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Do we both have any secrets we are hiding from ourselves?
Rubia asked.
“Sue, are you hiding?”
“That’s right. They’re both talking about things I don’t know. I don’t think we’ve seen each other very often before, but somehow, Ezio, you seem to be closer to Stella than me… … .”
In that sense, Rubia’s sense was quite sharp.
But I wonder if I should say that this feels good. It seems rather strange not to notice… … .
“And this time in practice… … .”
We stopped moving in embarrassment for a moment, but Rubia, who muttered a little, blurted out the end of her words.
“In practice, too?”
“──Ah, no. It’s good that you guys are friends with me and me! yes! Of course, being close with friends is not a bad thing! That’s great!”
Rubia, who had lowered her gaze for a moment, was startled, shaking hands as if it wasn’t because of jealousy between you and denied it.
The hand quickly twisted the hair next to him.
“Just, a little… … . As a friend, I wonder how you guys got to know each other… … . I wonder if it’s a very secret story that I can’t tell you… … .”
Rubia’s face looked a little lonely.
… … lonely, la.
Since I was in middle school, I was deeply aware of what kind of alienation I feel when I am in front of me and talk about things that only they know. Rubia hates loneliness even more, so it must be worse than me.
Especially when you think that the two people you thought were close friends seem much closer than you are… … I don’t really like complicated worries like this, but it wasn’t that I couldn’t understand Rubia’s mind anyway.
“No, if it’s hard to say, you don’t have to do it! There must be a reason you keep it a secret. yes. Sometimes I think it’s beyond my topic… … . W, did you feel bad too? ahaha, what did I say? I feel like I’m sooble … .”
Rubia muttered with a face full of self-loathing, as if it were a sin in itself to intervene among us.
no, what It could be between friends. It would not have been a problem for Rubia to be self-deprecating to this extent… … .
If your friends, who seemed skeptical at first, show a tee that has become more familiar after a certain moment, of course, you might be wondering.
Not only that, but they just laughed and said, ‘Oh, that’s it. How did we become friends?’ You might have been able to unravel the story behind the scenes without much fuss.
… … If only we had a normal relationship.
How do I say this all of a sudden here?
Actually, I and Stella said that Rubia had already met long before I met you… … .
I wondered how Rubia would react if the truth was revealed, but it didn’t seem like it was going to be a good trend.
therefore.
─What should I do?
I looked at Stella who had stabbed me in the side. Stella didn’t seem to be able to find anything else to say.
-I don’t know either.
—Speak up, tell me.
─I don’t know?
─If you leave it like that, you’ll probably be bored for a while.
Stella’s eyebrows twitched.
It’s a face full of dissatisfaction.
-It’s because you said something weird. Idiot.
-Did I say I’m an idiot now? Why do you seem to be swearing when you talk with your eyes?
-It’s your fault, so you take responsibility.
—No, you also said something useless at the end.
-You started first.
-That’s right.
Stella and I finished exchanging glances in an instant.
We had a very detailed conversation on the topic of eye exchange. Does this make sense? Needless to say, I know, was it just like this… … .
“Oh, well. To put it simply.”
Eventually I went out.
“Yes? No, I’m fine… … .”
“Tell me about your facial expressions. If you don’t tell me, I’m going to sleep through the night, but what? and don’t be selfish It’s not soggy at all.”
“crying.”
I press Rubia’s forehead with my index finger, so I close my eyes and protect my forehead with my hand. It was of no use because it was a late defense.
“Let’s talk while walking. Disturb people.”
bum bum, bum bum.
The sound of three pairs of footsteps overlapped.
I chose only the truth without a single lie and put it in my mouth so that there would never be any remorse even if the truth was to be revealed later.
“At first, I talked to him when he taught me to study. When I missed the progress of the magic major class. Rubia, do you remember that time too?”
“Ah, yes… … .”
Rubia nodded as if she remembered, but somehow her complexion didn’t look that good.
“Then I started talking little by little… … Well, if it were a decisive moment, that would be it.”
“That’s it… … ?”
Rubia tilted her head skeptically. However, I could see the neck bulging a little. Are you nervous about nothing?
“Stella likes to look at the stars. Sometimes I go out at night and go up the hill behind the dormitory to look at the night sky. … don’t you know this Stella likes stargazing.”
“Oh, you know. ever told me… … Because there was.”
Glad you knew
If I didn’t know, I might have been even more pissed off… … .
“I loved looking at the stars. Oh, even now.”
“Yeah, ah, you know. of course.”
As a child, Rubia used to lead me all the way to the top of the garden. Just like Alphren back then. I still like stargazing, but I don’t know if Rubia will do the same.
I shrugged and finished the short story.
“So we meet together sometimes when we have a break, we watch the stars and we keep talking, so we just naturally became friends.”
“Ahh… … .”
