44 – Episode 44 – A woman’s heart is like a reed (1)
From nob le mt l. co m
Junhyeok hadn’t noticed since the old days.
And it can be said that it was me who suffered the most damage from it.
I don’t know about other bullies, but I didn’t want to cause unnecessary conflict with my friends, and even when I was annoyed by that notice, I just tolerated it moderately.
Since people can’t be perfect at everything, I thought it was my duty to deal with that level of irritation among friends.
However, there were times when it helped.
A character from ‘Animal Village’ that Yuhan created when he borrowed my switch.
Nickname Geum Taeyang and a male avatar made after himself.
I had to lend the switch to Junhyeok again, so the character didn’t appear on the air for long and was forgotten… … .
From nob le mt l. co m
Junhyeok said he would play another game, borrowed it, and discovered the character while playing Animal Village.
I rolled my head and came up with an excuse, and it was an excuse that was enough to fool Junhyeok, so it seemed like I was going to pass it in moderation in the end.
However, there is a degree to not being aware. And how to feel something when such awkward situations pile up.
‘Arya, what are you up to these days? It feels like something has changed… … ?’
It wasn’t an interrogative tone.
It seemed like he was just saying something vaguely felt.
‘I? In some aspects?’
To be honest, I knew too.
It’s not that the level has changed a little, but people are getting weirder.
I don’t know exactly when, but I’m sure I’m getting weird.
‘well… … . speech? action? these things… … ?’
Ever since I was little, I’ve been told a lot that I have a hard personality somewhere.
I had a lot of friends because it wasn’t an uncomfortable feeling of hardness, and they also found it comfortable to play with me.
It seems that there is almost no swearing. I can count on one hand the number of occasions when abusive words came out of my mouth during a conversation with a friend.
I’ve never had any gossip about it.
If I thought of a gag that demeaned someone, I didn’t say it out of my mouth.
Dirty talk? I should have done it without going crazy.
But these days, when I talk to someone, I feel more comfortable than before… … . Well I’m not sure.
I knew it was mentally strange, but I hadn’t thought about the tone and behavior. Was it influenced by the psyche?
‘Is it very strange… … ?’
‘well? still… … I like it better now!’
Because I like Junhyeok… it’ll be fine… ?
Other friends… … .
What will Yuhan think?
I’m not curious about other men’s reactions. I’m just curious about your friend’s reaction.
maybe… … It will.
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The day I went to Yuhani’s house to visit her in the hospital.
Like running away from home… No, after running away.
It was so hard to stay sane.
Everything from one to ten was terrible.
From nob le mt l. co m
Jun-hyeok who suddenly said he would borrow a switch.
I lent it because I was afraid of getting a strange misunderstanding.
Yuhan, who went to work because of me and injured his back.
And I felt an unknown loneliness.
Me, who went to meet Yuhani but couldn’t even go inside the front door, and Saehee, a female student who was inside Yuhani’s house as if it were natural.
The slightly disheveled clothes indicated that she was doing housework.
A sick man and a woman who came to help him.
Seeing her working hard to help a man even though she is still young.
Compared to ours, Yuhani’s house seemed so cramped and full of warmth.
The bond is deep enough to invite a man to a house where he lives alone.
I was just watching that strong relationship from outside the front door.
It was an unusually cold day, the beginning of summer.
I still don’t know how I felt.
Anyway, since then, whenever I was involved with Yuhan, I felt an unknown emptiness.
It may not have been the right thing to do, but… … I started avoiding Yuhan a bit.
Maybe it was because I didn’t want to realize that unknown feeling.
that too.
It is unknown.
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Friday evening of the following week.
I was invited to a drinking party by my university classmates and came to a bar near Korea University.
The break has now become easier, and it seems that the viewers have adapted to it appropriately.
I’m usually at an age where I try to attend gatherings with friends whenever possible, but this drinking party was especially welcome.
I wanted to put my mind at ease.
A meeting that went on for so long.
“It’s so hard to see the real face, Ari.”
“So, a celebrity is a celebrity.”
