164 – Sincere Goal
The cutter blade rises. His words just now kept ringing in my head.
‘If you are going to die, please do it with your own strength’
The sharp tip of the sword points towards the wrist.
With a grunt, the tip of his blade hides downward.
‘What do you think love is?’
The words he said played over and over again in my head, driving me forward.
‘If I’m going to die, I’ll die alone.’
‘Don’t be a nuisance to others and die quietly alone.’
‘Because no one cares about you’
‘Don’t cling to me anymore.’
Oh. Did that kid say something so harsh?
Or is it my imagination?
I couldn’t tell now, but the tip of the cutter knife was revealed again and slowly rose.
Drink the glass.
In a dazed mood, I picked up the knife without thinking.
They cut and tear.
Blood rushes and you have a reason to cover your arms again.
“It hurts…” .”
I was so drunk that I couldn’t distinguish anything. As I came back to my senses, a tearing pain came over me.
“It hurts…” .”
He fell to the floor, clutching his wrist.
I tried as hard as I could, but this area only hurt, and it didn’t kill me.
‘If you are going to die, please do it on your own’
Sweat and blood flow profusely.
“It hurts….”
I crouched on the floor, clutching my bleeding wrist.
“It’s scary.”
It is scary to die alone.
“I’m afraid.”
I am afraid that I will be forgotten forever in this world.
“It’s impossible to do it alone.”
I curled up there and fell asleep, drinking, sweating, and bleeding.
***
I rubbed my forehead and sighed. Haruna looked at me worriedly and she asked.
“Minsu, are you okay? “You don’t look good.”
“Yes. “It’s okay, don’t worry.”
I didn’t want to show it, but I couldn’t help but frown the fear, annoyance, and frustration that inevitably came out.
Haruna was also sensitive and seemed to notice my signs and was paying attention to me.
I tried to smile and walked ahead.
Because I didn’t want to look behind.
“I really didn’t know you would come! “I was really moved!”
“Because I was bored walking around alone. “It just worked out.”
“Take responsibility and we will guide you!”
“Aren’t you guys so excited?”
The voices of noisy male students and dissatisfied female students. And surrounded by them is Kotomi Yanase.
It looks like Yuuki finally called him.
Aside from calling her, why did that woman come out? She said she was calling, but why did she really join the group I was in?
It was an extremely uncomfortable sight.
Standing behind her and looking at her back. Although it was nerve-wracking to walk in front of her and keep her behind, I chose the latter for her.
“Teacher, where do you want to go from here?”
“I like wherever you guys go.”
“As expected, you are so kind!”
This was because behind Yanase, who was smiling and talking while surrounded by male students, was Elena.
He looked more like a guard escorting a prisoner than a bodyguard.
“That person looks like he’s been in a bad mood since a while ago….”
“Shiraishi’s aunt?”
“Shhh… ! Look over here, be quiet!”
The female students whispered as if they were nervous and then dispersed like a flock of ants, but the reason Elena looked at them was probably because of the title.
Her older sister is okay, but her aunts and aunts are not allowed. She seemed to be the only one who knew that Elena was sensitive to her age.
In such a delicate atmosphere, I slightly raised my hand.
“Oh, wait a minute. “I’m going to go to the bathroom.”
“Yes. “Come back.”
“I’ll be waiting~”
I left the place, waving to Haruna and Shiraishi.
To be honest, I just ran away.
She is not confident that she can continue her peaceful journey with Yanase in her sights.
Haruna also noticed those signs in me and became worried without even knowing why.
After washing my face in the bathroom and looking in the mirror for a moment, I sighed and came out.
“Wow!”
When she saw Elena standing right in front of her, she was so shocked that she almost fell, but she held onto my arm and said calmly.
“Did you sleep well last night?”
“…… “Thank you.”
For some reason, he followed me to the bathroom and stood right in front of the entrance.
If it was an attempt to make me relax by surprising me, I will tell you that it was of no use at all.
“I was the one who brought Yanase out.”
“Why?”
Anyway, Elena knows the cause of my nervousness.
If she had bothered to include Yanase in her group, it seemed like she had a good reason for it.
