269. Romeo and Juliet (6)
I had a dream after a long time.
It was a dream in the real world.
As usual, I woke up late, made a phone call right away, and sat down in front of the computer after talking on the phone for about an hour.
I couldn’t move my fingers as I remembered the conversation I had just had.
It wasn’t something that could be called a fight, but the voice got a little louder.
I tried to pick up the phone again, but my hands didn’t move as if they were stiff, so I gave up.
Once I started typing, it was surprisingly well written.
In less than an hour, I finished one side and even finished editing.
It was the moment when I started writing the next episode, surprised myself by the speed four or five times faster than usual.
There is a phone call.
It was an unregistered number, but I was able to detect that it was a call from the hospital’s internal phone from the front seat.
From the time I received that phone call, I might have already had a hunch.
I thought I had done something I would regret again…
“Kheueup······! Haa······. Haa······.”
I opened my eyes with a feeling of suffocation.
My whole body was soaked with sweat.
I calmed down for a moment, breathing desperately.
“Huh…?”
The sound of breathing was strange.
No, I was fine.
It wasn’t a bone marrow sound that seemed to be mixed with metal, but a clear and clear sound.
The moment I realized that, my body suddenly went numb.
Something I hadn’t felt in a while came back to my body.
It was magic.
That subtle sensation was massaging my body again.
I was startled and felt my chest.
I hurriedly tore off the bandage wrapped around me.
What was revealed on my left breast was the mark of a new suture.
When I put my hand there, I could clearly feel the pulsating movement.
It wasn’t a feeble beating heart, as if it would stop at any moment.
It was a healthy heart that jumped vigorously.
“Emilia!!!”
Rolled up the blanket and stood up, shouting loudly.
I had to find Emilia.
Emilia gave me sleeping pills and put me to sleep.
What the hell were you doing while I was asleep?
“Emilia! Emil… Lia…”
As I was about to stand up with my hands on the table, something caught in my hand.
The texture of thick leather.
It was a familiar book.
But a piece of paper stuck between them was sticking out.
As if possessed, I opened the book and pulled out a piece of paper.
-Schlus. Is your body okay? If you are reading this letter, you must have woken up safely after receiving my heart transplant.
It felt like I had been hit hard in the back of the head.
The hand holding the letter trembled.
Don’t read it.
Those thoughts ran through my head.
But my eyes only read the next sentence as if possessed.
-I’m sorry. I was the one who arranged this at the request of His Majesty the Emperor, the saintess, Erika-san, and Emilia-san.
If Schluss doesn’t accept it, ask him to force himself to operate.
I’m so sorry.
I didn’t leave a letter to apologize.
Actually, it’s just to say thank you.
The Schluss who made me would know.
How much pain I suffered as I was trapped in the endless loop of reincarnation.
I trust you know how hard it must have been to die a disgusting death trapped in this fragile body.
I’m sure Schluss believes that I want to escape from this bondage and sleep forever.
That’s not wrong.
But you never know.
How thrilled I was to meet Schluse.
It was the first time.
It was really the first time I felt that I wanted to continue to live in the same boring daily life as always.
When I come to my senses, I am waiting for you, and when I come to my senses again, you have already left.
For that short moment, I waited and waited another day to draw Schluse.
And then I finally got to go see Schluss, leaving the house on this immovable leg.
Why?
What made you so special?
Why was I able to forget the pain just by looking at your face in a life stained with pain for hundreds of years?
I asked myself several times, but I couldn’t understand it.
In a way, it makes sense.
I can’t understand the irrational feeling of love, having lived in the body of a child for hundreds of years.
I guess I became an adult at the last minute.
Seeing you realize that this is love.
“·······.”
Tears ran down my cheeks.
My breath became rough and something groaned inside me, trying to come up, but I managed to hold it in.
I had to read it to the end.
Until the end, everything.
-You were the one who taught me that life isn’t painful, Schluss.
As long as I could see your face, it didn’t matter how much my body hurt.
But if you die, then nothing matters.
When I was tested by my sister and told that my heart was in good shape, I was overjoyed.
I also thought that perhaps the reason I was born and repeated this endless pain was to meet you.
To meet you, learn what love is, and finally save you…
Schlus. Are you crying right now?
I can’t see well because my eyes are sore from the tears right now.
You said I wouldn’t reincarnate as long as my heart was alive and beating inside Schluse, right?
Please live as long as possible in good health, Schluss.
I hope you live to be a hundred years old.
