194 – EP.34 The Forgotten Past-8
Rumadia, who had confessed everything, still had a sullen expression on her face.
Even though I understood her fault and said I would shoulder her burden, there was only one reason why her expression was not good.
Guilt. It must be that one emotion keeps her from covering her face.
‘I don’t want Rumadia to feel guilty.’
She wanted to convey her true feelings to her.
But after meeting Rumadia, I can no longer interfere with the past.
I can’t convey the feelings I feel right now to Rumadia.
All I could do was choose to just watch.
It’s frustrating, but I have no idea what to do. Because what I’m seeing is the past that has already passed.
Even if I change the past with my actions here, the reality won’t change anyway.
Eventually I will lose my memory and Luma Dia will hide her appearance.
After those thoughts went through my head, my heart became depleted like Lumadia now.
“Ah! It is the town hall.”
The destination was reached only after a long period of awkward silence.
Across the two fields, I could see the building of the village hall where the grandmother might be.
In my haste, my body tried to run straight toward the hall, but the strong wind staggered me.
My body, which was about to collapse on the ground, was gently accepted by Rumadia.
“The more you hurry, the slower you go. I understand her desire to see her grandmother soon, but if the owner gets hurt, isn’t it a joke?”
“Sorry.”
“Like now, I will hold on to the master so that he does not fall. Let’s go slowly.”
“Yes.”
Even when I was gloomy, Rumadia was always watching over me.
The fact that I was caring and caring so that I wouldn’t experience any misfortune.
I couldn’t help but be happy.
“Chief, is someone here?”
“Ew? The wind is blowing like this, but someone is coming!”
“But look over there.”
As we were standing in front of the town hall we finally arrived, we heard a conversation between a young man pointing at us and an old man who looked like a village chief.
Certainly, it was only considered strange that we wandered around outside when a typhoon was coming.
Even now, since I was a child, I had to be prepared to be scolded or yelled at by adults.
“Oops! There are still crazy babies who still go out in this dangerous time? They even hit the disaster broadcast in the morning!”
“Oh, hello!”
“Tsubeol, goodbye freeze to death…… Wait? Aren’t you the granddaughter of the Ryu family?”
“Right.”
“Huh! The old woman boasted that her grandson was kind and kind, but was she just bluffing?”
My grandmother, who always nagged me in front of me, seemed to brag about me where I didn’t know.
I was a little embarrassed by this, but now was not the time to be immersed in such feelings.
“Sorry for coming to you all of a sudden. But she couldn’t stay still because she was worried about her grandmother. So I’ll just look at her grandmother’s face and go right back.”
“…… That old woman, I told you to stop by my house for a while, but you only listened to me with your nostrils.”
Chief Lee did not answer my question, but muttered to himself, expressing his dissatisfaction.
It seems that my grandmother has done something to be hated by him.
It makes sense, because the grandmother in my memory was assertive despite her stubbornness.
To put it badly, she is a person who is completely blocked.
“Ho, is Grandma not here by any chance… ?”
“Nui Grandma must have gone to a shrine a little far away from the village. Her grandfather’s grave is there, so she must be worried.”
“Ah… !”
Her grandmother’s love for her grandfather was special.
If I make any mistake, the story of her grandfather came out of her grandmother’s mouth.
After that, her grandfather’s pride poured out for about an hour.
Her grandmother loved her deceased grandfather just as much, and even after they broke up, she still looked only at her grandfather.
So I didn’t get tired of her grandmother talking about her grandfather.
She was rather sad in her heart. Because she loves her grandfather so much and she couldn’t see him anymore.
[There is nothing sadder than the parting caused by death.]
‘I guess so. I might go crazy if I can’t meet my companion divine beasts forever.’
Thought so, I carefully looked at Rumadia next to me.
She lost her memory of her, and even after 10 years of her passing, I have not been able to find her whereabouts.
What the hell happened in the past?
The current situation, where I couldn’t remember anything, felt stuffy to the point of narrowing my eyebrows.
“First of all, since I left early this morning, I will probably be home by the end of the night. So don’t worry, you can go home quickly.”
“Yes….”
“And take this with you as well.”
The village chief waved his hand, telling me to go back, but then he called me back and threw something blunt at me.
Rumadia, who quickly caught the object thrown by the head of the village, handed it over to me.
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Looking at something, the identity of the object was an unused duct tape.
Chief Lee went inside without explaining why he gave me the blue tape, but he seemed to understand the meaning.
A typhoon is coming, so go back home and cover the window frames or windows with this tape.
So I had no choice but to give up on finding her grandmother and go back.
***
I remember that Lumadia and I looked good until we got out of the house.
But since returning home, both of you have been seriously depressed.
Because I worry about her grandmother, because Ruma Dia is guilty of me.
It was almost laughable to see both of them sullen over useless work.
‘Even me watching is getting frustrated.’
Rather than worrying about her grandmother, who is very healthy for her age, I hope you will start by thinking about Ruma Dia’s feelings.
