40. Vicarious Satisfaction
40. Vicarious satisfaction.
If the person who raised me was the person who killed my parents, how would it feel?
‘Perhaps, vomit will come out.’
It would be humiliating to deny yourself and to be raised by such a hand.
No matter how much you raised yourself, the fact that you killed your blood parents will never be forgiven.
The feeling of being denied existence.
Perhaps, the spirit of Banhana couldn’t stand it, and it ran wild.
I decided to ask Shin Si-hwa what I heard until I die.
‘If this fact reaches the ears of half Hana…’
Wouldn’t she walk the path of a villain again like in V. AGE?
I had a certainty similar to guessing, so I had to hide the fact from Banhana unconditionally.
Shin Shi-hwa said to me with a serious expression.
“I don’t want him to have anything to do with Black Dawn anymore.
Is it because at a young age he saw his parents suffered because of the incident?
The fact that Shin Shi-hwa was involved in the Black Dawn seemed to be caught in her mind.
The gloomy atmosphere continued.
The only thing to evoke this atmosphere was the passing of time.
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After some time passes, let’s organize our thoughts and time together,
Shin Shi-hwa let out a sigh that relieved the tension in her heart.
“Whew..”
“Are you calming down a little?”
“Yeah… I’m sorry to show you this. Student Shi-Jun. It’s been a while since I’ve come back, but I think I’ve brought a big load..”
“hahaha..”
I just smiled at Shin Shi-hwa’s words of concern.
Banhana’s past was a pretty big burden for me, but it’s already stuck on my shoulder.
“I have a bigger bag, so that’s fine.”
How do you train her?
That was a bigger burden for me.
“Ah.. yes.. right..?”
Shin Shi-hwa only answered me with a cheeky smile.
Come to think of it.
How do I solve the misunderstanding about my deadline..?
Shin Shi-hwa further misunderstood, thinking that the reason I had a contact with Black Dawn was to cure an illness.
The place where Han Yu-wol and I met was a back alley designated as a prohibited area.
The aftermath was too great to explain that we met by chance while looking for medicine there.
‘Ha.. the student, the back.. the back alley neck..? Han Si-jun student. Expulsion. It’s disappointing.’
A back alley, one of the three prohibited areas in Korea.
Rather than being found out that he had entered there, rather to cure the end of his life,
It was much better to have met the Black Dawn.
Sometimes a lie can be the right answer.
‘Let’s just put the deadline…’
If you can’t flirt with a girl, it’s a deadline, right?
I quietly shut my mouth and decided to follow Shin Shi-hwa’s illusion.
Shin Shi-hwa, unaware of my heart, began to ask me about my health.
“Student Si-Jun Han… So did you find a cure..?”
“It doesn’t work.”
“ah..”
When Shin Shi-hwa heard that, he sighed.
Does she empathize and embrace everyone’s feelings?
He seemed to have an open mind.
She seemed sad that I didn’t live long, so she offered a helping hand.
“If there’s anything I… can help with, please don’t hesitate to tell me! I’m Sijun’s teacher!”
“Do..help..?”
Help?
Isn’t that the sound of kissing me?
But unfortunately, if the kissing target does not have romantic feelings,
It is said that there is no effect because the qualification is also insufficient.
I said to Shin Si-hwa in a tone of regret.
“There is nothing that the teacher can help me with.”
“Is it that bad…? It’s so bad that you don’t need my help…?”
“No, that’s not it…”
“A man at an end of the day.. A woman who doesn’t know that…! Between childhood friends like that… Ahh… I’m so sorry…”
I don’t know why, but Sensei Shin Shihwa once turned on the delusional switch,
Maybe he couldn’t see his surroundings, or he didn’t listen to me at all.
Perhaps, he has a brain that is optimized for delusions.
Such a thought suddenly occurred to me.
After some time has passed, the delusion of myths will come to an end,
He immediately opened his eyes and handed me the offer.
“Student Shi-Jun. Do you have any intention of getting medical treatment? There is an A-class hero among my classmates! That friend is a healer, so maybe I can get some help!”
“I… I’m fine.”
“Why? Why! Don’t you want to live long? Don’t you want to see more childhood friends?”
Then, Shin Shi-hwa gets up from her chair and turns her face to me.
From my point of view, Shin Shi-hwa seemed to be quite interested in our childhood friends.
Something, I have to say that it feels like I’m watching a romance drama by myself.
It was speculated that she was in a third-party situation, felt sorry for me as a dead woman, and was observing the freshness of childhood friends.
Otherwise, I wouldn’t be interested in this.
“Before you die, you’re going to go on a date…!? You’re not dating Ha-yeon? It’s only natural for childhood friends to date..!!”
