#12
“Am I a special person to you too?”
I felt like a meteor shower was falling.
It’s good to ask such a question at this time.
Stella hugged her knees and leaned her head on her wrist, looking back at me, and I stood silently next to Stella, who suddenly said something meaningful.
… No, if you think about it in detail, it doesn’t seem like it contains a very important meaning, but this strange atmosphere itself was creating a strange situation.
Even if there is a canteen, I feel like I want to drink it. Although she has been trained as a mu until now, Stella is also quite pretty, so if you keep making eye contact, you will soon feel a burden.
you are a special person
“That’s it… Of course.”
I wiped my lips with the back of my hand, hoping that even the hardened bird saliva might have flowed out, then, for a moment, turned my eyes to the scenery beyond the garden and continued the conversation.
“If my childhood friend who I thought was a man until now turned out to be a woman and became a high-status princess and met again as a classmate in the same class, it would certainly not be an ordinary meeting. Probably no one has shocked me as much as you. In a good way or in a bad sense… … ”
“What is that-.”
It seems that my answer is not satisfactory.
Stella made a sullen expression.
“I didn’t expect such a rational and logical thing to say, did I?”
and poked my shoulder with a finger.
“No, it is true that you are a friend who has a special meaning to me. What did you expect… … ”
“huh. Not funny.”
Stella, who exaggeratedly inflated her cheeks, shook her head, so I was embarrassed for a moment about what kind of reaction this was.
“… It’s a joke. It was nice to have your answer.”
He opens his mouth like that along with the sound of laughter that is laggy. What was so fun was with a bright smile on his lips.
… what the hell do you want from me this person.
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Did you just come up with this?
“Still, I was ashamed.”
Stella pointed at me with an ah-had face.
“… … I didn’t.”
“You did. My face turned red.”
“Because I don’t.”
“How do you know if there is no mirror or not?”
“It’s my body, so I know it well.”
When I take off my cardigan, the night air feels colder. If your face is really red, it must be because it’s cold.
As I was rubbing my face with my hand, I heard a chuckle of laughter from right next to me.
“right. it was the same But it just turned a little red. Is it because you are conscious of my words?”
“… … ”
i don’t speak
I’m not too tired to deal with Stella, who has a taste for making fun of me.
Where did the shy princess who bowed her head even if she met me just by making eye contact with me?
I can see that when I’m with other people… … If it’s just the two of us like now, Alfren’s aggressive and mischievous side and Stella’s appearance and elegance are mixed together, making it difficult for me to fully accept pranks from my point of view.
After revealing his identity, he seems to have disappeared, or he is approaching me with the guard completely removed.
“… Still, that was the intent of my question.”
Stella, who stretched her arms out in front of her with her arms crossed as if on a stretch, raised her head slightly toward the starry sky and said.
“The important thing is how special I am to you, man.”
“… … ”
After a while I asked.
“… … Why are you asking that?”
Stella says while stroking her delicate fingers.
“Isn’t everyone there? To the extent of wanting to give even the slightest priority to a friend you consider close. Imagine someone made an appointment with me first, and then broke the appointment because something urgent happened to that person’s best friend. I understand, but I’m a little sad. Because I was pushed back by that friend.”
Well, Rubia was the only friend I could use that analogy with… … Well, this is not the case.
I barely understood what you meant.
When Stella said it, the feeling was slightly different.
“… Did you have any kind of monopoly?”
“Excuse me. All humans are animals of desire. There is no one in the world without desire. Besides, by my standards, you are the only special friend. It’s better if you take priority over other friends. In a way, as you said, it may be the desire for monopoly. Is it bad?”
As I said those words without hesitation with the face of a noble princess, I felt a strange feeling because this was different from her usual appearance.
“… Not bad.”
If there is no interest at all, there will be no desire.
“If it goes too far, it can become a problem.”
Because the obsession created by the dark and wet desire for monopoly can become a terrible disease that sometimes corrodes people’s hearts.
“… Ummm, that’s it too.”
After muttering for a moment, Stella opened her mouth.
“So, I haven’t heard from you yet.”
“… What?”
“How special am I to you?”
“… … Is that what you want to hear?”
“yes. I want to hear it.”
What the hell happened while evolving into a princess? You weren’t such a sleazy person in the first place. I wonder if you were holding back your peripheral desires while acting in a respectful way while you were in the duke’s family? …
Stella whispers softly.
“Still, we were fine.”
“… … Can you please stop saying things that could be misunderstood by anyone?”
Although there is no one around.
When I looked back at Stella, who had swept my arms as I looked around, where nothing but grasshoppers existed.
“Ummm… It seems difficult to answer, so I will give you an easy question that you can choose with simple options.”
“… What if you don’t want to solve it?”
“… … ”
“… Ah Okay. What?”
Stella, who has a serious affair, is surprisingly frightening… … Confirm.
“Ugh… … ”
Stella, who seemed to be contemplating on how to say something, raised three fingers and opened her mouth slowly.
“Me, Mew and Rubia. If the three of you fall into the water, who will you save first?”
“… … What?”
I asked blankly.
I don’t know why I’m talking about the two. It’s still an unknown question.
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Did I bring the friend I think is the closest to me at this point as an option?
Rubia has talked about it before, though. In the eyes of others, Mew and I would not have been very close… …
“… but there is stellar.”
“yes?”
“At first, there was no such thing as you and Rubia, and if there were, they would be able to get out of it quickly with magic. As for Mu, it’s a little difficult to imagine that he is in danger of drowning because he’s a friend with absurd physical abilities… … ”
“… … ”
“… Ah Okay. I knew.”
He looked like he was really waking up, so he hastily corrected it.
How should I answer this?
