152. I’m back (3)
To be honest, lately I’ve been a bit conceited.
I didn’t encounter all 2,000 of them, but in the end I fought and defeated them 2,000 to 1.
It was true that on the outside I said it was no big deal, but on the inside I thought I was a bit strong.
Although it’s lip service, my confidence skyrocketed when I heard that I would soon surpass Trier.
Even though I couldn’t win every game, I thought that if I played 10 games, I would win at least a couple of games.
The result of such an exciting effort-
“Aak ····
All 10 games had to be beaten like a dog today.
I went out with twin swords, but since it couldn’t be done, I stuck with one sword again, but there was no sign of breaking through Trier’s defense.
In the south, there was definitely a chance to draw at least once.
If there was any hope of winning in the past, now it felt like even the slightest possibility was gone.
But the most embarrassing thing is-
“Gwa, are you okay, Mr. Heinkel?”
“Ugh… It’s not okay…”
It means that Emilia has been watching all along. She
She said that she wanted to visit Dalian, so she let me in ······.
To be honest, I didn’t expect it to break this badly.
Perhaps Trier was dealing with a particularly sincere person today…?
“Chi, let me treat you. Is this here? Sixth rib?”
“I don’t know if it’s number 6… Oops! That’s right…”
After pointing at her ribs, Emilia started drawing her spell.
Healing spells······.
Treatment of invisible fractures in the body must be quite difficult.
She decided not to ask where Emilia, who was just a commoner’s maid, had learned such knowledge that a medical student would know.
“Whew. It’s all done. But just in case, don’t overdo it today.”
“Mr. Attendant. It’s okay, so speak comfortably.”
“Yes?”
“It’s okay if you think I’m not there and talk like you’re alone with Schluse. I won’t spread rumors anywhere.”
“Ah…”
When Trier smiled, Emilia’s face turned red.
She thought she would leave because she was ashamed.
“Is it always like this?”
“Yes?”
“Is sparring with my brother always like this?”
“What’s roughly the same as today?”
“So oppa gets hurt like this every day?!”
“It’s not every day, but… Well, I’ll call it every day. But what’s wrong with that?”
“That’s right, the purpose of sparring is to improve your skills, not to hurt you! But from my point of view, you seem to be relentlessly aiming for your brother’s vitals and trying to inflict a fatal wound-“
“Emilia.”
Emilia was getting angry at Trier before she knew it, so she had to stop it quickly.
“No one pays attention in real battles, Emilia. Since sparring is training in preparation for real battles, this is natural.”
“That’s right… Excuse me.”
“No. It’s nice to know how much your attendant cares about Schluse.”
“·······.”
Emilia lowered her head in disrespect, and Trier clasped her hand and laughed.
But today, it was unusual that Trier’s voice seemed to have thorns.
“Then let’s finish here for today-“
“Where are you going? You have to get feedback.”
“Feedback?”
You hit it after doing it a few times, right?
Trie somehow tried to point out my problems and progress every day, but couldn’t speak coherently, so I ended up giving up.
There were countless days when I skipped meals, but why today?
Did something come to mind clearly?
“Yes. To be honest, I felt this since I was out on the battlefield, but at that time, the war was in full swing, so I didn’t say anything for fear of demoralizing.”
“What is it? Tell me.”
“I’ll tell you honestly. At this rate, you’re hopeless. I can’t even surpass you, let alone the first sword.”
“·······.”
I was surprised by the harsh sound, but a little dumbfounded.
I never thought of surpassing you or becoming the first swordsman of the empire, but I…
Anyway, it seems that Trier has overestimated my talent.
“It seems that he realized the reality after overestimating me. I’ve never crossed the Imperial First Sword.”
“So what’s your goal?”
“To the extent that I can protect myself and those around me…?”
“If you have that kind of mindset, I won’t teach you anymore. The goal is always the peak. I can’t make a student who is satisfied halfway through. Got it?”
“I understand…”
It was a very painful sound.
Yes. As long as you train, aiming for the top is right.
To compromise with an halfway goal was an insult to the swordsmen who trained with painstaking efforts.
“And secondly. Your sword doesn’t show any emotions at all. It’s my fault for not teaching this in depth… But it’s normal for emotions to gradually enter as you swing your sword. But you There was no emotion at all. From start to finish. Until the 10th round, I didn’t feel resentment or fighting spirit.”
This comment was a bit unfair.
I wonder if he can feel resentment when he breaks down while dealing with a monster like you.
Who would be outraged by a natural disaster?
All I can do is feel empty.
No matter how much I thought about it, it felt like I was forced to pry it out.
“Isn’t it rather good that there are no emotions? Emotions paralyze the body and hinder rational thinking. In that respect, I think it has a rather strong point.”
“Certainly, excessive emotions can lead to misjudgment. But you need to know your emotions appropriately so that you can handle your power. You must have murderous intentions when you kill enemies too. Try to put in the same emotions when sparring.”
“Hmm…?”
“Chulus, you can’t… You didn’t show emotion even when killing people?”
“·······.”
Trie’s expression became strange.
It must feel strange.
Killing people without any intent to kill.
It’s not because I’m a psychopath or because I’m a skilled killer.
It was simply because I didn’t see the people of this world as human beings.
