8 – Sisters (1)
The sisters were born in the dark.
My parents got married due to an unwanted accident.
A father who is alcoholic and violent.
A mother who cheats and leaves home to gamble.
Every evening we scream at each other and break down the house and fight, but all we can do is hug each other and sniff in the corner of the room.
The world of the sisters who grew up without receiving love from birth was always in darkness.
‘You guys… Even if only you weren’t born… !’
‘Why did you give birth to such b*tches… ‘
Always when their parents looked at them, they were full of contempt and disgust, and they had eyes like looking at a nasty bug.
However, the sisters were not alone.
Her older sister has a younger brother.
My little brother has an older sister.
Embracing and protecting each other, they lived their lives undaunted even in the dark.
Until her mother disappeared.
After her mother disappeared, her father’s anger grew stronger.
When the object of anger disappeared, another object of anger was to be found.
And that anger was directed at the sisters.
‘Because four b*tches were born! I! Like this! You live miserably!’
From birth.
Ever since we were together.
My parents told me they were unhappy.
‘Your b*tches were miserable! Disaster bastards! Get out! Follow her and get out! Where to die!’
When her mother disappeared, her father poured out resentment, expressed anger, and used violence.
They screamed at me to die and exhausted my mind.
One person’s deep malice and intent to kill was directed towards the sister and was irresistibly swept away.
All this the sisters had to endure.
To be honest, my older sister endured it a little more.
Always violent, her older sister would hug her younger brother and block him or let him into her room.
Her sister covered her brother’s ears only when she heard swear words and smiled as she met her eyes.
Always when ill will befall her sister, her sister will take everything from her.
Because I wanted to love her as much as her sister.
It was her sister’s wish to not be in pain anymore.
Her sister always watched over such an older sister.
Entering her room, peeking through the crack in her door or hugging herself, lifted her head and looked at her sister.
When I covered her ears and met her eyes, she wanted to cry, but when her sister laughed, she forced herself back and laughed along.
She has an older sister who sacrifices everything for her sake.
Her brother always had to be tough because she knew better than anyone else.
So her brother decided to be strong.
She swore that even though her body was weak and short, she would protect her sister no matter what.
But the year her sister was 13 and her brother was 11.
Her sister ran away from her father, who was holding and brandishing her weapon.
No one will ever understand the feelings of her younger brother who was powerless to do anything.
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There was no safe haven for her sister, and no equal side.
Only two people were the same side and a haven for each other.
Police?
It didn’t make any sense.
Even if the police were called, the situation was resolved for a while, but the fundamental problem was not resolved.
Above all, the human being called dad was hypocritical inside and out like flipping the palm of your hand.
I always pretended that there were no problems and pretended to be nice and made sure there were no problems.
I went to the city hall or the district office.
But they were no different from the police.
Who wants to care about the humble beggar sisters living in the slums in the first place?
I only saw it as a troublesome problem when it appeared, and I said that it would be okay if I sent a tutor or something, but it was not resolved.
I went to the Hero Association with my last hope, but I couldn’t get in and they didn’t want to say a word.
They were barred from the door at the entrance, and to them, the beggar sisters were nothing worth caring about, like dust.
A hero must protect everyone.
However, sisters were not included in ‘everyone’.
In the end, the sisters had nowhere to go.
Even though he struggled to escape his father’s wrath and withstood the malice.
There was no sister’s side anywhere in the world, and there was no resting place to lie down.
But could there be salvation for these sisters?
On the day they left the house to escape a weapon, the sisters met a fat man.
‘You… Did you leave the house?’
‘I’m the director of an orphanage. Would you like to follow me?’
‘There are many children like you. You’ll be able to make a lot of friends.’
A person who looks nice and warm.
Looking like good people, the sisters held the man’s hand, and for the first time, they were able to meet something that seemed like a safe place and on the same side.
When I went to the daycare center, there were several children just like me.
Everyone welcomed me warmly and it wasn’t difficult to get close right away.
For the first time, it was a fun time to interact with others, not with sisters.
Of course, there were a lot of people, so the place to sleep was small and the food was poor, but it was good nonetheless.
Because I didn’t have to go to sleep trembling with fear every night.
No one wielded violence, no one spat out abusive language.
There was something a little strange about locking the door to prevent people from going to sleep under the name of protection, but it was okay.
The sisters spent the two years at the orphanage.
