#9
After finishing all of today’s training and exercising, it was well past 11pm when I returned to the dormitory.
“I’m going to die… … ”
the whole body is numb
I’m afraid of waking up tomorrow morning.
After I melted my body with warm water and sat down on the bed, the accumulated fatigue rushed in at once, making my son-in-law dizzy.
But the feeling is not bad. If you fall asleep like this, would you say that you will have a good night’s sleep? I have to wake up again in the morning anyway, but it seemed like I could sleep without even knowing the world until then.
okay.
Like a dream, without dreaming… …
“… … ”
From my forearms to my toes, I was screaming for a rest, but my mind didn’t even think about being eaten by the horses.
When I close my eyes, I remember.
Memories that don’t seem to belong to me.
In a space where all sounds except for my breathing were completely blocked, when I looked at myself like this, at some point, I was standing on the edge of a cliff.
Cliff. And a bottomless hell.
Arms barely stretched out.
But.
Again, it falls.
“Well.”
opened my eyes
Even if you overwork your body this much, you can’t fall asleep easily. I had a tendency to be a bit overkill to meet tomorrow without thinking about anything, but it seems that my intentions didn’t work out. In short, it is a failure.
“Whoa.”
He straightened his frizzy hair and sat leaning against the back of the bed. It was dark but bright outside the window, with only the moonlight falling over the window sill.
My whole body is as heavy as cotton soaked in water, but there is no way to get rid of this crazy tiredness. Right now.
get annoyed
Every night from now on… …
It looks like it will be quite a chore.
“… … driving me crazy.”
It’s not just because of the vague memory like a fantasy. It seems like we can somehow dismiss this as an ominous dream and pass it on. I don’t know when that will be possible. It’s a matter of tolerance.
“Ok.”
I felt a little pain in the shoulder area, so when I was massaging it with my right hand, I saw my left hand laid down on the blanket.
Smooth hands without any ornaments.
Among them, he stared intently at his ring finger.
… … Originally, there must have been something stuck there. is not it. It must have been that the size didn’t fit as the body grew rapidly anyway.
I don’t know because I haven’t worn it.
never.
“ha.”
Again, we never met.
Even when she was teaching a princess who was not good at swordsmanship by training late into the night with Stella at the gymnasium, she did not show up in the end.
Today, my scope of activities was not very wide, so it may not have been discovered before.
Today was the first time I couldn’t even step on the shadows.
… … what are you doing now
At that point, there was a roar of laughter.
“Now what?”
It’s funny that I even think like this.
I was the one who refused to come any further, though I would forgive her, and I was the one who calmly refused to let me go.
Of course, it was never meant to be a friendship, but… … It was a law that could have been accepted differently to her.
He was a person who approached me with a single heart from start to finish. You may have felt betrayed by me.
He was definitely a strong person both on the outside and on the inside, but he was also a person who sometimes showed weakness to me.
Such a person, I coldly threw away.
The closer you come to me… …
Because only Mu will be more difficult.
If you’re a friend, I can be anything.
of course.
… … That would be the most difficult thing though.
“It’s difficult.”
It’s really hard.
It is so difficult that it cannot be compared with the level of difficulty of the mock practice that will be held soon. This kind of twisted and twisted relationship is more difficult than that test.
Why did you come to the same academy? Although I volunteered. It seems like I keep getting involved in strange things. Shall I just hit them all? f*ck off.
“Aaah… … ”
He bows his head while covering his forehead.
Miss you. countryside.
I want to see my parents too.
In the meantime, we exchanged letters from time to time… … The last time I saw it was when I visited my hometown only once after becoming like this.
My parents, who were making a lot of noise about what happened, had nothing to say except that they had grown up quickly over the past three years.
You never know what happened to me anyway.
Except for those who were at the scene at the time, the full story or specific details of the incident were dismissed as top secret and were not known at all to the outside world.
Anyway, when I went to see my parents like that.
There was one thing I heard from my mother.
—By the way, how are you and your son Rubia these days? I’ve never seen them come down together. Last time, Rubia came home alone.
He praised that he was much prettier than before, but he said that he seemed to have lost a little more weight and told him to eat a little thicker.
It is said that he stayed there for about 3 days and went back. When they first arrived, they immediately came to see them and asked if I was at home, and they were very disappointed when they said that they had never seen a bald eagle in their home except for the last letter they received.
