being honest.”
If I say something like this, wouldn’t I be laughed at?
I opened my mouth even though I was worried that I would be kicked out for saying that I had no intention of doing so.
“I want to become friends with you too. Just as person to person.”
I don’t know.
After all, Yuuko is Yuuko.
It doesn’t matter if you get hurt once more.
“That’s it.”
She looked at me silently.
“Well, what is it? I even said this. “Please show me any reaction.”
Laughing or getting angry.
I wanted to at least show that kind of reaction, but she was staring at me with very serious eyes.
“Hmph.”
Then she turned her head.
After all, it doesn’t work.
It must be difficult to get close to her on a human level.
The moment Yuuko felt that way, she jumped up from her seat.
“……… “Hanseo.”
“Huh?”
“My name. “It’s Hanseo.”
I looked at her in shock.
“Only you know.”
Saying that, she took her steps.
“Hey, wait… ! Let’s go together… !”
Suddenly the name of the previous world was revealed.
Yuuki Yuuko’s previous name. Han Seo Ah.
I couldn’t tell what kind of wind was blowing.
She, who was walking fast, suddenly slowed down and matched her stride with me.
***
Minsu Kim. He told me his weaknesses.
Then she shared her honest true feelings.
In that case, wouldn’t it be polite for me to return it at least a little bit?
I thought so, but I couldn’t say anything.
He mustered up the courage to tell us about his past. I didn’t have the courage to do that.
I was still not confident in myself.
So, I only revealed my name.
That was all I could reveal to him now.
“Now, wait a minute, Yuuko… !”
Slow down your walking speed.
I turned around and saw him.
“Didn’t you hear what I just said?”
“Huh?”
“My name… !”
Minsu stopped and looked worried for a moment.
“One… “Seo?”
“Yes.”
He said while looking ahead.
“Call me that when it’s just the two of us.”
“…… Okay.”
There was no meaning to that action.
Okay, it really didn’t mean anything, but I asked that.
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Sit at the stop and wait for the bus.
We didn’t say anything as we sat in our seats waiting for the bus that never came.
I chuckle and clear my throat.
I didn’t particularly notice him.
“Ah… I… “Hanseo.”
“Why Kim Min-soo?”
I return the answer to the person who awkwardly rhymes and calls me with his last name.
“Why did you suddenly tell me your name?”
I took a deep breath.
“Just. It doesn’t mean anything. “Please don’t misunderstand.”
I just wanted to let you know about me.
But I didn’t know what to say, so I only spoke the three words I could.
“No, I don’t really misunderstand.”
He was embarrassed and closed his mouth again.
And then there was silence again.
The bus still didn’t come.
“Hmm.”
I cleared my throat again.
Minsu shrugged his shoulders and opened his mouth again.
“Ah, hey Hanseo.”
“Hey.”
“Huh?”
“How long are you going to call me that?”
Don’t hesitate to call people’s names like that.
“There is no need for ‘there’ or ‘ah’. “Just call me normal.”
“That’s right, yes.”
He said, scratching his cheek.
It seemed to be a habit I often did when I was in trouble or hesitant.
“Seoya.”
“Why, Minsu?”
I just called your name.
What is this tickling feeling?
Unable to bear it, he lowered his head and barely raised it.
“The bus is coming soon.”
As if that was all, Minsu stood up.
He gets on the approaching bus and takes a single seat.
When I turned my gaze, I saw him sitting opposite me.
I couldn’t understand at all.
I tried to throw away ‘Han Seo-ah’ from this world. Why did you tell him?
In fact, would a country with such a shabby and ugly past still have feelings for someone to be positive about it?
If it were that guy, did I suddenly have an expectation that he might accept me?
Even so, why come now?
I am Yuuki Yuuko.
I decided to throw away the past and forget about it.
But why?
Get off the bus and walk down the street.
He was always next to me, as if heading in the same direction.
As I walked like that, I saw a house.
“Goodbye. “Hanseo.”
In front of the house, he waved his hand at me and tried to go back in the direction he had walked.
“Huh? Now, wait a minute….”
I just thought we were going in the same direction.
Could it be that he took me to the front of the house?
– Be a man and try being an escort! –
I was the one who got so upset.
“Huh? Why?”
I made eye contact with Minsu.
“Ah… no.”
Can we say that today’s date was a success?
I’m not sure.
I have never truly experienced what kind of emotional exchanges occur between a man and a woman who like each other while spending the same amount of time together.
But what is this complicated and subtle feeling?
“Goodbye.”
I blurted out the words and closed the door.
I didn’t want to react this coldly.
I took a deep breath as I entered the yard.
Let’s calm down.
The present time is just smoke.
I’m just pretending to like him.
This date is just a show to reveal it to everyone.
I don’t like Kim Min-soo.
I just told you my name.
I only told him my name in the past, which no one knew.
There is only that.
There is no meaning to it.
Just three letters for your name. An old name that you want to throw away.
That’s all.
He pressed his pounding chest and took a deep breath.
There is no way I will ever like a man. There is no way there is a man who will accept me.
Knowing myself well, I calmed my agitated mind and closed the door.