I Lost My Memory and Had Too Many S-Class Girlfriends chapter 39

39 – Ryu Ye-rin, the illegitimate daughter of the family by family name (4)

Ye-rin suffers from a lack of affection.

Since she was a child, she has not received the love she deserves from her parents.

Because she grew up half-abused by her father and mother, it may be inevitable that her mental state is very unstable.

“Why…… ? Why…… ?”

Yerin Ryu’s big eyes fluttered.

Her eyes, trembling with anxiety, couldn’t catch her course, so she just kept repeating it.

Soon, Yerin bit her lower lip, and she calmed down her trembling body and slowly asked a question.

“Why, why suddenly…… ?”

“I told you. Not suddenly.”

She caught a glimpse of Yerin’s weeping face. She is frowning Ami and slurping the belt of her neck. Her tense expression was evident. But she said yes, so she couldn’t stop her now. It could have been difficult for Yerin at the moment, but in the long run, it was something she had to say.

“Actually, I’ve been contemplating my relationship with you ever since I lost her memory.”

My relationship with Yerin is not normal.

It’s not a typical teacher-student relationship, nor is it a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship.

“I wasn’t sure if meeting you like this was the right thing to do.”

I have accepted most of Yerin’s actions so far.

She was a poor child, and she was struggling a lot.

But it became poison.

Actually, that wasn’t the case.

“Because I keep accepting your actions, since when did you start to obsess over me?”

“…… That is.”

Yerin also avoided her gaze with a sad expression.

“You know that.”

I looked at her hesitant Ye-rin for a while, then took out her cell phone from her pocket and gently showed it to her Ye-rin.

Yerin quietly stared at the screen of her cell phone and blinked her eyes in embarrassment.

“This, this?”

“This is the contents of KakaoTalk with you.”

“Ah.”

“Just looking at the contents of KakaoTalk and phone calls, you can see that it is a bit excessive. I knew it, but I kept conniving at it.”

“I’m sorry. Teacher. I didn’t mean to.”

Definitely, Yerin made a lot of phone calls with KakaoTalk.

There was a corner where the content was a bit excessive.

But she didn’t always contact me with Muji’s last name.

If she set a time, she only contacted me at that time, and tried not to bother me as much as possible.

Because of that, I couldn’t push Yerin too hard.

“There is nothing to be sorry about. Because I made a lot of mistakes too.”

“…… Teacher.”

I made a bitter expression with a complicated face.

“Anyway, Yerin. There is nothing good for each other if we stay close.”

“What do you mean? Why.”

“For the sake of each other, I wonder if it would be better to stay a little apart.”

“Teacher, please…… Please don’t say things like that…… Please… ….”

Crying crying.

Carefully holding onto my arm, I plead.

Suddenly, Yerin’s left wrist was visible. Seeing her arms there made her diaphragm tingle. But she couldn’t back down. If she backs down again like an idiot, it’s no different than usual. It’s not good for Yerin either.

“Look. It’s like this again.”

“Ah… ….”

Yerin Ryu shook her shoulders.

“I am Yerin. I hope you don’t cling to someone like this. I know I grew up not receiving a lot of affection when I was young. So seeing me as a substitute for your parents…….”

“No!”

Yerin screamed.

She didn’t even want to scream after she screamed. She hesitated and hung her head.

“Sorry for shouting. But it’s a substitute for parents…… Why do you arbitrarily judge my heart…… ? I’ve told you several times. I really like the teacher, so…….”

“I want you to meet some other people besides me.”

The problem was that I was tied to one person.

“Sun, sir?”

“If I stay by your side, won’t you try not to meet other people?”

A relationship that depends on me never ends well.

“I don’t mean to drop right away. I will continue to help you by your side. But you yourself have to have a heart to hang out with other people besides me. Don’t always avoid other people.”

“… ….”

“Listen carefully, Yerin. It’s not pushing you away. It’s just to adjust the distance. A relationship in which one side depends on the other…….”

“…… You said you needed me.”

The cool voice of Yerin cut me off.

It was Yerin who had her head down, but she shook her shoulders and chanted strongly.

“I…… I…… As needed…….”

Suddenly, Yerin raised her head and her red eyes flashed. She glared at me with her eyes slightly raised.

“The teacher said it first. I need you.”

“Yerin?”