Stella, Mew, Rubia… …
Stella, who had been asking me a difficult question, was next to her, her eyes twinkling.
I think I heard this question from Mu someday. Who was the subject of comparison? Maybe it was Rubia.
At that time, I was dating Mew, so I guess I was trying to answer that I would get Mew, not Rubia, first because I wanted to organize this. I can’t really remember what I answered. I feel like I gave a very obvious answer… …
The thought didn’t last long.
“I will save them all, at the same time. somehow.”
Answer clearly to avoid follow-up questions.
Suddenly, I looked to the side, and Stella was making a face that said you were amazing. As if he had expected to some extent, he only opened his mouth slightly.
“… What if you can only choose one?”
“It should not happen.”
“So you are making assumptions. If so?”
Stella was very persistent.
After a moment’s sigh, I looked straight into Stella’s eyes and said, as if repaying for my prank.
“I will save you first. Because you are the most important.”
“… … !”
The moment you answered that.
Stella’s eyebrows went up. The eyes also grew bigger. Because my eyes are so big, my face can be seen clearly.
“Uh, uh, really… … ?”
Maybe this was part of a joke anyway, Stella stuttered as if she never thought I’d say it so directly.
I chuckled.
“Your ears are red.”
“Ah, this is… … ”
Stella pulled the cuff of my cardigan over her shoulder with her hand. Then he covered his burning ears with his hands. Her back was curled up like a shrimp, and a cardigan was draped over it.
But I didn’t lie. it’s really red
It took me a while to get puffy at the thought of being fed one shot, but as I watched Stella’s reaction, who seemed to be really shy, my mood also became mysterious.
… What.
This strange atmosphere.
It’s good that the shy Stella is back, uh… …
Anyway, I got out of my mouth what I was meant to say with a brief cough.
“… And if Rubia asks me the same question, I’ll answer that I’ll save Rubia first, and if Mew asks me the same question, I’ll answer that I’ll save Mew first. Perhaps I will give them the same answer I just gave you.”
Stella, who had been silently listening to me, popped her head out of her cardigan.
“… … What, then, is there no meaning to my question?”
“right.”
“… … ”
I’m trying to prioritize who gets to save first, but if I say that on my side, it’s useless.
“Mur, Rubia, and you. All three are precious friends to me. A sensitive conversation like this might be a bit off-putting when someone else hears it. So, I hope you don’t ask me this question next time. I am in trouble too.”
“… … ”
“… … I don’t really like gossip, and I don’t want to discriminate between my close friends. I don’t know if they’re friends after seeing each other a few times, but once you get to know them more than a certain amount, everyone becomes precious. No matter what the conclusion is, someone must be harmed.”
It was a behavior that was a million light-years away from the social arts and craftsmanship I had learned as a child, but I was no longer a nobleman anyway, and it was not strange that I actually had that mindset.
In the end, if I wanted to get Stella’s liking here, or if I gave a very standard answer because I wanted to develop a good relationship with her, I would have been able to get along with Stella more closely than I am now, but that wasn’t really what I wanted.
What… …
Because I had no intention of dating anyone anyway.
“I see… … Sorry.”
After a moment of silence, Stella softens her eyes and continues her speech.
“Were you kidding me a little?”
“uh. Uh oh mama.”
If I had done the same things and said the same things I did to a boy I didn’t know, it would have been a big mess. Mainly on the male side.
It’s not that I didn’t like Stella’s sense of closeness, of course there’s no way I’d hate it. Because there is a line. I thought about it before, but I don’t even want to date anyone. It’s not that Stella doesn’t have a heart for nothing, it’s not that I’m only conscious of it, it’s that I don’t like the fact that it’s a little bit like that.
Because I had good friends.
I want to decline to go deeper.
——If that happens, you will definitely be unhappy.
I feel tired now.
‘… … Was I really this kind of person?’
The moment I thought about it, I got a strange feeling.
Although I was originally a rather pessimistic person.
I don’t think it was that much.
I knew that these parts had been alleviated to some extent while dating Mew, and it must have been in reality.
It feels as if instinct is speaking.
It seems to be a warning.
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Don’t be more friendly than this. Even if you become close, don’t get entangled in a rational crush. I wonder if it can’t exist between male and female friends, but please don’t do that. If it did, it would be catastrophic. It seems I’m desperately sending a signal.
Before I could read my momentarily serious expression, I turned to Stella and said:
“Anyway, you know now, but don’t forget that I am a mature lady. You did it as if you were doing it to me, but you misunderstood for nothing, then what to do? I’m glad I know the hidden identity of Alfren… … ”
“Yes… … But it doesn’t happen to anyone else… … ”
“Don’t do it to me either.”
“Huh… … ”
There is no use in lying crying. It’s pretty
after a while.
Stella opens her mouth as if muttering.
“Until now, there were only men who could not understand their insides or their purpose… … You are the only person I can be comfortable with right now… … Maybe that’s why, for a little while, I was expecting something like a conversation with a friend of the opposite s*x or a joke for nothing, and I think there was something like that. In the meantime, I have changed my identity and face, and there have been many things… … ”
Immediately after, Stella sees me.
“When I was young, I didn’t really know anything about men or women… … ”
“… … ”
By the way, memories like that come to mind.
Before the conversation became something more strange, I said something first.
“… let’s see the stars Are you here to see the stars?”
In the end, it was best to stare blankly at the night sky when thinking was complicated.
Stella nodded to see if she agreed with me.
The starry sky we looked up at together was bright and dark.
It’s night… …
Today is March 30th.
Tomorrow is the last night of March.
… … I was staring blankly at the sky covered in black ink to empty my thoughts, but my nerves were slowly shifting to Elena’s note, which was supposed to be in the dorm room.