After seeing that, I thought that we are still good friends, but if that was the case, he also asked the question, “Why are you looking for you here instead of coming down with me?”
About him, I managed to get over it and barely passed it… … To be honest, when I heard about Rubia, my instinctive discomfort took precedence, so I didn’t pay much attention to it.
Rubia is also graduating soon, and as to where she plans to go, she went back without answering. Apparently, the frontier row was decided a little later. So you could have entered with me. Because I didn’t know.
Anyway.
—Uh, uh… … Ezio right? I don’t think so? who are you?
—I was too big to go through a growing season… … ?
—Ah, long time no see. Rubia’s father and mother.
After that, as always, Rubia’s family came to our house, reminiscing on old memories and having a pleasant meal.
It mainly talks about my external changes, about the academy life I had with Rubia, when I barely managed to get my tuition fees to follow Rubia, or about the childhood of Rubia and I, both. The contents of the embarrassing promises made under the parents’ approval, the dating circumstances of each, and questions such as when are you going to start dating, or whether you are already dating… …
I sweated a lot to respond appropriately to this and that.
… … If I had to count the number of face-to-face conversations I had with Rubia over the past three years, I could count on the fact that they had become so far apart that it was good to see what the atmosphere of the friendly dining table would be like after that.
It seems that Rubia didn’t even say that she was wrong with me, so my parents could have asked me with such a bright face.
It was because I didn’t want to worry about my parents. ‘Cause I was the same What’s wrong with parents who don’t know anything?
What… …
Other than that, there were many things to do.
I didn’t stay longer than Rubia, but rather a shorter stay, about two days, and went back with the words that I was very busy these days.
It’s definitely nice to have a comfortable hometown.
From time to time, the memories and nostalgia with Rubia stimulated me, so I couldn’t stand it any longer, so I felt uncomfortable again.
Looking at it this way, going home is not a very good option.
In the end, it turns around and returns to the origin.
“… … ”
I look back at the window eaten by the shadow of the night.
Beyond that, there are two dormitories.
Some rooms have curtains drawn, others still have lights on.
Most of the lights on the first floor were turned off.
No students came out of the terrace. Therefore, I just stare at the first floor of the dormitory in Building 2 without saying a word.
‘Are you still locked up in your room? … ‘
yesternight,
I talked to Rubia.
Just to put my mind at ease, I forgave her even though I have nothing to forgive, everything in the past was liquidated, the words we couldn’t say to each other, the misunderstandings and truths accumulated at the academy… … I slowly untied the knots that I might not be able to untie again if I didn’t deal with them now.
Then, naturally, the main point is bound to emerge.
Until I get that word out… …
It took a really long time.
—I liked you. Rubia.
Surely.
More clearly, I needed to organize it.
So that no one can misunderstand.
The feelings I had for Rubia. what happened after that. I became a lover with Mew. What happened that day, etc… When I think about it now, it was as if the memories that came to mind at that time were literally translated into words. It just seems like there were a lot of things I wanted to say to Rubia.
… … Perhaps, it could be the last sincere confession from my side to Rubia.
I remember my talk went on for quite a while.
More than two hours, let alone an hour.
So, after hearing all of my stories.
That night, Rubia made a confession to me.
really really… …
Enough to inadvertently bite the molars tightly.
It was the worst confession.
In the end, I was coldly angry.
Rubia’s tearful apology, saying that she could no longer be an ordinary friend with me, could not be tolerated.
More than anything.
… that it has arisen
emotions.
He doesn’t know exactly what this opaque feeling he doesn’t know, but it’s definitely not meant for an ordinary friend.
The kind of friendship you want… …
that you probably won’t be able to do it.
He bowed his head, wept and apologized.
“What are all these things?”
Things aren’t too bad.
I feel all the evil in the world towards me.
Why can’t I feel anything now? … Have I finally been able to have the things I wanted so much?
“… … Really, it’s too much. you.”
My head turned to the ceiling.
maybe beyond that.
Someone above the distant clouds, I remembered.
It was also really brief.
The hair is still tangled and complicated like a twisted thread. His body was obviously tired, but it wasn’t to the point where he had reached the limit and collapsed. Then it just pushes you to the limit. Only then could I sleep comfortably tonight.