Then I can only stop reincarnating for a hundred years.
Thank you, Schlus.
Thank you for listening to my stubbornness.
And, I love you.
“Ah…”
That was the end.
I understand the situation.
I have already finished figuring it out.
However, a corner of my heart was still stuffy, as if there was still a corner that I couldn’t understand.
“Ah······. Ah······. Ahhhhh…”
Crying welled up from inside, and an unpleasant sound erupted.
I couldn’t stand it any longer.
I knelt down holding the letter close to my chest carefully so that it would not get wrinkled or wet.
Written confession.
After I die.
What kind of worst confession is this?
I hated and resented him so much that I wanted to see him again and ask him what he was thinking when he did such a thing.
But I can’t.
I will never see Yulia again.
Because a part of Yulia lives inside me.
As long as I’m alive, Yulia can’t be reincarnated, and if Yulia is reincarnated, then I will already be dead.
A man and a woman who can only see each other after death.
A man and a woman who will never meet again.
That was us.
“Brother! Waking up…”
The door slammed open, and Emilia’s voice flowed in.
Emilia was speechless for a moment and looked at me as she knelt down on the floor. Then she slowly came over and sat next to me.
Then he held my hand as I cherished the letter.
“Yulia······· I want to see Yulia······.”
“I haven’t saddled up yet. Do you want to go see…?”
“I want to go…”
He left unexpectedly again.
Leaving behind a lot of things to regret.
After giving you a lot of scars.
He left without even giving me a chance to answer.
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I will admit it now.
I will no longer avert my eyes from the truth.
I loved that child.
I loved his eyes, hair, voice, and scent.
He loved the child’s weakness.
Nevertheless, he loved the bold look.
I loved everything about him.
That is my sincerity.
And I, even now, still love Yulia.
***
“The internal circuit seems to have returned to its original state.”
A bleeping and jarring sound came from the artifact.
After hearing Iris’ voice after the examination, I removed the rope attached to her arm.
“The mana power failure has been restored, and the mana sensor is intact. There are no problems except for a slight drop in heart rate. I am healthy.”
“Thank you.”
“No…”
After receiving a heart transplant, I regained all my lost strength.
Because it was the heart that was beating in Yulia’s small body, it was perfectly normal except for the occasional symptom of anemia that could not withstand my large body.
It was good enough to be put into battle right away.
Yulia’s funeral was held modestly.
She was buried in her family’s grave in Lichtenburg, but her gathering was not very large.
It was only natural that people who knew that I had been hit in the heart gathered.
The last time I saw Yulia’s face, it was still beautiful.
Since she had a pale face, it was as if she was asleep even after death.
I inadvertently traced her face with a pretty smile that made her heart ache.
She was startled by the cold feeling on her face and nearly burst into tears.
She didn’t cry, of course.
She endured until the end, and only when she climbed into her carriage did she shed tears.
So I let Yulia go.
She has been reincarnated again and again, but now she has let go of the child she will never see again.
“Your Excellency. I will report the results of the investigation.”
“Give it here.”
“Yes.”
The official who entered the hospital room handed me the survey report.
What I ordered to investigate was none other than all the newborns born on the continent in the past two days.
All the administrative power of the empire was mobilized to investigate all newborn babies born to human families and to find out their names.
Among the list of thousands of names, the name Yulia could not be found.
I thought it was a fairly common name.
Not a single black-haired human girl named Yulia was ever born.
It wasn’t reincarnated as I expected.
“Good job. Go back.”
“Okay, sir.”
After sending the officials away, I finished putting on my clothes.
Then Iris and I kissed and left the hospital room.
It was a strange feeling to walk around like this after lying down for a while.
Her entire body was full of energy.
Maybe it was even stronger than before.
“Are you here, sir?”
When I came out of the hospital, Fellain and Trier were waiting for me.
I greeted the two people staring at me fully armed and passed by.
“Where are you going now?”
“I’m going to the imperial palace. To get permission.”
“What permission do you mean?”
Yulia is not reincarnated.
While this little heart is beating inside me.
In other words, after I die, Yulia will reincarnate and repeat her eternal pain.
Forever. Until the end of this world.
I can’t let Yulia go through that pain again.
“Mine. Hits a madman.”
So I decided to become immortal.
I decided to live forever and never let this heart stop.
Survive until the end of this world and perish so Yulia will never be reincarnated.
That was the only thing I could do for Yulia.
But, isn’t that mean he will alone until the end