54 – Girl’s determination
After calming Helen down and talking some more, the night was already right around the corner.
Edgar, who decided to put off meeting Yulken until tomorrow, was lying alone in his room.
It was a particularly bright moonlit night, so when they came out to the backyard, the guards who were vigilant quickly found Edgar and asked him about his business.
As he laughed while raising the wooden sword in his hand, Edgar’s acquaintance nodded and let him go.
I settled down in the place where I often practiced with Creed, and went out without saying a word to clear my mind.
Whiik. Whiik.
The wooden sword swung through the wind reaches the target point, then retrieves it and swings it again.
By the time this happened dozens or hundreds of times, a few drops of sweat began to form on the nape of Edgar’s neck and forehead.
“Whew.”
Since he didn’t even bring a towel, Edgar let out a short sigh and lay down on the grass.
When the cool grass touched my body in the night air, I felt my sweat cool down a bit.
Took.
“town!?”
At that moment, something soft landed on Edgar’s face, blocking both vision and breathing.
Uncharacteristically, as he struggled awkwardly, waving his hands in the air, In-young, who was approaching him, burst into laughter.
“Put, what are you doing? like an idiot.”
“Was it you? It’s dark, but I came all the way here to do something dangerous.”
“I was looking down from the balcony, but it was pity that I came out without a towel or water.”
As expected, a small canteen was clutched in Ariel’s hand.
After silently tossing it around, Ariel, who made sure he received it, carefully sat down on the grass.
“Because of you, the guards only look this way.”
As the heir of the grand duchy came out this late at night, their anxiety was indescribable.
However, despite Edgar’s point, Ariel pouted and shrugged her shoulders as if to say something.
“Then shouldn’t I even come out to notice others?”
“It’s not… Well, it’s nice to see you’ve returned to your usual self.”
“… … .”
When Edgar, relieved, raised one corner of his mouth in response, Ariel stared at him without a word.
And then stride.
In a sitting position, I only moved my lower body and moved a little closer to his side.
Maybe it was because he had only swung a wooden sword as if he had been covered by something a while ago. He smelled like sweat.
“Hey, I’m sweating right now, so don’t come near me.”
“What did you say. When did I care about that?”
“I do care.”
It doesn’t matter if you meet with your hair messy, but the smell of sweat is definitely different.
As if Edgar was running away, he moved his body to the side about one step away, and Ariel quickly followed him.
His behavior was quite different from usual, but his expression was so calm that Edgar wondered why he was like this today.
“Do you even have a taste for smelling other people’s sweat? Come on.”
“I’m crazy? I said I don’t care, why do you want me to smell your sweat?”
“So I do care. Oh, I’m really frustrated to death.”
In the end, Edgar, who gave up fighting Ariel, hung his head as if he had lost.
Then, a winner’s smile formed on her lips.
I often lost in verbal fights with him, but I felt good that my win rate had improved a bit recently.
“Then why did you come out? The nights are cold.”
“I brought my coat and came out… are you okay. In addition to having an affair, I also had something to ask you.”
“Are you going to ask?”
Edgar also had something he wanted to say, but it was getting late, so he was about to put it off until tomorrow.
For now, it seems that business over there is more urgent, so you should try to talk after answering the question.
“What? Tell me.”
“Tell me first before that.”
“me?”
He said he had something to ask, but why is he trying to postpone the order?
In the first place, he never even conveyed the meaning of what he wanted to say.
Why?
Seeing Edgar’s questioning eyes, Ariel laughed and let out a windy sound.
Do you think you really don’t know? this man
“Did you think only you knew me well? And vice versa, you fool.”
‘You look like you have a lot to say right now.’ said Ariel.
Then, he gave a soft smile that I had never seen before and tilted his head cutely.
“My question could be next, so tell me now.”
“Are you okay? That’s why it came out.”
“Yeah, I thought it wouldn’t be bad to be a listener sometimes.”