I put on the wine-colored cardigan that Laylin senior gave me in the closet, put on my shoes, and trudged out of the dormitory.
“Whew… … ”
I looked up at the sky obscured by clouds from the vacant lot.
It was a moonlit night.
#10
“How do you see the level of these freshmen?”
“I do not know… … Compared to last year’s jockey, it certainly seems to be at the same level above 5th, but below that… … It doesn’t seem to be that special. They are still extraordinary children.”
“Is that so?”
“Well, we’ll have to wait a little longer to find out.”
“Well, yes. There was not enough time to decide whether or not I could fully develop my talents.”
“Yes. We are just looking forward to the results of our practice.”
“Are there any other students that stand out? Students who are likely to record excellent grades in this practice… … ”
“Well… … Judging from the reviews and reports, there were no notable prospects at all.”
“Oh, is it? Who is it?”
“The beginning and the end.”
“Yes?”
“The first number and the last number… … It looks a little special to me.”
“If it’s number 1 and number 15… … Are you talking about students Mew and Ezio Cranil?”
“Oh yeah. That was the name.”
“In case 1, it certainly doesn’t seem to lag behind at all compared to the senior last year… … Why number 15? Obviously, he was in great physical condition, but when he looked at the results at the time of the entrance exam, his talent wasn’t that great. Gutae-ya, the only thing special about it is that unknown ability… … ”
“It is.”
“Yes?”
“It’s that one uniqueness that makes Student 15 a very interesting person. Except for all the rest of the colorlessness.”
“… … Hmm, I don’t know.”
“Haha, that’s just my personal opinion.”
“Is that so. However, as it is the words of Nebiros and not anyone else, it seems that I will be paying attention to that student for nothing. haha.”
“What am I saying? I am just a wizard.”
“Whatever it is, you are a great Archmage who gladly created a place to be used in this practice. I was really surprised. How can you create such a large space in such a short time? … ”
“Anyone can do it with a little time.”
“It’s a joke… … ”
“haha… … Rather, there is one thing I would like to ask you personally.”
“Oh, yes. However much.”
“Who decided to be the general manager?”
“Ah, that’s what I decided to do. Of course, thanks to Nebiros-sama who prepared all the safety devices in case of an emergency, it took less effort. Most of them are real beasts, but if the lives of the students are in danger, they are forcibly sent out. If that happens, you will be rejected and the scores will be added up based on the time of rejection… … I don’t think there’s anything to worry about.”
“Yes. Of course, since they are outstanding students, they will never die from a low-level beast, but it is better to make sure that the defense is as secure as possible.”
“Yes, you are right.”
“By the way, you are the general manager… … ”
“It’s my first time taking on the role of a training director, but it’s like the director has nothing to do anyway. We will also watch the situation from the outside. I don’t have a lot of work to do, so you don’t have to hate it.”
“No, not really.”
“Yes? then… … ?”
“Are you the only director?”
“Yes, for now… … ”
“Even just your name, you have the authority as a practical director.”
“Yeah, that’s right.”
“Hmm, good. It’s good.”
“Yes? what… … ”
────Pooh.
“Keep, Kuk, Kek… … ”
“Ah, don’t splatter blood everywhere. It’s a bit cumbersome to clean. Relax your body, yes. right… … Very well done.”
“Ouch, wiggle… ..”
“Silence.”
“… … ”
“Well then… … ”
Whoops.
“Get up.”
“… … ugh.”
“Hmm, how can I fill the hole well? Wipe only what is on your chest for a moment… … I also tidy up my hair a bit. OK, now it’s clean. It’s exactly the same. So, now you just have to do what I tell you. You know? Get ready, Lady. cue.”
“Yes, Nebiros-sama.”
“Now go. You have to do your job.”
“All right. Have a good night.”
“He knows how to say hello, and he’s a really nice corpse.”
“thank you. Nebiros-sama.”
“Yes, yes. Now really go. It makes me feel very dirty when there are bodies in the same room.”
“Yes, I understand.”
───A little profit… …
“Well then… … ”
Nebiros waved the wine glass stained with blood.
sniffling.
The taste was very good.
Raising the corners of his mouth up to his ears, Nebiros smiled.
“It doesn’t seem to get that much attention, so wouldn’t it be ok for at least one person? Whoops… … ”
It was a moonlit night.