52 – Episode 52 – Go Crazy [Revised Version]
I know how strange it is.
Anonymously s*xually harassing a friend.
To get a strange degree of pleasure from that act.
And seeing a friend who reads the chat and makes a disgusted expression.
Even moving the hand in the pants.
I was a strangely uns*xed person.
Compared to other women, as well as compared to other men. It was by no means normal.
In fact, I think this strange s*xual desire had an effect on the fact that I didn’t have a big fight with my boyfriend, Jun-hyeok. Because Junhyeok was a person who didn’t like s*xual skinship very much.
But a few weeks ago everything changed.
The beginning was a simple deviation. I was swept away by the atmosphere while watching Yuhan’s broadcast and threw it into a chat. Chats containing s*xual content.
It wasn’t really a big deal, but the deviation combined with the instinct-stimulating atmosphere that Yuhan-yi exudes gave her insane pleasure.
After that, my libido began to increase rapidly.
It’s not that I don’t know anything about s*x, so if that was all I could have managed somehow.
No matter what I did, the lust wouldn’t go away. did not resolve
There was only one time when I completely solved it. After Yuhanie slept over at my house. The masturbation I did while thinking of Yuhan.
After that, I just had to endure it again.
Because I was ashamed of myself for doing such a thing while thinking of Yuhan.
Because if I did that even once, it would be difficult to treat Yuhani normally.
Of course, s*xual harassment through chatting was crazy if you looked at it objectively… … . I thought that between ‘friends’, I could say at least some kind of joke as a joke.
But now I’m clearly crossing the line.
I am crossing the final line I have set.
If you keep moving your hands like this, if you want to masturbate again with Yuhan. I didn’t have the confidence to go back to the past.
I didn’t have the confidence to get out of that addiction.
[ari… … Sto? No, Ari-nim, are you really crazy?]
-I’m not kidding lol
-Crazy dog legend
On the screen, a man wearing a black shirt, a man with a hairstyle he had never seen before. It exudes decadence.
My nickname with him… … No, he’s calling my name and making a face of contempt.
That superior man is reading every single one of my low-level chats.
It’s normal to feel shy, but there was no time for that.
Sub-account no one knows.
It seemed that one day Yuhan would find out that I was the owner of this account. I thought about that for a while.
And such a dizzying imagination began to return to an unbearable desire again.
It’s the last line, and I wonder if I’ve already been broken since the old days.
I do not know.
I had a vague feeling that something was going very wrong.
I decided to just surrender to the excitement and pleasure.
I didn’t want to wear my hair anymore.
I moved my hand again.
My hand didn’t stop until morning.
###
Has it already been a week? I don’t remember.
PTSD comes just thinking about it… … The day I found out my search list. hmm… … I don’t want to remember
Even then, I didn’t have the heart to start New Tube seriously.
I hadn’t properly completed my market research yet, and managing the increased number of viewers was an urgent priority.
Of course, it hasn’t been that long, but my thoughts have changed a bit.
At that time, the number of viewers who stayed in the 800s has now begun to exceed 1,000.
I even filmed 1,200 people a few days ago.
tremendous growth.
I’m not the kind of male cam that blindly exposes myself, but there are still quite a few people who come in after seeing my face, but the identification of my virginity unintentionally committed to such people… … It seems to have worked better than expected.
Actually it’s not.
Viewers who watch male cams a lot will have a hard time erasing the idea that a handsome male cam streamer will have a pretty girlfriend.
Even if it doesn’t exist, there’s no way to prove it.
But a streamer that no one expected.
I’ve done a solid authentication.
By breaking the waist, in a way that no one else can follow.
It’s ironic that my tragedy became the secret to my popularity, but… … .
As a result, things seem to be going well, so I can’t say anything… … .
Anyway, the influx of viewers is actively taking place. Besides, isn’t your broadcasting management ability increasing day by day?
Even if it seems irrational to change one’s mind so quickly, I think it’s time to start New Tube.
hmm. New Tube. uh… … What should I do?
Unlike usual, it’s just frustrating to start working without a plan.
hmm.
So when it’s like this.
[Seolari]
(Connecting call)
Ariemon, help me!
