#35
“… … .”
“… … ”
There are days like that.
There are times when, without even a single drop of alcohol, I end up doing things I would never normally do with a clean sane mind.
Of course, it is mainly the atmosphere or the current that leads people to that direction, or the temperance of self-control is released at once for some reason. It’s probably not really sane, but anyway.
Could it be the case that the lock of the lock shattered and something hidden in it popped out?
Once a person makes a sudden jump, the person quickly becomes cool and calm. He completes the calculation very quickly in his head of how sudden his action was and what kind of repercussion it would have.
understand and despair
‘Mi, Mi, Mi, Crazy, Crazy… year… … !’
I don’t know what shape the corners of my lips should be. The scorching heat radiates from the back of the neck and face, covering the entire body.
On the other hand, the blood cools down. I can no longer maintain an oblique standing position and my legs are shaking.
‘Crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy… .’
What did I say now?
No matter how lonely I was, I needed comfort, and even though I was swept away by the atmosphere, there are things I should and shouldn’t say… … .
Yuri leaned her forehead against Ezio’s chest, and her head was dyed pure white, and soon she could not think of anything. He became a puppet who had lost his human intelligence and could not escape, but was just as hard as a piece of wood.
Suddenly, I felt an unprovoked laughter echoing from within. It was a desperate laugh.
‘… … Now I can never go back to the Frontier.’
How can you look at this guy’s face again after doing such a shameful act… ? If you are a person with a good reason, there’s no way that’s possible… … .
Yuri, who was on the verge of exploding in a shame comparable to a lethal amount rather than a joke, managed to replace that shame with anger and resentment.
I’ve made it this far
I showed myself the sincerity that I had never shown to anyone, but this guy who accepted it with a shaky reaction is bad.
It’s all this guy’s fault.
It’s wrong for this guy to look like his brother.
There was nothing wrong with him who wanted to be comforted by that hand, it was only the fault of this guy who caused it.
So, it is natural that the wrongdoer should compensate me. If you have given them a favor, it is only right that you should repay them with that kind of favor.
Yep, it’s all because of this guy. I didn’t rush. For example, those who use magic are not at fault. The person who was within the magic range was at fault… … .
Ezio, who was doubting his ears, thought in front of Yuri, who was gradually falling into a quagmire, accompanied by a twisted reward psychology and miraculous logic.
‘… Either way, the big deal is certain.’
Here, whether Yuri puts her hand on her head as she pleases or not, the ruin was already predestined.
The former will be embarrassed to see each other’s faces later. In particular, even if he is okay with it, it is clear that there will be an uproar on the glass side.
It doesn’t matter if Ezio leaves Frontier like this… … If not, well.
I decided not to think deeply. The reason why he was as perplexed as Yuri was because Ezio was the same.
The latter is a bigger problem.
Yuri will die of shame.
Just looking at the atmosphere in which he was speaking made me want to make a confession. If it’s a confession, is it a confession? It’s because you’re telling the person you thought you didn’t like him that he didn’t.
The first time I heard the sound, I went out of my mind and wrote the expression that it was creepy, but… … He thinks it’s his fault. I’m sorry for making you feel even more embarrassed.
More than anything.
-Head… stroking me
The fact that Yuri, who hated touching her own hair, and even hated it, had asked for it in the first place… It gave Ezio a very shocking sound.
Conversely, I think about it that way.
How I wished for a helping hand.
Or how hard it was.
Will this happen to me too?
Yuri tries to empathize with the overall feeling she is feeling right now. Again it didn’t go well. I can’t help it because it’s not me… .
If so, compare it to experience.
When I was lonely and struggling, I thought about wanting someone to comfort me a lot when I was in middle school, but unfortunately at that time, I was–
—You did a great job today, senior. You did it!
in loneliness…
─Sunbaenim is working so hard every day that I get tired of watching. You know I like that of a senior, right?
I’m so used to it…
─… … There are times when things don’t work out. Cheer up, old man. It’s not the old man’s fault. … … Ummm, if you’re having a hard time keeping your spirits up… will you touch me … … Of course it’s my ball. It might feel good because it’s soft?
I wouldn’t have needed any consolation… …
… …
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Does it come to mind here too?
… … It’s annoying, really.