“Actually, I knew. That my teacher doesn’t really like me as a member of the opposite s*x. But you said you needed me and kept me by your side. But why are you here now?”

A little anger, resentment, sadness, frustration, etc., Were staring at me with tangled eyes.

“Is it because I have no memory? You don’t need me because you don’t remember?”

“Yerin, calm down and listen to me.”

Yerin is getting more excited than necessary. She hurriedly tried to stop her, but she only listened to me. Yerin did not stop and she spoke more boldly.

“Your old teacher said that. That I will continue to be by your side Said I needed But are you going to come and throw me out now?”

“You threw me away? What are you talking about. Yerin. Didn’t I say that we would adjust our distance a little bit for each other?”

“Lies!”

Boom!

I hit her table hard.

The plates and water cups were shaken lightly.

The spoon fell under the table and the chopsticks were scattered all over the place.

“Do you think I am a fool?”

A drop of tear flowed down again.

Ride the cheekbones, along the jawline, and wet the clothes dripping.

Tear marks form around the eyes.

“After saying that, you’re going to gradually push me away.”

I was definitely not wrong.

It is because she intends to end her relationship with Yerin in the end.

She distanced herself little by little, and she tried to reduce her obsession and affection for me a little by making Yerin a lot of people around her.

She didn’t bother to use me as her support, she wanted to stand tall with the people around her.

But Yerin rejected it. She

She chose to immerse herself in this abnormal relationship.

She said, “I thought she became what the teacher needed…… Even though I said I wouldn’t throw it away…… I don’t remember, so I’m just going to throw it away? Like your father?”

“Yerin, it’s not like that.”

“No, it’s not what! The teacher, the teacher was always like that.”

Tuktuk.

“There is nothing to talk to me properly…… He hides a lot from me…….”

Tears keep falling.

“It’s okay if it’s not for me. You don’t have to love me But why are you trying to push me away? That you need me Was it a lie to say it was helpful? I was relieved to know that she was the person the teacher needed.”

“…… It’s not a matter of being helpful or not, Yerin. I want you to live your own life and not depend on me.”

“What is your own life? Can’t we go with the teacher?”

“Yerin.”

The words keep going around.

As expected, was it too quick to distance yourself from Yerin?

“…… Ha.”

I let out a deep sigh because I was confused.

In my heart, I wanted to break up with him saying, “Yes, do as you please.”

But saying that would surely leave an indelible scar on Yerin’s heart, and there was a possibility that she would repeat her extreme choice again.

All I want is a gentle breakup with Yerin, not for Yerin to suffer.

Yerin was a child who deserved to be happy. I hope you don’t get tangled up in me and draw a future by getting along with other people.

“It was like that with my mother too. Always, always like this. I’m not asking for a lot I’m happy just being by your side. Was it that greedy? Why do you keep trying to leave…….”

“… ….”

“Before I lost my memory, I know that the teacher tried to use me for his own needs. I was good though. It was good. Since I’m losing my memory, I’m trying to push myself away for nothing…….”

“… ….”

You tried to use Yerin out of necessity?

That sucks. What are you going to do with that kid?

Before I lost my memory, I was really a piece of trash.

But suddenly.

I had a very slight suspicion.

What on earth were you trying to use it for? A small question called.

‘No, this isn’t important right now.’

I shook her head and looked at Yerin, trying to dispel her doubts. The first thing to do was to appease Yerin. She urgently had to put out the fire.

“Teacher. Is it because of him?”

Suddenly, Yerin said.

“It’s actually because of him that he suddenly wants to distance himself from me.”

Yerin clutches her own hair.

Her gray hair tangled between Yerin’s fingers.

She suddenly spits out her words.

“Lee Ji-hyun.”

“What?”

Huh, Yerin’s face began to fade as she collapsed and smiled sadly.

“It’s because of Lee Ji-hyun.”

“You?”

He shrugs her shoulders, flashing her hazy smile.

The sound of her muffled laughter rang in my ears.

The sound of laughter mixed with various emotions.

Yerin was just smiling.

Sadly.

“I didn’t mean to tell you.”

“Yerin?”

Yerin smiles with her tears on her face.

“Teacher.”

Take a break.

“You’re meeting Hunter Jihyun Lee behind my back, right?”

…… No, sh*t?