30 . The nature of children (1)
On the carriage back home, I stared blankly at the sleeping children leaning on me.
It is a peaceful scenery as always, but it felt foreign to me now.
Helga said in passing, did my children make me that way?
I didn’t want to believe it, and I didn’t want to admit it. It was something I didn’t want to even think about.
I can never rule out the possibility that it’s a lie that will confuse me, but if I don’t keep in mind the possibility that it’s real….
‘Definitely….’
The day I revealed my past, there were times when I felt that the atmosphere of the children had changed quite a bit since then.
Even though I didn’t notice, I wasn’t so stupid that I didn’t notice the changes in the children who wouldn’t hurt if I put them in their eyes.
Although he is 4 years old, did puberty come early to match his appearance?
It’s a big deal.
There is a saying that usually when a daughter reaches puberty, she feels rejected by her father and her aegyo decreases.
Concerns that come to mind when thinking of children, there was only one person to share this with.
I woke Rihanna by gently tapping her shin on the shin as she drool while sitting across from her.
“Coup!?”
Rihanna woke up with a strange sound, hastily wiping the drool from her mouth, and looked around her.
Realizing that I was staring at her, Rihanna asked in a quiet voice, blushing in her embarrassment.
“What’s wrong all of a sudden?”
I make sure the children are sleeping,
“It may sound strange to say this all of a sudden, but maybe… Have my kids ever said anything strange to you?”
Rihanna, who flinched and looked fully awake, turned her words away, avoiding my gaze.
“That, well? I don’t know.”
Suspicious reaction, there was definitely something.
But I did not interrogate her as she refused to answer.
Doesn’t it mean that you doubt my children?
In the end, I quietly closed my eyes, stroking the heads of the children who were talking pleasantly in their sleep, as if they were having a good dream, holding the uncomfortable feelings inside.
The wind brushing my cheek was the same as usual, but the black anxiety that bloomed in my heart was growing out of control.
After a long time, Olivia got off her wagon and stretched herself, speaking in a pleasant voice.
“Ugh… After all, our house is the best. Does your father think so too?”
I couldn’t hear what Olivia said to me, and I was lost in her thoughts.
Olivia tilted her head at me and asked again in a worried voice.
“Dad?”
Then, listening to her words, I was surprised and smiled awkwardly.
“Huh!? Ah oh. Right…. After all, home is the best.”
Realizing that my condition was not normal, Olivia crossed her arms as if to ease my mood, and attached her voluptuous breasts as if tempting.
Before she could feel the soft sensation running down her forearm, she asked Olivia looking up at me.
“Dad, what’s wrong? Did something happen in that town?”
When Olivia said that with an innocent look that only worried about me, the rest of the children made similar expressions and all said worried things to me.
It was hard to see the face and tone of the lie.
Also, Helga must have lied to me.
Couldn’t these angelic children lie to me?
Different from the garbage that betrayed me, children who only look at me.
It’s funny how I change my mind so easily, but I definitely headed home with a much lighter heart than before.
As I started to see her house, I noticed a village elder standing in front of my house, and I sped her up a bit and approached her.
Her bent waist, her hair tied up and pinned with a hairpin, and thin crutches that could break at any moment.
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Fay, the elder of the village, and it would be no exaggeration to say that she helped me the most in raising my children. She was a benefactor and a mother.
Elder Fay looked at me and approached me with a benevolent smile that pierced my wrinkles.
“Ah! Ain, where have you been?”
Before I could answer her question, the children shouted happily as they ran to Fay.
“Grandma!”
The children were embraced by the elder.
Her exquisite strength control was a bonus so that she wouldn’t fall while on her crutches.
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Fay spoke in a friendly voice as she gently stroked the children’s heads.
“Oh my gosh, have our puppies grown up this much already?”
Apart from me, the only person who is welcomed by children.
Grandma Fay came up to me on her wobbly legs and gave me the good news.
“Your friend, did I say Rihanna? The wife and daughter’s house is also almost finished cleaning, so you can come in and live tomorrow.”
The first to respond to Fay’s words were our children, not Rihanna, who now lives in the house.
“Really?”
“Sister, that’s great!”
“But you feel a bit sad? Our bruises… Do you think your sister is disappearing?”
“Congratulations….”
It was only after each of the girls said their good words that it was finally my turn to speak.