“If you leave it alone, you never know what it will do again.”
“Ah….”
“In that case, it would be better to always watch from a place within my reach.”
She said with a calm expression.
“Don’t worry.”
Elena came to reassure me.
“No matter what happens, I will protect the boy.”
I lowered my head at that trustworthy declaration.
“…… Thank you “Mr. Elena.”
“As I said before. “I just do what I have to do.”
If I were alone, I would have retired from this world a long time ago.
I opened my mouth again, grateful for the presence of those who helped me.
“I met Yanase again last night.”
Elena’s eyes widened.
She then stretched out her hands and suddenly started groping her shoulders, arms, and waist.
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“W-what are you doing!?”
“Are you hurt anywhere? Now, please take it off. Check… !”
I pushed her away as she tried to take off her shirt and shook her head.
“No! Because you’re not hurt! “Don’t take your pants down!”
The eyes of people walking to and from the bathroom were focused on us.
“Then I’m glad. “I don’t understand why you did that.”
“Sometimes I don’t understand Elena either….”
She sighed lightly, adjusting her pants that were almost falling down.
Then I moved on and told him about what happened last night and what I realized.
“…… So, I think Yanase is suffering from serious suicidal thoughts.”
Of course, I couldn’t tell the story of the previous world, so my explanation ended up being somewhat lacking in evidence.
“I see.”
Elena quietly nodded her head and listened to me.
“What do you think?”
“To put it bluntly, I don’t think it’s suicidal.”
“Ah… also.”
Do you not agree with my opinion? Well, it’s definitely worth it.
“It’s an impulse to kill.”
“Yes?”
“You want to be killed by others. “That’s not suicide.”
I asked her, drawing a line, as if it was just a play on words, but her clear meaning was different.
“Then what should I do?”
At that question, Elena tilted her head and looked at me.
“What should I do? “What do you mean by that?”
“Yes?”
Conversation is not working.
As if she was talking to a foreigner, she raised her arm to gesture and then lowered it back, opened her mouth and stuttered, and eventually fell silent.
“Once her field trip is over and she returns to school, I will report her in accordance with due process and take steps only to prevent her from approaching me again. “There is nothing for the boy to do other than testify as a victim.”
That’s right.
Are you stupid?
She subconsciously thought that she had to help Yanase.
“…… Does her boy want to help her by any chance?”
Elena’s eyes, which I can’t tell what she’s feeling, are focused on me as if they were reproaching me.
I couldn’t tell if it was a pure question or if she was questioning me like a brat.
“If that is the boy’s intention, you will have to be prepared.”
Elena turned her head and looked in front of her and said.
“Resolution… yo. This.”
“Yes. Ready to handle and accept her.”
That hurdle is too high.
However, I knew even if Elena didn’t tell me.
“I need her resolve to face her squarely and confront her sincerity.”
“……… ….”
“Still, it is likely that only the boy will be hurt.”
A woman who wants to die.
The woman who chose me as the person to kill her.
“hahahaha….”
As expected from the last one, the level of difficulty is quite high.
“It’s really stupid and foolish, but it is.”
She said, raising her body.
“I hope the teacher doesn’t die.”
Elena also stood up after me.
“Even though the result may be wrong and the boy may die… “You mean?”
I shouldn’t die.
Scratches the back of her neck.
“It’s okay. Because I have a goal that I must achieve. “I won’t die.”
It was a hastily created goal.
“What is that?”
I am hesitant to speak.
It’s perfect to be treated like a fool, or even despised.
But I can’t just say I’m doing it because I want to, without any goal.
“Ha, ha….”
“Ha?”
I don’t know.
I declared, smiling like an idiot.
“I need to create a harem.”
Having said those words, her expression, which had been calm until now, showed a rare emotion.
She looked at me with her surprised eyes and slowly opened her mouth.
“Boy.”
“Yes.”
“That harem….”
Should I be told if I was sincere, or should I be told not to talk nonsense?
“Can you join me too?”
“Yes?”
Surprised by her opposition, I looked back at her.
Elena had an extremely serious look in her eyes.