It became more and more frequent. Let go of thoughts and erase the past. Then the gloomy area comes into view again. barely regains composure.
I look down at the little blond kid with his forehead resting on his chest. Yuri was shaking lightly like a prisoner awaiting execution.
Suck-
Ezio, who had been pondering whether there were any other options, finally raised a hand. The other hand was holding the umbrella’s handle.
OK.
“Hey, I’m just telling you just in case.”
“… … ?”
“Don’t get me wrong. This… … .”
chin-
“… … Huh?!”
“Why are you making excuses for so long? Okay, so let go of your body. It shows that you are too nervous.”
Yuri let out a small scream in the unknown feeling as Ezio’s hand touched her body. Then he turned his gaze to the side.
Ezio placed a hand on Yuri’s left shoulder. In that state, tap a few times as if to praise the hard work of his subordinates.
tak, tak-
“Good job.”
It’s the shoulder, not the head.
“What, what… … .”
I didn’t ask for it in the first place.
“… … .”
Still, if you feel that voice and warm pats, it seems that your heart, which was about to burst, gradually slows down.
widely… widely…
comfortable for some reason. The sound of rain pouring around makes the heart even more calm. Yuri closed her eyes without taking her forehead off.
How long has it been since you voluntarily allowed a man’s hand? The hate that had already become a habit or a habit had permeated every nook and cranny of Yuri’s body, so even when Ezio touched it, it paused for a moment.
But that’s it.
In an instant, the reluctance disappeared.
… … The shoulders aren’t bad, but if it was Yuri’s older brother in front of me, I might have been more pampered here.
Because I felt a little sad.
Still, what… … .
If it’s like this… … .
“ah… ?”
I inadvertently made a sound.
tup-
Suddenly, a feeling of weight was placed on the crown of the head. The hair pulled back was gently swept away. His meticulously crafted hands were large and wide enough to cover almost the entire crown of the glass.
The hand that had been stroking his shoulder suddenly rose above his head.
“… … 👌”
Yuri didn’t respond and just bit her lip. shrugged her shoulders.
I feel much more secure than I thought.
If I can’t bear it, I think I’ll cry unsightly.
Many memories crossed. It was difficult, it was happy, it was sad. If it was to be comforted, only difficult memories should come to mind, but scenes from one’s life were entangled in a jumble of emotions.
So, this mind cannot be defined.
Ezio’s strokes were a little different from the comfort and warmth he had received from Rubia.
A strange tickling and tingling sensation. A sensitive feeling, as if touching the heart directly with his hand, rose widely.
‘… You have to be patient.’
Just before the pain that filled her body from her toes to her head erupted, Yuri closed her eyes tighter and bit her lip. Even though no one told me not to cry, I held back my tears.
—I love you, my little brother.
There, I remembered the last meeting I had with Idel not long ago, and my throat was trembling.
… … Meanwhile.
‘It’s really strange, this.’
Yuri, who is not a cat who snarls and purrs when she touches her hand as usual, but becomes a calm puppy and accepts her touch, was a very dark scene from Ezio’s point of view. Maybe it will be stored in my memory… .
Ugh… Ugh…
At that point, Ezio thought.
Once again, I know that her hair is very small, and I know that Yuri’s hair, which she touched properly, boasts a hair that is not envy… … .
‘How long do you have to do this?’
I can’t easily find the time to release my hand.
I thought that I would vaguely shake my hand from the glass side, but even if I touched it for more than a minute, it breathes evenly and there is not even a slight movement.
shoot ah… …
Meanwhile, the rain got stronger.
There was no way of knowing when it was going to rain, or whether it was just a shower that would stop soon, but whether it was pouring steadily with the last of its strength.
My feet were scratching. Their shoes became cold.
at some point.
“I know you’ve seen me a lot with your brother.”
“… … ?”
“Honestly, I was quite surprised. It was only after seeing your face that I understood your reaction. by the way.”
swish.
“──!?”
“I am not your brother.”
Yuri opened her eyes and reflexively raised her hand to cover her head. To be precise, he was about to hit the hand that was placed on it.
“Mmm, what are you doing!”
And let out a short scream.
The hand that had been gently stroking him changed his posture and roughly messed up the top of Yuri, who had lost consciousness.