I said, patting Rihanna’s shoulder.
“You can come in tomorrow, so stay at my house until today.”
The first house she had in her life, even though it was a small house with only one small room in her abandoned house that was on the verge of collapse, Rihanna was thrilled enough to shed tears just for that.
Wiping the tears from her eyes, Rihanna bowed her elongated waist to her elder to greet her.
Seeing the way she liked her, she felt like crying for some reason.
Rihanna knows how much she has lived through her hardships and even more so for my part.
I turned my gaze back to Granny Fay, looked at her lower body, and asked in a worried tone.
“Did you come all the way here to tell me that? My knees are already bad….”
“He is still fine. Ain, it’s not enough for you to worry about, so don’t worry about it.”
I bowed down on her back and saw her benevolently smiling and saw her off to the front of her house before returning to her house.
Opening the front door, I hinted at Rihanna behind her.
“Do you want to wash first?”
Rihanna shook her head and declined.
“I can wash it later. You look more tired than me.”
Well, it’s true that I couldn’t rest properly because of Helga. I nodded her head and headed for the bathroom.
“Then take care of the kids.”
I roughly took off my coat and even my shirt and went into the bathroom wearing only my bottoms.
As I was staring blankly at him after getting hot water in the bathtub to wash off my body soaked in sweat and fatigue, a thought flashed in my mind.
I couldn’t prepare any snacks in the wagon, and I remembered the children catching their hungry stomachs.
It takes a little time to get water anyway, so in the meantime, you should be able to soothe the children’s hunger by cutting at least some fruit.
When I came out of the bathroom again with the intention of bringing a snack, what greeted me was a strange sight, not an ordinary one.
The kids were holding my sweaty coat or shirt in their hands, tugging at each other as if competing with each other, or stuffing it into their noses and sniffing my body odor.
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For a moment, I thought it was just a dream. An enraptured expression, a melting woman’s face that I had never shown before.
Rihanna shrugged her shoulders in disgust, then looked at me out of her bathroom and gave a puzzled look on her face. ! I made a sound, and at the same time, the eyes of the children all turned to me.
Before I knew it, a sound close to a sigh flowed from my mouth.
“What….”
I’m sure I’m wearing a pretty embarrassed expression, but I could guarantee that the expressions on the faces of the children in front of me were even worse than that.
The children seemed to be looking for an excuse as they put my clothes in their hands and rolled their eyes quickly.
At this time, an earthquake occurred in Stella’s pupils, who act most rationally.
“Oh, Dad… This….”
Noah stared straight into my face, almost crying.
“I just love my dad so much….”
The children seemed to think they would be scolded, but each one was making excuses with a gloomy expression.
It’s true that I was surprised too, but now there are more important things than that.
I approached the children with a casual look.
“It’s okay, maybe.”
Elia rubbed her face against my half-naked torso with a moved face.
“Dad….”
After stroking Elia’s hair once, I headed back to the bathroom using the excuse that her bathtub was overflowing with water.
I went straight into the hot water and dived until my head was completely submerged.
‘What is it?’
I tried to be as calm as possible so that the children wouldn’t be hurt or startled, but my heart was beating faster than ever.
There was an illusion that the ripples on the surface of the water were caused by my heartbeat.
When I was at a party, I wouldn’t have been so surprised at the moment when a skeleton’s ax was stuck right in front of my nose.
‘That expression just now….’
Are you saying that kids just four years old can make that face?
Their bodies are clearly adults, but their minds, which have not matured yet, are clearly in their heads.
I thought that I refrained from education as much as possible in terms of s*xuality for these girls, who are still too innocent to accept the filth of the world.
But….
It was still as if I could see what they were doing in the living room.
The act of rubbing the crotch while holding the object of the object you like close to the body was clearly an act performed by a woman who had awakened to s*x.
Could it be that everything Helga said about not trusting them easily was true?
No, no.
Her vision was distorted by Helga’s bullsh*t with poison in her mouth.
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From their point of view, the most ordinary behavior seemed strange to me, who had fallen… Yes, that’s it.
If parents don’t trust their children in the first place, then who the hell will trust them?
I made that promise and thought so, but the doubts that bloomed as I witnessed it with my own eyes showed no sign of fading easily.
The heat that rose to the top of my head was definitely not caused by the heat from the bath.