It must be a story that Rubia did not know at all. Because it was when the two of us met. However, Rubia kept her mouth shut, lowered her head slightly, and muttered after a while.
“… … Tell me, Goa.”
“yes?”
“Oh, no. I see… ! It’s a very pretty story. We got to know each other while looking at the stars in the night sky we liked… … . Yes, besides, you are both very kind and good friends, so it is natural for them to get along well. … … Ahaha, I heard something strange, but thank you for listening, guys. I’m glad that good people like you are my friends, really.”
He smiled like that with a brighter face, and it gave us a lot of peace of mind.
One day, I’ll have to tell Rubia more details. I don’t even know when that will be.
Maybe, as Stella unravels the story of the past that he couldn’t tell us, it will naturally become entangled… … .
“Anyway, let’s talk about this. Like Stella said earlier, you’ll have to fill your stomach. What are you guys going to do?”
It was already past 9 pm. Dinner must have already ended, so even if we went back to the dormitory, we had to make our own.
“Um, I don’t care.”
“You know that is the most difficult word, right?”
“Sa, how do you do things that don’t matter… … .”
“Yes, yes. done. Rubia, are you?”
“Nana? I… … .”
“Do you mind?”
“Uh, no. That’s natural. Well… … .”
In the end, it’s up to me to decide.
“I think it would be fine to eat here and go back. Come to think of it, I’ve never played anything outside with you guys. uh, what do you think… ?”
Rubia glanced at us and said so.
“I’m fine. I’ve been through so much hard work, but sometimes there shouldn’t be any compensation. Shall we eat outside and refresh ourselves, then go back?”
“I like it too. Something makes my heart race, being out late at night with my friends. Now, as a student, it seems like you are enjoying your leisure time properly.”
Stella nodded her head positively, and Rubia showed a slightly brighter look with a small smile.
“Then where are we going? Oh, do I have to decide what to eat first? What did you guys want to eat?”
“I don’t care.”
“I thought you would say that.”
“Ahaha… … .”
The sky is dark, but the surroundings are bright. Light sources were shining everywhere. There are quite a few people passing by on the street. However, since it was District 1, where the residential areas of frontier teachers and staff were quite dense, most of them were adults, not students.
“There are times when we have to ride the tram back home, so let’s think about it while going to District 2 instead of here. Most of all, this isn’t a restaurant, it’s a bar that adults go to. We cannot go there.”
“Sue, it’s a bar… … ?”
Stella opens her eyes and asks.
“uh. There are many entertainment establishments besides pubs. Of course, it’s not a big deal legally, but I’d say it’s too early for us. First of all, we’re not going to drink, we’re going to eat. I have a class tomorrow right now. … … Or what, are you interested in that? Do you want to drink with us?”
“Yes Yes? Me, I haven’t said anything yet?”
“It’s just that kind of look. Do you want to drink- did you?”
“Well, it can’t be. What are you talking about? We’re not at that age yet, and there’s no such thing as alcohol that destroys people’s minds… … .”
He turns his face red and waving his hands.
A noble noble would not have tasted it at all. Rather, I wouldn’t have tried a lot of things that were much more precious and luxurious than ordinary people.
However, Stella is in denial. He says he doesn’t like alcohol that transforms an intelligent person into a dog.
But why are they giving out teas that look so interesting?
… … Are you, Alfred? Is your nature what you want?
“As long as you manage it properly, you’ll be fine. Drinking one cup doesn’t make people go crazy all at once.”
What.
It will be different depending on your body type.
“They say everything is good in moderation. The same goes for alcohol. When consumed in moderation, there is no other lubricant that makes people as smooth as alcohol. That’s why I bring out alcohol when there are festivals, celebrations, or happy days.”
“… … Why do you think you are flirting with me?”
“It’s just that. Why, do you really want to drink it?”
“Oh, isn’t it? What do you keep saying… … .”
He seems to have a lot of curiosity, but he doesn’t seem to have tried it properly. Is that so, is it like that? As a position to protect the dignity and face of an aristocratic young girl, I was refraining from as much as possible for fear of committing an irreversible image terrorism once spoken to… … .
“Well, Ezio-san is drinking… have you ever drank Why do you know him so well?”
If I pushed it any further, I thought I would stab my side harder than I just did, so while I was quietly pausing, Stella asked carefully.
“No, no… … .”
Of course, that’s what I was trying to answer.
-What is this?
─… … hee hee.
-Don’t laugh, explain it properly, dude.
Memories that suddenly replayed,
I closed my mouth.
-Actually, I’ve been curious about it for a long time. It is said that alcohol is the mirror of the mind, and I wondered what kind of drinking habit would a person who looked as blunt as a senior get drunk? Maybe you just become a pampered with aegyo, right?
-Don’t say anything creepy. i’m always the same … … And where the hell did you get this? Wouldn’t it be a big deal if it caught on adults?
