#5
Mu thought and pondered countless times.
How can I tell Ezio the truth? Actually, there is nothing to be deeply concerned about. it was just to say All he had to do was list everything he knew from one to ten.
So easy and simple.
Why can’t I do it?
I’ll have to make Ezio recover his lost memories. It’s impossible to live like that, forgetting everything. Then you don’t have to say
music,
You have to admit all the mistakes you’ve made.
straight away… … you have to vomit everything
He arbitrarily denigrated Ezio’s relentless efforts. cut down to the bottom. Digging deeper into the wounds that had already been etched deep in Ezio’s chest.
He demeaned Ezio, whom he truly loved, as if it were insignificant, and did evil. shouted He twisted his lips and sneered as if mockingly. He acted more selfishly. He presumptuously considered the love he gave because he wanted it as a right. I was hoping for an unreasonable answer.
At that time, he himself was a very disgusting and ugly person. It was truly comparable to an animal.
He hates Ezio who cheated on him on his birthday.
He didn’t even know what Ezio’s condition was at that time. Not knowing what happened to him… …
In front of Ezio, covered in dark red blood, who limped and walked a long way to keep his promise to the very end.
Mew inflicted an indelible wound on the person who was my lover for the rest of my life.
… I would have.
has been erased
He was the only one who remembered that moment.
Ezio had forgotten everything. I was still thinking of Meu well.
It’s very small, but at the same time I’m happy.
Wasn’t happy at all.
It is certainly good news that Ezio’s huge wounds have been completely erased. He’ll be less sick. But the truth is not hidden.
One day – I had to say.
What kind of abusive language did your lover throw at you, whom you love more than anyone else?
Although no provocative profanity was included, what a sharp dagger it was. Was it a nail? Was it a pointed awl? Besides, at the end of the day, didn’t he almost swear directly at Ezio?
I didn’t deserve to stand next to him again.
To be truly forgiven, Ezio had to forgive Mew while he remembered everything.
But that was far from being accomplished. Naturally, Ezio had forgotten everything.
Then there was only one way. Mu himself had no choice but to explain step-by-step to Ezio, the person in charge, about everything that happened that day.
What about the 10 hour wait? What a birthday worth celebrating. I didn’t need it all.
There was only one thing Mew had to elaborate on to explain to Ezio.
Because what the hell did you do wrong?
Are you crying so sadly?
A person who loves someone more passionately always becomes Eul, not A. Mew, despite such an important event, still loved Ezio unfathomably.
Seeing him still makes my heart flutter. Face to face makes you want to kiss without realizing it. I always wanted to show my pretty side, and I wanted to go to bed in the same bed. The beautiful girl in her prime still had feelings for the man she had once fell in love with.
To the person I loved so much- I had to put a cold dagger once more. I had to confess all my sins. certainly… you’ll get hurt Above all, you will be very disappointed with me. For Mew, all the future was just too terrifying and terrifying.
I didn’t want to hurt my loved ones, I didn’t want to be hated by my loved ones.
So,
I can’t tell you.
Still, Ezio tells him to speak.
right here, right now.
Mu couldn’t speak.
yet… I wasn’t ready for anything.
‘——Senior is really… … ‘
It’s garbage.
Nope. no… …
thinking like that… never did
stuck at the edge of the brink. tightly gripped wrists. instinctive retreat. Ezio gives you more power. couldn’t shake it off Then Ezio will get hurt.
So I had no choice but to ask. I’d rather beg. let me go not now I’ll tell you all about it later, so I asked him to let me go now, but in the end he didn’t listen.
“No, tell me. here now.”
From then on, Mew fell into an illusion.
The bloody senior who was panting for breath. The words he spit out in front of him who had become a wreck. I didn’t forget everything. Those horrific memories engraved in his brain swarmed like countless leeches and tightened Mew’s heart.
“Oh, no. really can’t I’m sorry, I’m sorry, Ezio.”
“Because tell me.”
no.