###
9 o’clock in the morning.
It must be quite early for Ari, who broadcasts in the evening.
Because I, who woke up early today, didn’t have the ability to judge such things… … .
This ringing tone somehow stings my conscience.
hmm… … But, well, that’s what friends can do!
After waiting for a while with such an uncomfortable heart, Ari’s voice began to flow from the speaker.
“Huh… Yu, Yuhan?”
Eh.
What is this?
A tired voice?
I don’t know, but Ari’s voice, slightly rested and cracked, doesn’t sound very good.
A feeling that puts tension on my dull conscience.
sh*t. Should I have waited a little longer before calling?
“Uh… Ari? Are you okay?”
“Ha ha… I’m fine…. What’s wrong…?”
“No, I was going to ask for some advice about that New Tube… Are you really okay? Do you think you’re sick?”
“Huh! Gee, it’s really okay!”
It doesn’t look good at all.
I couldn’t lie, but I didn’t think it would be this much.
I guess calling early wasn’t a bad thing.
A constant moaning sound.
step by step… … No, it’s squeaking. A faint sound of water. It looks like he’s wearing a wet towel.
My brilliant electronic brain paints every situation.
Ari suddenly caught a cold at the turn of the season.
Until yesterday, I tried to broadcast hard while enduring the pain, but my condition rapidly deteriorated.
Even if I put a wet towel on my head, I stay up all night because of the constant pain.
In the morning, Ari answers my call and lies again, saying that she is fine because she does not want to be a nuisance.
hmm. Seolari, such tricks don’t work.
Isn’t it too much to ignore my eyes accumulated in the Noda board!
“Seolari, how do you always lie to me?”
“Huh?! Ah, no, I’m not lying…”
“How much does it hurt to keep moaning… Is there anyone by your side? A boyfriend?”
“It’s not because I’m sick… I’m sorry! My boyfriend isn’t here…”
If you look at Ari’s personality, he probably hid his pain even from his lover… … Still, maybe you should know about your girlfriend’s condition.
It’s funny that Mosol says this, but… … !
I don’t even know how interested she is when she meets a girl the size of Ari and fights over trivial things.
It’s just someone else’s love affair, but it can’t be helped that prejudice arises.
“Just wait. I’ll help you.”
I myself have been sick by myself, so I know the sorrow well.
“Huh? What… help?”
“Wait a minute. I’ll go right there.”
“@#%!!”
I guess I was trying to say something… … If it’s important, I’ll call you back.
But it was clear that he was trying to say that he was fine anyway.
I hurriedly packed only what I needed and ran out of the house.
I am my girlfriend… … No, I just can’t let my friend get sick.
###
At first, I wondered why the phone call came in the middle of the night.
I vaguely sensed that the room had brightened a little, but I didn’t expect it to be morning already.
If you look around, a room with a great visual catches your eye.
Beds and blankets that were completely wet, pajama pants that were thrown at random.
Two sets of clothes in my hands. The one Yuhani wore on the day she went to sleep at my house… … .
It’s crazy. really.
Should I see a psychiatrist?
It’s crazy to spend the night imagining a ‘friend’, but to even talk to a ‘friend’ on the phone… … .
Far from being ashamed to do such a thing on the phone, he played with his hands more excitedly.
Even if this is indirect s*xual harassment, there is nothing to say.
Also, when did you bring these clothes?
I could feel my self-control weakening, but I didn’t expect it to happen like this.
If Yuhan hadn’t said that he would come to my house, he would have done that for a while after the call.
A level of self-doubt that I have never experienced before comes to me.
I lay on the damp bed, covering my eyes with both hands, for a while.
When I think of my filthy appearance, my mind becomes more confused for no reason.
no… … You have to calm down.
You said Yuhan was coming.
Scattered hair, a wet lower body, and a body that gave off a strange smell.
It’s crazy to greet Yuhan in this state.
My house is in an unnecessarily good location, so you can get there pretty quickly by public transportation.
There is no time to tidy up the room.
I rushed into the bathroom and washed it off as quickly as I could, but I was in a terrible state and it took me too long.
– thump thump
“Seolari! Open the door!”
Not even drying my hair properly.
I met Yuhan.