“hahahaha…. What…. You came out like this today even though these days are f*cking tough?
“……What is it just now?”
“Wow… crazy, I hear all the cursing I live and do. Look at the goosebumps…”
Oh, did I just swear? I don’t remember exactly if it was because I drank too much.
If it was me in the past, the fact that I used swear words would have been very unpleasant, but… … .
I have no idea now.
what? I wasn’t originally like this.
Somehow I don’t feel any bad feelings.
Rather, I’m just wondering if it’s natural for a woman in her 20s to use swear words.
Come to think of it, today’s sitting posture was different from usual.
No, it might have been like this all these days, not just today.
Is this the change Junhyeok was talking about?
The line that I considered important in words and actions was twisted.
The change that came to the mind also changed the behavior.
Habits built up over a lifetime were shattered in an instant.
A situation to be aware of… … I think it is… … .
I still have no idea.
Rather, I feel pleasure.
It felt like that hard line was being erased and I was becoming like someone.
He walks around in a flirtatious manner, with a harsh tone full of warmth.
I feel like I’m becoming like a certain guy.
“hehehehe…. Well, I’m 23 years old, so I can curse a bit.”
“You never did.”
“hahahahaha! Hey, why did the kid change like this! That robot-like b*tch.”
“What about a robot…”
“Try again!”
“Yes! It looks much nicer.”
well… … . But the man didn’t swear much.
“It’s okay. It will come out again someday.”
“Ah… No jam.”
Well, the number of times doesn’t matter.
The fact that you crossed the line is what matters.
The fact that you got closer to that someone is important.
hmm… … A character that has been floating in my head since a while ago.
I try to remember who it is, but my intoxication stops me. Well, someday I’ll remember.
I sighed down the full glass of wine.
I have now reached my limit.
It will no longer interfere with your daily life.
But another glass was poured.
With this, I crossed the line I had set.
Even so.
I was just having fun.
.
.
.
Then time passed again.
I’m not drunk, but I’m drunk for a while.
The field of view is not focused correctly.
This is what being drunk properly is like.
At a drinking party, I feel pleasure that I have never felt before.
Meanwhile, two men come to our table.
“Senpai? Hello, senpai!”
Two people posting hello to two of my friends.
There must be no one in my department that I don’t know, but since it’s a face I don’t remember seeing, it must be a freshman this year.
“this person is…….”
“Wow… now there are kids who don’t know how to do business at Korea University.”
“Ah…! Who is that senior?! I’ve heard of it!”
“Wow… you’re really pretty…”
“Since we met today, shall we join the table together?! To exchange greetings with senior Ari!”
… … ?
what. Why do things go their own way?
Two of my friends are leaving their seats, saying they are happy that a man is here.
What’s so good about these sloppy-looking guys?
Dressed up to the fullest, a face covered in cosmetics.
There was a guy I remember who showed off his crazy looks without any of that.
It is an appearance that does not generate any inspiration.
“Ga-eun, you go in to the side. The kids sit there.”
Seating in the form of long chairs on either side of a rectangular table.
I sent two men on the other side of me.
Normally, I would have felt good about making friends with my juniors.
For some reason, thinking that another man would sit in the chair I was in made me feel so bad.
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Juniors with slightly perplexed expressions.
What do you mean? There’s no reason for a man I’ve never seen to sit next to me. juniors and what
“Ari-senpai, the glass is empty, so I’ll pour it for you!”
“huh?”
Then I pour soju into the glass placed in front of me.
hmm. What is this feeling.
Unexplained discomfort arises.
I was planning on drinking more, but somehow I don’t want to touch the glass.
“Ah… sorry, I drank too much, so it’s not like that anymore.”
He pushed the glass slightly to the side and picked up the snack.
As the man ate, the tension between the two friends rose, making the drinking party itself enjoyable.
No, it looked fun.
It’s 9 o’clock when I check my phone.
College students in their early twenties, who entered the Department of Business Administration at Korea University after changing their school life.
For them who want to play, 9:00 is still an early time to part.