I can’t say… …
In an instant, my lungs were blocked and it was difficult to breathe. neck full. As the negative emotions that sprung up and stabbed in Mew’s head, tears flowed down like blood oozing from the puncture site.
“Sorry… Sorry, I was wrong. I, I was wrong… senior… … Let it go, please… … ”
“I told you I wasn’t your senior.”
“No, no… Senior, I was wrong… It’s my fault. Please, ah, I’m sorry. I mean, I didn’t mean to say that… Haha, sorry, sorry… senior… Sorry… … ”
“… … Why are you here?”
I know.
me, why am i doing this It shouldn’t be like this.
Your senior will look badly on you. You look crazy.
senior, senior
Ezio’s shadow stretches. One person appeared to be two. Little seniors and big seniors. It was soon merged into one.
‘… … I’m sorry, Mu.’
Bloody appearances overlap.
the harsh words that were uttered. After that, the old man suddenly disappeared. It’s like it’s all your fault. oh stop. stop it. The strength in my legs was released. sit down Horrible memories replayed vividly in Mew’s mind. The most recent thing comes to mind. Ezio with a large hole in his chest. That gentle voice whispered to me softly. I can’t hear it anymore.
Instead, another voice is heard.
The trauma of eating Mew has reached the point of creating illusions of things that did not originally exist.
The old man grabs my shoulder and shakes me. With a contorted face like a demon, he screams like a force. it’s all your fault that you made this
then… Mu had no choice but to apologize.
“Sorry… I’m sorry, old man… … ”
The thing that ruined all the future that could have been happy.
It was his own hand.
When he realizes again the fact he doesn’t want to admit, he panics at the fact that he has to speak with his own mouth every single thing that has happened. lumpy trapped
“… are you okay. It’s okay, calm down.”
“… … ha ha ha Sorry. senior. I… my, my fault… … ”
“it’s okay. Nothing will happen. everything is fine I promise. I’ll definitely protect it this time… … Calm down, Mu.”
It was such a time.
Mew is in the middle of the hell he created… … alone was alive
#6
They hugged and read for a long time.
It will be fine. Nothing will happen. It’s not your fault. you did nothing wrong I repeated it like a command. Like a baby bird that fell from a tree branch, I wrapped the atrophied Mu in my arms, and continued to calm it down until the misaligned heartbeats of each other gradually became equal.
Tock, tock.
As if it had worked, Mew’s crying had also ceased.
Only intermittent breathing vomits out of my chest.
‘… … I was surprised, really.’
I don’t know what you’re doing wrong though.
If you groan so loudly, and if you feel sorry for me to death, then maybe it’s okay to forgive me.
No matter how badly I made a mistake, it was hard to see the Mew in my memory, who called me a senior, broken in this way anymore.
Still, for no reason, he’s not like this.
There must have been something between us.
But I don’t know that.
People are in so much pain. enough to make a match. A sane person would not have put more pressure on Mew here.
‘I can’t help it… ‘
We’ll have to postpone the conversation until later.
This time it was my mistake.
The opportunity wasn’t the only one today. If something needs mental preparation, it would be right to wait until then. I decided not to push it any further.
It would be nice to solve it as soon as possible, but we still have a lot of time left. We’ll keep seeing each other unless someone intentionally takes them apart.
It seemed that he was too hasty in his desire to recover the memories that had been emptied here and there. This is because, if you listened to Mew separately, most of the things you forgot could be found out.
But soon it became difficult.
I’m afraid of Mew talking to me like this, so I’ll have no choice but to forget about my lost memories – or find another way.
It’s another way… …
who knows
No, it’s not like someone’s talking to you.
Just a way to completely restore my memory.
Surely it must be somewhere
at that time.
I remembered something from a while ago.
— Are you Ezio Cranil? That Elena-sama had a fight with a whistle in District 4! Hey, I didn’t know we’d be in the same group!
‘… … Elena-senpai.’
Rumors from all over.
