#14
My shoulders trembled.
I never asked Elena anything first. It wasn’t the situation or the situation, so it was because I wasn’t sure yet.
But Elena asked, as if she had read my mind. I was perplexed, but Elena wasn’t. Just staring at me without any agitation.
“… Did you know?”
“I don’t know anymore.”
In the first place, I never said that I had lost my memory. I wondered how he knew it, but if it was Elena, I naturally understood that it would be easy to find out the records of a specific patient during hospitalization.
“You will have a lot of questions. How was your condition last Saturday night? why did you lose your memory What exactly is the cause of the loss of memory? Most of all, when you lose, you lose, so why is it that it’s not a huge lump and only a part of it flies away.”
“… … You seem to know quite a bit.”
About the cross-section of the frustratingly broken memory, I did not disclose it to anyone except for Mew and Rubia.
What about Elena? Nodding your head with a
“Yeah, it’s written like that on your forehead. I don’t know who did it, but I painted it finely with black ink.”
“… … Yes?”
“Guray. I thought it was a bit of an asshole, but what else do you take seriously? This is a strange one.”
He giggles as he sees me gently putting his hand on my forehead.
“It was just a guess. But it looks like it was right. Of course, it wasn’t a baseless guess at all, and there were similar cases. Because that’s not what’s important to you right now.”
There didn’t seem to be much more to be said there.
“So, what is the answer?”
“… … ”
In the thick smoke, Elena’s face is blurred.
After talking for a while, I slowly opened my mouth.
“… … Of course, I want to get it back.”
“I will.”
It was a short word.
“If I were normal now, I would have known step by step even where you came from… … It’s a little hard now. It’s good that you don’t get hurt even if you smoke a cigarette, but you don’t collapse from overwork. head hurts Do you know how many hours I’ve been awake, junior?”
“It’s me, I don’t know… ?”
“It is three days. three days. It’s being added in real time from there right now. At times like this, I just have to sleep, but I can’t sleep because I use too much eye color. damn, damn annoying you grow up on time ‘Cause it’s when you’re growing up I think it would be creepy if it was bigger there. uh.”
thud. Elena slammed her forehead onto the table as if she had collapsed. Then he shakes his head. It seems like he was trying to calm himself down. His forehead was wide open with a frown on his face.
“… Anyway, originally, there should have been a friendly question-and-answer session between seniors and juniors, I mean. However, since the situation is the situation, I don’t think it’s going to work at all after doing something on my side. I’ll prove your innocence on my own, so from now on, just tell me what you’re curious about. It’s hard to say twice, so open your ears and listen carefully. Junior.”
gulp. I nodded and swallowed my saliva.
Elena raised a finger.
“First, let me tell you about what happened on Saturday, you were attacked by the devil. It was that bastard demon.”
“… … ! Ma, are you a demon?”
A fact I didn’t know at all.
“okay. Hey. It’s a secret that should never be leaked outside of Frontier, but you’ll know all about it anyway. But, if you go anywhere recklessly, it’s okay. You’re not beating you, I’m going to kill you in Frontier. Of course, before that, I will use my hands first.”
Write, woo… … I exhaled smoke.
Elena tilted her head crookedly.
“… … Well, that’s right. Nadielli Harlennia. His real name is Eligos. One of the Great Demons banished from the borders.”
“Great, great devil… … ?”
“OK. For quite some time, he disguised himself as a human and built his reputation as a scholar. Judging from his past, he must have been a little bastard who could use his brain, but in the end, he was overzealous and committed suicide by this incident. In the process of attacking you, I touched a very bad part. It is a very fatal trigger for both you and that child.”
“… … I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“It means that you detonated a time bomb that would have been quietly safe for a long time if no one touched it with your fist and detonated it so hard. There are no sick people.”
“… … ”
I could barely understand it.
“Are you saying there was a bomb inside me?”
“It’s not just a bomb. It is a large bomb that can be ridiculed and erased from a city. It would never have been something to be taken lightly. I wonder how greedy I was… … ”
Elena said, shaking her head.
“Anyway, that’s how the devil child was born, and you were, in effect, crazy. As a result, he lost his senses and became a monster running wild. Oh, of course, there are no casualties from you, so rest assured.”
you became a monster My eyes trembled at the unbelievable sound I heard, and Elena reassured me by saying that.
“Well, actually, you should have died there. It should have been seen that it was almost impossible to return to the original state. But it’s weird. You are here talking to me in a good state, and there is only one problem if there is one. There was a hole in the head.”
Elena was about to say something more in the middle. I didn’t mean to ask what it was. It was because the information that came into my head right now was quite dizzying.
“You must have lost your memory as a result of the incident. Most of the things that were a very big part of what you are today are probably gone. Of course there are other things as well. So, there will be a huge difference between the you before you lost your memories and the you now, even if you don’t know it from the outside. The difference probably won’t close forever if you ever hear someone tell you about your lost memories.”
