187 – EP.34 The Forgotten Past-1
Two days have passed since Yata came out of the game.
I’ve been putting it off under the name of rest, but now I have to choose.
“Haaa…… !”
A small glass marble resting on the palm of your hand.
If I pass this behind my neck, I will know the forgotten past. But at the cost of it, I feel excruciating pain.
Since Yata told me that I would suffer a lot mentally, not physically, I’m sure I’ll suffer for a while.
I was a little scared by Yata’s words.
Even if you throw away the marbles, a satisfying future is waiting for you.
Is it really the right decision to plunge my body into an unknown abyss in order to know one of the past?
‘There is a saying that curiosity kills cats… ….’
The moment you hesitate to make a choice. There were footsteps entering my room with a clatter.
Someone turned around and saw a Yata with wings like the night sky.
“Sorry, are you worrying about what I said?”
“Ah… no! It’s not really anything like that… !”
“Have you forgotten who I am? Because I know all about how you feel. You don’t have to worry about it.”
“…… Huh. As you said, I am anxious. It’s okay because I’ve been through countless times so far. The problem is I’m not sure if I’m making the right choice.”
The future after eating marbles.
At the end, I was alone in challenging Shinsoo, and my future became uncertain by Shinsoo’s ability.
Even after knowing the past, it might be okay if you just bury it in your heart, but according to Yata’s future poetry, it is said that there is no case in which I, who ingested the marbles, go over quietly.
In other words, the confrontation between me and Shinsoo is decided at the point of eating the beads.
“You told me that knowing the past doesn’t directly affect companion divines. But if my death awaits at the end of the future, in the end, I’m leaving after hurting your hearts, right? I’m afraid of that.”
“Nanggun….”
“I’m sorry.”
“Why are you apologizing?”
“I refused your persuasion not long ago, and now I am showing such an unseemly appearance.”
Even Yata tried to convince me while making the game, but at the time, I confidently carried through my will.
However, it is a truly pitiful story about where I am going and where I am at the crossroads of my choice.
A situation where Yata has nothing to say even if he gets slapped on the cheek.
However, Yata’s touch on my cheek was warm and gentle.
“I don’t think so. Humans as well as divine beasts become weak if they worry about it first? Right now, I came because I was worried about Nanggun.”
“…… I see.”
“And I was rather glad that Nanggun said that. Because I saw that he sincerely thinks of us and wants to make us happy. I tried to convince you, but I guess I was persuaded? Ahahahaha!”
“It’s a bit embarrassing.”
“So there is no need to worry. Just as Nang-gun thinks of us, we are always thinking of Nang-gun. No matter what future awaits, we will always be by your side. Understand?”
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Looking at Yata’s smiling Bessie, I finally made up my mind.
Slowly bring the marble from the palm of your hand to your mouth.
Before I put it completely in my mouth, I looked at Yata once more because I hadn’t said goodbye yet.
Then Yata, who was still smiling, opened her mouth and gave her a short word,
“Have a good trip.”
I nodded lightly and put the marble fully into my mouth.
Instead of water, collect saliva and pass it behind your neck along with beads.
Gulp-!
As I hear the orb sink into my stomach, my vision quickly goes dark.
“Please come back safely….”
In the dark space, the last thing I felt was Yata’s warm words.
***
[That was a summer day about 10 years ago.
A season when only the sweltering weather, the noisy cicadas, and the occasional breeze felt cool.
Unforgettable…… Must not be forgotten…… The season has begun.]
“Hmm?”
My consciousness was still in a dark space.
As I wondered when the orb’s effect would begin, I suddenly heard a voice similar to mine from beyond the darkness.
Should I say it feels like a narration that is often heard at the beginning of a reminiscence?
‘Could it be that the orb I ingested is like an entrance ticket to a virtual world like the game Yata made?’
The moment I had that thought, the scenery around me changed in an instant.
The hot temperature as if you were in a sauna, the buzzing noise, and the smell of grass that I hadn’t felt where I lived.
As I guessed, even the senses were linked, similar to the virtual space created by Yata.
But if there is one error, it is that my vision is lowered for some reason.
If it weren’t for that, the nearby telephone poles wouldn’t have looked tall.
‘Where is this anyway?’
All I could see in front of me was a vast rice field, and besides the field, I could see a few tile-roofed houses in the distance.
In this day and age, a tile-roofed house was a building that was hard to see unless you went to a rural area on the outskirts.
Actually, I felt that the place where I am now is just a farming village.
“Seon owner!”
“Um… ?”
While I was looking at the surrounding landscape a little more, someone suddenly called my name from a distance.
I turned my head at the faint but familiar voice, and an old woman with white hair and a perm was approaching me.
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Looking at her, my eyes widened wide.
“Grandma… ?”
“Yes, Inum Shiki! I ordered the cow to feed you, but you don’t like it, so you run away here?”
“Oh, what? But her grandmother must have died five years ago… ?”
“You rotten bastard! Do you really want this grandmother to die early? Huh? In the meantime, she fed me something delicious, and then a bastard named Man-son made her grandmother a deceased!”
“Oh… ! I’m sorry, Grandma! She didn’t mean that!”
“Okay, this one! Sons also turn inside out of this mother, but grandchildren are just like their parents. Eh, tsk tsk!”
I was horrified to see the face of her grandmother, whom I thought I would never see again, and her words came out in vain.
This is a virtual world projecting the past that happened a long time ago.
And the grandmother in front of me was the grandmother in my memory who was good to me even though she lived with her swear words in her mouth.
“My hair must have sunk because it was so hot. So, let go of your anger, grandma!”
“Get away, Inum’s Shiki! I’m hot too!”
As she clung to her grandmother like she used to, and acted like a charm to her, her grandmother’s anger felt a little lessened.
She was a nice person who cared about me a lot, even though she was still slamming me.
Besides that, I learned a lot from her grandmother because she was always upright and upright.
If it wasn’t for my grandmother, I wouldn’t be where I am today.
‘I came to the place where her grandmother used to live, just as the narrator said, I came in the summer of 10 years ago.’
Ten years ago, even though the time to have a companion animal passed, there was still no companion animal by my side.
As a result of that, the discrimination against me became more severe day by day, and it was spring 10 years ago that I crossed that line.
I was kidnapped by a fake who deified the connection with my companion animal as the power of God, and suffered all sorts of abuse.
The cults did things to me many times that I shouldn’t have done to a young child, such as beating, abusive language, and hacking.
Fortunately, I was rescued before it was too late thanks to my parents’ prompt action, but my mind was devastated.
Nevertheless, the discrimination against me was still the same, and my poor parents sent me to the countryside where her grandmother lived in the early summer for recuperation.
I lived at my grandmother’s house until that fall and my parents took me away.
‘I’m looking back on that summer once again. Is there something in the past that I forgot during this time?’
I remember to some extent the daily life of living with my grandmother.
Since it’s an old memory, some memories didn’t come to mind, but I know nothing special happened.
The days when she ate the three meals a day her grandmother prepared for her, helped her grandmother with her work, and looked back at her countryside when she cried at leisure.
What is it that I have lost in such a peaceful daily life?
“Inum! Could it be because the boy’s gait is slower than that of an old grandmother? Come out quickly!”
“Oh, yes!”
“If I don’t finish all the work that her grandmother ordered by evening, there will be no dinner! Okay?”
“Okay….”
I don’t know, but now I just want to enjoy the life in the past that I missed.
[A friendly family, a warm meal, a peaceful day.
For me, it was an undeserved and happy daily life.
Until a huge storm brings a new encounter…….]