However, I wonder if there is no kindness without a reward.
I’ve been like that since the beginning, but I wonder if my eyes were covered by the warm kindness I felt for the first time.
Whether the lock was rusted or the door was slightly broken, I was able to open the door and get out that day.
Late at night, when everyone was asleep, her older sister, needing to go to the bathroom, quietly came out.
She and she witnessed what she shouldn’t have witnessed.
I saw the light leaking through the crack in the director’s door on the way to the bathroom, so I went closer.
As I checked inside, I overheard what the nursery school director was saying.
“Hee hee. Okay… let’s see… the kids I’m going to sell next month…”
The director was earning a lot of money by selling children from the orphanage.
Whether it’s a brothel, adoption, or whatever, it doesn’t matter what the means and methods are.
Fortunately, she overheard and didn’t get caught, but her sister was shocked.
She
I thought she was a good person. She
I thought she was a warm person.
She thought that she was willing to do her favor and be considerate of others.
It was only then that I realized that this place was a breeding ground to satisfy the director’s ugly selfishness.
She got her luck this time, but she knew that she and her brother could be sold at any time, so her sister hurriedly left the orphanage with her brother.
But there was nowhere to go.
She ran away from the terrible event, but she forgot about it.
That it is dark outside.
That there is no ray of light for her sisters.
In the end, her sister had no choice but to return, knowing that the only place to return was the cold house.
She prayed earnestly that she would not die.
But did God answer my prayers?
Although she was afraid that if she went back, she would lose her life to her weapon.
When I returned home, there was a father crying and asking for forgiveness.
She said that she was wrong and that she was sorry, so she asked me not to leave.
He spat out a resolution that didn’t sound like a promise to live devoted to his sisters.
Of course, I wasn’t a sister who believed this lightly, but I hoped that this situation would last for a long time because I had nowhere to go.
After that, the sisters lived a quiet life unlike when they were young.
Her meal was okay, and I was able to stay a little warm.
Best of all, I was able to sleep every night without fear anymore.
And I was able to go to school.
Of course, it was only her older sister, but her older sister came back to school and taught her younger sister, and her sisters learned and gained knowledge.
Even if you don’t learn much, if you teach one thing, you’re a sister who realizes ten, so it’s only natural that they excel.
However, school was a haven and was not on the same side.
A teacher’s gaze of blatant bullying and belittling.
Moreover, there was a teacher who looked at himself with a sticky gaze.
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Ugly in a different sense from a nursery school.
Her gaze was terrifying, as if her tongue was licking her legs all the way to her neck.
I was okay with my age until elementary school, but I grew up gradually from middle school, and the charms of the sisters were different and more beautiful than anyone else.
Although her brother did not go to school and did not receive such explicit stares.
Her older sister was stared at like that on her way to school.
Not only that, but unlike the beginning, my father started to change little by little… I was able to hold out.
I received hateful glances, but I couldn’t put them into action.
The bullying of her bullying has been endured by the malice she has received since childhood.
Above all, her sister was able to endure because of her younger brother.
Her father’s violence and malice grew little by little, and he was able to stop him.
I was planning to go out with her little brother after I became a high school student and saved up money little by little.
However, unfortunately for her, the darkness over her sisters was too deep.
‘Hey. Don’t go to school.’
It was a morning like no other.
My dad told me not to go to school.
I asked what it meant.
‘Is there an old supermarket over there? I went there.’
It’s called a supermarket, but there’s nothing for sale, and it’s empty. A place where a man lives.
She didn’t know why she was told to go there, but she went obediently because she would fight if she didn’t listen.
But her sister greatly regretted this decision.
As I entered, I saw an old man gasping for breath like a pervert.
It was more disgusting and terrible than any ugliness I had ever seen.
It was a disgusting gaze that made me think it would be better to walk around the streets naked.
When I shouted, “Why are you doing this?”, The man with a heavy body immediately blocked the door and laughed at her older sister.
‘Your father sold you. Don’t you know that either? hehehehe.’
At those words, her sister hardened like a man whose soul had been drained.
It came as a huge shock to her that her trust or faith, which had been left even a little while riding on a tightrope, was broken.
Since the reunion, there was a bond between her parents, and she seemed to take care of herself.
Because I knew that it was just my own imagination and a vain hope.
But here she couldn’t stand still, so she tried to escape somehow, but I could see the difference in her physique and strength.