“Seo.. Sir. Calm down. Calm down.”
“For a teacher like me who is not married, dating is the most fun topic for students!! Please answer quickly! When are you dating!?”
Wouldn’t it be like this if the lead actor of a drama was asked a question by a passer-by?
Shin Shi-hwa, who was approaching 30 soon, seemed to understand why she didn’t get married even though she had a good appearance.
“Can’t we be childhood friends? Do you like Hana student more!? Is Hayeon not a good student!?”
The question of Shin Shi-hwa that rushes like a storm.
She was coming closer and closer to me, and I wondered if the desk was going to fall over.
If I take any more questions, it’ll be quicker for my desk to collapse.
I immediately wanted to change the topic of the conversation.
“Well, then, later. I’ll take a test later. If you ask that healer, I’d appreciate it.”
“Yeah, student Shi-Jun! You need to get treatment and live longer. Next time, don’t ask the villains for a cure or anything like that. You know? I know that student Shi-Jun is in a hurry, but they will never listen to student Shi-Jun. They are human beings. They’re the bad guys who take pleasure in dying.”
“Yes. I understand. I understand very well.”
Stop asking any more questions.
Shin Shi-hwa’s question was similar to the question, ‘Why is he acting like that over there?’ while watching a drama, so I couldn’t answer her at all.
At this point, the consultation is over.
Shin Sihwa also said goodbye to me with a disappointing tone, probably because he understood the end of the atmosphere.
“I’m sorry. Sijun student. If the lunch break had been a little longer, we could have had a good time..”
“hahaha. I will. Teacher. I feel really sorry.”
I spit out the most regret in a hard tone.
So, I got up, greeted her and opened the door.
Profit.
Bang.
The dull sound of the door closing.
Whew, it’s finally over.
The long and short consultation period is over.
Now it’s time to use my remaining time efficiently.
I heard a familiar voice next to me.
“Han Si-jun.”
“Nayuna..?”
Why is he here?
Na Yuna, the granddaughter of the NAVI family.
When I came out of the room, the woman I had not seen in a long time was welcoming me.
She spoke to me in her usual hard tone.
“Congratulations. You’re back alive.”
“Then, of course you’re alive. You wanted me to die?”
“No. It’s not like that. I just thought it might be better to die after being kidnapped by a villain.”
Why is it a joke all of a sudden?
I just came back alive from the villain’s lair.
Saying for a friend is better to die.
The moment when you want to be a little offended.
Nayuna started telling me what it means to be better off dead.
“Because of you, the stock price of the NAVI company fell. There was a loophole in the security system, and the sales also fell. You’re in trouble.”
“Why is that my fault. It’s Black Dawn.”
“I think our company has a different opinion. It’s just a place to get angry. You better be careful.”
Black Dawn can’t be touched, so you’re saying you’re going to touch me.
Her words are stiff, but Na Yuna seems to be worried about me and came to deliver a warning.
Still, in Na Yuna’s situation, I’m her first friend.
‘How’s the relationship between Banhana and Nayuna?’
Suddenly, such a thought occurred to me, but I thought that the combination of the two was probably the worst.
100% logical and 100% non-logical.
However, no matter how much I thought about it, I thought that the one who suffered the most was Na Yuna.
“Anyway, did you come to take care of me? Thank you. It’s been a while since I’ve seen your face, and it’s nice to see you.”
“What do you mean. Anyway, I’ll block anything that can block my line. Because you’re my friend. Goodbye.”
Light blonde.
Na Yuna tied her long back hair with a butterfly pin.
Perhaps embarrassed, she headed straight for the way back.
‘With Na Yuna… it would be better not to just do it.’
I thought about kissing her, but I had too much to lose with her.
The Nayuna route where a fork occurs when Nayuna’s favorability is 80% or more in V. AGE.
It was notorious for its content itself, and boasted a fairly high level of difficulty.
‘In my current state, it’s probably faster to die than to become a lover.’
Na Yuna was the one who had to succeed the huge company NAVI.
The people of that company were able to throw away all the distractions around her to make her the perfect person.
‘For now, Na Yuna’s plan to extend my life is put on hold.’
The risk is too large for the return value.
In my current state, the correct answer is to save Nayuna.
I didn’t even have the slightest intention of going out of business with her.
‘It would be the same for Nayuna.’
It is almost impossible to put love into that robot-like emotional system.
Does Nayuna know the word love in the first place?
It was questionable from then on.
“More than that, it was taken by NAVI.”
Anyway, as the episode progresses, it is natural that it will appear in NAVI.
It’s a question of timing.
It wasn’t that big of a problem for me.
I just walked forward according to the set episode.