To summarize the exact facts, it is certain that Elena Crymore was there. our senior. The protagonist of the southern demonic expedition… …
I don’t know on what basis she thinks so, but I wondered if she, who was at the scene at the time, would know something about my condition. just vaguely guessing. I wasn’t sure.
Even so.
Elena is not in a position where I can meet right away just because I want to meet her… … What do we do.
Come to think of it, in the aftermath of the District 4 incident, did you tell each Frontier faculty that a meeting with Elena was scheduled?
Then, until it was all over, Elena would at least remain inside the Frontier.
The opportunity was unexpectedly close.
Not a bad idea. If I could get advice on my situation even if I couldn’t find a way, it would be a great harvest. Because Elena was a senior and a strong adult. Do I have to say that just looking at something gives me a will? It feels like that.
While I was in trouble for a while.
I felt Mew’s heartbeat, which seemed to have managed to stabilize, to accelerate at some point.
… … what.
But my body didn’t tremble like before. Rather, it seemed to be stiff. I thought it might have started again, so I gently wiped Mew’s back.
“It’s okay, Mu. now… … ”
“… it’s okay.”
“Yeah, okay… … ?”
It was a very small voice, like a whisper.
I did not speak, but interrupted in the middle.
“… Nana. It’s okay.”
That seems to be the case.
A little while after I hugged Mew, Mew’s arms, which had been hanging on the floor, went up and wrapped around my back.
It was like they were hugging each other.
Mew’s hand was still on my back, but the hand holding the cardigan I was wearing showed no sign of letting go.
I asked carefully.
“… … really?”
“… … yes.”
A small answer came back.
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Did reason come back? I’m glad.
I was sincerely relieved.
Honestly a little… I was scared. I was frustrated too.
“Then put this aside… … ”
“… … no.”
Kwok.
Mew’s hand gripped the hem of my robe.
Mew’s body wasn’t that small. In terms of height, he is about 164 cm. The last time you gave me the exact number was around a year ago, so I guess it’s a little bigger now. I do not know. Outwardly, little has changed. Anyway, it was a little longer than average.
Yet it was so small. For me.
It was completely embraced by me, and I could barely hear the sound of my heart beating from it.
It was running like it was going to explode. My overlapping heart started beating faster at the same time. I was sweating profusely, so the body odor of Mew, which felt more intense, made my mood unusually mysterious.
“It would be better to go in and rest… ”
“… no.”
“… why?”
“… … I can’t see your face.”
“… … ”
“… … I’m embarrassed… ”
And then, he gave me more strength.
I couldn’t find anything else to say.
As I keep my mouth shut, Mew whispers.
“… … I’m sorry for making you look weird.”
“… … no, what Things like that happen, too.”
As you go through life, things like this happen.
I spoke softly.
“I didn’t think it was weird at all. I was worried. I know how you’re going to end up like this. If it’s okay now, that’s it.”
“… … ”
“For the time being… I won’t ask anything. when you feel comfortable You can tell me when you want. and… I still don’t know why you’re doing this to me. The contents of the letter I wrote to you… … I don’t remember anything. I’m really sorry if it was important. I can’t remember.”
“… Ezio will not be sorry.”
Mew’s hair, tied in a ponytail, swayed from side to side. Mew buried his face deeper in my chest.
“I should be sorry… … It’s me.”
“… … ”
At the voice of Mew who muttered as if to help himself.
I put my hand on the back of Mew’s head without saying a word, as if it wasn’t so.
A small body that trembled momentarily. Surprisingly, it wasn’t the first time. He moved his hand carefully as if he had brushed her back.
how long have you been
Mu whispered.
“… Ezio.”
“yes.”
“… You better not treat me kindly.”
“… … What are you talking about?”
when i ask
Mu quietly blurs the end of his speech.
“If you keep going… … ”
Kwok.
“I’m getting sicker… … ”
“… … ”
I asked what you mean.
I didn’t want to hear an answer.
You can feel it without saying it.
Mew wanted me now. It was an attitude that was completely opposite to his saying not to treat him kindly.