“That’s really serious, Schluss. It might be okay for now. Like you said, it could actually work as an advantage. Of course, that’s against an enemy weaker than you. But against an enemy stronger than you.” , Can you be rational even in a situation where you are on the defensive and lose people around you?”
“It must be difficult…”
“That’s why you always have to put your emotions into your sword. You have to learn to control your emotions. Otherwise, when your emotions explode, you won’t be able to stop them and you’ll collapse completely.”
“·······.”
It was a perfect diagnosis that could not be pointed out in the slightest.
Certainly, I’ve only dealt with weak guys so far.
I only went to battles that I was certain to win.
But from now on, there will be times when you have to start a battle at thirteen.
At that time, if I was mercilessly defeated by a strong enemy, my fragile mentality would not be broken and would be reduced to powder.
Trie was concerned about that and said to learn how to deal with emotions.
“I’ll listen carefully.”
“Okay. Then, from tomorrow, I’ll teach you how to put emotions in depth, so that’s what I know.”
“Okay. By the way, to the tree.”
Trie put her sword in her scabbard and strode past me.
I grabbed Trier’s wrist and stopped him.
Somehow, it seems that Triae has been very chilly today.
I was worried that I might have unwittingly offended Trier.
“Have I done something wrong?”
“Huh? Eh? Master’s wrong? What?”
“That’s what I’m asking…”
“No. I don’t have one. Why?”
“That’s it.”
Trier was flustered and let go of his wrist.
No, then why the hell?
At the moment I was puzzled, I heard a clatter from behind and Emilia grabbed my hand tightly.
The hand that held Trier’s wrist.
“Are you going back now, Trie?”
“Ah, yes, Mr. Attendant. I’m just going to go see him.”
“You seem to be sweating a lot. You can use the bathroom.”
“No. It’s fine. I’ll just go.”
After replying in a firm tone, Trier turned his back.
Are you in a bad mood today?
I wondered if it was because I was in a magic class and won too many magic tug-of-war on the carriage ride.
No, but I’m sure he’s not a narrow-minded guy who takes out his anger on things like that.
It was a strange thing.
I wondered if it might be a hormonal issue that can’t be overcome with mental strength, and that comes to women periodically.
“He’s gone.”
“Right. Why are you so picky today…”
“That’s enough, oppa. Ugh…”
As soon as the door slammed shut, Emilia hugged her tightly from behind.
Then he rubbed his face on my back.
“Away. I’m sweating a lot.”
“No. I’ll be like this.”
“I’m going to take off my clothes and wash now.”
“Let’s try it.”
“Why. Let me wash it?”
“What what what, what? Are you crazy?”
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I was just kidding.
Emilia was startled, and she fell away from me.
The effect is perfect.
I unfastened my belt and set down the heavy sheath.
My shirt was very sweaty.
There was also the option of changing into comfortable clothes and going to Dalian, but this was the only way to prepare for the real battle.
If you’re attacked unexpectedly, you’ll have to go out and fight in this outfit.
“How was it? South?”
As I approached the bathroom and threw away my clothes, Emilia asked with her back turned.
“How was it? What are you talking about?”
“Just this and that… The food and the weather there.”
“I don’t know much about food. I only ate jjambab at the military camp. The weather was great. The grasslands there are huge? It’s plain on all sides, but there’s a great forest on one side, so it looks like a long wall has been lined up. The great forest. It was my first time seeing it in person, but it was amazing.”
“Hmm… I see. How were the beastmen?”
“Beasts? Hmm… They were strong. They had better stamina and strength than humans. I had a hard time dealing with them.”
“Haa…”
I heard a loud sigh.
What is it?
Did you not like the answer?
“I’ll take your clothes and wash them. Should I wear them tomorrow too?”
“Oh, wait. I haven’t taken my pants off yet.”
“Quickly take off…”
“I’m trying.”
“Huh? Hold on.”
At that time, Emilia opened her eyes wide and rushed at it.
Then she grabbed my left arm and began to examine me closely.
“This scar. Why is it like this? It’s never been there before.”
“Ah…”
I did something.
It was a scar caused by a wooden wedge that had pierced Iris’ arm when she was saving her.
This is so small, how did you find out?
He must have looked back, but how did he see it?
Did you secretly glance at me?
“It’s nothing special. It’s a wound that doesn’t even touch bones or nerves, so there are no after effects.”
“That’s not the problem! Brother, it’s really ugly when something like this remains on your body…!”
“It’s okay. Fellain has more scars on his back than these. This is nothing.”
“But… But, oh… Ah. Wait a minute.”
“·······?”
The expression in Emilia’s weeping eyes suddenly changed.
At that moment, she suddenly felt her air grow cold.
Seeing those bloody eyes coming straight at me, I was afraid of her without knowing why, and I threw my eyes down.
“When you say Fellain, do you mean the Holy Knight Commander?”
“Oh, yes.”
“As far as I know, the leader of the Holy Knights is a woman.”
“Uh uh…”
“But how does your brother know that he has a lot of scars on his back? How did you get to see his back?”
“·······.”
The moment Emilia lifted her head and saw the eyes that met her, she felt goosebumps all over her body.
Emilia, who had a faint smile on her face, was emitting an obvious murder right now.
I don’t know why…
It was certain that it was f*cked.
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