108 – What are you sorry about?
I am also a person with thoughts.
Of course, it’s true that I just did something stupid, but…… , At least to the point where I know it’s wrong…… Hmm. f*ck.
Sometimes people just spit out words without a bit of filtering in their brains.
I’ve had times like that too, but I never thought it would happen at a moment like this.
… …. Who to blame
Anyway, I now know that I caused a catastrophe.
But first of all, solving the problem is the priority rather than regretting it…….
“Huh? Three? With whom?”
Ari’s voice, which seems to be nothing, somehow feels too scary.
“Oh, no. That’s not it…”
“What isn’t it?”
“Uh… So Arya, I’m thinking of something else for a second…”
“Huh? Didn’t you ask me to see you with someone else?”
“That…”
It sounds like you’re genuinely curious rather than angry, but…….
You shouldn’t be seduced by such things. It is still too early to be reassured. In the first place, can I be relieved today?
“Who are you?”
“No! Let’s go see it by ourselves!”
“Let’s go see the three of us? Didn’t you make an appointment with someone?”
“No, that’s right…”
“It can’t be helped that I already made a promise. I’m a bit caught in the middle, so…”
“Hey, I can cancel the appointment…”
“Uh… but you shouldn’t just cancel it. It shouldn’t have been long since you made an appointment. Who was it that you were supposed to go with?”
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“That… My editor…”
“Oh, you said you got a new one? Hey, don’t cancel and go with me. It’s better to get close with the editor. It’s not so good if you just cancel your appointment.”
“Even so…, But I’d rather be with you…”
“Um…. If he says it’s okay, then I’m fine, but…”
“Well then, I’ll ask right away!”
Huh? Are you not very angry?
No, but if I were in Ari’s shoes…… , If Ari said he would go to the movies with a male editor…….
Um. I feel like I will never be able to stand it. Of course right now, Ari doesn’t know my editor’s gender, but whatever.
I don’t think I should just think about being at ease now.
But as I was thinking about that, a new fact came to my mind.
Thinking of it, Ari would not have been able to accept it if he asked a male editor to go to the movies with the three of them, but Ari is now accepting the idea of going with the three of them.
Then now is not the time for Ahyeon to ask her sister for a doctor…….
I’m just canceling, so shouldn’t the two of us have asked to go?
I got goose bumps on my back.
What have I done?
Ari’s voice is heard from the cell phone.
“By the way, Yuhan. Is she the editor’s woman?”
f*cked.
“Uh…! That’s right, a woman…!”
“Right?”
“It’s just like a friend of the same s*x? No, the personality is like a woman…”
“Is it girly?”
“He said he also has a boyfriend…”
“Do you?”
“So a kind of friend…! A friend! An editor and a friend!”
“Like a lady friend?”
“No, a bit of a boyfriend? Well, that’s right, to be precise, that’s how it works…”
“Do you?”
“That’s…”
“That?”
“I’m sorry Arya…”
“I’m sorry? What are you sorry about?”
Help me.
“No, I think I’m very angry…”
“Huh?! My, what’s wrong with me…? I’m not really mad!”
After that, Ahri was eloquent. I know what I was thinking, but he said he wasn’t really angry.
But maybe that’s unfortunate in its own way.
It’s like I’m throwing a strange proposal at such an innocent person.
What the hell am I doing?
“Uh… Anyway, Yuhan-ah, could you ask him a question? If he says it’s ok, let’s go together. If it’s a little uncomfortable, let’s go together later. We’re busy this week, so we can make time again.”
“Yeah… I get it…”
“And… That, before we hang up…”
“Huh?”
“Sure…, Joe, nice dream… No, that…. My, dream of me….”
Then the call ended unilaterally.
Is it okay to be this cute just because you’re a woman from all over the world?
Hearing words like that makes me feel even more painful about what I did.
Um. For some reason, my conscience hurts today.
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“No, I don’t know if this is correct, Yuhan.”
“I don’t know, so stop.”
A man with a gloomy expression and a woman with a curious expression.
If there is a characteristic, it is that they both have tanned skin?
Now, two days have passed since ‘the incident’.
It’s quite an hour earlier than the scheduled time to watch the movie, but Ahyeon and I are meeting in advance and looking around the department store near the movie theater.
If you ask why the two of you are doing this after you’ve done something wrong to Ari…….
To choose a gift for Ari.
When I think about it, I’ve received a lot from Ari, but I hardly remember giving anything to him.
Ari said that it was okay, but she didn’t think it would be bad to give her a gift herself as an apology.
No, it seemed good.
Even though my wallet is empty because of the computer, I can afford a certain amount of expenses.
And to be honest, the money I spent on Ari wasn’t particularly wasted.
“Watching a movie among a couple… Yuhan-ah, by the way, isn’t it a little like choosing a present for your girlfriend?”
“Of course I do. Just think of me as an observer. I’ll make most of the decisions.”
“No… The fact that the two of us looked around and chose…”
Of course, these are things I feel. Just because I committed such a catastrophe doesn’t make me a very stupid person either.
The reason I’m still doing this…….
“I can’t think of a better way, so what should I do?”