“… … Why are you?”
“It’s because your memories aren’t the only thing you’ve lost.”
Elena smokes a cigarette and continues the conversation.
“… No, is it absurd to say that I lost it? You never lost your memory. I just can’t remember. I threw it down into the abyss deep underground so that no one could touch it.”
Whoa – gray smoke comes out again.
“There is a problem there.”
Elena said, narrowing her eyebrows.
“They say that if they are buried too deep and they are pulled up later, they will be salvaged just like the ones that were originally there. It’s a very shitty situation. So the risk of getting your memory back has increased considerably.”
I put on a pitiful look. What do you mean?
Elena scratched her head, and raised her finger that was tapping on the table to indicate the number.
“Simply put, the memories you lost due to this incident are primary memories, and those that are deeper than that are secondary memories.”
“uh… … ”
“If you don’t know, just listen. It will be easy for you to explain.”
He quietly shook his head.
after a while.
“It may be difficult to tell what you have lost and what you remember, but even before you lose your memory this time, there will be quite a few memories that you forgot from the beginning. … Well, I presume it’s probably the memory of when all your heads and your body were completely destroyed. memories after that. It’s not a guess, but I’m almost certain. Anyway.”
“… … !”
“Don’t look so surprised. Whatever it was in the past, wouldn’t it be nice to look good now?”
How far do you know? got a little scared It felt like a surprise attack from an unexpected place. However, Elena calmly opened her mouth as if she didn’t really care.
“Anyway, let’s call it the second-level seal, and the memories you lost due to this incident are called the first-level seal. Until last Saturday, you had only been sealed in the second stage. That’s the time bomb I was talking about earlier. In other words, the moment even the second stage seal is lifted, you become a monster.”
“… … ”
“As you are now, you can never know once, but never twice. Then there is only true complete death. When that time comes, I will have to deal with it myself.”
“… … ”
“I will make sure that never happens, so make an impression. Still, if the dirty dream spot gets wilder, I think I’ll be more filthy.”
As if she was getting tired of talking slowly, Elena quivered for a moment. I tried coughing a few times as if trying to clear my throat, but to no avail. He gully inhales the bottle of water lying on the table, lying horizontally, roughly stealing the glistening lips with the back of his hand, and then continues.
“… In the place where the second-stage seal was, the first-stage seal sat deep and merged. So, it sounds like you’ve come to a very f*cking dilemma that you have to unlock the second-level seal together in order to recover the memories you’ve lost. In this case, it got really difficult. If I accidentally sprain one of my hands, I will have to kill my juniors with my own hands right away.”
Elena said she wouldn’t say it twice. I listen to the story and concentrate, but there is a fairly bloody sound coming and going.
Elena’s sad golden eyes were looking straight at me. There seemed to be a hint of pity permeating a little.
“It’s not just that. Even if you somehow manage to get past the second stage without breaking the seal, you probably won’t be in a very good state with the memories you lost. In my opinion, it might be better to forget about it for the rest of your life. Having all the painful memories come back to life is not something I’m very happy with from an experience I’ve already experienced.”
that… …
I promise
I cautiously spoke out.
“… … Still, I think we need to get it back.”
“Hmm. I knew you would say that.”
Elena stares at me.
“… It’s not just the memories coming back. By reclaiming your messed up memories, your broken personality is also restored to its original state.”
“… … Is it enough to even say that it is broken?”
“Yeah, kid. It looks fine on the outside, but on the inside it’s like a living corpse.”
There was a roar of laughter, then stopped for a moment.
“Are you still seventeen?”
“… … Yes.”
“You are young, you are young. When you need to be in the midst of being in the middle of nowhere, do you have to be alone in the midst of all the winds and waves of the world?”
“… … ”
“What did you think when I first saw you at the entrance ceremony? just, just pitiful From my point of view, there are a lot of pitiful bastards in your class, and out of all of them, this is the one I feel most sorry for. know?”
“… … ”
“Apart from what kind of life you have lived, there are quite a few elements that I sympathize with you. this poor fellow So, I want to take better care of you. … Kellogg, Kellogg.”
Once again, he pours the bottle of water into his throat, emptied it down to a drop of water, and roughly throws it on the floor. tongue-.
“Fuck, I’m going to die. sore throat I’m going to learn the whole tone from Pak Pak. I’m so sorry all of a sudden… … ”
Elena lowers her head. thud-. Her forehead touched the table. A voice comes out as if muttering quietly.
“Let me ask you one thing. What are you going to do to find the bad memories?”
“that… … ”
I blurted out my words.
Elena, who was spread out on the table, gently raised her head, looking up at me with fierce eyes, and her lips twitched.
“Is it because of him?”
“… … ?”
I tilted my head.
is it him
“She’s my ex-girlfriend or something. number 1.”
“?”
no… …
How did you really know this?