Looking ahead, too. They are playing as if a new drinking party has already begun.
boring.
The number of people has increased, but I feel bad for nothing.
I don’t want to ruin the atmosphere, so we play together in moderation… … The mind is already elsewhere.
Woo-woo-woo-
“…Hey! …Arya!”
“…?”
“Seolari! Your phone keeps ringing. Are you drunk?”
“…… what?”
“It says ‘Yoohan’?
I wake up.
It’s like going back to before drinking.
When I look at my phone, the man I thought of earlier… … .
Yes, KakaoTalk is coming from Yuhan.
Why do I feel happy when I see the name even though I avoid it every day?
Normally, depressive thoughts would come flooding in, but a drunken mind distracts everything.
An unknown heartbeat.
The thrill that comes from just looking at the name.
Every time I see Yuhan, the emotions I feel are getting clearer and clearer.
I don’t have the courage to draw conclusions, so I’ll avoid that feeling again today.
It seems that the inevitable moment will come soon.
It seems that the moment will soon come when all feelings will be acknowledged.
My head is cluttered.
Anyway, the important thing right now is Yuhani’s KakaoTalk.
“I-I’ll go out for a while!”
“No, at least it’s just here…”
“Are you just leaving?”
“What is it, this is the first time I’ve seen him do that.”
The two juniors looked pretty flustered, but like I said before, that’s none of my business.
[Yoohan]
– Ariya
-Can you look at the clothes?
-Can you help me on the weekend?
[me]
-Uh uh huh.
-Uh Yuhan.
-ㅁ ㅝ Can you help me?
[Yoohan]
– Ha ha ha ha ha what is it?
-hahahahaha Ari, are you drunk?
The corners of the mouth go up.
Yuhani is a really great man who knows how to accurately match my condition.
The fact that Yuhani recognized my condition somehow made me happy.
[me]
-A little bit with my friends hahahaha.
– With the girls.
[Yoohan]
– Ha ha ha I didn’t interfere?
[me]
-Nnnnn
– No
-no
-After the end, it was ㅇㅇㅅ, it’s okay Noah
-are you okay
I hope it can’t be
The typo-filled talk doesn’t even have a period, but I didn’t have time to care about that.
[Yoohan]
-lol
-Ota dog is cute hahahaha
– I need to buy some clothes.
-I don’t know about that
-(picture)
– These are all my clothes
-lol
– Anyway, I was wondering if I could help you.
-The only friend around me is you
Eyes open at shocking remarks.
I’m the only friend
The shady smile Yuhani usually wears appears on my face.
I feel like I am a special person to Yuhan. that’s so awesome
And that picture below… … crazy.
This is a picture of Yuhani’s clothes piled up, but that… … Aren’t those panties?
I covered my phone and entered a nearby alley.
I don’t want anyone to see this photo, even by mistake.
I want to leave it as a picture that only I can see.
A single piece of colorless underwear like Yuhani’s clothes shakes my spirit.
Also, why is this boy so careless… … .
I was worried, but I was happy that he treated me as carelessly and comfortably as I did.
After looking at the photo with excited eyes, I came to my senses and sent a reply to Yuhan.
[me]
-Everything is fine on the weekend.
-Tell me any time you want.
[Yoohan]
-Ah then, is Sunday okay?
[me]
– It’s all right.
I set the time with Yuhan and turned off my phone.
He returned to his seat with a smile on his face.
“Guys, I’m sorry, but I think I’ll have to go right away.”
“yes?!”
“What, what’s going on?”
“Uh. Something urgent happened. I’m sorry. I’ll call you back later. And you guys, drink moderately and go safely.”
It’s not urgent, but what does it matter?
He even said hello to his juniors to be careful and packed his luggage.
When I feel good, suddenly those juniors don’t look bad.
I caught a passing taxi and opened KakaoTalk.
[me]
-Jihoon-ah.
-Do you have time on Sunday?
-Can you help my friend?
-I’ll do you a favor.
While meeting Yuhan, I don’t want to include my younger sister.
Helping Yuhan should be handled with certainty.