“You know this?”
If Ezio tried to rely on himself simply because he resembled Eidel, there was a possibility that it would be a slightly difficult future.
Because I don’t want to make you lose twice.
… … He confidently said he would never die, but no one knows what the future holds. Even Stella is unpredictable. Because he said he could never get a glimpse of Ezio’s future.
So you should know Eidel von Artina and Ezio Cranil are completely separate entities. Don’t let me think of it as a substitute for my brother.
Getting too close to the glass… … From the beginning, Ezio didn’t like it that much.
“You, you… … .”
“Now let’s really go back. wait guys If we can’t go back to the Empire within today, the professor will scold me.”
Has it already been thirty minutes? you may be worried It’s been raining for a while. I can’t even turn my back first because I’m holding an umbrella.
As a result, we have to go back together, but Ezio, who wanted to avoid awkward situations, chose to change the atmosphere in his own way.
“… … ha. okay. This is you.”
I brush my hair. properly messed up I tried to untie the headband again and tidy it up, but I thought it was done, so I just left it as it is.
Clap, tick-
It was raining and the sound of footsteps changed.
The two walked side by side under an umbrella.
“That’s right, Yuri.”
“What.”
“I don’t want to quit either. We will find a way to avoid that as much as possible.”
“… … .”
“I will think about how to come back to you at the same time, but… … So far, I don’t know either. I think it would be better for you to talk to your parents again.”
“… … okay. I’ll figure it out.”
Yuri answered with a droopy answer whether she had lost all her energy.
And finally.
“brother.”
I look back at the tombstone and say my final goodbyes.
“I’ll come again next time.”
“Me too. if there is a chance.”
Yuri raises her doubts at Ezio’s voice.
“Why are you coming… ?”
“I even attended the funeral, but that’s why I couldn’t come.”
“… … That’s right. Do whatever you feel like.”
A voice mixed with sighs spread through the mist of water.
Clap, tick… … .
Walk through Ezio’s side and exit the mausoleum.
… … Then, at one point, he suddenly noticed that Ezio’s right shoulder, who had been squinting, was slipping out of the umbrella.
It’s because the umbrella isn’t that big. Even Ezio, who is on the larger body, is barely writing. Although the space occupied by the glass was small, in the end, someone was bound to get a little bit of rain.
“… … Well?”
Ezio reacted to the sensation of a foreign body touching his left shoulder. One step closer, Yuri’s head was touching.
“What, all of a sudden.”
“… … .”
Yuri stretched out her hand without saying a word. Ezio gently pushed the handle of the umbrella he was holding to the right. Then, moderately and barely, the rain that was wet on Ezio’s shoulder weakened.
It was impossible to avoid completely, but… … .
Ezio, who hesitated for a moment, smiled.
“thank you.”
“What did you say.”
They went down the hill clinging to each other under the umbrella. Time was tight, so I walked a little faster.
#36
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Did you say you’ll be leaving soon?
Forty and five minutes.
“It’s late.”
“yes. It’s late.”
It wasn’t that Ezio was late, it was that they were late. Without hesitation, I stayed here for a day. If I don’t go back on time, the professor will scold me. They waited far away for Ezio.
He was waiting for Ezio at the main entrance on the first floor of the royal palace, refusing to guide Rubia and Stella, who were standing at a distance in the corridor, to the reception room, even refusing to guide them.
Shoot AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAah
“It’s raining like this… … Where did you go?”
“I do not know… … .”
at that time.
“… … uh? that… … .”
Rubia’s eyes widened slightly. Then, as I narrowed my eyes to take a closer look, I could see the two men under umbrellas walking in the distance across the garden.
“Hey, are you Ezio?”
It’s a familiar silhouette. That was Ezio.
next to it… … .
“… … glass?”
Yuri, who he thought was still with the king, was walking a little away from Ezio’s side. For fear of any misunderstanding, Ezio had no choice but to keep the rain on his shoulder as before.
At first it would have been
“Oh, well. You went to pick up Yuri… .”
“… … .”
“… … Rubia?”
Looking at Ezio and Yuri, who found themselves on the other side and bowed their heads slightly as if sorry for being late, Rubia blinked blankly.
for a long time