When the two of them met, it was mostly Ariel who poured out the stories.
However, for today, let’s switch between the listener and the speaker for a while to pass the time.
Edgar’s eyes, which had widened at her words, returned to their original state.
To be honest, I thought a lot about whether I should bring this up now.
Without even asking Yulken’s intentions, could it be passed on as if it were the truth?
But before I met Yulken, I wanted to hear her confirmation again.
After hearing all of this, I wonder what she really wants.
All you have to do is help it a little from the side.
“Looks like it’s going to be a long story.”
“right.”
“don’t worry. I will listen to you until dawn.”
Ariel smiles after quoting Edgar’s lines.
Feeling relieved for some reason, he nodded slightly and opened his mouth belatedly.
It wasn’t until around the time the moon rose in the night sky tilted one step further to the side that the story finally came to an end.
* * * * * * *
The story I heard from Edgar was quite surprising.
He added that it was not a confirmed fact yet, but judging from his mother’s reaction and the contents of his diary, it seemed safe to say that it was an established fact.
But for some reason, emotions such as anger or discouragement did not come.
On the contrary, at the same time, I was happy. Just the fact that my father doesn’t hate me.
That alone made this story worth more than anything else I had ever heard.
After a moment of silent thought, he patted me on the back as if he felt I was depressed.
It was a rough hand from swinging a wooden sword all day, but it just felt warm and soft to me.
Was it because he could feel the emotions he had through his hands?
“Aren’t you angry?”
“Yeah, surprisingly I’m not angry. Rather, I feel relieved.”
“Oh, you’re also great at interpersonal volleyball.”
be a great person At that word, I tilted my head.
There were times when I jokingly praised myself for having a big heart, but in reality I knew very well that I was more of a small person.
I thought that this was not just my big heart, but a reasonable response.
If I recall his reasoning, the weight of the burden on my father’s back must have been heavier than the burden on my heart.
Of course, it’s unfortunate that he did so without conveying any opinions to me, but I wonder if my father was cornered as well.
It must mean that there were difficult challenges even for my father, who seemed to always stand strong and choose everything calmly.
Even if not all of the questions that had been built up so far were resolved, I suddenly became curious.
How did Mom think of telling Ed all these facts?
No matter how much I look at Ed well, I’m sure he needs a justification to tell him all about the details of the family.
“By the way, Ed, did your mother say anything?”
“What do you mean?”
“If I were a mother, I would have asked. Why are you doing this?”
“… I get goosebumps thinking that someone might not be mother and daughter.”
As if it wasn’t acting, Ed smiled wryly as he stroked his arms with dilated pupils.
It seems that my prediction was correct.
But somehow his reaction was oddly awkward.
“Um… Do I have to tell you?”
“Then you were only going to talk about what you wanted?”
“Hey, when you say that, I look like garbage.”
it’s fun I just want to talk about where I want to go and get lost.
I felt like I had to listen to everything that happened, even the stories I shared with my mother.
But what kind of conversation did he have to react like this? Curiosity was piqued.
“… He asked before showing me the diary. I have no justification or reason, so why go this far?”
“What did you say?”
Bonamana, as a friend, he must have made excuses that didn’t work, saying that he couldn’t stand it.
It was completely expected, so I didn’t feel any tension or anticipation.
It feels like unfolding the last chapter of a novel with a fixed ending.
But eventually, when Ed, who was scratching his cheek in embarrassment, opened his tightly closed mouth, I had to revise my thoughts.
“I said I wanted you to laugh.”
“… uh?”
did i hear wrong?
I lost consciousness for a moment at the line, which was like a confession.
I wondered if he was joking around wanting to see my reaction, but seeing as he hesitated while avoiding his gaze, it seemed to be the truth.
“I’m shy too, so don’t react like that and just listen. So, why are you curious about this?”
Ed’s grunting cheeks caught a glimpse in the moonlight, and they seemed oddly red.