It seemed like the danger was gradually approaching, and something big was about to happen.
‘Sister!!!’
She was able to escape the crisis thanks to her younger brother who came to rescue her by throwing a large stone and breaking down the door and slashing the back of the uncle’s head.
Unfortunately, the sisters, who had been living in despair all along, were already mentally grown compared to other children of their age.
‘Are you okay? Are you hurt anywhere? That bastard took her sister… !!!’
‘Seo Eun-ah… ?!’
I was no longer a younger brother who only needed to be protected.
In anger, he thought of killing his father right away and gnashed his teeth.
She somehow converses and her brother tried to placate her sister.
However, she was so pathetic and shattered even the slightest trust.
Her sister, who was in great confusion, only shed tears because she had gone beyond the limits of her patience.
‘… Are you okay. Sister.’
Unlike usual, this time, her younger sister took care of her older sister, and after many twists and turns, the situation came to an end.
But what made her even more miserable was after she went back.
She giggled at Daddy, and she was looking at herself and asked if she was doing well, and her anger soared.
For the first time in her life, her sister, who was furious with her hair, argued with her father.
She asked why she sold herself.
How can that be?
Are you still a parent?
Since I was no longer a child who only hides, I confidently argued, but rather, the author called my father shouted in anger in reverse.
‘Then do you think I accepted trash b*tches like you? Sounds funny! I accepted it to get more support!’
‘The puppies, who have been a mass of misfortune since birth, look like mothers and are so arrogant!’
‘What the f*ck? Run away? Did you say this b*tch just ran away?! How much money did you get, but you’re not going right away?!
Her older sister was frightened when she caught a glimpse of her when she was approaching to kill her with a weapon when she was young.
No matter how much you grow up, the fear that has been imprinted for a long time does not go away easily.
But she didn’t back down and kept arguing and arguing with her sister as well as her younger brother, venting her suppressed anger.
After venting all her anger, her sister left the house.
But the outside was still darkness and an enemy to her sisters.
There was no resting place, and there was not a single side.
City Hall, Police, Heroes.
I asked for help several times, but no one helped and I couldn’t rely on it.
I felt deeply alone and realized that I was isolated in the wide world.
The sisters, who had nothing, continued walking.
She walked and walked aimlessly, passing people and past buildings.
How long did it take?
When her sister came to her senses, she was in an unknown place.
Beside her, her brother was holding her hand tightly, and her snow was falling and the cold was getting worse.
There was nowhere to go, no one to know, only her brother who was by her side from start to finish.
She usually tried to find her solution, but her exhausted sister couldn’t.
When she suddenly looked around, she saw a pile of garbage lying around.
A set of crayons discarded along with a paper box caught her eye, and her sister thought while staring blankly at it.
‘… There was a cat in a place like that.’
I saw a cat abandoned on the street crying in a box many times.
There were also dead cats, but I was lucky enough to meet the owner and see them take them away.
Is it because the situation is so bleak?
In deep despair, the older sister came up with an idea.
I thought that if they stayed still like cats, someone would pick them up.
She walked over and opened the paper box, took a part from another box to make a sign, and wrote [Pick it up].
I made a hole with a piece of broken glass, made a rope out of discarded clothes, hung it around my neck, put the clothes inside, and put it in a paper box.
‘Sister. What are you doing?’
‘… I was wondering if someone would pick it up if I was doing this. Like a cat.’
‘Cat? Lol. Are you going to be my cat? It’s gonna be fun!’
I wondered, but when I heard the reason, my brother went into the box together without asking any more.
I could have frozen to death if I stayed outside because the snow was getting stronger, but it didn’t matter.
Because her sisters were always together and her sister always sacrificed herself.
So, her younger sister was silently by her older sister’s side.
She knew that what she was doing now was a futile hope, and her sister knew very well that it was meaningless.
But she couldn’t stay sane because her accumulated emotions, anger, and diseased heart had died.
She keeps doing this when she even thinks of dying.
I saw a man in the distance.
The man came over and stared at his sisters.
Is that man also looking at himself and lusting after him?
Why does this keep happening to me?
If my body is good like that… Wouldn’t it be better to let everything go?
Dozens of thoughts were tangled up in a complicated way, and the older sister smiled sadly as she spoke to the man.
“…Mister. Can you pick us up?”