He hugged me tighter and gave his body completely to me. Then I did not do what Mew said, and just opened my mouth softly.
“… it can hurt I am by your side.”
I want to say something to someone who is sick because of me.
Ironically enough – that’s why it was a problem that only I could solve.
Mu didn’t answer for a while.
“Because you don’t… … ”
He murmured like that as if resenting me.
Even harder, he grabbed the hem of my robe.
#6
Mew returned to the dormitory.
He said he couldn’t show me his messed up face, so he put on a training jacket that almost covered his nose. Then, after taking the scabbard that fell on the ground, he left the 3rd building as if he was running away.
‘… I’m kinda tired.’
Is it a temporary solution? …
We will continue to monitor Mu’s status for the time being.
When he came to find Hector, something unexpected happened. In the end, the intended purpose of coming here was not achieved. what to do The time we promised with Gabriel is coming to an end soon. is it just cool Not Hector, of course, but Gabriel.
I looked back at the door where Mew had left.
It was a time when he had to go to the dormitory where Hector was living.
“Ahhh.”
“… … ?”
There was a pop of fame right behind him.
Without noticing it at all, it suddenly occupied my back. A goose that rose in an instant ran down my spine, and I looked back in surprise.
“It smells. Smell. Are you completely drained?ご, I’m a lot stronger than usual. Can’t I give you this? yes?”
He sighed and took a step back.
“… … you, what are you?”
“What? Sasha. What not!”
Since when have you been here?
Sasha, with both hands on her waist, exclaimed proudly.
why are you here
“No, uh. okay. Sasha. What’s happen?”
“Uh… That’s it-.”
Sasha, who was extending her tongue, lifted her claws and spun around in place. The azure twintails flutter in a circle like a pinwheel.
“Sasha actually saw everything. Did you still notice? Just recklessly, huh? didn’t you bother? Did you do well?”
I laughed out loud, but at some point stopped spinning. It was not dizzy, it was constantly flapping next to me, making my ears noisy.
A cousin whom I had never seen in my life suddenly overlapped with Sasha’s appearance. Really, every time I try, every word I say ‘why-?’ He was a terrible guy who tormented me by adding a question… …
For a moment, there was a moment of dizziness.
Realizing what Sasha was talking about, I walked past Sasha with a nonchalant face and opened my mouth.
“… It has nothing to do with you.”
“not really? Are you completely related? Is it something like that with my friend? Am I an adult unlike Sasha? Fuck! I’m embarrassed!”
Place your hands on both cheeks and twist your body.
There were no words in the very exaggerated reaction. No, I couldn’t find a way to respond. It wasn’t like that anymore, but that’s how it was.
I was momentarily speechless, so I paused for a moment, and then I started to think about how to get out of a difficult situation when a friend who was so annoying that I didn’t want to get involved in it.
“Hey there, what happened? Let Sasha know too. I’m curious. By the way, if the two of you are close-”
“Well, it has nothing to do with you.”
“… … ”
Sasha puffed up her cheeks at my callous words.
“… … forgive me be courteous Sasha wants to get to know Mew too. Why is it that only you and not Sasha get to know each other first? It’s not fair, darling-.”
That’s right aa
I walked down the hallway listening with one ear and drooling with the other.
Then at some point
Sasha, who was hopping next to me, stopped and staggered as she clasped the hem of my cardigan with her hand. Immediately after, he murmured in a voice that suddenly became somber.
“Yeah, I also have to apologize to Mew… … Mew didn’t talk to me at all.”
“… … ”
Suddenly, Sasha’s eyes lit up.
It didn’t seem like he was lying, so I naturally had to be interested in that statement.
Well, maybe it’s natural, but maybe Sasha made a mistake while constantly messing around with Mew. But even so, he at least showed his sincere desire to become friends with Mew.
I don’t have time here.
I was just about to hear what was going on.
—Weeing…
As we passed the hallway, the elevator door in front of us opened.
“… … uh.”
Inside, the person I was looking for appeared.