Seeing that this idiot blushed even me, who spoke out for no reason, began to feel ashamed.
Who said something like that?
I just asked, expecting a different reaction.
Well, come to think of it, this idiot has always been prone to attacks that defy my expectations.
I forgot about it and ended up digging my own grave.
On the other hand, Ed tried to hide his shyness and continued talking while trying to put on a nonchalant expression.
“Honestly, I don’t know why. Just when you cry, my heart hurts too. When you laugh, I laugh too… so i just want you to laugh Even if I don’t want to cry.”
“What is it, after all, it’s for you.”
I was shy without knowing it, so I spoke in a brusque tone, but I could see that it was a way to hide Ed’s own shyness.
It must be that he is trying to escape on his own, emphasizing that it is not for me.
Anyway, even this idiot can’t be very honest. It’s not your place to talk to me.
“Hearing this, it feels like a confession.”
“What is a confession? Go get some more sleep.”
“It’s just an impression of what you said, isn’t it? It’s funny, very.”
As I turned my head excitedly, I felt heat rising from my stomach.
It’s like a guy with no mood. If you say it’s a confession, even as a joke, what’s the point?
On a night with a beautiful moon like this, no matter how much I am, I might get drunk with the atmosphere and accept it.
‘I’m happy, but somehow annoying.’
I’m not stupid either.
Every time I see this idiot, I’m not stupid enough to know what causes my heart to pound or my cheeks to turn red.
But this was my own stubbornness.
I want to win at the last moment, even if it’s unfair that I was always defeated by this idiot in the past.
I’ve been trying hard not to recognize him as much as possible until now with just that thought.
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Lying to myself and not telling the truth to the people around me.
That’s why there was a question I wanted to ask today, but it seems like it’s destiny to keep it hidden.
‘I wanted to ask you what I am.’
I was wondering if even this fool, who is as disingenuous as I am, would recognize me if I asked this question.
I thought that this guy who always treated me like an immature little sister would know that I was a woman.
But it would be against the law to ask Ed this question now.
Maybe he’s more stupid than me who lies to himself, so he doesn’t even know what his own feelings are.
If so, I could give you a little grace period.
Until the moment comes when this idiot brings me the wine of victory himself, and I can’t live without holding me in his arms.
That’s because I have myself.
It would be easy to make such a stupid man mine.
As the successor of the Loveheim family, he would be able to overcome this ordeal.
“Ed.”
“Why?”
“Look forward.”
“… … ?”
At my declaration of war, he looked at me with blank eyes and tilted his head.
Anyway, what a stupid man. But how long can I live without knowing that?
This is the war you started, Ed.
At least, if I had known that you had no feelings for me, I would have been able to lie forever.
But you showed a gap through your remarks a moment ago. And it motivates me
If that’s the case, then you should be rewarded accordingly.
Of course, I wouldn’t directly seduce him coquettishly.
He will still remain my stupid childhood friend, and the situation where I suddenly embrace him will not happen.
But at least it’s okay to change the perception of me from a friend I want to cherish to a woman I want to cherish.
It’s not frivolous, it’s rather the normal behavior of a lady.
It is to give off a fragrance so that he will come first. Like the relationship between a flower and a bee.
“Ed.”
“Why again?”
His voice rose slightly, probably because he called in the same way.
My words that followed quickly faded away.
“Thank you, no matter how this ended… I really wanted to tell you this.”
“… yes.”
I melted into the atmosphere and quietly put my hand on his hand that was on the grass.
Up to this point, it is an action that a friend can do, and it is something that must be said.
Besides, it’s meaningful just to have him see me again up close like this.
Hopefully, in the end, I can stand as the winner.
I entrusted my consciousness to the wind that blew with earnest hope.
Even after hearing such an amazing story, somehow my heart beat was very calm.
pounding. pounding.
“Why are you shaking like this? Are you cold?”
“Poem, noisy! you idiot!”
… It was calm anyway.