“No… You must have a lot of dating experience. You know a little bit about women’s tastes, don’t you?”
“……This is my first time dating.”
“What?”
“And I know a little bit about women’s tastes… But help me anyway.”
Why do you sprinkle salt on a sore wound?
And the taste of women around the world is not a very difficult part for me as I am not from this country, but I wanted to be sure of this first official gift.
“Let’s start. It’s going to take a while.”
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Well, there will always be exceptions, but I, like most women, don’t like shopping very much.
When I was shopping for daily necessities, I tended to sort out the items I needed to buy in advance and finish shopping as quickly as possible, and when I was shopping for clothes, I was the type to buy clothes that were moderately comfortable.
It was the same when shopping with Hyeonu.
Hyunwoo was always the type to go shopping for a long time, and he always bought a lot of clothes…….
I wasn’t buying anything of my own, and walking around for hours with the clothes Hyeonu bought was quite boring for me.
And Hyeonu, who was so into shopping, didn’t talk to me very often, and even though he occasionally asked me if this outfit was okay, I didn’t know anything about fashion, so I didn’t have anything to say.
By the way, um. I’m not trying to compare myself to Hyeonu, but I’m just objectively and honestly expressing my feelings.
Today’s shopping doesn’t seem too bad.
“Nuna, would you like to try this on this time?”
Yhanie looks at me with her eyebrows slightly furrowed.
No, to be precise, I’m looking at the hairpin I put on.
Yoo Han said that he would know better only when he saw who was actually wearing it, so he is acting like a kind of mannequin.
What can I say…… Unlike when shopping with Hyeonu, they are actively communicating with each other.
Because they keep putting hair pins on me, looking at me with affection, and asking me for my opinion…….
I feel like I have a mysterious feeling that I don’t know the reason for.
Um. It’s a very ambiguous expression. Anyway, yes.
“Hmm… I don’t think it would suit Ari. But, noona, don’t you want to grow your hair?”
“Huh? What’s with the hair?”
“I thought if it was a bit longer, it would have suited my sister quite well. Well… I’m no stranger to fashion.”
“Is that so…? Does it suit me? I don’t know much about fashion either…”
“Hmm. It’s a bit of my taste, but it looks okay. It would have been perfect if my hair was long.”
I’ve never thought about growing my hair out, but I’m curious.
If you imagine me with long hair…… Well, that sounds pretty unnatural.
Anyway, Yuhan reached out to me.
Looking at you doing it, it looks like you’re trying to fix a crooked hairpin again…….
Isn’t this coming too close?
Yoohan’s body gradually took over my field of vision, and soon filled up my field of vision.
Because he’s a taller man than me, what I see…… The nape of Yuhani’s neck that I saw in the bathroom yesterday during the phone call.
The picture I took yesterday came to mind, and the phone call from yesterday came to mind.
My field of vision narrows. As it narrows, the sight is fixed on Yuhani’s slightly exposed bare skin.
Yuhani came today wearing a white shirt that looked a bit tight, and he saw the brown skin visible through the shirt’s narrow neck……. Look at those contrasting colors…….
I gulped and drool.
Uh…… Why am I suddenly doing this?
I feel strange……. I’ve been saying a few times that I’m feeling strange, but it’s a really strange feeling.
I don’t know why, and I feel a feeling that I don’t know the identity of.
“It’s not going well, miss. Wait a minute.”
“Uh… yes…”
Somehow, the words to wait like this felt warm.
I felt relieved to hear that this time would continue.
The reason is still unknown.
I just felt that way.
Like that, let’s spend some time looking at Yuhan’s neck.
“Okay. Oh, it really doesn’t suit Ari. You don’t want to buy a sister? It’s pretty good, right?”
Feeling praise came from Yuhani, who stepped back after fixing her hairpin.
I was a person who really had no interest in fashion.
He had never even imagined accessories like hairpins.
It interferes with exercise, I don’t have much interest in improving my appearance, and hairpins aren’t practical because I wear short hair anyway.
But the word “Suitable” Felt warm today.
“How much was this…?”
I bought a hairpin that I had no reason to use anyway.
I felt that it was impulsive, but there was no time to stop me.
I couldn’t understand why I made this choice either.
A hairpin held in my hand like that, a design that looks a bit soft, unlike me, who has a ferocious appearance.
Yes…… Hyunwoo, I haven’t been interested in my appearance until now…… , If I do something like this, Hyeonu will like it more…… ?
Perhaps it must have been. I must have made this impulsive purchase because my heart also thought of Hyeonu.
That was the only reasonable reason.
While I was thinking about that.
“hehehe. Noona must have had a longing for fashion too? Looking at her smile like that.”
“You laughed?”
“He laughed when I praised him earlier. But he seems like a pervert.”
If it was normal, I would have asked what perversion was and heard it, but for some reason, my heart was disturbed.
“If I find anything nice later, I’ll give it to you as a gift.”
In the words that followed, I felt an unknown joy.
“It would be nice if I could buy it today… Today is the day I give my girlfriend a present.”
When I heard those last words.
Somehow, I felt lonely, as if I was alone.