―Ah, the senior is also true. It’s okay if you don’t get caught!
─… … you are real
As I said, on a day to celebrate, on a happy day, the guy who took out a cheap sake bottle that had been airlifted through an unknown route at first glance.
-I’m sorry, but this isn’t it. not really put it back–
─Let’s have a drink and then we’ll talk!
―No, wait―― Eup, ugh. Whew, turn it off, … … cackle.
─… … how about it? it’s delicious?
First of all, he did a human experiment with me and waited for my reaction as if he wouldn’t drink it if it didn’t taste good.
─Ugh. Whoa, whoa, what is this? crazy. My stomach hurts… neck… uh uh uh uh Hey, I think I’m going to vomit… … uh uh
─Ahhh! My face is already blushing! The effect is great!
The guy who made fun of me as I rushed to the bathroom with my mouth shut, rolling on the floor with a smirk——.
“… … Hey, do you see it?”
When I suddenly stopped speaking and made a thoughtful look on my face, Stella asked with a half-confident tone.
However.
“no.”
I shook my head side to side.
“no. never.”
after a moment of silence.
Stella speaks to me with sullen eyes.
“… … But why do you know so well? Look at this, it was Ezio-san who was really interested, not me.”
“That’s right, hmm. … … what?”
After a bit of a fight, he suddenly stopped in his seat.
Somehow, the left side is bent, and when I look to the side,
There was nobody there.
He shifted his gaze back.
From the other side, Rubia, who was quite far away from us, could be seen.
“Rubia, what are you doing there? come fast.”
“… … ”
I was walking, but it was too slow.
one step… … two steps… … .
I raised my voice a little and shouted.
“Rubia!”
“uh? Ah– Yeah! Mi, I’m sorry! Just thinking for a moment… … .”
Maybe it was just then that my call was heard, and Rubia was startled and hurriedly ran towards this side—dodododododo.
“What do you think so… … .”
“Ugh, it’s nothing. What have you decided to eat?”
“No, not yet.”
“Um, then… … Oh, there comes the tram. Let’s go for a ride! If you miss it, you have to catch the next one! I will be late!”
There was no need to be in a hurry, but Rubia and I quickly chased after Rubia, who was leading us and running to the station… … .
… … Just now.
Jerk,
jerk… … .
Rubia was walking slowly.
When they take one step, they take two to three steps, and they move forward without caring about themselves, who have suddenly moved away from the conversation.
The distance gradually widens.
From a close side view to a far back view.
like that,
to where it should have been.
‘… … You know, Ezio.’
Jerk,
jerk… … .
But, it doesn’t matter.
because this is normal
‘You didn’t lie, I know.’
With his gaze down on the street, he blankly puts his feet in the field of view as he crosses back and forth.
‘Because I’ve seen it all. Thanks for telling me the truth.’
Secretly following them up the garden.
The scenes that Rubia peeked from there… … .
‘… … That’s it.’
He said it was a habit to use the johndae. He said he would always keep his formality and face. If not, he said that it might not look good.
He said that he would show them to a place that no one else would see now.
But up until now, even when only the two of you were together, Stella did not use short language comfortably. He didn’t even have a playful, mischievous laugh.
The true face of a friend he did not know, he had known for a long time… … .
‘Is there still something I didn’t tell you on purpose?’
They were hiding from themselves.
something.
Something very important… … .
‘After all, I shouldn’t know more… … ?’
If they deliberately hid the truth.
There must be a reason why you didn’t tell me.
So, Rubia struggles to understand.
Because you can’t just tell your friend everything. Even if they were friends, after all, they were strangers. Because we weren’t able to share all the secrets yet.
… … okay.
with Stella.
With Ezio, it wasn’t.
We shared everything, we shared everything.
Now I try to hide it.
don’t tell
The distance so far away,
A distance that can no longer be narrowed… … .
Jerk,
jerk.
even if it’s so far away
After all, a childhood friend who doesn’t look back… … .
“Rubia!”
… … not hate
For the rest of my life, I can’t hate
“uh? Ah– Yeah! Mi, I’m sorry! Just thinking for a moment… … .”
Even if he notices his empty seat and calls out my name, Rubia itself feels like it’s going to explode. The inside of the chest is pounding, and the body naturally enters the force.
I’m glad he’s interested.
I’m glad you found yourself.
‘… … It’s really weird, me. It’s stupid.’
Even if he has come to value his relationship with Stella more than himself, he can’t hate him even if he feels unfamiliar with him.
because… … .
“What do you think so… … .”
“Ugh, it’s nothing. What have you decided to eat?”
“No, not yet.”
… …
So, Rubia laughs.
“Um, then… … Oh, there comes the tram. Let’s go for a ride! If you miss it, you have to catch the next one! I will be late!”
If only I could be with the person I love.
She will never lose her smile.
okay… … .
Always.