However, when I was young, I had the insensitivity to read even the solemn expression of Rumadia that was clearly visible.
My stomach was about to explode, but on the other hand, I clearly realized the difference between myself and my younger self.
As you get older, you must have gone through constant changes and growth at the same time.
‘Eref, can’t you just skip this memory? To be honest, I don’t think it’s that important.’
[There are memories I want to forget, but there are no unimportant memories in the world. It is an experience created by the accumulation of those memories that made you who you are now.]
“That’s true, but looking at this scene makes my heart suffocate and I feel like dying.”
[Okay, if you’re that frustrated, I’ll pass it on. Instead, you won’t be able to see the past that has already been passed on. Are you sure you won’t regret it?]
“You sound like you’re going to regret it if you skip it anyway.”
[You will regret it. I don’t have a future poem like a three-legged crow, but I can be sure that you in the future will hit the ground and regret it.]
Eref usually maintains a light tone, but this time he spoke with a heavy and solemn voice.
His words, which seemed to warn me that this is something that should not be done together, forced me to make a serious choice.
A warning from the person who set up this event to inform me of a forgotten past.
You shouldn’t carelessly ignore the warning as a substitute for the truth.
‘Okay. Even if it’s frustrating, I’ll try to bear it.’
[That’s a really smart idea.]
‘But isn’t there a function like time acceleration or double speed? If there is, I want to use it right now.’
[What a crap idea.]
While joking words with the chieftain went back and forth in my consciousness.
The silence was finally broken in the lonely space.
“Master, should I go to see the owner’s grandmother?”
“Uh… ?”
In the end, even though I couldn’t care for Luma Dia, she took care of me first on her side.
Ruma Dia wanted to take care of me first, even though her own mind would be disturbed.
As Lumadia’s companion, it was a pitiful sight.
“The master’s expression darkened because he was worried about his grandmother? If you’re that worried, I’ll be right back.”
“No! There is no need for Rumadia to suffer because of me!”
“It’s okay! It’s not that hard, what?”
“Well, but if Ruma Dia suddenly appears in front of her grandmother, her grandmother will surely be embarrassed. Because she hasn’t even introduced her to her grandmother yet. So let’s wait patiently.”
She is a companion who constantly refuses and dissuades the consideration of companion animals and animals who claim to solve their problems.
The relentless battle between the two seemed to continue, but a sound announcing the end of the fight came from outside.
[Notice to the residents of the village. Due to the current approach of the typhoon, a landslide has occurred near the entrance to the village, causing sediment to accumulate. Residents are advised to refrain from going out as much as possible and not to go out of town at all. It was an abnormal village disaster notification broadcast.]
A familiar voice came through the speakers installed outside.
The staleness disappeared from the tone of voice, but it was still the voice of the chief with a certain high and low,
What was being said in his voice was truly shocking.
To be exact, to me when I was young.
“Ha, grandma… !”
Her grandmother’s current location is a shrine and cemetery far from the village, but she had to go through the village entrance to get there.
Her grandmother left in the morning, so she won’t be caught in a landslide, but her problem was when her grandmother returned.
The dirt that blocked her entrance from the landslide will prevent her grandmother from returning.
Eventually, her grandmother had to prepare for a typhoon outside the village.
Even a young country knows how dangerous it is, so tears began to form under my eyes.
“Don’t cry. I’ll bring her grandma somehow! So please don’t cry, Master.”
“Rumadia… !”
“No need to worry, as I said before, I am a Shinsu. A typhoon can’t stop me.”
“Yeah, but!”
“Trust me. Just as the owner confidently said he was my companion, I want to become the owner’s full-fledged pet!”
“Ah… !”
Ruma Dia wiped the tears from under her eyes with her thumbs and hugged me tightly once.
Such Ruma Dia was like a strong yet kind older sister, so she was the ideal older sister that I had always imagined since she was the only little sister.
Eventually, I had no choice but to let her go, looking at the back of her older sister.
‘It’s been a while since I felt like this… ….’
The early days of encountering divine beasts. It reminded me of the time when I couldn’t do anything between them, and when I stepped out confidently, the wounds only increased.
It was a really helpless time.
Now I have a decent amount of strength and fight by the side of the gods, but I couldn’t forget that time when I was helpless.
‘The reality of not being able to do anything was miserable.’
Even though Rumadia ran into a dangerous place for me, I couldn’t be of any help.
The bitter taste that came from such a reality still made my heart ache in the past and now.
However, if there is a difference between me in the past, now I at least believe in my companion animal.
I don’t care what kind of pet it is, I trust everyone and follow their decisions.
There is no need for the word distrust in a relationship between companions.
“I, I have to go too… !”
However, I did not have that kind of trust in the past.
It’s a pity, but it was only natural that he was a child who had a pet not too long ago.
‘…… The damn past.’
I leave my safe house and step out into the dangerous world.
I just desperately hoped that nothing would happen.