50 – Episode 50 – Observation Class (3)
I’ve heard the name ‘Sijun’ a little bit.
When I met Se-hee at the nursery school every weekend, I always asked Se-hee about her school life, but the name Park Si-jun popped up every once in a while.
I don’t even want to remember the name of a man I don’t even know… … .
I can’t just pass over a man who is close to Se-hee.
Se-hee didn’t seem to think of Shi-joon as anything more than a friend, but… … still! What to do if you meet a strange man!
Of course, I don’t know how similar the person named Park Si-joon is to the previous world’s Park Si-joon, whom I heard about from Se-hee.
In the case of Se-hee, although she changed like a woman in the world before the war, in fact, there was not much difference from the world before. Because he had a cool personality from the beginning.
However, there is no guarantee that the characters in the reversed world will unconditionally have similar personalities to the characters in the original world.
Minwoo at the nursery school had a significant change from the personality I knew, and various changes also took place in the case of other children.
If there were more examples, a more appropriate judgment would be possible, but what would you expect from my miserable human relationship?
Well, the words were so hard, but it’s not that important. Rather, it is just a useless worry.
Anyway, the place I live now is a world before the war, and the place I will live in the future is also the world before the war, but what is important about the character of Shi-jun, whom I have never seen in reality.
Even if my personality has changed, I am the first person I see anyway.
I don’t know if other people will agree, but I think I’m pretty good at it. Anyway, yes.
At least I have my own confidence in reading someone’s expression.
It was the driving force that I did not lose my job even though I moved around in daily life, and it was the driving force that I was especially loved by adults.
when you think about it with that eye.
From Shijun’s expression earlier… … It was evident that he felt hostility towards me.
Looking at the line that emphasizes the friendly image after that, it seems that he probably hid it in his own way, but I can’t fall for that.
I wondered what he was doing.
I don’t even know why I get such a reaction from someone I’ve never seen before, especially from my friend’s brother.
People, especially men, who saw this golden appearance for the first time were usually frightened, but I don’t know how she reacted like that. It’s really uselessly imaginary courage.
Except for Ari, there is no one who has taken a hostile look towards me at the first meeting… … Although there were twists and turns during Ari, why is he doing that?
Am I sitting in my chair? There can be no such narrow-minded person in the world.
No matter how much I live in the world, I get annoyed when someone I see for the first time treats me like that.
still. Of course it just went away.
Maybe I misunderstood, and I’m Sehee’s friend, so suddenly I can’t say anything.
You can’t interfere with Se-hee’s human relationship with an incident like this. I have no intention of doing that.
The right choice is to just move on.
hmm. With that in mind, I returned to the classroom.
Even the lightly stained cosmetics were washed away after a few washings, and the heat on her body had gone down to the usual level.
very comfortable He is in perfect physical condition for a good day.
If you play with Sehee during your break time, you will feel better again.
So I opened the back door of the classroom.
the man looks You used to ignore me, and now. The one next to Shijun.
Seeing him standing with Sijun… … Were you two family?
My heart, which had barely calmed down, shakes.
mindset changes.
I tried to move on thinking that I was just stepping on sh*t. With the thought of stepping on sh*t twice.
But when the situation is like this, the words are different.
If the two people who made me feel good on this good day were family.
If the family is rude to me as a group.
You don’t have to respect me, do you?
I’m a hogu-like person, but there are limits to that.
Se-hee, who is sandwiched between them, always smiles.
Most people don’t know, but I can tell because I’ve been seeing them for a long time. That expression is more troubled than a smile.
The affinity for the two has already hit the floor.
I stepped inside the classroom.
I can’t stand being ignored, but I can’t stand Se-hee getting into trouble even more.
With that thought, I felt a sudden rush of instincts begin.
This time, I decided to leave myself at ease.
I guess… … Maybe I need to catch me and give Se-hee some advice about relationships. I don’t have any friends either, but still.
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I was a person who didn’t feel a sense of belonging.
There was no family, and the sense of belonging to the nursery school was weaker than other children, and there were no special feelings about elementary and middle school.
It’s ridiculous to have a sense of belonging to a high school that you haven’t attended for half a year yet, and that you’ve spent most of that time doing other things.
There was no such thing from the beginning.
