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I didn’t want to change.
I wanted to stay as I was.
I just wanted to live peacefully.
That’s why I wanted to be around someone who was calm.
That’s why I looked for someone I wouldn’t hurt, and who wouldn’t hurt me.
—But I was wrong.
What did I do wrong?
What was wrong with me?
Sometimes I think about it.
But I guess it’s pointless.
Because it’s all over now.
At least, that’s what I think.
Because I ended that relationship with my own hands.
But—it’s probably still going on in her mind.
—I want all of Beniyo-kun. I won’t let you go. I want to make you mine.
There was definitely a dark, murky, grudge-like obsession in her eyes when she said that.
Time passed, and she never spoke to me again after that.
I wish she would just forget about it.
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I wish she would just stop clinging to me.
But it’s probably impossible.
I’m going to be a high school freshman this spring.
I got into the college preparatory school I wanted.
But I can’t be happy about it.
She—Misaka Mio also got into that high school.
As we promised before, Mio and I will be going to the same high school.
Mio said she wouldn’t let me go.
Just as she said, I couldn’t escape.
I didn’t have the courage to go far away.
I didn’t think it was a good idea to change my environment.
Maybe Mio saw right through me.
She’ll probably keep the same position as she did as the school idol, even after she becomes a high school student.
In the end, I’m still a coward, unable to change myself.
And there’s a part of me that doesn’t hate myself for it, which just proves how pathetic I am.
There’s no way a worthless person like me could save Mio.
I just wish I could close my eyes and get through it.
My heart just ached, and I was just so miserable.
How long will this last?
Will I ever be able to shake her off?
Will I ever be allowed to be happy――――
“I won’t allow it.”
–If you abandon me and try to be happy, I’ll never forgive you.
Those words still wouldn’t leave my head on the day of the entrance ceremony.
I met her.