And yet… … I didn’t know that I would express my feelings for this school.
It was a break time where emotional changes occurred endlessly.
Embarrassment when Yuhan sees her brother not there, embarrassment when Sijun is caught by his father, joy when oppa grabs my arm and drags me outside.
When my brother met Shi-Jun’s father, I wondered if this was okay because of the sharp tone somewhere, but it’s not a relationship that’s going to go wrong with Shi-Jun’s family.
Even if it goes wrong… … Yuhan’s older brother is important, my other relationships aren’t particularly important.
Besides, Shi-jun, who was burdened, ended the conversation with his father and went around school with the brother I had been looking for so much. For me, it’s actually just a happy situation.
According to Yuhan’s older brother, he dragged me out because I looked in trouble… … how do you know me so well He’s someone you can’t help but love.
Anyway, that happiness didn’t last long.
The countless eyes flying at the two of us made that happiness fly away.
I know that there are many children who know me. Because I went badly for almost a semester. It looks pretty because I took care of it well.
I also know that my brother might be interested. Because he is a man with a peculiar atmosphere. Because he’s a handsome guy that’s hard to see on TV.
Admittedly, it’s an eye-catching combination.
But isn’t this enough of a voyeurism? Why are they staring at me just walking around school?
Did you collect only the dissatisfied kids at school? In most of those gazes, there is a level of infatuation that I can understand.
The expression that affection is falling is too appropriate for the situation.
“Brother… are you okay? The kids seem to be staring at you too much.”
“Huh? Ah. I usually get all kinds of stares, so what? I’m used to it. Are you okay? Shall we go back to class?”
“I’m fine…”
According to her brother, for some reason, she draws more attention than other people.
What kind of life would I have to live to adapt to this gaze?
I just had one more concern.
And a few that stood out from earlier. When I was in the midst of deviation, a bunch of Iljins who clung to me without even trying.
They are the main culprits that make an already annoying situation even more annoying.
I didn’t have a very good relationship with them. I had no intention of forming a good relationship in the first place.
I think I was pretty popular when I was in middle school. It was just useless interest unless Yuhan wasn’t her brother anyway.
Anyway, maybe because of that, the Iljin group kept wanting to put me in their gap, and I didn’t bother to shake off those persistent b*tches, so I sometimes went with them.
hmm. We didn’t get along from the start. Should it be a difference in attitude?
When they tried to harass other students, I stopped them, and it was the same when they tried to take money.
It seems that they wanted to set me up as the face madam of the group, but I didn’t even show my face much.
Even though we sometimes went together, we only felt uncomfortable with each other, and eventually the relationship ended when I ended the deviation and entered the path of studying.
No, there is a slight problem with the end. If I happened to run into a group of them, they would slap me on the shoulder or show blatant emotions.
In conclusion… … those b*tches Looking this way from that corner. That strange look towards my brother.
I am so annoyed.
He tolerates touching me and doesn’t even think about it.
I don’t have the confidence to endure touching my brother.
Their gazes met in the air.
A gaze that somehow makes me uneasy.
stress built up.
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I always think about it, but I wonder if this body is basically equipped with a function to turn off aggro.
Strange s*x drips that are hard to see on other broadcasts come in frequently on my broadcast, and today I got a lot of attention again… … It’s clear that there must be something.
I don’t know if it’s a good symptom to get used to it little by little, but I somehow got used to it.
We narrowly returned to the classroom before the fourth period began.
The teacher who said Se-hee was the homeroom teacher looked at me and made a shocked expression.
I wondered why she was like this again, but maybe she was surprised to see me because she would know Se-hee’s situation when she was in class.
Teaching power… … Same level as the previous class… … . I can’t understand why they are doing this.
I can’t understand why, after being surprised once before, he keeps flinching every time he sees me.
Anyway, except for the poor lectures, the 4th period went quite pleasantly.
Shi-jun looked at me with irritated eyes, or Shi-jun’s father went out in the middle of class and blatantly kicked his tongue.
Well, I gave it to you once before, so that’s okay. Isn’t it better than doing nothing and kicking a blanket in the middle of the night?
It was a day I really liked.
hmm. No, it was a day I liked, except for Se-hee’s anxiety about human relationships.
As for him… … I’ll have to talk about it separately later.